Lily jumped slightly when she felt a wave of a strange hot/cold sensation brush across her shoulder. She turned to see Carmen pulling away. Had she tried to touched her? For what reason? Lily was a bit confused both by the touch and how it felt. Why wasn't she solid? She was clearly kind of gaseous but still... What was she made of anyway? Lily would have to ask later... Eventually.
She chuckled at the expression Matt was giving her. It was as if he wanted her to explain to Carmen what he was. Why, she didn't know. But she guessed should oblige. "Matt's either... the phoenix or a phoenix. I'm pretty sure he's the phoenix but I don't want to be wrong..." Lily spoke for Matt, turning to give Carmen a smile. She turned back to Matt to respond to his previous statement. "See. I knew you were strong enough to get to that point. After all, it's true that we've both changed quite a bit. Though... I don't think I'm much better with my powers than I was in the beginning. I'm still the same as I was in that regard..." She responded, trailing off a bit.
What am I doing getting all depressed?
"Anyway. Even if you can't talk, It would be fun to fly together. Maybe we can find some place to stop for a bit and talk." She explained, looking at her two friends. "After all, I haven't talk to you like that in a long time, Matt." She added, smiling at Matt. It was true. They'd spoken to each other, but not like they had before. She had to admit that she really missed talking to him like they did before, in the hallways of Kalmaysia.
She grinned, spreading out her wings, oblivious to the other people around her. She knew where most of them were anyway. She could feel them at all times since they were so close. Well... She could feel all expect Xanthus. Where was he? Wait... Why did she care? She let out a long sigh, her grin slightly fading. She didn't know what to think about him. She felt like she just needed to end it but then what would happen to him? She felt bad for him now but she also didn't want to put her in a situation that she clearly felt bad in. But then... that was who she was, right? Putting herself out there for her friends? Her smile softened as she looked at her friends. Tonight, she'd have to go find him. Once she was done here. She needed to at least confront him. Where that led, she didn't know. But she was prepared to see it through whatever it was.
He left quickly, and quietly, resigned to sit by Lily's cabin and wait for her to return. He was on the roof, staring out at the lights across the way, the lights of the lounge. Around him, he could hear wildlife and the crash of the waves against the island. It was a pretty humid night but great all things considered. There was a nice breeze and the moon lit everything well enough that he could see most everything. The sky was a dark blue hue, clouds dotting the night sky. He could still see the stars through them, however. Though, they held no meaning for him anymore. He didn't belong here. Those weren't his stars anymore, maybe they never were.
He sighed and fell back against the roof, watching them with listless eyes. No... They weren't his stars. None of this was his anymore. He had no rights to it. He had no rights to her... He closed his eyes in frustration and turned his body to face the sea. He began to wonder what the cold sea felt like. He'd never been able to experience it. He probably never would. He'd never experience any of this again. What would await him after all of this? Would anything await him? What awaits a dying demon? Surely not hell. It must be something far worse than hell. The only the worse he could imagine was... nothing. To feel and see nothing. To be... nothing. That was a far worse thing and something he'd always feared, even when he was alive.
Nothing.
What did Nothing feel like? What would it be like to be Nothing? He sighed. He didn't even possess the ability to cry anymore. And if he did, he couldn't feel the possible tears falling from his cheeks now. He couldn't feel anything. He only knew it was humid because of the location. It might not even be that way. It might be terribly cold. He didn't know. He couldn't feel it. He could feel... Nothing.
Ignoring the cries of pain from his chest, Alex beamed up brightly at the couple he was with. To be fair, Crash was a nice guy and Alex hadn't known Kathy very long. He shouldn't have feelings like this anyway. After all, he knew Kathy really only had eyes for Crash. In situations like this, he was lucky to even be noticed by the two love birds. Maybe... If he couldn't be happy himself, he should make it his goal to make them happy, to get them together. How he would do that, he didn't know but he had plans to try. After all, what was a pixie besides a mischief maker.
He chuckled to himself, feeling the pain lessen a bit. He jumped off of Kathy's back and flew over her head, smiling to himself. "Well? When are we going to go? I'm tired of just waiting around." He spoke, floating upside down, his wings strong enough to lift him even in that position. "To adventure!" Alex shouted, pointing in a random direction.