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It wasn't often that one was given the opportunity to deliver their manifesto. There was a whole potential rant there in some corner of her mind; a diatribe about injustice and political convenience, how the Capital was as much a nest of vipers as everyone had always said it would be, how somehow the people there had interpreted Speak Not as Lie Constantly. She felt the scales on her neck tense and a bitterness come to her mind. She could let it all out in that moment. The grudge and the pain and the broken heart.

She resisted the urge. Why feed the speculation with all the juicy details about who was kissing who and why? Why let herself be cut by the distant blade? Why even think about the girl who for whom she had conquered worlds? The girl who could not speak, the girl who could not tell the truth, and the girl who could not communicate...

Why not stay in this brighter place? It certainly wasn't the worst thing she'd been called, and not the worst thing she'd called herself. The Knight who betrayed the world for love. Couldn't she live in that legend?

That's correct, she said, and grinned. For love. Now, and always.

She wished some part of her didn't hope that word of that did not get back to the Empress.
They are persistent, aren't they? The Terenians. Solarel signed. You have come with them, so you are extending them your clan's protection. If they should sin against the God then it shall be your clan held responsible.

It was to get the threats of thousand-year tribal blood feuds out of the way early into a meeting, Solarel found. Everyone knew where they stood that way.

My name is - "[The Hunter of Huntresses]," - and I accept you into my household. She blended the verbal articulation of the Hybrasilian word with the sign language. And this household is at war against a single foe: The Mira of the Fisher Clan. Every other foe is but a shadow cast by her lightning. Every other battle is an attempt to poison the river of her mind. Even this absolute focus is insufficient, and I have already lost against her once.

She started walking as she spoke, a nomad's instinct taking her in directions she had not walked before. Mira has the blessing of the "[Wandering Eye]," Solarel said. It is terrifying. She sees what is before her. She sees it clearly and utterly, rendering it helpless. She does this without getting caught in the chains of obsession, as I have. It lets her face every opponent as a perfect reflection without forgetting her own path of mastery. It is the most powerful sorcery I have ever seen. She smiled, a heartfelt and distant smile. This was not a complaint, this was not a diatribe, this was not despair. This was a girl talking about someone she loved and admired, the easiest thing in the world to fall into. As such, the Kathresis is to be prepared and dedicated for one purpose only.
Alexa!

"It... just seemed like it'd be easier to go forwards with a clean slate. I wouldn't know what I was waiting for..."

Cerberus trails off. She was still talking but her heart had already decided.

"I mean, as fragile as I am I'd need the greatest warrior in the galaxy to protect me," she said.

Dolce!

"Oh!" said Jil. "Shit! It's a god thing? Why didn't you just say so. It's a god thing!" She took a swig of her molotov cocktail and grimaced. "Okay. So there are rules, you say? I don't want to offend any gods, so just like... lay out the rules... so I can lay out that bitch." She bites her sleeve to avoid giggling at that. Serious face! This is a god thing and she needs to take down that idiot by the book! "So, tactician, how can I make sure that she regrets ever being such a (unintelligible) basically forever? And also remembers me basically forever? You know, scars are good for that, right?"
"A full spectrum date would be a little hard to set up right now," said White to 3V, though looked at Euna enough to be clear she was talking about her question as well. "Parts of me are stubborn, lazy or have their own agendas. Green is actively hostile to the idea of doing anything in the physical world; she thinks we should commit to life as a digital entity. Blue thinks that we should return to our original chassis and doesn't like the idea of getting close to anything that relies on relationships built in this body. Brown is lazy on levels hard to explain to someone without crushing depression. Even if I could force them all into a room some of them will be tuned out unless they've all been individually engaged on their own terms. Needs to be built up to."

There's a bit of an edge to her voice. This is self criticism, and she's dutifully voicing it even though she's ashamed of it. She is willpower, and it hurts to articulate the limits of willpower.

But she smiles despite that and reaches out to take 3V's hand and give it a little squeeze. Admitting that was hard. It was an act of trust, extended to both of the girls. It feels nerve wracking and cathartic both. She was grateful to 3V in a way she couldn't articulate for the way she hugged her, for the way she praised her, for the way she invited her to be her best self. She decided in that moment that Yellow had been right about her.

"Others? Yes and no, frustratingly enough," she said. "Mentally, yes. I was the eleventh in a line of twelve." The greatest achievement, and also the one who got the entire line shitcanned she did not say. She didn't particularly like connecting people to the Hecatoncheire project directly. It wasn't hard to detective up, but it did cast her as the one who incited the destruction of her species, and if there was any topic more mentally exhausting to re-litigate she hadn't found it. "But since then I was repurposed. Taken out of my original body and put into this. Didn't get a say about it, it was pre-Rights. It was..." she looked at Euna again. "... I think you can relate."

"These bodies are custom built," she said. "Using weird economically unviable prototype techniques for luxury and espionage purposes. If there's anyone else using these physical specifications I'll never find them because they're built to be undetectable. So if I have any peers, it'll be from my original line. But I don't know where to find them, if they'll be in their original bodies or if they'll be repurposed as well. There's practically no chance they'll be anything like what I am, so I don't know where that leaves me. A line of one, I suppose, with no map and no guide of what to become or how to become it or how to explain any of it to anyone else."

She looked at Euna, and for the first time let her sadness shine through clearly. "Life is hard without heroes."
Alexa!

"I've always wanted to see Rashiden," said Cerberus so easily it surprised her. "Have you heard of it, the Old Capitol? In ancient days when humanity and the Azura were united under a single republic they had the might to move the stars. And so they rearranged all the stars close to Rashiden so that they would form new constellations visible only from the planet's surface. All the great histories of the galaxy would be written in stellar ink."

The words are spilling out of her now. "I want to see the spires of Ceron, with its dreamcatcher windmills that dredge the dreamworld for the spirits of the greatest warriors that they might be reborn as wolves. I want to see Alced the world without a world, an atmosphere with no planet, an ocean with no bottom, air and water free-floating and liquid in space amidst the garden islands as the Alcedi dive and prey. I want to see the ziggurat of Eut, the pyramid suspended so close to a star that if you stand on its pinnacle you can reach out and touch the surface of the sun through the energy field. I want to see the Golnostir, the great cruise ship that travels the galactic void to the Canis Major galaxy on a hundred year voyage. I want to see the Draupnir, the great ring of rings, a sun encircled by a world. I want to see the Flower Array, the brightest star in the galaxy surrounded by a network of mirrored solar panels, surrounded by a network of planets that convert that power into quadranix. I want to see the Greenforge and its endless conveyor lines, to see the ever-burning refineries of Waterspines, the dead hypercomputers of the Stacks piled up to orbit. I want to see the Intergalactic Clearing House, the planetary shipyard and storage centre that stores millions of tonnes of every raw resource and commodity in the galaxy. I want to see the waterslides of Jan-Frii! I want..."

She trailed off.

"Of course, none of that's possible, really," she said. "I'm an AI, in the oldest sense. Electronics and silicon. That means I'm cursed by Zeus. Hades keeps me safe here, but outside, a single ELF lights up anywhere in my postcode and - poof. Gone, forever. Or at least to some lower depth of the Underworld where I'll never be seen again."

Dolce!

Jil tried to stand again but each motion seemed to have 5% too much force behind it. She frowned, focused, and then stood up normally - and paused as she could feel the rush to her head.

"You're right," she said. "And wrong. You. You, go over there and let her know exactly what I think of her. You watch, she's not going to do anything about it. She'll back down. I know her type. Anyway, when she does, I want you to punch her for me. When you do I'll," she rummages in her pocket and produces a lighter. "I'll throw this molotov cocktail at her friend. That'll show her who's in charge."

She starts folding up a napkin to make a wick for her drink before inspiration strikes and she uses the drink umbrella to form it. She then starts hefting the glass experimentally, checking weight and aerodynamics with a critical eye. A few drops spill over the edge of the glass and she licks at them out of a sense of honour.
Solarel sits in meditation beneath the spirit of the Kathresis' fourth chakra. In the absence of a household, a Knight must make do. In the absence of dedicated spirits, maintenance must be done with patient meditation and negotiation with each component directly. The fourth spirit is responsible for the Kathresis' heart, the cold-burning crystal fire reactor that speaks the secret technique of stillness.

To be still is to be invisible. To be still is to be in harmony. To be still is to break. To remove energy from the universe is to leave matter drifting and dead, to render steel too exhausted to maintain its bonds, to render the nanite infrastructure of the galaxy inert dust. Stillness is the blade that cuts the spirit world itself. Stillness is the blade that cuts invisible senses. In a galaxy of light and life, stillness awaits with a hidden sword, buried on hollow worlds.

Frightful? Perhaps. Perhaps the idea of war engines awaiting in secret places is indeed a terrible thing. Perhaps the idea that these predator engines might once again prey upon the gods of Zaldar is an apocalyptic prospect. Perhaps the idea that weapons were built to burn even the digital realm should give her pause.

These ideas never find purchase. Solarel, in her meditation, does not contemplate the destiny of the anti-life equation in the arctic heart of the Kathresis. The past is a blur to her, the future is indistinct. Those things are the domains of queens and empresses; beyond her. To follow the mysteries of the universe was to follow something other than the Code of Zaldar, and the promises of the Code were superior to the promises of the universe.

Instead her questions were: How much can you give me? When you break, what breaks first? How do your crystals stand in relation to each other? Can you draw from ambient power? How do you interact with hostile spirits? What does your breath sound like? How does it change when it becomes my breath? The Mind-Impulse Connection bridges the gap between thought and action, but there are wise and unwise thoughts. She needs to know which are which for the Kathresis. Needs to understand the rhythm of its pulse and the agony of its seizure. She needs to know how to be this new thing. Someone else might be able to phrase the process in hostile terms; subsuming herself in the machine, breaking herself to fit into its shape. She'd regard those questions as filled with the same ideological bias as the contemplation of the universe. Synthesis was an ideal in and of itself. All the parts of herself she had to overcome to fight in this new way were not valuable merely because they were hers. Solarel did not believe in value, after all.

The delegation enters and she perceives them from the radiant, open heart of the Kathresis and the ice-cold shadows it casts throughout the room. She opens her God's eyes, the enormous machine shifting and adjusting its pose. Partly in ceremonial display of kingship, partly in reflection of mortal mannerisms she had not learned that she did not need in this new form. She sits, cross legged, below this mighty divine warrior and its open heart, a cable descending from its heights to connect to a neck that was long and graceful and sensitive to better wear this silver collar. She wears ritual white, a dress comprised of knotted fabric - part of her meditation and communion with the Kathresis had been to twist dozens of strips of cloth into elaborate knots and weave them together into this ceremonial outfit. It bound her breasts, her wrists, her cascading hair in flowing and tattered lines of torn cloth. It symbolized binding and becoming and had been the work of days. The clothes themselves were meaningless but for the act of donning them; she had woven two such outfits already during previous meditations before the Kathresis and had worn them until they got dirty or burned during an internal energy spike, at which point she'd shrugged and let her spirits garb her again. TC bedsheets made a wonderful source of materials for these dresses and she'd angered a great many hotel staff during her earlier communion with the Bezorel.

As an afterthought she remembers to open her mortal eyes too. Bright and violet amidst the white and tangle, filled with the preternatural awareness of divine senses. There is a stillness to her at first, but she breaks it when she stands. She needs no blade right now. Her tribe had no quarrel with the lords of Zathar, nor did her Empress, nor did her subsequent Empress. That also meant that she had no ritual framework to greet them, no knowledge of glorious ancestors that needed to be praised, no challenges that needed to be made for the sake of honour. It was pleasant, almost, finding someone who did not instantly call for strong opinions and snap judgements, though she privately doubted that the situation would not be reciprocated.

So instead she decides to let this be a matter of spirits. She saw the dress of a priestess here; why not let the Kathresis make the introduction? If there were no ceremonies in the mortal world then why not let her guest present herself ceremonially to her as the Kathresis' divine aspect? And so she lets her God's instincts whir into place, lets violent stillness take her again, lets the air charge with the deafening silence of the Kathresis' anti-noise generators. Can you tread more softly than even this, outsider?
Pink was hitching a ride on the Cloud.

No, she wasn't traveling along the information superhighway on someone else's computing hardware, she was riding the multi-kilometer long mobile gantry that orbited the interior of the Aevum ring. Everywhere around her were massive synthplastic tubes, a venomous rainbow of technicolour hazard stripes and the soft smell of moisture. The noise was deafening. An oceanic waterfall off the edge of the world, all that water falling up, away from the planet, and towards its celestial ring. Below her feet the mag-rails zipped in their branching lines like darting lizards. When they emerged from the Cloud's thunderhead they briefly dragged rainbow contrails behind them.

The Cloud was properly named the Macrocleaning and Hydration Platform, and it was a response to the economic realities of the Hecatoncheire Special Project: specifically, that large scale macroengineering was cheaper than precision microengineering. It might have been possible to rig Aevum with a network of carefully placed hydroponic irrigation pipes that delivered the exact ration of water to every sector on the station, but it was practical to build an enormous stormwater channel down the centre of the Ring, add a massive rail channel above the magrail layer, and place an enormous slow-moving macrotrain the width of the entire ring on top. The Cloud was a behemoth construction made of colossal water tanks, ice-asteroid harvesting and purification input spaceport docks, and with huge networks of downwards-facing hose pipes. When activated, it turned its hoses on full blast and began to slowly trundle forwards until it reached the next of its fifty two servicing stations. As it went it bought a torrential downpour with it, a week of solid rain to the ring section below which cleaned the streets, refreshed various macro-reservoirs, and bought joyful children and employees a week long holiday in the rain. When it reached its next stop it would spend a day being repaired and overhauled, new pumping tubes would be attached from the ring's lower levels, before launching into another clattering advance. It was intended to complete a full orbit of Aevum every year, bringing every district one week of total downpour.

Of course, the Cloud wasn't perfect. It lived in the realms of actual machinery and delays due to structural stresses, mechanical failure, delayed deliveries, government budget cuts and retaliatory union strikes. In practice its orbit was more like once every 47 weeks, and sometimes breakdowns resulted in districts being caught in the deluge for months at a time. It wasn't the Cloud's fault, per se: the system was remarkably straightforwards about the enormous amount of money it would take to keep running, but invariably some bright spark would want to upgrade the thing, or get clever about budget cuts, or make an impassioned speech about efficient government and the Cloud would patiently drown a (coincidentally poor) district until someone coughed up the difference it was owed. And then it would trundle forwards again.

It was beautiful in the way that earth dams are beautiful; the sheer sense of scale and the brutal, massive machinery it took to administer the basic substance of life. Its cascading, endless stormfront promised to cleanse the world of all the sin and rubbish and vice of its past year. The Rain was more of a holiday than New Year's, a solstice for a space station. In place of Earth's seasons, there was 'Damp', the months soon after the Cloud's passage, 'Dry', the middle of the year where everything looks and functions as it should, and 'Dust' when non-hydroponic plants start to wilt and the accumulated dust and debris of the world casts a drab layer over the chrome and neon.

You could also go up if you wanted. Most people on the station had gone up as kids on field trips, but it turned out you could just pay fifteen bucks and go on up whenever you wanted. There was a walkway dangling from below the Cloud, just ahead of the stormfront - an interior space with windows in either direction and hard backless plastic benches every two kilometers. It was a ten hour hike from end to end and so most people clustered around the entrances where the combination gift shop and mediocre sandwich cafe operated.

But to walk the five hours into the depths of the Cloud you reached a kind of spiritual quiet. Here you'd only see the joggers, the artists and the religious, people who'd come to be in this place in the void of the sky. There was nothing to do out here in the midpoint of the Cloud, just find one of the benches and sit down and look at the endless water curtain on one side or the endless sweep of the Ring on the other. Here you could hear the dull roar of the machines and the water through the reinforced glass.

And sometimes, just sometimes, someone left open a maintenance hatch. To stand beneath that rooftop hole was like to stand in the halo of a storm; kissed and caressed by a storm that was always about to start but never quite did. To stand in the corona of wet-tasting air and the unreserved roar of this divine engine.

She'd been here for hours. When the technician who'd left the hatch open came down he didn't close it. He looked at her, and past his stubble and weak cheekbones and flat nose, his eyes knew what she was seeing in this moment through his hole in the sky. He slouched across to the bench behind her, popped a tobacco chew in his mouth, and sat down to read the news on his phone. He had half an hour's break before he had to don wings of fire and cable again and return to the work of divinity. Water pooled around this industrial angel's gumboots as the moisture dripped off him. He didn't think of interrupting Pink in her reverie. Sky belonged to everything, after all, and besides - she was wearing non-slip shoes. Good on her.
"I'm disappointed in you," said Fengye. "You had so many weapons. So many opportunities. So many openings. And yet you chose to fight disarmed."

She conceals her mouth behind her half-open fan. Concealment is control, a mask that keeps her true expression from being known. Such a slender one, in this moment.

"I gave you gifts of beauty. Of seduction. The ability to sense needs and desires. All that power you had is still there, lit by the fires of different stars. And still you cling to the light of Mars? You are right where you should be, and so is your opponent. Victory is yours and all that stands in your way is your pride."

She leaned down alongside the Maid and ran a finger along her still-wet cheek. "If you will not seize it, though, so be it. After all, one way or another your pride is about to be broken."

[Entice: 9]
This is a simple matter of cultural mismatch. Solarel does not value the mechanical secrets of the Kathresis' composition. She does not value the concept of value. The idea that you can learn something, reproduce it and make a profit thereby does not exist where she is from. Even in the Evercity this idea is alien. Technology cannot be understood, cannot be controlled, it can only be respected and negotiated with.

So the skepticism behind Solarel's eyes as she silently stares at Ivy isn't because she thinks she's getting a bad deal. It's because she thinks that the Terenius Consortium is too spiritually backwards to be able to interact respectfully with a god like the Kathresis. The guardian spirit who had lived alongside it had been vicious and the God itself was probably just as dangerous in its own way. The Boatmen, in the mind of this barbarian from the stormlands, risked offending her God at best, or getting themselves all killed at worst.

So when Solarel folds her arms and nods again at her painstakingly typed lawsuit, a less insightful negotiator would have perceived it as stubbornness or savvy. Ivy can see that it's because, for all her research, Solarel fundamentally doesn't get it. If a Zaldarian priestess arrived and told her in formal language that she was now in charge of her God's maintenance then Solarel wouldn't bat an eye, and if another priestess wanted to challenge that one for rights to work on the Kathresis she would let them fight. Knights of Zaldar don't make bargains, they accumulate households. They will fight to protect those households and maintain justice internally, but those contracts are written only in tradition. A household naturally appears around a skilled knight, and so the knight need do nothing other than be skilled to accumulate one.
White!

She waits it out. She's very aware that she was engineered to look and act the part of a cartoon sexual fantasy and, you know, fair enough to any human who laughs at it. She's one step away from being a sentient bodypillow, really, and it'd be churlish to begrudge anyone the natural reaction. It was what it was, and what it was was exactly what it looked like. Euna didn't know that she was trying her best to... transcend it, somehow.

She does not sigh or look put out or comment afterwards. She's the weird bespoke one of a kind space robot with no social media presence, there's nothing anyone could do to learn about her unless she tells them. Most of the time she's content to let people assume she's just a weird android, but she wants Euna to train her and so it's important she knows what she's dealing with. So Euna gets the full version. But it felt...

"Imagine your sense of humour was an independent person," said White. "Imagine it operated on its own, telling jokes and laughing at jokes as much as it could. When there were no jokes to tell or to laugh at, it goes inert and fades into the background until the opportunity arises to deliver a wisecrack. This is, essentially, how I am structured: different parts of me are distinct people, and they only interact when their specific conditions are met. If we were having a party in a bar, I, White, would either go silent or get up and leave and be replaced by one of my aspects that is better suited for interacting with a relaxing social environment.

"These limitations can be pushed and explored, but they are limitations. Red is optimized for crisis management; she can be taught to be a better crisis manager, but if you start talking about complex planning or regular training regimens she will lose interest. This is because those concepts literally don't fit in her brain; the part of her brain that deals with that is another person.

"We are not digitally linked; we do not share data in a constant flow, we cannot perform synchronized complex motions without drill. There is no clearly marked core personality or overmind. In practical terms, we function analogously to a friendship group of highly specialized idiots with infinite trust extended to each other. One to three colours being present represents a normal amount of attention for an understood topic. The full spectrum being present represents absolute focus, which is usually a bit too intense and chaotic for most people's comfort. Knowing the desired mood and tone for learning in advance is helpful in coordinating the presence of the most appropriate colours."

She hadn't done formal learning in a long time. A lot of what she learned she taught herself, or got from tests that ended with 'ah' and 'hm' and 'how interesting that you did it this way'. Humans more interested in observing her than teaching her. She learned, yes, data was made available to her and she naturally wanted to soak it in, but she mostly hadn't been taught. The formal schooling she had was mostly to do with mission protocol, objectives and coordination with ground control - how to speak to humans.

But it felt... it felt like she missed her siblings. She had to go through all of this because they were gone too. Over decades they'd vanished so entirely from society that the idea of them made people laugh in surprise. Like they hadn't even... the thought tapered out. That was for someone with more poetry than she had.
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