[OOC] We Are the Crystal Gems

[Akayaofthemoon]

So,

One for White

and

One for Black

I can't wait to hear what everyone else has to say

[21308]

Should we start posting our bits of the collab or what?

[Akayaofthemoon]

@21308

Raijin is posting in the collab today

[21308]

@Akayaofthemoon Oh lovely.

[21308]

Things got really silent suddenly. Are we done with the collab?

[pyroman]

I'm not sure, @21308. I've done what I can, and I seem to be the most recent collaborator, but I don't know.

[Raijinslayer]

Guess we just have to wait for Akaya then.

[Akayaofthemoon]

I am sorry everyone. I had an emotional break down the other day after a huge fight with my roommates. A lot of bad is going on in my life which has given me no motivation to try and write. I promise I will try to get something up tomorrow

[Guardian Angel Haruki]

@Akayaofthemoon D:

I am so sorry Akaya! *hugs* Take as much time as you need. Don't rush yourself. ;-;

[Akayaofthemoon]

@Guardian Angel Haruki

Thanks *hugs* I'll be okay. ^_^

[Raijinslayer]

@AkayaofthemoonHeh, that's a weird coincidence, as i kinda had a bit of a falling out with my friends as well, thought it ended up all right in the end. I wish you well in your endeavors and hope things get better for you soon.

[Akayaofthemoon]

@Raijinslayer

Thanks. I am sorry you had a falling out with your friends recently. I know it is hard. Right now we are all signing off the lease and hopefully things will be better after that.

[21308]

@Akayaofthemoon It's cool if you don't want to talk about it but know that I've got your back.

[Akayaofthemoon]

@21308

Thank you, that means a lot. Thank you guys for all the support and being there for me. I don't want to talk about it since I kind of made a long facebook post about it but if you guys wish to know than I would be alright with copying and pasting.

[Raijinslayer]

@AkayaofthemoonIf you feel like it would help.

[Akayaofthemoon]

When is it going to get better? That is what I have been pondering on lately. I keep thinking it over and over. Everyone says it will all get better, to have trust and believe. I have tried to be strong. I have tried to remain kind. I have tried to be support. I look to the positive and keep faith. Lately, it seems that none of that is enough. My family feels like it is falling apart at the seams and has for awhile but with my great grandma going into a home...it feels much worse. Everyone is drifting and there is no return. I feel sick about it having to happen and worse of all...I feel as though I have failed her. I have failed my great grandpa and I have failed myself. My home doesn't feel like a home. It gets better and then everything goes back to fighting and sadness with my roommates. It isn't a fault of anybody. We just seem to all clash with no middle ground because our thoughts and personalities are different. It is for this reason I also worry that things will get uncivil or we will all go to ignoring the others existence completely. This breaks my heart to think about. I might lose someone who is my best friend and on top of that, my husband is upset. I am losing my job and who knows how finding a new one will go. I can continue to hope that the wait will be short but right now...I'm starting to lose any hope I might have. It is because of this that I have put all the stress of support on my husband. It is hard. It is scary. I know he worries. I keep waiting for some other thing to go wrong because why not? Look at all that is happening around me. This doesn't even include internal pain that has been caused by a horrible injury and all the medical bills that have come along with it. I am sorry everyone. Everyone who has read this and felt sadness, pity, or whatever other negative feelings. It is not my intention nor do I want to invoke that. This post...this status is not for you. This is literally just for me. This is to get it all off my chest cause I have held it long enough. I had no other place to write. I just needed to write. So with my phone, the only thing in the bathroom to write with, I did this. I kept myself away from everyone in this bathroom to finally let go. Sorry you all had to see this. Please don't ask what you can do. I know you are all here and that I am loved. I know you will support me in whatever happens. I don't even want replies to this. Just...thanks for listening.

This is all that is going on. This is everything I wrote

[21308]

@Akayaofthemoon I wish I could do more for you than offer you a positive place you can come to for support. Everyone here cares about you and is rooting for you, and even if we can't really help you in a material way, hopefully venting to us helps a little bit. I'm glad you know your family loves you a lot and I hope remembering that will be a positive thing for you, and even though you've heard it before, things do get better.

[Akayaofthemoon]

@21308

Thanks. I am slowly working on feeling better. Everything passes with time and I just need a breather. I just can't seem to look at the positive much right now but you guys have kept me laughing and smiling even when I am at my lowest so thank you everyone.

[21308]

@Akayaofthemoon You're welcome. I'm sorry I couldn't say more but yeah, I haven't exactly been in your situation and you seem to have a pretty decent handle on things. I guess I'll just say that, like I said above, I really am rooting for you and definitely want the best possible outcome for you, for what that's worth.

[Akayaofthemoon]

@21308

Thanks :3