Lunalel Lightsword and Maoin
Maoin snuck into Luna’s apartment, finding her way deeper in. The kitten gulped and hoped the dragon didn’t see her pour a generous amount of drink into a glass as she stood in the kitchen area.
While the Dragon hadn’t noticed, a certain Knightess did. She hadn’t been able to sleep knowing that the cat was to return, but she hadn’t. So when she finally did, Luna escaped the clutches of her bed and more specifically the dragon that inhabited it.
”Maoin.” She mentioned softly, moving close to her. With a smile she pointed to the door, suggesting they talk somewhere where they could speak more openly without waking the slumbering dragon.
The kitten looked towards Luna with a little bit of surprise, but nodded as she realized it wasn’t likely she would be getting out of this. She had already poured the mug though, so Maoin headed outside along with Luna and seemed content to follow her for the time being.
Luna lead the cat to an open balcony area not too far away. It was cool, but not chilly out at this time.
”I thought something might have happened. Just wanted to make sure you’re okay.” Luna said as she leaned against the railing nearby.
”Considering how late it is, and the fact you poured yourself something, it doesn’t seem too good now.” ”E-everything is fine!” The cat lied, partially to herself. Maoin could be deceptive for her owner, but lacked the ability to do anything for herself. Like most things in her life. The kitten sat on the balcony edge, allowing her tail to provide a sense of balance at giving some satisfaction to her cat instincts.
”I was just out, because y’know. Lady Sorcha wanted me gone and all.” It hurt a little bit to say it, but it was true, wasn’t it? The dragon didn’t want her around. Lady Gwynn never wanted to see her again, did she? For all her bravado in the bar, she was still rejected. The cat’s ears noticeably dropped and she shivered slightly as a cold fall breeze went by, the kitten taking a sip of the ale to help warm herself.
”Sorcha didn’t want you gone, exactly. She just probably didn’t want to show you the side of her that was a bit softer. You know how she is with her pride.” Luna said as she took the alcohol out of Maoin’s hands and took a sip of it before returning it.
”Heh, the strong stuff? Not exactly something to drink right before bed. Unless you drink a lot of it.” She added, looking the cat over.
”So, nothing’s bothering you? I’ve spent a lot of years around adolescents that try to hold up, albeit most of them were males and humans. Regardless, is it only about Sorcha then?” ”... in … in a way I guess …?” It was rather apparent that the kitten was trying to justify that, but then she shook her head a moment later and curled her knees up to her chest. Then she looked away from Lady Lightsword, but as she spoke about her new owner it was clear she believed it all.
”... Lady Sorcha’s strong, unstoppable, powerful, beautiful and a force of personality that demands and gathers the respect of everyone. She’s a patient and great teacher and is extremely passionate and caring.” The kitten spoke softly as she continued however, head tilting more downwards.
”I look up to her … despite being injured she still lives day to day. If she was any less prideful everyone would consider her annoyingly modest. I’m sure every servant she has had in all these years has felt honored to be by her side. And they should be.” ”And you’re good at compliments.” It was cute in it’s own way. Luna couldn’t help but pet the cat’s head a bit. She ruffled her hair a bit before releasing and continuing.
”Even so, she’s not completely unstoppable. After all, the only reason she became my familiar is because I bested her in combat. Well, I may say that, but I think we both knocked each other out in the end with a few broken bones on my part.” It was painful and scary, but Luna couldn’t help but laugh looking back on it.
”As much as you spend your breath on complimenting Sorcha and mentioning her best parts, I think you’re looking past someone else a bit.” The cat simply seemed confused after she enjoyed the pets, raising an eyebrow at the other girl as she turned her head. Was … was she supposed to be complimenting Luna as well?
”You don’t have much self-esteem do you?” Luna asked, bluntly but jokingly.
The cat remained silent, sipping more of the ale as her eyes watered slightly and her head tilted downwards.
”... uh …” Either way of answering that question would sound silly of course. She had a lot of self doubt, but saying ‘I have no self esteem’ simply sounded dumb. And saying yes … she had as much self esteem as she deserved, right? Trying to make herself think of how the answer the question made her want to run away and hide, but unless she planned on spending the night on the streets that wasn’t much of an option.
”I’ll take that as a yes?” Luna asked, but took it as the answer regardless. Well, it was quite obvious to anyone that spoke to her for more than a few minutes. She petted the cat’s head when she noticed a tear down the side of her face.
”I don’t know what you’ll think coming from me, but I think you should have a bit more confidence in yourself. You put up with Sorcha’s attitude and went under her wing so you’ve definitely have patience.” Luna half wished Sorcha was there at the moment to poke fun at her, but this conversation wouldn’t be had if she were here, would it?
The kitten shifted somewhat uncomfortably.
”No, she’s just generous. I broke down in the middle of a store and sprinted off. Lady Sorcha found me crying in some destitute alleyway and sort of just claimed me by locking this collar around my neck.” Maoin chuckled a bit as she tugged on the collar around her neck.
”There wasn’t a lot of asking involved. She has enough pity to not let a silly cat run off and hurt herself whether or not she wants to.” ”I’m probably going to have a little talk with Sorcha sometime, doesn’t seem she told me all about her adventure.” Luna said considering what she might ask at a later date.
”Well, I’ll goad it out sometime.” Luna took the mug out of Maoin’s hands again and took a drink before handing it back again.
”Either way, I think we’re a little off track.” Luna sort of lost what they were talking about.
”Right, your good points. You’re a hard-worker aren’t you?” ”Y-your place is still dusty. I should have cleaned it.” The kitten said this and took a small swig.
”And I should have come back earlier to give Lady Sorcha an extra massage - I know after a long day her shoulders ache quite a bit. She probably isn’t going to sleep as well because of me.” She took another swing of the drink, coughed slightly, then offered it back to Lady Lightsword as she sat on the balcony edge.
”Hehe. You can be funny when you want too.” Luna said before taking another drink, holding on to it since the cat gave it over.
”It’s hard to expect something clean when you get back, eat a bit and then get ordered to leave. And Sorcha’ll just have to live without a message for the night.” She took another drink. There wasn’t much left in this. She offered it back to the cat in case she wanted the last bit, since she poured it anyhow.
The cat finished the drink wish a single thing, keeping it for herself as she’d need to wash it later.
”... I … I guess you're right.” It seemed like she was somewhat convinced on that point, but not the entire conversation.
”Still though, she could have done better than a simple hard working cat with too many emotions.” ”Perhaps, perhaps not. She might have took you in for that, she may have also brought you in since you’re kind of cute.” Like a little sister, or, a little sister that was always down on herself. Luna couldn’t help but pet her head as she said it either.
”I’m not going to tell you to not do what you do. If you want to work for Sorcha, there’s worse you could work for. Just have a little confidence in yourself. You can talk to me if you have problems.” Maoin leaned into the petting, letting out a few soft mews as she enjoyed the affection. She couldn’t deny being the softest, most adorable kitten ever now could she? As it came to an end though and Luna continued talking her expression dropped as if a heavy weight was dropped on her chest.
”... I …” It was apparent the cat certainly had something to talk about as she gulped, but remained silent in the moment. She still felt horrible, and lifted her knees up to her chest and put her face against them as a few soft sobs forced themselves out.
”... I know …” As the moment turned somber, Luna sat down next to the cat looking at her. Sometimes one just needed to cry before they could feel better. She patted the cat’s head lightly, enough to comfort.
”I’m not going to force you to talk if you don’t want, but I find that going to bed like this tends to make you feel bad in the morning.” She hoped Maoin would talk to her, but there was nothing to be done if she didn’t.
The cat was a little surprised as Luna sat down next to her, but found herself enjoying the company. For a few moments the kitten remained still until her head turned towards the knightess, eyes watering slightly as soon as they were wiped off.
”C-can you promise not to tell her anything?” The girl’s wide eyes looked deep into those of Lady Luna with the desperation of someone who needed to get something off their chest.
Luna smiled, happy that the cat was ready to talk.
”Yes, I promise. So long as no one was murdered at least.” There was little to no reason for that to happen.
”I don’t lie about this kind of thing.” Maoin’s ears rose slightly, but then fell as she thought more about what she was going to say. It almost seemed to physically hurt her to finally say what she meant to.
”I’m not loyal.” None of the other characteristics could make up for that in a servant - ever.
”Do tell.” Luna said, questioningly looking at the cat. That wasn’t very much. There had to be a story of sorts to this right?
”I … I …” She gave Lady Luna a good, hard look. Could she really trust her? It took the cat a bit to collect herself as she forced herself to remain looking in the girl’s direction and start speaking.
”... I’m afraid that I’m just going to be one in a long line of servants. I’m not really going to make a difference for her - she’s already practically perfect, and there’s nothing I can do to really make her life better. I miss the familiar bond a bit … it’s just comforting, is all. Helps you get through the work day when you can feel them throughout it.” The kitten paused for a moment, catching her breath as she spoke sadly and with a great deal of shame. Though she transferred over to a slight chuckle as she spoke of the next topic.
”... I like getting physical affection - pets and sex and just laying around for a while … I don’t know if I’m supposed to beg or something. I guess she’d at least find it cute.” ”S-s-sex?” Luna said, innocently. Wait, this cat seemed really young didn’t she?
”I-I-I don’t kn-know about that. . .” Luna really didn’t see what this had to do with loyalty yet really.
”Did you go and. . . That. . . With someone or something? I mean, it’s immoral to do . . . that. . . With someone you’re not ‘with’ but. . .” She really had no idea what to say. This really was the last thing she thought this would be about. Actually, was she just focusing on something here?
The kitten blinked at Lady Luna as she stammered out her response and blushed in return. Suddenly, she felt bad for disappointing the girl and rather than teasing her simply leaned backwards apologetically as her hands moved back and forth as if trying to wave away a misconception.
”I-I wasn’t with any-one and I’ve only ever done it with L-lady Gwynn! W-we weren’t together but I was her familiar at the t-time a-and as a servant t-that’s sometimes a s-service or a r-reward!” ”W-w-wait! Service or reward!? S-s-s. . . That!?” Luna wondered if she was just weird for thinking that was odd.
”People do things like that with their familiars? Is that normal?” Luna’s head was spinning. She could be handling the situation better.
”I-I think so?” The cat had been told it was. In fact, she had been told it was almost expected. But now she was doubting herself.
”M-maybe it’s just like an Irish thing to do that with one’s owner?” Her face was flushed a bit as she continued.
”I-I mean it’s fine and all if you don’t Lady Lightsword! You don’t have to! I-It’s good for a Lady to maintain herself for marriage sometimes, right? L-learn together rather than bringing outside experience in!?” Luna was blushing from ear to ear. This kind of talk was easily taboo in her house.
”I don’t. . . I’ll discreetly bring this up with Sorcha later. I won’t mention you don’t worry. It was time to pass by this topic.
”And please, just call me Luna. I’m not your master exactly.” That was a good way to change topic.
”How does THAT relate to you not being loyal?” The cat’s ears dropped as the blush filled conversation came to an end.
”I … I just think a good servant wouldn’t mind those things. It’s not my point to be bothered by them, you know?” For a couple of seconds the girl sighed as her mind drifted to the real problem.
She curled her legs closer.
”... but I tried to take my mis- Lady Gwynn home - and …” She supposed she should start from the beginning.
”... when I left this place I happened to run into Lady Gwynn near the festival.” Her eyes looked up towards those of Luna.
Well, Luna could sort of put two and two together out of that.
”Ahh, so. . . I see. . .You were wanting to . . . Right. . . So, I mean. . .” Words Luna, use words.
”So, were you wanting to go be her familiar then?” The kitten curled up a bit more, mumbling some incoherent response. Her voice choked up a bit as her ears went completely flat and she turned her head to be buried her head into her knees.
”Y-yeah.” The voice was barely audible and filled with shame.
Everything came out.
The cat told Luna how she had tried to kill herself that night when her confession was shot down.
How upset she was.
How small she felt.
The next day she was abandoned.
Livia told her the truth - she wasn’t worth anything and only thought of her mistress as some storybook hero.
How depressed she was.
How the dragon held her and trained her, trying to make her strong. How they decided to go after her lady.
But she wasn’t strong.
She just cried.
How she broke down in the store, screaming about just wanting to be a pet.
She was ready to give up.
But she was claimed.
And now she couldn’t tell everything to her own teacher.
How she suffered nightmares for the hundreds of ways in which Lady Gwynn could have died because she didn’t - hadn’t said anything.
And how horrible she felt.
Sorcha deserved better.
How they met up in the street, staring.
She felt petrified.
How she socked Lady Gwynn across the face.
She felt guilty.
How they went to the bar, and described their own adventures.
And how she imagined being ‘rescued’.
How the two of them danced in circles over and over again, her heart being happy once more.
Another confession.
A slight interruption, where she pretended to be tough, strong, aggressive. Everything Lady Gwynn wanted.
Her blood boiled.
Her asking Lady Gwynn to go home.
And how she was rejected, again.
”I Love Her!” The kitten’s voice was quivering by the time her tale ended.
”She abandoned me the first time I made a drunken mistake. I served her loyally for an entire year.” The cat seemed enraged.
”I wish I had just acted differently when I was with her. I wish I wasn’t me, a-” Throughout the whole story, Luna felt like she was going to break herself. It was all too sad. By the end, it was too much. With teary eyes, the Knightess threw her arms around the cat and pulled her close.
”No.” Luna wasn’t sure what to say. She wasn’t quite in the state Maoin was in, but she was feeling pretty emotional too.
”You did nothing wrong. It’s an odd situation and if you’re at fault, Gwynn is at the least as much at fault as you.” She kept a firm grip on the cat. It always felt her feel better when her family held her like this during bad times.
”Acting is just that. It would change nothing.” Maoin resisted the hug for half a second. She wasn’t-
Then she exploded into tears, gripping onto Luna like she was the last thing in the world. She hardly knew the woman, really. She’d run into her once while trying to get Lady Gwynn to class.
”Th-then I’d just change myself! Who needs silly dresses and makeup anyways!?” That had been one of the things that had irritated her mistress to no end. She’d had this conversation before but Lady Luna would understand at least. She didn’t care about those things either.
”She didn’t even want me back in Ireland. She just chose me randomly. She never thought of me as anything more than a cute, innocent cat to be protected. And - and she abandons me in the night? Her pet? Who fucking does that!?” Anger entered the girl’s voice as one of her hands pounded against Luna in frustration.
”I would die for her! I STILL would die for her! I don’t care if she needs to beat me to get her frustration out, I don’t care if I’ll never touch the land again, I don’t care if she doesn’t pet me or love me or get close to me.” Of course, she did care.
”I-I just want her to want me back!” Luna was silent as Maoin let it all out. She couldn’t understand how Maoin was so adamant about wanting to be with Gwynn.
”I don’t understand how you can still want to be with her after all of this. You’re a strange cat, you know that?” If that were Luna, she’d want to look away and have nothing to do with them ever again. . . After socking them in the face a few times at least.
”Yet, I don’t think your problem is loyalty. . . You know?” She added followed by a few sniffs of her nose.
”Or, probably just too loyal to the wrong person.” The cat nodded.
”I know. I should despise her. That’s what someone strong would do. But I don’t.” For a few seconds she remained buried against Lady Luna, as if doing so would make all of her problems go away and that the brave knightess would protect her from all these feelings.
”I’m not going to tell you what to feel. But, as it is now, you’re part of our family here. Sorcha is a little rough about it, but I think we’re both on your side.” She released her grasp on the cat a bit.
”You’re free to do what you want but that means you need to make your own decisions. If you want to stay Sorcha’s servant that’s fine. If you want to go back to Gwynn, as much as I dislike that thought right now, that’s your decision if she’d take you back.” She made her position on the matter obvious, but it wasn’t her decision.
The kitten nodded - she hated making decisions. And besides, it wasn’t up to her to choose who she belonged to.
”No. I-I’m sorry, but I belong to Lady Sorcha now.” The cat tugged a bit on her collar.
”I’m her property. It’s not my decision to make.” Luna would likely realize that there wasn’t a point in arguing this part as Maoin said it as if it were the divine will of god.
Luna looked distraught at Maoin’s insistence that she was Sorcha’s property.
”You’re a living, breathing being. . . I don’t know what happened, but you obviously have feelings too. You’re not some object.” The Knightess closed her eyes and took a breath.
”Sorry. It just runs wrongly in my head, that way of thinking.” The kitten gave Lady Lightsword a look of understanding.
”... yeah … Lady Gwynn would probably agree with you there at least.” She wondered how someone wouldn’t want to be someone’s loyal pet either, but humans and many familiars were strange to her.
The cat took a hand and pushed herself upwards so that she was looking Luna in the eyes.
”Please don’t tell Lady Sorcha any of this. S-she deserves better than this. I-I’ll get used to it, alright?” It was obvious it was physically painful to the cat to imagine a life without belonging to Lady Gwynn, but she had promised to serve Lady Sorcha until she rested in the ground. And so she would.
Luna scratched her head a little bit.
”I don’t think Sorcha would be too mad if you just talked to her about it you know.” Sorcha wasn’t some heartless monster. Well, most the time at least. Not since she had first laid eyes on the dragon.
”Well, as long as I don’t think it’ll cause any major issues with anyone, my lips are shut.” The kitten nodded, seeming satisfied as she fell into Luna again, cuddling close to her as suddenly the night air seemed a bit cold.
”Sorry for bothering you with all of this.” ”What have been telling you?” Luna asked as she stood herself, and pet the cat’s head a bit.
”So long as you’re here with us, you’re family to me. This isn’t a bother at all. Now, let’s get to bed. I still have class in the morning. Can you take my spot for one night. Sometimes Sorcha can be a bit difficult to escape in the mornings.” Luna wouldn’t find the cat responding to her however as she continued to lean against Lady Lightsword breathing softly against her chest. It seemed she had already gone to bed before Luna even entered the house.
Luna sighed. Of course, she drank a lot if she went to a tavern earlier as well.
”Not like I’ve never picked up and carried a grown man. I had some help, but Maoin should be lighter anyhow.” Luna picked the cat up in a princess carry and made her way back into her room, setting Maoin in her old spot. The cat would have to take her spot for one night. Still, Sorcha would do bad things to her if she weren’t next to her completely. . . Plus, she had something to talk to the dragon about before she headed off to class.