One dear memory was lost to this hellish world, none were twisted, none but one lone new experience took root... It was warm and slightly musty, smelling of smoke; she was seated there, on a small rectangular stool, and her lap was covered by the woolen fabric of her skirt - horizontally striped, each stripe with its own color and pattern. One stripe - white with a chain of intricate rhombic symbols in black woven into it - especially stood out, perhaps because it was at just the right place for her eyes to fall onto. She could feel the uneven bark of the wooden stick she held in her left hand, the leathery handle of the knife in her right, and the resistance of the wood as she carved into it with the blade, a chip falling away with each skilled motion of hand. The knife's blade, longer than her hand from wrist to fingertips, glinted faintly in constantly moving yellowish-orange light.
Her stomach hurt with hunger; it was as if there was a hand squeezing it, or it was shrinking smaller, and the shrinking hurt. It was unpleasant, so unpleasant... It was cold, her hands half-numb from being outside for so long despite the thick mittens she wore, the land covered in deep snow, blinding and painful in the sunlight. The snow made a crunching sound with each step she walked. She saw herself grabbing a hold of one of the lower branches of an evergreen tree - she remembered eating the young sprouts of it during early summer when she was but a child, but now was winter, and the sprouts were wooden and the needles hard... Still, she ripped off a section of the branch, sticking it between her teeth and chewing. When you were this hungry, even the bitter taste of resin was preferable to the continued pangs of hunger.
Cold water sloshed over the edge of the bucket she was carrying, dripping over her feet and the wooden floorboards. It was a large bucket, cumbersome and heavy, but it was the only way she could get water to the large metal container at the end of the back room. Arms slightly shaking from the effort, she set the container she had been carrying down right where she stood, in the middle of the room, and stretched; her shoulders and back ached from the last handful of buckets. The room was dim; two tiny windows with four little panels of uneven dirty glass each did not let in much light. Glass was expensive; many people only had holes with shutters in their walls, if that...
It was raining; it had been a light drizzle, but now it was pouring. The sound of the raindrops hitting the ground had turned into a deep rumble. Or was it thunder she heard in the background of it? It smelled fresh ... and wet, but mostly fresh. She was running, her bare feet hitting the meadow, the blades of grass brushing against her calves, her one hand gripping the hem of her shirt, as if she were afraid that the wind might steal it, and the other pressing something against her chest. The raindrops were beating against her face; her shirt was soaked through and though. But she was smiling, and happy, and free! The rain was warm, and the day was no longer as smotheringly hot. Deep down she knew she was not supposed to be out in the rain, but it was fun, and she had the excuse of having been sent to retrieve the package from the village when the rain caught her...
She was tired, so tired... Her lower body hurt, she felt tired, weak, faint, even, but also strangely content and even ... happy? It was dark, quiet; it was night. She was half-sitting on a bed covered in not-quite white linen, and on her arms there rested a dear weight. She had looked up, and sighed gently; she did not want to move in order not to disturb the one she held. She blinked, though in darkness, it hardly mattered. All was well.
Wind was whipping at their face; their chest was heaving and falling in the rhythm of powerful wingbeats. Wings, dark, wide, powerful... They could feel those moving. Feel raw, unadultered power. Strength. Determination. Very strong sense of purpose, even if what their objective was had vanished from their mind for the time being. There was, however, the faint impression that it was something ominous, something
wrong, that people would be hurt, innocent people, people that they did not
want to hurt... That impression was coupled with the undeniable sense of forward progression and sheer unstoppability, determinism, the inability to alter the course of fate or even adjust one's own actions. Lack of control. They were but an automaton, and from that was born fear. Fear of not for one's own self, but
of one's own self and the deeds one would eventually inevitably commit.
The yeast had raised the dough nicely; it was warm as she kneaded it, warm and soft. Despite her covering her hands in flour before she set to the task, some of the dough glued itself to her fingers as she was at the task. There was the desire to lift her hand and simply eat the dough clinging to her finger, but she ignored the temptation for the time being. Some of the dough was separated into three globs, rolled into thinner and longer strips between her hands, and then braided into a pretzel. Before that, her mother had also made pretzel-bread like this. The light was yellow-orange and danced a flickering dance. Her hair was held back by some manner of linen hat.
She was searching, frantically. On the table? No, not on the table... That had been the first place see looked, too - it was but a flat surface of wooden boards, there was no way she could have missed anything on it the first time. In the clothes chest? With shaking hands, she pulled out the clothes from the heavy wooden box, hastily casting those on the floor new to it, but alas, this action yielded no results. Why would she have put it there in the first place? Besides, she had looked there already, too. Just as hastily, she began folding the skirts and blouses, setting them back one by one. Why? Guess she could not tolerate seeing the mess even while she was still looking, and there was always the vague feeling that she
could have pulled it out of the box along with the clothes, meaning that it could be on the floor and be unearthed as she puts the clothes away. Even if she was already going through the clothes chest, the illogical place for it to be in, for the second time.
Her throat ... it felt like no air could pass through it, as though it were contracting closing down on itself. There were painful stabs in her chest, her heart hurt - also much like someone were squeezing it just a notch too hard. Her mouth was opening and closing, but no sound was emitted. Her voice simply did not comply. Neither did her eyes. She kept blinking as they stung and her sight kept blurring. Finally, something wet and warm ran over her face. It could not be, could it? It could not be! At last, she could get a word from her mouth, though her voice sounded distant and detached, numb even.
"What ... what do you mean?" It
could not be... She had misheard. She had definitely misheard. Or misunderstood. In any case, it was wrong! It had to be...
There was a glint of light and an unearthly glow. Something rumbled, the ground was wrong, it tilted, and she fell ... fell, fell, fell... Something snapped, and she hit a near-vertical surface; reflexively, she dug her fingers in. They had talons, and they rent the metal of the surface. She was only very slowly sliding down the surface she clung to, but yet she still felt like falling, falling, falling... The surface was hard, but it lacked temperature. She knew she had been injured, but she could not feel the pain, only the blood running down her back. Falling, falling, falling, but yet the surface before her eyes was still. She was no longer sliding down; her taloned fingers had dug in deep enough to carry her weight. The combination of falling and utter motionlessness made her nauseous and disoriented. She must not slip and fall again; that would be the end. There was not one thing more certain than that.
The axe was hefty - two feet of hard polished wooden shaft and a solid iron head. Her legs were rooted to ground, spread a bit wider than her shoulders. The axe she raised overhead, only to bring it down on the tree-trunk-segment before her, as thick as her waist and with a line through its heart already riddled with cuts from unsuccessful attempts of splitting it. The momentum the axe-head had gained from its own weight and her arms' strength was significant - it bit two inches deep, but this time, the trunk's fibres were torn apart as a crack began to crawl towards its base. The axe-head was stuck, but it was good. With a breath let out in a huff, she allowed herself a blink of an eye's worth of rest, before she raised the axe overhead again - with the entirety of the section of tree-trunk being lifted with it. Up in the air, she flipped the axe around, and then she brought it down again, the back of the axe-head hitting the surface of the base first. With its own weight, the tree-trunk pressed further onto the axe-blade upon impact, and the crack spread deeper. Another raise of the axe, another flip, and the trunk-segment split open fully, halves falling to two sides. The ground was dry hard dirt, covered in pieces of bark and wooden chips. To the right, there was a log wall, to the left grass; in the distance loomed a dark forest.
The chicken was brown - all their chickens were - and her orange eyes were fixed on her hand in what appeared to be disapproval. Chickens did not have facial expressions ... right? ... but yet she had seen ones stare at her in wide-eyed confusion, beaks slightly ajar, curious chicken doing their best to see what she held, and, as was the case with this one, apparently a disapproving chicken. Yet, she moved her hand closer still, seeing how the feathers of the already puffed-up chicken literally stood on ends till she looked almost twice the normal size. A notch closer, and the chicken's head darted forth, her beak hitting her knuckle. It hurt - not much, but enough for her to draw her hand back with a start. There was a minuscule piece of skin torn loose, barely a flake larger than pinhead, with just the faintest speck of red seeping out. But she only had to fetch the eggs...
The flames were dancing; the air of the night was cold, but the person she was resting against was warm. From somewhere, they had found an old blanket to cover their legs with. There were stars in the sky.
"My father used to know the names of many a constellation... The only one I really can find is the Great Bear. And the Northern Star." He let out something that was probably a short chuckle. "At least I'd always know which way is north on a clear starry night... Not that those occurred often."
His voice sounded so different when she had her ear resting against his chest. It was strange... Was this also how he heard his own voice? She could also hear his heartbeat, feel him breathing. It made her feel ... strange, but not in a bad way. She cared about him and, well, it ... being so
close to him... It felt good, but also made her feel oddly ... nervous? No, nervous was not the correct word. On top of all, she was also tired after the long day and it was relaxing, to be like that. She felt as though she would fall asleep soon...
"Are you cold?" he asked, sounding mildly concerned.
"Mkmm..." she languidly mumbled in an attempt to reassure him. "No, I am good..."
Did this sun never raise nor truly set? Always with this twilight, always, no change, no life no nothing but her. It was a rocky field she was clambering over, rocky and unforgiving, merciless. Jagged edges and hard corners, from pebbles to massive boulders as tall as she was, all loose, spanning as far as the eye could see... There! A figure, motion, someone! At long last! She tried to hasten her clumsy clambering crawl over the unfeeling sharp rocks, pale as bleached slate but with edges as sharp as those of obsidian.
"Hey!?" Her voice was rasped and shrill, she felt thirst. The air was too dry, too riddled with dust; inhaling for the single shout nearly sent her into a coughing fit. She must catch up with them, if they did not hear her shouting...
As she tried to speed up her chase, she slipped and fell, skinned elbow leaving a bloody trail onto the rock before her face, her knee emanating white hot pain as it smack met the ground. Her eyes swelled with tears, not those of only plain, but also those of hopelessness and desperation. She
must not lose this person, whoever this was... This figure who appeared and disappeared on the horizon, becoming obscured by a larger rock as they hopped down one and appearing again as they were climbing over the next.