i just... i can't. i'm surrounded by such fantastic people who have literally saved my life and are the reasons i'm still alive today. they know who they are, and words can't describe how amazing and unreal they are. i still have some days where i think i've dreamt up these people solely because they are too amazing, talented and kind beyond words to be true. no matter how many flaws they see in themselves, they're heroes that deserve nothing but the best. as long as they're all alive, well and happy, that's all i'll ever need.