Rurik!
He had ruled out telling Civelia immediately. It's not that he didn't trust the Goddess to keep a secret - it's that, well, the fact that her blood pressure got a vote was fresh in his head. The Hero had definitely been right about that.
"No sweat," he said. He resolved himself against any guilt at making a promise that he had no ability to keep. His duty and loyalty was plain. Civelia had her priests and paladins; Heron had her Handmaidens. All any of them could do was trust in the Hero. Anything less was selfishness, presuming that one's own problems were more important than whatever the Princess was engaged in.
Kalentia!
She remembered the moment Heron had left. It was burned on her mind.
She'd had the healing spell burning on her fingertips. It had been there for almost a minute - a lifetime - and still there had been no need to use it. Heron had just gone through every enemy before they could touch her. It had been all she could do to keep up. In the end she'd wound up using the spell on herself. Then her cheeks had burned with shame instead.
How could she have explained? What could she have said? She'd realized too late that barrier magic would have been far more useful for Heron; she could have increased her range of motion by sectioning the battlefield and countering threats proactively. But there was no time to study an entirely new magical discipline so she'd gone further and further into a skillset that was worth less and less. She'd dreamed of being the essential pillar of the Handmaidens, the one who gave up individual glory in exchange for being indispensable.
And just like that. She was dispensed with.
Rurik had been right when he'd talked to them afterwards. The world had been at stake. They were sworn to the world's defense; this was the job, they'd always known it might go like this. They still had a duty.
Imagine how selfish it was to put her own hopes on someone already carrying so many.
He had ruled out telling Civelia immediately. It's not that he didn't trust the Goddess to keep a secret - it's that, well, the fact that her blood pressure got a vote was fresh in his head. The Hero had definitely been right about that.
"No sweat," he said. He resolved himself against any guilt at making a promise that he had no ability to keep. His duty and loyalty was plain. Civelia had her priests and paladins; Heron had her Handmaidens. All any of them could do was trust in the Hero. Anything less was selfishness, presuming that one's own problems were more important than whatever the Princess was engaged in.
Kalentia!
She remembered the moment Heron had left. It was burned on her mind.
She'd had the healing spell burning on her fingertips. It had been there for almost a minute - a lifetime - and still there had been no need to use it. Heron had just gone through every enemy before they could touch her. It had been all she could do to keep up. In the end she'd wound up using the spell on herself. Then her cheeks had burned with shame instead.
How could she have explained? What could she have said? She'd realized too late that barrier magic would have been far more useful for Heron; she could have increased her range of motion by sectioning the battlefield and countering threats proactively. But there was no time to study an entirely new magical discipline so she'd gone further and further into a skillset that was worth less and less. She'd dreamed of being the essential pillar of the Handmaidens, the one who gave up individual glory in exchange for being indispensable.
And just like that. She was dispensed with.
Rurik had been right when he'd talked to them afterwards. The world had been at stake. They were sworn to the world's defense; this was the job, they'd always known it might go like this. They still had a duty.
Imagine how selfish it was to put her own hopes on someone already carrying so many.