The team managed to get a head start while Aidan was still struggling to keep his balance and even if he tried to lean against the wall next to him. The jolt that struck him through his torso nearly crippled him, a set of sharp and burning pains echoed through him and rattled his ribs and spine. He could feel his knees give in to his own weight, his innards turning inside out and his lungs becoming more and more tired with every sigh and gasp; he could barely muster strength to lift his leg and force a step forwards and keep his balance on it, then the next step came with an even greater effort. A few more steps forwards, he noticed that he got used to the pace and that he was making a bit of progress. He felt some relief seeing that there were no other enemy contacts inside the building and if there were any, the team most likely took care of them before he could reach up.
I have to get out and in a bed now. No call for help, they've got more important stuff on their hands
He didn't feel insulted or ignored, since he was used to this treatment from the very beginning. He had always been a tool, a thing to use and exploit; it all would be sugarcoated by his father, telling him that he is a hero of the nation, a true canine, a real man and not a coward using cover and weapons to make his way in life. Guilt struck him hard when, during school, he couldn't pull himself together and learn anything, since he did not know how to do something for his own sake, rather than doing someone else a favor; he didn't see the point in learning anything, since it would only benefit him, but his attitude changed when his parents told him that some day, he will save more lives with the skills learnt during school and, maybe, college.
It culminated when he decided to be part of the LDF, both his parents were mighty disappointed in his decision, believing that Aidan still refused to learn and just wanted to cop out of life by doing a brute job. He felt as though he finally took control of his life when he signed his name on the application form, he felt that he will once more find his long lost purpose by helping and defending others with his life; conflict awakened him from the dormant state he'd been since he was five years old, feeling right at home when bullets zipped past his head, thundering roars from explosions hurting his ears and sounds of people dying around him. It troubled him that chaos was the only place he could feel at peace, often times wandering what would he do when he will return home to a life of slowly growing mushrooms between his toes while watching television. Seeing that there were no other people like him around, he isolated himself and kept his mind busy with everything he could find, learning more and more about GEAR models so he would extricate just about anyone stuck in a damaged vehicle, while burning pages after pages from thick tomes of traumatology medicine.
When he finally found someone that could understand his plight, albeit her not experiencing the same turmoil as him, his mind could not fathom just how anyone could put up with him, with the real him; it was easy to smile, to pretend that he was a cordial kind of man, a good friend, but he felt that he couldn't lie to her with this sort of attitude, so instead, he let out all of his pain. He didn't hurt, abuse or taunt her, but there were nights after nights of rambling, screaming and sobbing over his own importance and no matter what she would say to him, he would stubbornly remain with the thought that he wasn't worth the clothes he was wearing if he didn't put his life on the line to earn any form of respect. Being separation took a huge toll on Aidan, since he felt that there was another thing that was out of his control; he knew somewhere in him that she could be trusted, but experience and most of his rationality tortured him into believing that she was unfaithful, as so many other people around him are. Unfaithful to their lovers, their superiors, to their country, all while he was the only one that had dedicated his life to help others survive and live peacefully at home, have a family dinner and laugh at trivialities. It was so unfair.
Again, he felt that sort of unfairness, witnessing the team taking the important lady out in a top-security kind of maneuver, while he was left behind to lag, stutter and limp his way back to the cruiser; she was very important, yes, but he had single-handedly extracted the princess from her cell, no one batted an eyelid. Kellia expressed her concern, but so would anyone who could see his physical state; the three soldiers following Es didn't bother helping him to his feet and at least offer some fulcrum so he could walk. If she said that Aidan's fine so long he can walk, they couldn't bother actually walking up to him and offer help anyway. If only they knew the sacrifices he had made to make sure Es would get her treatment done, with or without his presence. By the time he reached the exit of the warehouse, he collapsed against the wall, slipping over a wet spot; he bumped his head and shook his mind, crushed his shoulder and felt his ankle hurt too now. Looking back at the pool he slipped over, he could see small drips of blood trailing the path he followed to reach the exit. Looking down, he saw a brown shirt instead of a blue one, fresh blood streak wetting the fabric with every pulse.
Is this how they all feel when they look down and see blood? Every one of them? It's like, I know there's no escape, but I also know that I can make it if I pull hard enough. I'll do it. I'll show them my worth.
He then went deaf. Seconds turned into minutes as he raised his gaze back up, seeing Ed turning his head around to lock his eyes with Aidan's. He slowly started to shout something, but the canine paid no more mind to him, as a shadow at the corner of his left eye attracted his attention. Down the alley, he could see a small thing crouched over something, which then spoke.
"I'll prove it. I'll do it. I'll show them I am worthy." It stood up on its little feet, a small brownish tail erupting from a pair of red shorts, wagging happily.
"I'll lie, I'll step over tails, I'll kill, but I will be worthy." One of its ears flinched as it wrinkled its snout to sniff water running down its nose.
When Aidan tried to whisper something to it, the child turned around and looked up, concerned over something. He had a large, bloody bandage strapped to his bare tummy, but the adult canine was shocked to see how similar the child looked, compared to himself when he was much younger.
"I am important."
Looking up, he could hear a thundering crackle, loads of dust and debris irritating his eyes as they fell. He dropped his gaze back down to Ed, which seemed to have moved about an inch closer to him. The canine shook his head and closed his eyes, before there was once more nothing. Nothing to see, nothing to hear, nothing to feel or taste. Nothing to live for, for there was nothing left.
I have to get out and in a bed now. No call for help, they've got more important stuff on their hands
He didn't feel insulted or ignored, since he was used to this treatment from the very beginning. He had always been a tool, a thing to use and exploit; it all would be sugarcoated by his father, telling him that he is a hero of the nation, a true canine, a real man and not a coward using cover and weapons to make his way in life. Guilt struck him hard when, during school, he couldn't pull himself together and learn anything, since he did not know how to do something for his own sake, rather than doing someone else a favor; he didn't see the point in learning anything, since it would only benefit him, but his attitude changed when his parents told him that some day, he will save more lives with the skills learnt during school and, maybe, college.
It culminated when he decided to be part of the LDF, both his parents were mighty disappointed in his decision, believing that Aidan still refused to learn and just wanted to cop out of life by doing a brute job. He felt as though he finally took control of his life when he signed his name on the application form, he felt that he will once more find his long lost purpose by helping and defending others with his life; conflict awakened him from the dormant state he'd been since he was five years old, feeling right at home when bullets zipped past his head, thundering roars from explosions hurting his ears and sounds of people dying around him. It troubled him that chaos was the only place he could feel at peace, often times wandering what would he do when he will return home to a life of slowly growing mushrooms between his toes while watching television. Seeing that there were no other people like him around, he isolated himself and kept his mind busy with everything he could find, learning more and more about GEAR models so he would extricate just about anyone stuck in a damaged vehicle, while burning pages after pages from thick tomes of traumatology medicine.
When he finally found someone that could understand his plight, albeit her not experiencing the same turmoil as him, his mind could not fathom just how anyone could put up with him, with the real him; it was easy to smile, to pretend that he was a cordial kind of man, a good friend, but he felt that he couldn't lie to her with this sort of attitude, so instead, he let out all of his pain. He didn't hurt, abuse or taunt her, but there were nights after nights of rambling, screaming and sobbing over his own importance and no matter what she would say to him, he would stubbornly remain with the thought that he wasn't worth the clothes he was wearing if he didn't put his life on the line to earn any form of respect. Being separation took a huge toll on Aidan, since he felt that there was another thing that was out of his control; he knew somewhere in him that she could be trusted, but experience and most of his rationality tortured him into believing that she was unfaithful, as so many other people around him are. Unfaithful to their lovers, their superiors, to their country, all while he was the only one that had dedicated his life to help others survive and live peacefully at home, have a family dinner and laugh at trivialities. It was so unfair.
Again, he felt that sort of unfairness, witnessing the team taking the important lady out in a top-security kind of maneuver, while he was left behind to lag, stutter and limp his way back to the cruiser; she was very important, yes, but he had single-handedly extracted the princess from her cell, no one batted an eyelid. Kellia expressed her concern, but so would anyone who could see his physical state; the three soldiers following Es didn't bother helping him to his feet and at least offer some fulcrum so he could walk. If she said that Aidan's fine so long he can walk, they couldn't bother actually walking up to him and offer help anyway. If only they knew the sacrifices he had made to make sure Es would get her treatment done, with or without his presence. By the time he reached the exit of the warehouse, he collapsed against the wall, slipping over a wet spot; he bumped his head and shook his mind, crushed his shoulder and felt his ankle hurt too now. Looking back at the pool he slipped over, he could see small drips of blood trailing the path he followed to reach the exit. Looking down, he saw a brown shirt instead of a blue one, fresh blood streak wetting the fabric with every pulse.
Is this how they all feel when they look down and see blood? Every one of them? It's like, I know there's no escape, but I also know that I can make it if I pull hard enough. I'll do it. I'll show them my worth.
He then went deaf. Seconds turned into minutes as he raised his gaze back up, seeing Ed turning his head around to lock his eyes with Aidan's. He slowly started to shout something, but the canine paid no more mind to him, as a shadow at the corner of his left eye attracted his attention. Down the alley, he could see a small thing crouched over something, which then spoke.
"I'll prove it. I'll do it. I'll show them I am worthy." It stood up on its little feet, a small brownish tail erupting from a pair of red shorts, wagging happily.
"I'll lie, I'll step over tails, I'll kill, but I will be worthy." One of its ears flinched as it wrinkled its snout to sniff water running down its nose.
When Aidan tried to whisper something to it, the child turned around and looked up, concerned over something. He had a large, bloody bandage strapped to his bare tummy, but the adult canine was shocked to see how similar the child looked, compared to himself when he was much younger.
"I am important."
Looking up, he could hear a thundering crackle, loads of dust and debris irritating his eyes as they fell. He dropped his gaze back down to Ed, which seemed to have moved about an inch closer to him. The canine shook his head and closed his eyes, before there was once more nothing. Nothing to see, nothing to hear, nothing to feel or taste. Nothing to live for, for there was nothing left.