Ryan paused, and he climbed back up the ladder and back onto the roof. He took a seat and looked down, not making eye contact with Nyx. "Look. I know what I said was pretty bullshit.. but that's just me. Always saying crap that offends people or pisses them off. It's a bad habit of mine. It's how I got kicked out of the house... and it's why I was homeless for a while. Shit, I know it screws up first impressions with a lot of people. I got enough battered bones from fights to attest to that fact. But I still do it. I just gotta do it. Because when you don' got nothin, you gotta do something with that nothin. I'm not the type to mope around and cry at all of my misfortunes. People only seem to notice me when I say shocking stuff. Or when they they find out I'm a defect. I know what you're going to say. Suck it up right? Grow some balls and take it like a man." Ryan picked up a pebble from the roof and fiddled around with it in his fingers. "But this is who I am now. Can't change it one bit.. not even if I wanted to."