I tolerate children reasonably well and for reasons I still do not understand, many of them demand my attention when I am present. It is everything to play and play-fight, although I admittedly am not supremely fond of children. It leaves me to wonder if those I do know that their children are not permitted to roughhouse or similar regularly. It is not as though they have wholly absentee fathers either or that I am often present. Perhaps it just comes with my demeanor as a patriarch.

On the subject of children - I do want kids one day. I just feel like I need to be in a way better financial spot than I am right now, and I need to travel to a couple more music festivals first while working through my own shit. I've always liked kids, but they cost so much money, and heaven knows I do not have enough for a box of Pampers right now.

On the subject of quotes - I have this little blue book (sort of like a journal thing, I guess) full of quotes. I need to start writing them down again. Mine are from poets, actors and the like.

I do not want children, and on the unlikely chance I change my mind I'd have to adopt. I've vowed to remain a virgin for life. I'm 29 in a few months so I'm doing pretty well with it so far.

Never wanted kids, but ended up having a baby at 16. I have a beautiful 9 year old girl I love and have no regrets, but I do NOT want to have another lol

Last night, first full night of sleep I'd had in roughly six days...

I dreamed of being a Hydralisk.

i fucking suck at videogames

I have had the fortune of seeing skies that lacked interference from man-made light. How dark and seemingly infinite it is at night leads me to understand why some people are terrified of this. How large all of it is and how infinitely small man, in turn, is too.

I have had the fortune of seeing skies that lacked interference from man-made light. How dark and seemingly infinite it is at night leads me to understand why some people are terrified of this. How large all of it is and how infinitely small man, in turn, is too.

I live in Eastern Massachusetts where light pollution is dominant. One might be able to see 6 - 12 stars in the night sky. I grew up in the mountains of Western Massachusetts where one can actually see the glory of the Milky Way in all of its splendor. I took my children on a camping trip back home so they could see it too. It is truly amazing; the billions of points of light in the night sky.

Whenever they would cut the power in my town a lot of people would go outside and talk. I remember I used to stare up at the sky for long periods of time.

It's funny because as a kid, I would much prefer they cut the water rather than the power (sometimes they did both), but now, if I still lived there, I'd rather go without power than water. Funny how the perspective changes as you get older.

I use faceclaims and written descriptions.

I can't stand anime FC's. I will use digital art or a really nice drawing to match what the GM and other players are doing though.

At first, using someones face was a little weird. Now I'll be watching movies, see someone and be like: "Yes. You. Your face. I'm gonna use it.

Using an real life faceclaim lets me do a lot for aesthetics. I have been working on conceptualized faceclaims like this one for Serina, this one for Chelsie, and this one for Serina that's a little more in detail.

The only time I use anime FCs is in... wait for it... anime rps. Style should be consistent in all things.

Apparently it's my 1000th day on this site.

Apparently it's my 1000th day on this site.

It's also your 1900th post, too.

When I was a cub, I found myself presented with many conflicts, both with the adults and the children of the time. One of the earliest was also exceedingly violent and resulted in my being stabbed with a pencil, which left a permanent scar, discoloration, and minor disfigurement on one of the phalanges.

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It's also your 1900th post, too.

Yeah too bad it's not my 2000th though :D

When I was younger I wanted to get married and have a big family. I love kids, they’re pretty awesome sometimes. But now the idea terrifies me. First of all, I feel like I’m too poor to raise a child even with my partner’s help. Second, with my family history of mental illness and addiction, and my partner’s family history of cancer, I would not feel right having biological children. Third, I don’t think I’m mentally stable enough to deal with the stress of raising a child, after raising two puppies and nearly losing my shit at some of their antics I can only imagine how difficult it would be for me to handle myself when it comes to being beholden to an actual human child. You can’t crate train kids, after all. My number 1 biggest fear is having a lapse in judgment, deciding to have a kid or go through with a surprise pregnancy, and later resenting that child/my family to the point I abandon it. Which would make me a terrible person and I’d probably hate myself for the rest of my life or try to end my life.

A lot of people have told me that I’ll “change my mind” when I’m older (ironic since it was actually the opposite, I used to want kids and now I don’t), but honestly with the kind of lifestyle I want to live (minimalist and lots of travel) I cannot see a future in which I could be truly happy with children. Maybe when I’m old and settled, I could foster a couple kids and help them get a better start to life, but I really truly do not want a traditional family lifestyle. Parenting is really important, and not everyone is cut out for it, and I’m not going to risk the wellbeing of a child if I’m not 110% sure that I want that child and can give it the best life possible.

I feel like my last post went to a pretty dark place sorry guys. A fun fact about me is that I often overshare without immediately realizing it and then it just makes everyone uncomfortable.

People really like to be complemented, typically on their appearance, or talents. But my absolute favorite compliment to receive is “you smell really good.”

I think this has to do with the fact that I was bullied a lot in early Elementary school for smelling bad. Due to some medical conditions I was born with I had a few accidents at school as a kid, and was forever bullied about it until my family moved away in 4th grade.

Anyway anytime anyone randomly tells me I smell good I fill up with joy.

I feel like my last post went to a pretty dark place sorry guys. A fun fact about me is that I often overshare without immediately realizing it and then it just makes everyone uncomfortable.

I wasn't uncomfortable.

People really like to be complemented, typically on their appearance, or talents. But my absolute favorite compliment to receive is “you smell really good.”

I think this has to do with the fact that I was bullied a lot in early Elementary school for smelling bad. Due to some medical conditions I was born with I had a few accidents at school as a kid, and was forever bullied about it until my family moved away in 4th grade.

Anyway anytime anyone randomly tells me I smell good I fill up with joy.

You smell good, Emma.

@Emma I'm going to annoy you once in every week and say the same thing from now on.