Lilly listened carefully as Hunt gave everyone their assignments of who was going where. Two fire teams, that was good. They could cover a bit more ground that way, she just wondered who was going to be leading the second te-
"Jatmoore, I'm putting you in charge of it."-What? What. No, that wasn't right! She wasn't ready! Didn't he see the state she had been in during the past few battles?! What was he thinking?! She couldn't lead, She couldn't give orders, she could barely hold herself together under fire. What was she going to do if people died under her command? She knew entirely too well that she would not be able to live with herself and might be unable to go on, should the worst come to pass. *static* ... And now that damn buzzing was coming back.
"Any questions?" When Hunt asked that question, Lilly's flustered state of mind was exposed for all to see.
"I. Wait. Mr. Um." Lilly forced herself to stop and took a deep (if slightly ragged) breath, clasping her hands against her chest and trying to calm down. Calm down, Lilly! *static* Stop. You just gave everyone more than enough reason to doubt you, do not give them *static* any more. The one thing that helped calm her down was that this designation meant that Mr. Hunt trusted her. Or at least, thought her better suited to the role than the rest of the squad. He wouldn't have done something as careless as to chose people at random, would he? That confidence helped to ease her nervous shakes, and she replied in a quiet, slightly calmer voice.
"No questions, Mr. Hunt." Regardless of her own thoughts, Mr. Hunt and the rest of the squad were counting on her. She resolved to try her best, such that it may be.
Once everyone else had finished talking, Lilly walked away from the group and over to a corner of the room. She needed to do something. She didn't know if her team was already acquainted with each other, so they might as well get formalized introductions out of the way.
"Team Bravo, please meet over here!" Lilly waved her hand in the air as she beckoned to her team. Once her group joined her in the corner, she tapped her fingers together nervously as she addressed them. This was her first time in any position of power, and while she recognized she would need to lead when she eventually took over her father's business, the prospect of it still terrified her.
"Um, Alright. Good afternoon, everyone. Have you all had a chance to get acquainted with one another?" She took a quick moment to look over the team. She had worked with Sykora and Durandal before, and had just finished talking with Hexner, but she did not know the new person. Private Webber... A grizzled man, many years to her senior, Lilly didn't know why he didn't get picked to be the leader... Or why he didn't hold a rank higher than Private. He certainly gave off the air of someone more suited to the war than her.
Lilly took a deep breath to calm herself, before addressing everyone again.
"It would probably be best for us to introduce ourselves in order, starting around the circle clockwise and telling us your name, vocation, and any other information you would like to share. I will start. My name is Lilly Jatmore. I am trained as a scout and joined the militia at the outset of the war, a month ago. This is only my second operation, but I thank you all for putting your trust in me. I will do everything I can to avoid letting you down." Lilly's voice gradually got stronger and more confident as she spoke, but her inner turmoil was still raging strongly. Was she doing this right? Was she saying the right things? Did she look ok? Was she still shaking? Lilly was putting on her best act to try and appear calm; an act that would normally be very convincing, but her outburst upon being assigned leader would have somewhat of an undermining effect. She just hoped that she could do what she had been entrusted with... After finishing her introduction, she motioned for the next person to speak.
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