[OOC] Phoenix Wing (A Fairy Tail RP-Always Open, Open)

[MarshiestMallow]

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Well, I do.

@Zarkun

If I start I won't stop.

Let's just say I'm not okay, and leave it at that.

[Zarkun]

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If I start I won't stop.

Let's just say I'm not okay, and leave it at that.

@Caits

PM it to me. You deserve someone to talk to if no one else will listen.

[Expolar]

I am finally bac to post now that my newest baby has been alive and in a routine with my other boys

@Roseletta

Congratulations!!!
:D

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I'm craving for human interaction after not having talked to anyone but my parents since Friday.

@Burthstone

Oh, I know that feeling too well lol

Since Mayt hasn't been around for awhile and you're currently working on the future arc related to Iron Engima. Do you have any plans in the future for Mayt? I would think maybe, mostly because part of me is curious about the things hidden and locked away in his mind.

[MarshiestMallow]

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PM it to me. You deserve someone to talk to if no one else will listen.

@Zarkun

sighs

Why? I've essentially been told by the few friends I have that I'm too negative because i unload on them. Never mind the fact that I am in a complete utter breakdown and can't catch up with uni work because of this, no no I'm too bloody negative.

Never mind the fact that my family can't see that I'm falling apart.

[Burthstone]

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Well, I can listen. It just seems easier to communicate with speach than text to me.

@t2wave

I mean, just this convo alone has been enough to cheer me up some.

Plus when I'm talking I can't spend minutes screening every word I say make sure I don't sound like an ass or a manic depressant.

Plus my comp is in the living room and I'm also that guy who hates being on the phone cus he thinks it's rude to everyone around him since they can only hear half the conversation.

And my internet is terrible. A la it going out about six times while writing this reply alone.

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Oh, I know that feeling too well lol

Since Mayt hasn't been around for awhile and you're currently working on the future arc related to Iron Engima. Do you have any plans in the future for Mayt? I would think maybe, mostly because part of me is curious about the things hidden and locked away in his mind.

@Expolar

I haven't actually thought about what Mayt is going to be like in the future.

But he's definitely going to end up being one of those guys that are under-confident in their abilities, but is actually fairly tough. I figure I might do a bit of occasionally having him 'unlocking' an ability while in a group, followed by a weird sudden personality shift to accompany the memories.

[twave]

@Burthstone Suppose that works. I can only go so long before I need to hear another person's voice.

[Burthstone]

@Burthstone Suppose that works. I can only go so long before I need to hear another person's voice.

@t2wave

I mean, I don't mind not hearing people's voices, because I'm normally not the person being talked to anyway, so youtube can satisfy that for me.

I just like people 'talking' to me in some form or another every once and a while that isn't, like, my parents.

[Zarkun]

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sighs

Why? I've essentially been told by the few friends I have that I'm too negative because i unload on them. Never mind the fact that I am in a complete utter breakdown and can't catch up with uni work because of this, no no I'm too bloody negative.

Never mind the fact that my family can't see that I'm falling apart.

@Caits

I don't think you're negative, I think you're overstressed and in need of some one to talk to.

[Expolar]

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I haven't actually thought about what Mayt is going to be like in the future.

But he's definitely going to end up being one of those guys that are under-confident in their abilities, but is actually fairly tough. I figure I might do a bit of occasionally having him 'unlocking' an ability while in a group, followed by a weird sudden personality shift to accompany the memories.

@Burthstone

Okay, sounds interesting.

I've also been thinking now that it seems like most of Mayt's development is driven from something that's wasn't planned by you to happen in the RP. The Iron Engima characters' development already seem to have a plot planned out of what would or will happen to them. But for Mayt, it seems like his development is just based on whatever happens in the RP and where he's at during that time that will effect his character.

Also, I remember you mentioned this months ago. But when I first read Mayt and Sasha's quest together when the RP started. I actually started shipping them a bit and when I heard you say that he has a secret crush on her still, I was like "yes! The shipping is true. Sorry Lazarus". Although Sasha and Lazarus are already a thing together, I do like the idea that Mayt has some feelings towards Sasha.

[twave]

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I mean, I don't mind not hearing people's voices, because I'm normally not the person being talked to anyway, so youtube can satisfy that for me.

I just like people 'talking' to me in some form or another every once and a while that isn't, like, my parents.

@Burthstone

Well then I can do that.

[MarshiestMallow]

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I don't think you're negative, I think you're overstressed and in need of some one to talk to.

@Zarkun

The thing is, I'm not really stressed...just...breaking down.

It's like...I'm treading water and every so often I become submerged, sometimes it feels like it's long periods of time and I can't possibly reach the surface again.

[Expolar]

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I don't think you're negative, I think you're overstressed and in need of some one to talk to.

@Zarkun

@Caits
As Zarkun said, talking during a stressful moment might help relieve some stress than keeping it inside. And at least you know that there is a surface to look for than nothing. Knowing that there's something than nothing doesn't sound too negative.

[Zarkun]

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The thing is, I'm not really stressed...just...breaking down.

It's like...I'm treading water and every so often I become submerged, sometimes it feels like it's long periods of time and I can't possibly reach the surface again.

@Caits

That...isn't a good thing. I take it the familial issues are similar to what you've shared before.

[Burthstone]

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Okay, sounds interesting.

I've also been thinking now that it seems like most of Mayt's development is driven from something that's wasn't planned by you to happen in the RP. The Iron Engima characters' development already seem to have a plot planned out of what would or will happen to them. But for Mayt, it seems like his development is just based on whatever happens in the RP and where he's at during that time that will effect his character.

Also, I remember you mentioned this months ago. But when I first read Mayt and Sasha's quest together when the RP started. I actually started shipping them a bit and when I heard you say that he has a secret crush on her still, I was like "yes! The shipping is true. Sorry Lazarus". Although Sasha and Lazarus are already a thing together, I do like the idea that Mayt has some feelings towards Sasha.

@Expolar

Heh, well, Mayt doesn't actually have a defined personality yet, he's just kind of an amalgam of indefinite personality traits right now, while most of Iron Enigma chars I can tall you what I'm trying to accomplish with them. Like, Luna, right now, is Fairy-Tail levels of loyal to her friends, but afraid of hurting people when she fights (which is why she usually holds back).

I totally did a bit of the shipping thing myself though, and it gives an excuse for Mayt to have a chip on his shoulder around Lazlo.

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Well then I can do that.

@t2wave

And you are! :D

Hurray for the internet!

Only took until I was 12 for me to really discover it!

[twave]

@Burthstone Yay. Hm, when did I start communicating with people on the Internet. Probably had to have been on Starcraft.

[MarshiestMallow]

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That...isn't a good thing. I take it the familial issues are similar to what you've shared before.

@Zarkun

Yeah. Pretty much.

I'm just tired. Tired of doing my best and not getting the results, tired of searching for a job and not getting anything, tired of having to study because I didn't get a nursing job, tired of everything.

If I could just go in a cave with wifi and not worry I'd be fine.

My family just doesn't seem to understand that I'm human and that I've been taking on a lot of the responsibility since I was 12, and I need a break. I need to just focus on myself but because my brother is a complete fuck up, who wouldn't know responsibility if it bit him in the arse, I can't.

The three months I was away in the country were the best months of my life, because all I had to worry about was myself.

I want to move out. But you have to have money to do that. And I can't get money unless I have a job, but if I move out my parents can't support themselves, and then my mum will get sicker and I...

I'm tired of putting others first.

[Burthstone]

@Burthstone Yay. Hm, when did I start communicating with people on the Internet. Probably had to have been on Starcraft.

@t2wave

Yeah, starting to play the SCII custom games (Now called the arcade) is both when I discovered the internet has a lot more than just information, made my first internet friends, got into rping... *Trails off*

Then that somehow lead to steam, and then to Starbound before it came out, then, somehow, that got me onto this site like, a week before it had that huge shut down time.

[Roseletta]

Caits get her on disability and then a home nurse

[twave]

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Yeah, starting to play the SCII custom games (Now called the arcade) is both when I discovered the internet has a lot more than just information, made my first internet friends, got into rping... *Trails off*

Then that somehow lead to steam, and then to Starbound before it came out, then, somehow, that got me onto this site like, a week before it had that huge shut down time.

@Burthstone

Oh, I'm talking about SCI, back what custom maps were called UMS (Use Map Settings). Man, there are so many maps and games that I wish were remade in SCII.

[MarshiestMallow]

Caits get her on disability and then a home nurse

@Roseletta

She is on disability, but do you know how much a home nurse would cost? Something like 400 dollars a day. Yeah. Don't have that kind of money and she'd just say "why do I need a home nurse when I have you?"

And she doesn't need a home nurse. She just needs help with the house work and that but my dads lazy, he just comes home and parks himself on the lounge and I'm left to do everything else.

I've said so many times I can't do everything anymore, but it just seems to go in one ear and out the other