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When she had arrived amoung the usual troupe [time to spare it would seem] it was riddled with tension and words, she appeared at the cusp of Olivia's agitation and her shadow pulsed abroad with it. Thus started the nervous twinge that flared constantly in her arm, nerves impulsed, causing the tendons to tighten in flexing notions and her fingers to clench inward to scrape against her scar. Freddy's usual bluster hadn't appeared to assist in any manner, his own embarrassment chaffing her shadow and the brunt of unrequited affections hung there like an awkward sign flickering oddly in broadcast. She observed the particular trio with a sort of long forgotten anguish that had reared an ugly front in her heart, they reminded her so much of her brothers; loud, mischievous, kind and bold. Every critical detail was there and she almost approached them at that moment, to bask in memory, to not feel so alone. It was a harsh reality though, with blue eyes flickering over Thael, that his light would chase away at her shadows. He was aglow in the things, so trivial to some, that she desired: those affections, the warmth of something. Everything he had, she did not. It was almost pure jealousy that scalded her inside, festering with the pool of lava banked somewhere in her that coiled like a serpent, that made her shadows thrum with the heat just as her skin almost burned.
So she had looked away, favouring Remi, Emily, Olivia â anyone else aside from them.
Magdalena loved them, there wasn't a doubt within her soul, but there was something to be desired in their adult selves when compared to their youth now long forgotten and hampered by war. She had never been one of affectionate tendencies, the only comfort she could provide was brief touches of her delicate fingers, but even those were rare. Words even more so now as her consciousness seemed to consume her as her eyes fell onto the proffered platter of famous cuisine, though she doubted hot dogs could be so labeled. But she had thought the gesture characterized only of Roy and the obvious source of Olivia's irritation, that in its self made her cerulean gaze drop on the brunette in her luscious veneer that had been warped into irritation. Well then.
But as usual she had stood silently and held together, elegant, isolated, cast off more and more but still there. Her presence was small but noted in the constant whirl of her shadow that spun at her feet in the conflict of herself. Magdalena felt a flare of something, heat maybe, that came alive only when Thael spoke to her. It was different from her own fire, his was such a burning conflagration that it gleamed white and gold and something to really behold. Her eyes flickered only for a moment, squinting maybe that could have been defined as a narrowing gesture. But her voice had been anything but, her lips tipped into a smile, a little brittle on the edges and crinkling with appreciation â he still made that obvious effort to include her, to seek her out even if they couldn't touch. It was a loss, but, there was still something to gain with her friends.
"You know, I really did, thank you."
Her words were small. and a lie, but the wealth in their spoken cadence was more than that.
So she had looked away, favouring Remi, Emily, Olivia â anyone else aside from them.
Magdalena loved them, there wasn't a doubt within her soul, but there was something to be desired in their adult selves when compared to their youth now long forgotten and hampered by war. She had never been one of affectionate tendencies, the only comfort she could provide was brief touches of her delicate fingers, but even those were rare. Words even more so now as her consciousness seemed to consume her as her eyes fell onto the proffered platter of famous cuisine, though she doubted hot dogs could be so labeled. But she had thought the gesture characterized only of Roy and the obvious source of Olivia's irritation, that in its self made her cerulean gaze drop on the brunette in her luscious veneer that had been warped into irritation. Well then.
But as usual she had stood silently and held together, elegant, isolated, cast off more and more but still there. Her presence was small but noted in the constant whirl of her shadow that spun at her feet in the conflict of herself. Magdalena felt a flare of something, heat maybe, that came alive only when Thael spoke to her. It was different from her own fire, his was such a burning conflagration that it gleamed white and gold and something to really behold. Her eyes flickered only for a moment, squinting maybe that could have been defined as a narrowing gesture. But her voice had been anything but, her lips tipped into a smile, a little brittle on the edges and crinkling with appreciation â he still made that obvious effort to include her, to seek her out even if they couldn't touch. It was a loss, but, there was still something to gain with her friends.
"You know, I really did, thank you."
Her words were small. and a lie, but the wealth in their spoken cadence was more than that.
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The ceremony of course passed without a hitch or hiccup in the scheduled induction; Magdalena had stood before this council before [now affirmed with the head of BATW delegated to his settee] and this was no different in the way each individual conducted themselves in person venue. The only difference was her enrollment into a official unit rather than being inquired about the perplexities and complications of that which was officially named Chaos by these very personals, her eyes slid over each one in familiarity; her spine straight, her chin up â proud.
If there was anything to Magdalena's emotions, it was her effort and back-boning strength into her military pursuits. She had been willing, from the start, to induce herself into any branch that was available; be it utilizing her spirits into a machine, or scouring the world with a dark riddled agenda, to reach out with the inky tendrils of her pulsating shadows and pooling heat to bring everything to the forefront of this war. Whatever the circumstance, she would have done it. Standing here now with her friends was only a natural circumstance, in the end, and a blessing. Her blue eyes never strayed expect to glance at the broad glass in the background, to glance over the majestic architecture that was Oak Ridge, but her admiration was cut short when Cid stood before her. In the meeting of their glances she suddenly wondered what he thought: why she was here really, what convinced them that a wild card was required amoung this excursion. Was it an underlying plan hiding in the midst of ceremony, to access her in the field and wild rather than in the lab â to witness the beast illustrating in its natural habitual rituals. Her nervous twinge repeated, her fist clenched, and the keratin of her fingers cut hungry mouth of crescent smiles into her palms as the symbol of wolf and sword was before her then, her shadow bloomed wide around her and it was with a shadow warped hand that she finally accepted it.
The smooth, cold metal and material, suddenly felt like a stone in her hands.
If there was anything to Magdalena's emotions, it was her effort and back-boning strength into her military pursuits. She had been willing, from the start, to induce herself into any branch that was available; be it utilizing her spirits into a machine, or scouring the world with a dark riddled agenda, to reach out with the inky tendrils of her pulsating shadows and pooling heat to bring everything to the forefront of this war. Whatever the circumstance, she would have done it. Standing here now with her friends was only a natural circumstance, in the end, and a blessing. Her blue eyes never strayed expect to glance at the broad glass in the background, to glance over the majestic architecture that was Oak Ridge, but her admiration was cut short when Cid stood before her. In the meeting of their glances she suddenly wondered what he thought: why she was here really, what convinced them that a wild card was required amoung this excursion. Was it an underlying plan hiding in the midst of ceremony, to access her in the field and wild rather than in the lab â to witness the beast illustrating in its natural habitual rituals. Her nervous twinge repeated, her fist clenched, and the keratin of her fingers cut hungry mouth of crescent smiles into her palms as the symbol of wolf and sword was before her then, her shadow bloomed wide around her and it was with a shadow warped hand that she finally accepted it.
The smooth, cold metal and material, suddenly felt like a stone in her hands.
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Magdalena wasted no time in branching away from her beloveds at the awkward behest of Olivia's words, she signaled off with a mock salute and a too saccharine sweet grin that was pinched at its edges as her shadow hesitated, lingering amoung them all and even touching some before whisking off after to its loyal position. She clenched the emblem harder as she made her destination towards her room, to prepare ultimately for this sudden mission. No time to be wasted obviously, WARG was more punctual that she had anticipated. Magdalena wasn't entirely confident on what made her putter in such haste, so much that her chakri chimed with every bouncing step as her departure was brisk and rushed. Running away. But I'm not, I wouldn't. I can't.
Her shadow was quite literally shaking when she returned to the sanctuary that was her literal solitary confinement, she clenched her blue eyes shut and when her lashes swept back her room was smothered in apparitions that waved and spun, shimmering in ebony hues that was beautiful and yet eerie in their slow rotations. She shuddered, sucked in a harsh breath and panted into the air that was awash into monotonous shades of grey and black and more black. She recognized this feeling for what it was, she felt it when Chaos had been unleashed, had felt it afterwards when they told her that she was presumed dead in the way her body had lain so cold on that too white floor.
She was afraid.
Of what, she couldn't discern among herself, perhaps to fail her friends, to hurt them, harm them in anyway. She wouldn't do so intentionally, but accidents happened, she knew that all too well in her younger days when scurrying with her brothers and friends, when someone had broken their arm, when someone had fallen and banged their head a little too hard. When she had squeezed and squeezed her Mother's hand and made it bleed with her nails. Magdalena sunk against the wooden frame, glancing around at the cleanliness of her domicile, everything so neat and tucked away and her phone now aligned with her new uniform so stark and pressed that it looked cumbersome. It took much more strength now than it had this morning to get up, move, to do something. She reflected back on the ceremony, to the head of BATW staring her down, to the announcement of their sudden Captain, of which Magdalena had not been surprised. She recalled Olivia practically dragging her from her room to attend their up most ritual during the summer or when the dark haired beauty had simply asked, 'How are you?' on random intervals during their academic pursuits. She was leadership material in having kept them together, but a small twinge in her arm made her wonder, was she enough to lead her friends, now her subordinates into battle? Her responsibilities would be not only just brief concerns on their emotional or mental states, but their very lives as well. Magdalena did not envy her in the slightest and the thought made her shudder when her fingers plucked the uniform from its arranged folding.
The material was so new and tailored to her very physique, it was effortless in sliding it on, it hugged to her form much like her previous assigned attire did. Unlike her usual obsidian wears, this did not drape or appear loose on her alignment, the sleeves however were perhaps a bit more customized for her chakri as were the leggings, and the lapels and darker blues gave her more of an appeal â as typical of her, Magdalena's uniform often suited her best. There were no sheaths for her weapons, after all how would one hide such obvious arsenal, but there was a designated area for her largest circlet across her spine and a belt draped over her thin waist was delegated for the much smaller one that was capable of being disassembled. She attached chakri to both of her wrists with the bloom of scarlet always there and even fastened a pair around the ankles of her boots, these that hugged to her calves with her britches tucked within and were laced tight. Gearing up for battle was normal, despite the trembling of her gestures, despite her inner conflicts. But with this new routine, something clicked inside her.
She was still shaking as she exited from her dorm, giving a silent farewell to this moment, but the quivers were now associated with not only fear but with anticipation. To hurt, to bleed, and to fight.
Her shadow was quite literally shaking when she returned to the sanctuary that was her literal solitary confinement, she clenched her blue eyes shut and when her lashes swept back her room was smothered in apparitions that waved and spun, shimmering in ebony hues that was beautiful and yet eerie in their slow rotations. She shuddered, sucked in a harsh breath and panted into the air that was awash into monotonous shades of grey and black and more black. She recognized this feeling for what it was, she felt it when Chaos had been unleashed, had felt it afterwards when they told her that she was presumed dead in the way her body had lain so cold on that too white floor.
She was afraid.
Of what, she couldn't discern among herself, perhaps to fail her friends, to hurt them, harm them in anyway. She wouldn't do so intentionally, but accidents happened, she knew that all too well in her younger days when scurrying with her brothers and friends, when someone had broken their arm, when someone had fallen and banged their head a little too hard. When she had squeezed and squeezed her Mother's hand and made it bleed with her nails. Magdalena sunk against the wooden frame, glancing around at the cleanliness of her domicile, everything so neat and tucked away and her phone now aligned with her new uniform so stark and pressed that it looked cumbersome. It took much more strength now than it had this morning to get up, move, to do something. She reflected back on the ceremony, to the head of BATW staring her down, to the announcement of their sudden Captain, of which Magdalena had not been surprised. She recalled Olivia practically dragging her from her room to attend their up most ritual during the summer or when the dark haired beauty had simply asked, 'How are you?' on random intervals during their academic pursuits. She was leadership material in having kept them together, but a small twinge in her arm made her wonder, was she enough to lead her friends, now her subordinates into battle? Her responsibilities would be not only just brief concerns on their emotional or mental states, but their very lives as well. Magdalena did not envy her in the slightest and the thought made her shudder when her fingers plucked the uniform from its arranged folding.
The material was so new and tailored to her very physique, it was effortless in sliding it on, it hugged to her form much like her previous assigned attire did. Unlike her usual obsidian wears, this did not drape or appear loose on her alignment, the sleeves however were perhaps a bit more customized for her chakri as were the leggings, and the lapels and darker blues gave her more of an appeal â as typical of her, Magdalena's uniform often suited her best. There were no sheaths for her weapons, after all how would one hide such obvious arsenal, but there was a designated area for her largest circlet across her spine and a belt draped over her thin waist was delegated for the much smaller one that was capable of being disassembled. She attached chakri to both of her wrists with the bloom of scarlet always there and even fastened a pair around the ankles of her boots, these that hugged to her calves with her britches tucked within and were laced tight. Gearing up for battle was normal, despite the trembling of her gestures, despite her inner conflicts. But with this new routine, something clicked inside her.
She was still shaking as she exited from her dorm, giving a silent farewell to this moment, but the quivers were now associated with not only fear but with anticipation. To hurt, to bleed, and to fight.
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Cid had said twenty minutes though she hadn't of been exactly calculating the time. Her eyes drifted down to her phone numerous times, curious about the new additions and applications, as she scrolled through it mindlessly. Her mother had still not contacted her, of that she wasn't surprised, but there was a message or two from distant family on her father's side, claiming their pride in her induction into WARG and her graduation. Magdalena was surprised they had remembered her, after all, they had drifted apart upon his death and even more so when her mother burned everything. She sighed quietly to herself as she approached those who had assembled. It appeared that Kimberly was present, along with Kat and Emily, for the moment.
The Appleberry's though had taken her off guard with their warm presence, and looking at darling Sam only reminded her of her own childhood that had been without this love in the beginning of it. Magdalena's shadow vibrated in her nervousness when they addressed her, their smiles and laughter was so out there, so unlike her mother now â this was a family, a family that he had. And hers was dead. For the second time today, in no less than maybe an hour, she had been bridled with envy. Her fingers clenched against her scar for a brief moment before she hugged each of them in return, perhaps embracing a little too awkwardly though neither seemed to mind, and then a part of her wanted to hold on just a little bit longer. Magdalena hesitated on the little girl, she was unsure with children and the darkness that poured across her skin, she bit her lip as her shadow coiled tight before releasing in a long, jagged line across the ground when Samuela grabbed at her short, blonde threads now loose and free beneath her assigned barrette. Magdalena didn't hold her long, and when she passed the little girl on she quickly broke away, hugging herself, gripping tight on her uniform as she simply stared ahead.
Waiting; her shadows long and stretching out around her, a circumference of shadow that shielded her before she schooled her features back into the infamous apathetic and somber mask, her eyes heavy as the blue within them darkened. She was a ready as she could ever be, even if she warred with herself on the inside.
The Appleberry's though had taken her off guard with their warm presence, and looking at darling Sam only reminded her of her own childhood that had been without this love in the beginning of it. Magdalena's shadow vibrated in her nervousness when they addressed her, their smiles and laughter was so out there, so unlike her mother now â this was a family, a family that he had. And hers was dead. For the second time today, in no less than maybe an hour, she had been bridled with envy. Her fingers clenched against her scar for a brief moment before she hugged each of them in return, perhaps embracing a little too awkwardly though neither seemed to mind, and then a part of her wanted to hold on just a little bit longer. Magdalena hesitated on the little girl, she was unsure with children and the darkness that poured across her skin, she bit her lip as her shadow coiled tight before releasing in a long, jagged line across the ground when Samuela grabbed at her short, blonde threads now loose and free beneath her assigned barrette. Magdalena didn't hold her long, and when she passed the little girl on she quickly broke away, hugging herself, gripping tight on her uniform as she simply stared ahead.
Waiting; her shadows long and stretching out around her, a circumference of shadow that shielded her before she schooled her features back into the infamous apathetic and somber mask, her eyes heavy as the blue within them darkened. She was a ready as she could ever be, even if she warred with herself on the inside.