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Caden Burke ♥§
"I haven't seen him in years and I feel like... he wanted to give me the world, and that scared me. So I left. I left before he could know anything about the skeletons in my closet. I left before I said something I'd regret. I left before... I just left, okay!"Reina isn't the type to commit, at least that's what she keeps telling herself. Caden was too good to be true and she felt undeserving of anything he had to offer her. Her life growing up, before she moved to LA, was nothing but shattered glass and she would only end up cutting him if he got too close. In high school, he was the one guy that looked past her body. He wanted to spend time with her and sure, he wanted to get to know her, which she did share her interests, dreams, and beliefs with him, but that's as far as she'd go. There was one topic she would never have the courage to talk about. Especially with him. When the conversation started heading toward her family, she'd suddenly change the subject or focus on her brother. Nothing more and nothing less. It was easier to make it seem like she had a good home life, if Clayton was the main focus.
Caden seemed... okay with it. Okay with not knowing. She didn't understand why he was so understanding with how things were. She
knew he didn't like her sleeping with other people. He accepted it, because that's what she wanted, but he didn't like it. Why did he let her? Did he think he was doing her a favor by letting her do what she wanted even if it compromised his own feelings? Why? It didn't make sense to her. She couldn't possibly have made him happy if she slept with another person hours after they went on a date.
Vulnerability is what she felt when she was with him. A feeling she knew all too well but heightened. Because of that constant feeling, she needed to pull away. He was fire to her and his light made her recognize that even if she loved him, she knew she'd ruin it as long as she was the way she was, risking her well being just to feel pain on the outside and in. Unable to make room for him in her heart, there was too much hate taking up residency, she ran away. Obviously, working on movies wasn't the only reason she left FL. When she got to LA, conveniently, Elijah Barracano came into the picture and gave her enough kindness to make her feel good about herself and enough self-indulgence so that she didn't fall too deep. This gave her a balance where she could keep focusing on achieving her goals, with no distraction but her own, while still having somebody when she needs him (without the risk of being too attached). They would both use each other until they had enough. A love she understood. Truthfully though, she's surprised they even married, but at the time, a change seemed right and he offered to take the risk with her.
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Tessa Mendoza-Rosales ♥♫
"I don't know where I'd be without her. Probably dead, honestly. All I can say is: thank you, Tess.
Thank you for being there during the worst chapter of my life. I love you."Tessa saw behind the facade. While they both enjoyed getting lost in pleasure, Reina wasn't always in the right of mind. When Rei was self destructive, in ways that could've made her hate herself more than she already did or worse, in a way that could get her killed, Tessa tried to prevent it, or at least not let it get too far. They looked out for each other, but it was obvious that Reina needed Tessa more. Sometimes, relationships are like that. More for one person. There's one thing Reina never necessarily told Tessa and she'd like to keep it that way, but the attention that Tessa got freshman year was the reason why she chose to go down a similar promiscuous path. It was like Reina vicariously wanted to be like her, but her own version. A fishnet-wearing punk slut. At first, she had sex because it was entirely because that was a topic that everyone would talk about, everyone was doing it or at least they pretended to, and when people lusted, they showed something instinctual. Everyone would let their animal come out and play. It was that feeling she wanted to reach. She wanted to
feel something worth feeling. The temporary high became addictive and even just watching her partner react to what she did. Maybe it was the one time she felt like she had control and that's why she needed it. And she knew no matter how scandalous her stories were, she'd be able to talk about that side, and all facets of herself for that matter, to Tessa. Tessa accepted her. Every fucky part and every soft part. She loved her and Reina convinced herself that Tess would be the only one that would understand her, wholeheartedly.
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Theodore Gage ♫
"Skittles? He's everything to me. I've adored him ten years ago and I still adore him now. I would literally kill anyone that breaks his heart.
And I guess, it does comfort me that he's still best friends with Caden."While her relationship with Tessa felt more one-sided than not, Reina and Teddy were completely mutual. They clicked. She knew when she caught sight of him in the crowd that she had to charm him so that they could be friends. He was the medicine she lacked in her life. Someone who loved you, with no prejudice and judgement. The sweetest guy you can ever meet. A man that saw good in everyone, putting their needs before his own. All the time. Kind of in a selfishly selfless manner. They met freshman year and like the whirlwind that she was, she took him under her wing. Plus, she didn't want some shallow girl to stake her claim and use him as a g.b.f. because it was trendy and only added to a woman's hotness. She would protect her little bean at all cost. They both benefited because while he had a way of making her forget about everything (but Caden), she showed him how to live in the moment and just be true to himself. Thanks to him though, she occasionally gets an update about her ex and how he's doing. She knows the game he's playing and even if she won't admit it, she's glad to know Caden is alive and well.
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Camden Bensen ☮
"Cammie is a doll. We were close in high school, not Tessa and me close, but close.
Like we'd do stupid shit and make the most of our boring teen lives. But when I found out she was moving to Cali too? Game changer."Camden got lucky as one of Reina's friends. If Elijah doesn't want to attend a premiere or go to a festival with his wife, Camden is the next person she reaches out to. Primarily because she is conveniently in the same vicinity. Their relationship consists of them bouncing ideas off one another, partying like they're still in their early twenties, and Rei encouraging Cam to do what makes her happy. Success and happiness can only be achieved when you're content with yourself. For Rei, even with her career achievements, she still feels like something is missing. Every journey is different and although Reina seems to have everything going for her, she can't help but think Cammie is happier.
Sometimes the simplest things are the most beautiful.
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Allison Bentley-Song ☮
"Allison was so mousy and I adored her. Her ambition: scary. Admirable, but scary. And I guess when I saw her... I saw a side of me in her. The part I spent years to burn. The girl that wanted to feel and be perfect. Maybe, originally, I wanted to find her scars and make her relate to me, even in the slightest, but I started to care about her because of how much she cared about everything. Honestly? It was her drive that helped me pursue my dreams and become the filmmaker I am today. She doesn't know that, though."While Tessa and Teddy have facetime dates with her, Reina and Allison catch up when they can. Since they both have unpredictable schedules, it's not easy for them to make time for each other, but Reina still considers her a close friend. There's a fondness Reina holds dear to her when it comes to Allison and maybe it's because if it wasn't for fate, having them meet in high school, Rei would be miserable in Florida working at an old run down movie theater that would surely go out of business. She can't explain it, but when she saw how Allison coped with her own issues, she felt like if her friend can do it, why can't she?
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Grayson Chambers §
"I don't hate him. I hate how he made Al and Cammie cry. Now that's unforgivable and he didn't even try to say sorry."High school Reina could be your beautiful daydream or worst nightmare. Grayson was one of the few people that saw a side of her that rooted back to childhood trauma. She didn't need to punch him in the face like Tara did to make him scared. It was that kind of stare that showed that nothing anyone did to her could be worse than what she was capable of doing to herself and inadvertently others. In all honesty, if it wasn't for Tessa, Caden, and Teddy, Reina could've gone off the deep end and become the very person that Grayson traces everyday of his working life. Fortunately, she drowned herself in a creative outlet and didn't resort to the dark thoughts that haunted her mind.
Why do you think her best genre is horror?
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Brent Santiago-Walsh §
"I... don't want to talk about him."Although Brent's intentions were good, he cornered Reina when she was in one of her episodes and unfortunately, all he did was suffocate her. He tried to heal a wounded animal before building its trust and she snapped, unintentionally hurting his feelings. Now that she is older and has had plenty of time to self reflect, she feels bad for saying what she said. She doesn't even remember what she said to him. All she knows is after that, they both avoided each other and barely made eye contact. In addition to that, she started distancing herself from Caden, realizing who she really was, was someone that would only hurt him in the long run.
At the time, she truly believed all good things must come to an end.
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Amanda Woodall-Cross §☠
"Please, tell me. Why the hell doesn't she like me?"Reina doesn't allow herself to hate anyone. Amanda, though? She really, really, really doesn't like her because of that elitist attitude. The memories she shares with Amanda is her trying too hard to become her friend and as a result she was either ignored or brushed off like she was nothing. Since they shared a mutual best friend, Tessa, it made sense to Rei for them to get to know each other but Amanda didn't even give her the time of day. This left Rei completely and utterly bitter. She tried and the Class Prez treated her like she was an insignificant bug, that could be easily crushed with her heel. Whatever. She was better than that.
No point in stooping to her level.
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Willow Nicholson ☯
"She's the one that liked Grayson, only to end up having the worst prom experience ever, right? Poor thing. If I hung out with her more, I could've told her that Gray was dumb for Amanda. He wasn't that subtle about it. Ah well. We live, we learn."When she imagines Willow's face, Rei harbors the feelings of pity. They weren't too close - they did have idle conversations every so often, and ended up at the same hangout spots because of mutual friends but nothing they shared was remarkable enough to last the years. Thinking back on her, Rei does hope Willow has found a silver lining to her bad luck. Everyone deserves happiness and it's unfortunate Gray used such a good person's heart to his own advantage.
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Alexander Shields ☯
"I knew him through Caden, but we didn't really talk-talk. I sometimes sat in their study group. Tried to have a conversation or two with him. It didn't get anywhere. Guess we never clicked. Can't win them all."Pretty self-explanatory. Alex was in the King's Men so it was inevitable she would meet him eventually, but their relationship was so insignificant that she can barely remember him. They had different things going on in their young lives so the likelihood of them crossing paths was dependent on their mutual connection, her lover, Caden.
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Andre Martin ☯
"He's a looker, I'll give you that."Like Alex, Reina knew Dre because of the King's Men. Caden's group of friends. He was nice eye candy to look at but she would never sleep around with someone Caden considered his friend. Even if she was slutty, she did have some morals holding her back. Plus, Dre was with that sweet girl Grace during their last year. It was nice to see how happy and in love they were with each other. A star couple.
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Jace Russo ☯
"When Jace was with his boys, he was pleasant to be around with. When he was around Amanda, though? It was annoying."Reina can't blame Jace for being so love struck for the class president. Amanda has a charm that makes the boys want her badly, even if she never touches them. By proxy, since she already disliked Amanda, she got annoyed whenever he was around her. To her, Amanda didn't deserve the attention. If anything, she needed to be forcibly yanked back down to Earth. A reality check.
And Jace was doing everything but that.
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Grace Pruett ☯
"At King's Academy, everyone had their group and rarely did they branch out. I tried, but some people would shy away, like Grace."It took Dre asking Grace out senior year for Reina to have more opportunities to get to know her. These opportunities were strictly when the King's Men decided to do anything together, and if they had a lover, they'd extend the invite. So, whenever she got the chance she'd try to befriend the cute geek. REINA JUST WANTED FRIENDS. Sadly, that was short lived because of Grayson's stunt on prom night and things got awkward, for everyone. Any chance of friendship she had with Grace no longer existed.
Thanks, Gray.
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Tara O'Leary ☯
" T.K.O! I bet they still talk about her. The girl that knocked out some dumb boy. Prom 2009."Although they never got to know each other, Reina was fascinated with Tara's personality (from afar). The tough-as-nails type that seemed unbreakable. No words or actions could pierce her or break her. She was the bully that bullies feared. She had a bite behind her bark and truth be told, if Rei could act like that to her parents, maybe she wouldn't have gotten lost in her own depression. The Tara she remembers was a true feminist and never wavered from what she believed. Most importantly, she was loyal and stood by her closest friends' sides. If there was one wasted opportunity in her high school's past, it would be the fact that Rei never tried to get to know her; too caught up with herself and her own problems. Just trying to survive.
C'est la vie.
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