Freagon, Irah, Lhirin, Yanin, Jaelnec, Nabi, Jordan and Madara – Fadewatcher station, Borstown
“Then that's the plan,” Vela stated, giving the table a hard smack with both of her hands as she turned and headed for the door herself, followed by Quintin. “Everyone get your things ready and meet us by the road north of here in a few minutes, and we'll go. These kidnappin' scum won't even know what hit them.”
“Boy,” Freagon called as he turned and headed for the door without so much as a glance at anyone else in the room. “Come.”
Recalling his master's declaration that they needed to talk before leaving for the mission, Jaelnec once again felt his heart sink. He had been so distracted with all the planning and drama that had been going on that he had – only too happily – pushed Freagon's ominous utterance from his mind, but unsurprisingly the knight himself remembered only too well. Though he felt every instinct in his body urging him to ignore the instruction and refuse to listen to what his master had to say, he knew that he would obey. Not only did he have to if he wanted to keep Freagon as his master, but these past fifteen years had also conditioned him too well to obedience to ignore.
So it was with an expression of fear and reluctance that the page followed his knight, walking outside, turning right and going to the side of the Fadewatcher station; barely out of sight for anyone exiting the building and heading to the street, but far from being a private place. The two of them took up positions facing each other but a good five meters apart. All the while thoughts kept racing through Jaelnec's head as he tried to predict what his master wanted... and he reached a very likely conclusion.
“Please, sir,” Jaelnec pleaded through gritted teeth, forcing himself to meet Freagon's gaze no matter how much he wanted to look at the ground, “don't tell me to stay behind.”
The Knight of the Will cocked his head, his single black eye boring into him unblinkingly. “Why?”
Blinking confusedly, the younger nightwalker was taken aback by the question. This was not how determining their course of action usually went with Freagon. “I want... no, I
need to help.”
“Are you sure about that?” Freagon crossed his arms. “A dead child. The dark-skinned one mentioned the Crusader's Guild, and you're probably ignoring that we determined there isn't any evidence that it's them. You're making it personal.”
“That's not what this is about!” he declared, but was only halfway telling the truth. Of course hearing about the bodies hanging in the tree, and especially hearing someone air the possibility of the crusaders being involved, affected him... quite strongly. How could it anything less, when the crusaders were the reason Jaelnec was where he was today, having been raised by the heartless knight errant? But it was more than that, and he knew that he had to focus on that part if he was to have any hope of persuading his stubborn master. “This is what I've been training for, sir, and we're outnumbered! We need every man we can get! I can fight!”
“Why?”
Again Jaelnec blinked, even more confused than the first time he had been asked that question. “I don't... why what?”
Freagon stared at him unwaveringly. “Why will you fight?”
Shaking his head incredulously, the page asked: “Because we need fighters?”
“No.” There was a finality to the way he spoke that single word that felt like a slap to the face for Jaelnec. “I know you can fight. I taught you. But you don't need to fight. Why will you fight?”
Jaelnec made a wide, sweeping gesture with his hand at nothing in particular. “To save the healer, of course!”
“You don't need to fight to do that.” Not a muscle twitched in Freagon's face, and his posture was solid as stone. “Deo'irah wanted you to bring her potion. That could save lives. You can help without fighting.”
Licking his lips, Jaelnec could feel tears starting to burn in his eyes as the sense of devastating disappointment gripped his heart like a vise. “I don't get it. Why am I not allowed to fight? I've been your page for
fifteen years! What have I been training for if not for this?”
Much to the young man's surprise, his older kinsman nodded his head at this. “That's what I'm asking. Why will you fight?”
Jaelnec let out a shaky breath and inhaled deeply, trying his best to calm himself and think clearly, to try to figure out what was expected of him. “Because these are bad people, and someone needs to fight them.”
“Why?”
“Why?!” he repeated exasperatedly, growing to hate that question more and more each time it was asked. “They killed people! They killed a
child! They need to be brought to justice!”
“Then I've failed.”
Now it was Jaelnec's turn to stare stiffly, eyes wide in disbelief at what he had just heard. Though the tone was the same, the words making up that sentence was the only instance in all the time Jaelnec had known Freagon that he had heard him utter anything that sounded like admitting defeat or failure. As a sentiment, those words coming out of Freagon's mouth felt thoroughly unnatural and wrong to such a degree that his brain quite simply did not know how to deal with it.
After a moment's silence the knight continued: “I've been too focused on teaching you how to fight like a Knight of the Will. I've neglected to teach you why to fight like a Knight of the Will.”
He uncrossed his arms and pointed an authoritative finger at Jaelnec. “Anyone can fight well, boy; being a good fighter doesn't make you a knight. It's our code, our values, that make us knights.”
Heaving a sigh, Freagon shook his head grimly. “We don't make judgments based on shit like 'justice'; that word can mean anything to anyone. We don't punish, boy. So once more: why will you fight?”
Swallowing a lump he imagined to be his shame, Jaelnec straightened his back and responded with conviction: “To keep everyone else safe.”
Freagon nodded his head in approval. “Better. But saying it is just the start. To act like a Knight of the Will, you need to follow that rule. And to be a
true Knight of the Will, not just in word or action, but in your heart, you need to internalize it. Believe it. Make it part of you. We don't punish, we protect. We don't fight to destroy evil, we fight to preserve good.”
Humbled by his master's words, Jaelnec could only bow his head in acceptance of these surprisingly philosophical instructions. He had never heard Freagon speak like this before, and it quite frankly amazed and slightly frightened him.
“So...” Jaelnec began after a moment's hesitation, “can I fight?”
Freagon scoffed, and started slowly walking toward his pupil. “Pages don't fight.”
Again Jaelnec felt his heart sink. “But –”
“Draw your sword.”
The fact that the knight did not pause his stride, but kept slowly and inexorably approaching, combined with that statement, was enough to prompt Jaelnec to take a step back warily. “I-I don't understand, sir...”
“Draw your sword.”
Hesitantly and confusedly, Jaelnec reached down to grasp the hilt at his side and, in one smooth motion, let the steel blade slide out of the scabbard, and took a defensive stance.
Freagon came to a stop about a meter from Jaelnec. “Kneel, take off your hat and place the sword on the ground between us.”
Jaelnec's eyes widened. “You mean...”
“I told you,” the older nightwalker grumbled impatiently, “pages don't fight. Kneel, Page Jaelnec of the Will.”
Trying his very best to do so with a measured pace and some semblance of dignity, Jaelnec followed his master's instructions and knelt before him, and reverently placed his sword at the knight's feet. Meanwhile, as Freagon towered over his ward, he drew Roct from its scabbard and let its pristine blade gleam beautifully in the sunlight.
As Jaelnec lowered his head and looked at the ground, Freagon raised the sartal sword and touched the flat of the blade to his forehead. They held these positions for a couple of seconds before Freagon asked: “Infant, what name did your Will take?”
Jaelnec answered without hesitation: “My Will is Jaelnec, for my Will and I are one.”
“Child, through whom did you learn your Will?”
“My Will was taught by Sir Freagon, and his page I remain.”
Freagon nodded his head approvingly and lowered his sword so that the opposite flat of the blade was resting on the top of Jaelnec's head. “Man, who will let you touch your Will?”
Uncertain whether he was about to start crying or laughing, all Jaelnec was sure of was that he could not stop his voice from trembling: “My Will shall be brought by Sir Freagon, and his squire I shall be.”
“Death before dishonor.”
“Dishonor before disloyalty.”
“Disloyalty before evil,” Freagon spoke the final line of the declaration. “Show me if your Will can guide the future.”
Freagon moved his sword, took a step back and sheathed Roct. “Rise, Squire Jaelnec of the Will. Let's get a move on; we've got bandits to kill.”
“Are you sure about this, sir?” the other asked as he retrieved his weapon and stood. It was a little weird since he had been the one trying to convince his master to let him fight, but this development was much more drastic than he had expected. “Do you think I'm ready? I can barely last even ten seconds against you...”
“You're looking at it wrong,” Freagon asserted, not looking back as he started walking off. “You can almost last a whole ten seconds against
me; most petty bandits won't stand a chance.”