[OOC] We Are the Crystal Gems

[Loony]

I AM FREE FROM SCHOOL FOR LIKE THREE AND A HALF DAYS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Hi guys.
This feels strange.
Hope you're all doing well.
@Akayaofthemoon I personally like the white moonstone better.

[Loony]

@Akayaofthemoon Just read through your situation Akaya. You have my empathy and sympathy and though there's not much I can do, like Spinna, you have my support.

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[Akayaofthemoon]

@Loony

Thanks Loon, it means a lot just having support

Yeah, no one has posted because we are doing a huge collab and it is taking time >.<

[Loony]

@Akayaofthemoon You're welcome, and it's alright.

...Man, I feel...Really strange...

[pyroman]

@AkayaofthemoonYou guys can really continue without me on the collab, Chal is just a sitting duck right now, struggling against a mutant.

[Loony]

@pyroman Wait, so Eve's fused or...? Is my post moot? Or did you mean Dr Pepper? ^ ^"

[pyroman]

@Loonyno, chalcopyrite(hessonite and pyrite) is in the collab, and they can't really do much at the moment

[Loony]

@pyroman Ooooh, okay. ^ ^"
I though you meant Chalcedony, since you mentioned them maybe being fused and ye. Damn I'm stupid.

[Akayaofthemoon]

Lol XD omg I didn't even think about the fact we have two Chal

[21308]

@Loony It's good to see you little Loon! Is there any particular reason you're feeling strange though?

[Loony]

@Akayaofthemoon And if Eve and Soda end up a perma fusion...Then we have two permafusion Chals. XD
@21308 Heya Spinna! Long time no see either. Thanks for asking, but I can't really place it.

[21308]

@Loony Ah. It's nice to talk to you again at any rate, have you been doing well?

[Loony]

@21308 Likewise. I've been doing better than before, for sure. I'm on three different anti depressants now but I think they're somewhat working for me, but we have to give it time.

[21308]

@Loony I'm very glad to hear that! I'll admit I was a bit worried since you said stuff wasn't going great for you mental health-wise and I know how awful that can be. I really hope your medications work out for you.

[Guardian Angel Haruki]

@Loony OMG!!! HI LOONY! *waves*

[Loony]

Y'all aren't going to be seeing me for some time.

And if I never return it's because I've been fucking stupid enough to set myself on fire out of sheer self loathing.

Sorry.

I love you all so much.

So if it comes to that, please don't feel guilty and please don't feel upset.

You all made me really happy and safe.

[Akayaofthemoon]

@Loony

I am so sorry Loony. Know that we are here for you and we love you bunches. We would be happy just with getting to talk with you.

[21308]

@Loony Um, wow. Uh... wow. Loony, I don't really know what to say other than that in the past months you've become almost like an honorary younger sibling to me and I really don't want you to hurt yourself. I can promise that I won't be angry with you no matter what, but if you did something bad to yourself I don't think I'd ever stop being sad. This is 100% about you and not about me though, so please don't feel guilty, but if there's anything at all me or Akaya can say or do I'm sure we'd both really like to know.

[Loony]

I just went outside for thirty minutes without letting anyone know. No jacket, no shoes.

We're a family of 11.

Turns out that's an advantage.

Because no one noticed.

Actually, that's a lie.

Because my brother, my stupid little brother, he noticed.

And he saw me there with that bottle of 120 ml fluoxetine.

A normal dose is only supposed to be 5ml.

And he didn't do shit.

He continued playing minecraft. Didn't care at all.

I try so hard for him and sometimes I wonder why.

I was going to do it and something held me back.

I don't wanna gold back.

I honest want to die.

I'm going to do it. If not tomorrow, on the 29th of Feburary.

I'm going to do it and you'll all forget about me eventually. And it'll be for the better.

Because I don't want you guys to be upset.

And you shouldn't be.

Because I won't be hurting anymore, and another useless person will have been taken out before natural selection does it for me.

[21308]

@Loony Loony, there are people who love you and desperately don't want this for you. I'd do just about anything to keep you here but I need for you to talk with me, please?