[OOC] Patching Up His Heart (MxM) [Closed]

[LovelyComplex]

working on it now lol

[AimeChambers]

Should I give Eric a fucked up past or a tragic past?

[LovelyComplex]

@AimeChambers Jem has more of a tragic past. So perhaps fucked up?

[AimeChambers]

Get ready for some seriously messed up shit XD. I always do horrible things to my favorite characters.

[AimeChambers]

I'm gonna fix his cs really quick that might hint at it.

Added: I'm not sure if Jem is going to know this or not. I'm thinking they met in middle school or high school. Jem will know that he has a seriously problem that he was always stressed about during these years.

[LovelyComplex]

@AimeChambers Knowing when they met will determine what side of Jem Eric truly knows. His childhood self is completely different than his highschool self

[AimeChambers]

I'm thinking they met first year of middle school.

[AimeChambers]

okay, here's the continued WIP of the bio

Bio:
When Eric was a young child, about eight years old, he was a mama's boy that loved feminine things. He always wrote cute poems to his mom and helped her out with the chores. A few weeks after he turned eight, Eric and his mother got into a nasty car crash. All Eric's memories up till then were either fuzzy or gone all together and Eric's mother died. The first year or so after the accident, Eric acted almost like a mindless zombie, his father doting on him all the time.

His father decided to get Eric a mother in order to help his son regain his sense of self. He hastily started dating and married a bride four months later that was still in college. She was what one would call a typical sorority girl that couldn't take care of a pet to save her life, much less a child. She leeched off of Eric's somewhat high class father and made him treat her like a princess.

It was his second year of middle school that everything went to hell. He body shot up compared to his fellow classmates almost overnight, growing to the height 5' 11" that he is now. His stepmother took notice of this and started taking an interest. The night of his 13th birthday, his stepmother molested and sexually assaulted him. It was the night he lost his virginity.

He had to keep it a secret from his family and life outside the house. Eric's stepmother had his father wrapped around her finger, there was no way for him to report this was happening. He was assaulted all throughout his middle school years and into his high school years. During Eric's freshman year, his stepmother thought it would be best for him to, 'gain some independence by living by yourself.' He was giving a certain amount of money each month and left to his own devices. Every now and again, his stepmother would come over to use him, further wrecking his mental state.

Eric's last year of high school, his father and stepmother got a divorce. She had grown tired of being the lover of such an older man, and cut ties with the family. Eric couldn't be more relieved, but he was forever traumatized. There was no way he could have sex for enjoyment again or not start shaking if someone got to close to him.

Jem had been with him ever since middle school, they had become best friends right away. Eric had never been able to reveal this kind of secret, and it always hurt him inside to keep things from him.

[LovelyComplex]

@AimeChambers I'm almost done. You may have to change the relationship part between JemXEric based off of Jem's middle school transition. Based on how Jem is, Eric would have to be extremely persistent with him in middle school xD

[AimeChambers]

Well of course! Anyway, I didn't want to write more about their relationship until I got your back story. But if you want Jem to know about the super dark secret, tell me.

[LovelyComplex]

Muse A

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Name
Jeremiah Cole Clarke

Nickname
Jem from only the people he cares about, which isn't many
Professor Clarke from his students

Age
27

Gender
Male

Sexuality
Heterosexual turned bisexual

Occupation
Director of the Music Department

Courses

COLOURS | Credits: 1 | # Terms: 2 | Course #: 51111
Grade Level: 9, 10, 11, 12
Prerequisites: Audition/teacher recommendation
Description: Colours is a select choir of students who are highly motivated to excel in vocal performance. This group will perform at the high school at least once each trimester, in addition to singing throughout the community and at festivals. The program material will include music from all styles including contemporary, pop, classical, and jazz.
Notes: First Semester: fall concert and December concert. Second Semester: February concert, spring concert, 2 contest trips, and baccalaureate.

BEGINNING SONGWRITING | Credits: 0.5 | # Terms: 1 | Course #: 51191
Grade Level: 9, 10, 11, 12
Prerequisites: Ability to play an instrument (piano or guitar)
Description: This course is designed to give the students an opportunity to study techniques of effective songwriting. The important elements of a song, formats of a song and songwriting structure will be taught. Students will first analyze songwriting structure of favorite songs and then progress to creating their own compositions in any contemporary style

MUSIC THEORY | Credits: 0.5 | # Terms: 1 | Course #: 51130
Grade Level: 9, 10, 11, 12
Fees: None
Description: Music Theory examines the various elements of music

PIANO/KEYBOARD- ADVANCED | Credits: 0.5 | # Terms: 1 | Course #: 51072
Grade Level: 9, 10, 11, 12
Prerequisites: Piano/Keyboarding
Description: Piano/Keyboard-Advanced is designed for the students who already have the basic knowledge of piano chords, scales, and beginning playing. More advanced rhythm, note reading, chords, and literature will be covered. Students will have to perform on a recital at the end of the semester.

Appearance

Blonde hair, golden hazel eyes
6'1"
180lbs
Work attire: Comfortable Business Casual.
In his traveling bag, Jem stores his bigger framed reading glasses. The ones his students call 'hip'. He got those on sale. His thinner framed glasses are by his bedside. He covers his arm tattoo (spiked wire, almost resembling vines wrapping around his arm tightly, with a blue rose growing out of it) with medical tape and his neck tattoo (a cracked skull, with an obvious bullet hole in it, surrounded by blue flame) with a bandage.
Outside of work: If he's going out on a date or somewhere nice, he'll just keep his work clothes on. His other wardrobe consist of athletic wear, his band shirts/tanks/long-sleeves from highschool, and jeans (some very much worn and torn). He's too cheap to buy a new wardrobe nor does he care to. Simple and comfortable is key.

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Personality

Blunt

Straight forward and hardly ever unnerved, Jem rarely sugar coats or softens his words. It doesn't matter if your his student or his best friend, if you're being an annoyance to him, he will blatantly tell you to your face and in front of anyone whose around. His students are conflicted with doting on him because of his charming unkempt looks and peculiar nature or being scared shitless by his mood swings. Sometimes he's pleasant and fun, other times he's cold and heartless. Rarely does he smile in public, but when he's home, away from the public eye, he's relaxed and full of genuine grins and laughs. At times, Jem's childish side appears when he speaks vulgar and perverted, when he is being picky with his food, and when he's jealous. His parents are long gone, having left this world after he graduated highschool in a gang drive by.

Something you'll notice quickly from him is Jeremiah comes across as extremely intimidating, letting his golden eyes pierce your stare as he sizes you up. He stays fit, maybe not necessarily healthy, and is quite capable of getting into a fight (thanks to his highschool experiences!). Sometimes he's hard to read, keeps a lot to himself, and lets his anger build up. His loved ones have learned overtime how he expresses himself. When the time is right, he'll come to you, not the other way around. His voice will stay low, as he brings you somewhere secluded. Only then will Jem let his emotions spill out of his lips. Looks can be deceiving. Though Jem has a rough exterior, his heart cares and his mind is constantly worrying about everyone else but himself. Yeah, occasionally someone may have to check on him and see if he fed himself.

He had a sad past, but he doesn't let that get him down, having years to overcome it.

Biography

My story so far

Little Jem

Jeremiah Clarke was suppose to have a twin brother, who would've been given the name, Jaden Tristan Clarke. He would have been mommy's little "Jay" bird. Unfortunately, before Jeremiah was born the fates had decided to not bring Jay into this world. Researchers call it fetal resorption or "vanishing twin" syndrome, where a fetus dies in the womb and is then partially or completely reabsorbed by the other twin for survival. You can think of it like one twin sacrificing it's life so that it's sibling can live. That was how Jem's mother would describe it. The occurrence is rare and abnormal.

The distant teacher would like to believe his life was simple, but it's never that easy, is it?

There was always an underlining sadness in his mother, Lucille, who wished her other baby boy survived. It didn't help that she had two miscarriages before then. One being when she was 15, by a deadbeat of an ex. Even with such sadness in her life, she was wise and would not let her issues interfere with raising her living child. Jem's father, Tristan, on the other hand, was very closed off and used alcohol as his coping mechanism. Luckily for both the child and the mother, the older man was not abusive to them when he drank. He did however scare them with how dark he could get and his self mutilation. The discovery of Jeremiah's virtuoso, at such a young age, kept his parents' minds occupied with honing his skills and getting him somewhere in life.

From 3 years old up until middle school, the boy performed at recitals, won awards, and even made music artist connections. His peers were conflicted with admiring him and being jealous that he was the talk of the small town. Being bullied was an understatement of what Jem went through. He watched as his parents became superficial and desired to build their reputation for the sake of others. He watched kids talking shit about him like he wasn't even there. Girls even flirted with him and made him believe he had a chance with them, so that they could break his heart. After the first time he was surrounded by a group of students and publicly humiliated by them... he decided right then and there, he would not get close to anyone or so that's what he thought.

If they wanted someone to hate, Jeremiah would give them exactly what they wanted. Middle school he started transitioning from his studious, overachiever self to an angry, extremely angry wolf. Those kids that tortured him. Yeah, he shut them up real quick. Even sending one to the hospital, threatening if the piece of shit ever spoke of that moment, he would find him and make him regret he ever did. The young boy gained attention from the dangerous crowd of students. Students that were worse than his previous bullies. These students opened a new gate for Jeremiah, introducing the underworld to him. From 7th grade until end of sophomore year of highschool, the once so kind boy became a tool to the Hells Angels Gang. He never fully joined the Gang but he did do tasks for them. Many times they wanted to initiate him into the group but Jem preferred not having strings attached. They did consider him an unofficial member due to his involvement and the amount of respect he gained. This is when he gained a 'bad boy' persona and girls swooned over him. He even started drinking at such a young age, perhaps... slowly becoming his father.

During middle school, Eric Walker took notice of him and tried with all his power to become friends. That wasn't an easy thing to do either, there may have been an incident when Jeremiah pushed Eric up against the wall telling him he shouldn't get close to him, he's not worth the time. That didn't make the foolish peer stop though...

Along with this kid, Eric, wanting to be his friend, his parents started to see him more and more as a disappointment. This only made Jeremiah retaliate and say some hurtful things to his parents. Sophomore year was the first time the boy got into a fist fight with his father...

What was he becoming? His mother's tears. Please, don't cry... His father's blood. Oh god, I did that. For the first time in his life, Jem needed a friend to slap sense into him. At an ungodly hour, he climbed Eric's parents vines on their house and knocked on the window that was of his only friend's bedroom. Slipping into the room, Jem broke down crying revealing a side he hates showing anyone, revealing his vulnerability.

At the end of sophomore year, the disheveled teen tried to balance his past self with his current self. He broke ties with his so-called friends and like a child scared to take the next moves on his own, he clung to his best friend. Of course, breaking ties with a gang is never that easy. The next two years, paranoia built inside of Jem, watching every corner so his parents or Eric wouldn't get an unexpected visit. Things were silent... too silent. Paying a visit to the leader to talk things out, Jem left with a deep stab wound and was rushed to the hospital. His parents considered to move but Jem assured them, it was fine. He truly believed the score was settled with him almost dying. That was... not true, unfortunately. After getting accepted to Julliard, giving his parents complete joy, the male's parents were murdered by a gang drive by. They died their happiest believing their son would become something great.

But after that, he saw a different future for himself. He didn't want kids to get involved in the environment he was in. Kids were the future and he wanted to make sure they knew that, so instead of going to Julliard, he went to a local college and got a Bachelor's degree in Music Education, with a minor in English. Within time, he was able to prove his proficiency and dedication to teaching. Since he already had great connections, he was recommended to teach at Blackthorne Academy, a private boarding highschool. He even opened the gate way for his best friend to get a job there in the Math Department. Within the first year of him on the job as an adjutant professor (23 yrs old), he proved his worth as an indispensable asset to the academy. The head of the music department retired when Jem was 26 and everyone recommended the talented, young music teacher to follow the previous director's footsteps, disregarding any sort of seniority rule. The odd, hazel eyed man would like to think the other professors just didn't want to dedicate their life to such a taxing job. Not minding the salary, the chain smoking teacher accepted the promotion. During this period of time, he couldn't help but notice this... interesting history teacher. After quite some time of battling his inner convictions, the man approached Makoto Guroi and asked if he would like to join him for some drinks, perhaps do a mingle meet-up with the Music Department and the History Department since rarely do the two departments cross paths.

Now... they're dating...

Note: As for Jem's relationship with Nicolas, they probably just see each other in the hallway and acknowledge the other's existence but never really talk. Yet.

Fears
Being seen as vulnerable and weak (his own tears)
Not having a handle on his emotions, ultimately making him lose control
Being forgotten or left behind
His loved ones joining his late parents
Failure, like failing to make his significant other happy or failing to provide for his family or failing himself

Extra
His highschool phase makes him seem like a rocker but he's a classical music lover by heart.
As a music teacher, he holds appreciation for all forms.
He's always wanted a puppy but with his schedule, he wouldn't have time to take care of one. Especially because of the concerts he prepares his students to perform in and festivals he takes his students to.
If he passes a pet store, a pound, or a rescue shelter, more often than not, he'll visit it and look at all the cute dogs! He's not picky on the kind of dog he'll get one day, so long as it can become his.
Yes, he likes to smoke and drink alcohol.

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@lovely complex

[Fabricant451]

Jeez, Nicolas' is downright cheery compared to you two.

[LovelyComplex]

@Fabricant451 Jem has dealt with his misery. So now, he's content and loves life.

[LovelyComplex]

@AimeChambers I'll let you decide by reading Jem's backstory if you want Jem to know Eric's dark secret. I can see why Eric would want to be Jem's friend at the time though.

Someone who could protect him.

[AimeChambers]

I CAN SEE PICTURES! THANK YOU SWEET BABY JESUS!

[AimeChambers]

-Comments while reading
I can see pictures!
Oh fuck, Jem's adorable as a child!
"vanishing twin" ...corpse party...

*stops thinking as I read*
Well fuck.

I think that Jem should find out about Eric's problem when he starts sorting his life out. A while after he becomes determined. Jem always knew there was something stressful and off about him. That when Jem pushed him against the wall, he had a mini panic attack and that might have been a misunderstanding for the two of them.

I also like the idea that Eric wanted to be like Jem and took up smoking, now that he's a teacher he's always trying to quit but failing.

I'd totally love to rp their sophomore year *v*

[AimeChambers]

Oh! And both Nicolas and Jem are of course accepted!

[LovelyComplex]

@AimeChambers We should totally post in the order of Muse A, B, C, D

we don't have to... just ocd xDD

And yeah, Jem starts getting his shit together during paranoia time: Highschool years Sophomore year to Senior year
Then he had a coping period to deal with the loss of his parents but that didn't stop him from going to college.
Once he was officially done with college, he was very sure of himself and all his sadness was turned into positive ambition.

So I'd say Sophomore year/Junior year of highschool was probably when Jem found out about Eric's dark secret. However, it was at a good time where he wouldn't use violence to comfort his friend. He would be the support his friend needed him to be and tell him, he'll be there for him always.

[AimeChambers]

He's done!

Muse B

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Name:
Eric Neal Walker

Nickname:
Doesn't have one and don't give him one. At one point his friends from highschool called him, "Mother"
...They were never heard from again.
Called Professor Walker by his students.

Age:
27

Occupation:
Math Teacher

Personality:
Eric is highly jaded to everyone, there is no "try" there is only "do." Why rest and relax when you can get work done? He is also a rather doting person, but he won't admit it. Someone forgets their lunch, he'll give them his and say to eat or they won't be able to work. He is usually yells a lot when he's frustrated and is never able to give proper compliments.

He doesn't even believe he has a child side. When he's by himself he ends up either cleaning the house, getting extra work done, or taking care of his cats. He really does care, but can't seem to express it to anyone but Jem, who he spoils exponentially. He's also an extreme animal person, they flock to him, and that's usually the easiest way to his heart. If animals run away from you, you might as well be dead to him.

Telling others about his problems? That just doesn't happen. If he ever did do it he would say it in the moment. He takes out his stress with work and cleaning so the more dedicated he seems to be, the more stressed he is.

He believes that girls are either cry babies or life suckers, trying to steal everything from their partner. He's never been with a woman and doesn't plan on it until he has to settle down.

Sexuality:
Unknowingly homosexual, the only one he's actually loved is Jem, so he hasn't realized he doesn't like women.

Biography:
When Eric was a young child, about eight years old, he was a mama's boy that loved feminine things. He always wrote cute poems to his mom and helped her out with the chores. A few weeks after he turned eight, Eric and his mother got into a nasty car crash. All Eric's memories up till then were either fuzzy or gone all together and Eric's mother died. The first year or so after the accident, Eric acted almost like a mindless zombie, his father doting on him all the time.

His father decided to get Eric a mother in order to help his son regain his sense of self. He hastily started dating and married a bride four months later that was still in college. She was what one would call a typical sorority girl that couldn't take care of a pet to save her life, much less a child. She leeched off of Eric's somewhat high class father and made him treat her like a princess.

It was his second year of middle school that everything went to hell. He body shot up compared to his fellow classmates almost overnight, growing to the height 5' 11" that he is now. His stepmother took notice of this and started taking an interest. The night of his 13th birthday, his stepmother molested and sexually assaulted him. It was the night he lost his virginity.

He had to keep it a secret from his family and life outside the house. Eric's stepmother had his father wrapped around her finger, there was no way for him to report this was happening. He was assaulted all throughout his middle school years and into his high school years. During Eric's freshman year, his stepmother thought it would be best for him to, 'gain some independence by living by yourself.' He was giving a certain amount of money each month and left to his own devices. Every now and again, his stepmother would come over to use him, further wrecking his mental state.

During middle school, Eric couldn't help notice Jem, his looks and charisma were staggering, even with his stubborn 'bad boy look.' What the boy needed was to become someone like him, someone that could take all the shit he was dealing with and learn to take care of himself. And so Jem didn't seem to interested in their friendship, but that's not how Eric saw it. The boy seemed to be pushing everyone away, trying to keep himself from getting hurt by them. If he did that to everyone, who did he have to lean on? So Eric did everything in his power to become that person, that strong determined friend who would never let you down. He didn't have time to worry about his own problems anymore, he only did what he could for the one he wanted to be best friends with.

Trying to become friends with Jem was no easy feat, he even tried out smoking to have some common ground. Somehow this routine stuck, much to Eric's lungs' and allowance's dismay. The more he realized he had been so used by his stepmother, the more jaded he got through the years. The only one he would connect to was Jem, and love was starting to blossom...

Jem found out during their sophomore year of high school. Eric felt like since Jem had cried his heart out to the him, he should do the same. No, he didn't let Jem do anything about it... but he was able to see the side of Jem he had always longed to see, and that was enough for him at the time.

Eric's last year of high school, his father and stepmother got a divorce. She had grown tired of being the lover of such an older man, and cut ties with the family. Eric couldn't be more relieved, but he was forever traumatized. There was no way he could have sex for enjoyment again or not start shaking if someone got to close to him.

Fears:
-Losing Jem's friendship
-Making mistakes at work
-Never getting his feelings across
-Sex

Appearance:
He stands at 5' 11" with light brown hair and hazel eyes.
Eric weighs 156 pounds, he'll never admit it, but he usually only eats 2 meals a day. He's rather thin, but always covers his slim waist with an extra layer.

Work Attire:
He wears a crisp ironed suit without a vest everyday, only taking his jacket off in the summer. His hair is slicked back at school, though he can never seem to get all of his bangs to stay back. He doesn't need glasses, but in his first year of working, he wore fake frames.
Outside of Work:
He usually doesn't bother to mess with his hair and stays in a v-neck sweater and khakis when he goes out. At home he gets a lot lazier, wearing a t-shirt and shorts around with sandles and socks (Oh the horror!)

Extra:
Eric lives with three cats, causing his apartment always to be messed up some way. It's a stress reliever to clean up and take care of them, so it's sort of a win-win situation at home.

[LovelyComplex]

@AimeChambers We need to have flashback collabs xD it'll be so awesome to see 'that night' when Jem is like emotional as hell