Dr. Maeve Whitehall took a sip of her coffee as she read over the new file she picked up before the next session. Leah Jordan. Geokinesis and Enhanced Strength. Relationship wise she was a part of a polycule with April Flynn and Sabine Bassard, two other students with files on her desk.
Tough. Headstrong. Refused authority, though it was hardly surprising why. She-Hulk had made a note for her given their recent involvement. âHandle with careâ. Maeve chuckled inwardly. She trusted that womanâs opinion.
Maeve closed the file and stood up. Preparation was key before sessions but a good therapist was one who was quick to roll with the punches and adjust as needed. She had a feeling Leah would not be pulling punches.
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As Leah walked into the office she would see a serene waterfall falling into a fountain with koi fish swimming in it and flowers sparingly floating along the top, moving slightly with the ripples. There was a long couch that could comfortably seat 5 people in a light orange color. On the light wooden table in front of the couch there was a stone statuette of what appeared to be a man holding a child in his arms. There was a book on the table with the title âTherapy Is Awkwardâ. The walls were a light cream color and the carpet was white. There were multiple windows showing a hot, sunny day outside with a sandy beach and waves gently rolling in.
Maeve sat in an orange armchair close to the table but directly across from the couch. âHello Leah. My name is Dr. Maeve Whitehall but you can call me Maeve or Dr. Whitehall, whichever you prefer. Please, take a seat where you feel most comfortable. I can adjust the seating arrangements as needed.â
There were no words to describe the sheer level of cosmic intervention required to somehow convince Leah to walk in here. So no words would be said.
When she stepped through the door, there was something awfully unsettling about how mellow this space looked. It wasnât the sort of environment she had any place in, too serene and sterile. Even in an environment that wasnât dangerous, there was usually sand or rocks or something natural keeping her company; Something that wasnât this.
With a resting bitch face, she sat down on the couch staring at the woman.
âYou have sixty seconds to stop me from leaving. Start talking.â
Maeve smiled. Just as she imagined. âWell normally I would begin by outlining what we would be doing here and talking about confidentiality and my role in that, but if I have only sixty seconds I better get right into it. First, let me know if this environment is too much or not enough for you. I admit I only had your file to go off of and adjusted what I could but I can always change it up if you feel more relaxed elsewhere. Hell, we donât even have to be in this room if you want. We can go outside if thatâs preferable. Second, I recognize I am an unknown figure and you feel some obligation to fight me and I do not blame you. You are not here under force or duress, even if you feel otherwise. I only want to talk and help, if youâll let me.â
Maeve pulled out her phone. âJust under sixty seconds. Howâd I do?â
âFunny, thatâs not what Coulson said,â Leah wasnât smiling. âSo yeah, Iâm not here willingly. And I donât plan on doing this regularly. So why should I?â
âWell Coulson isnât here and over here I am in charge. Or rather, you are. But since we are on that topic let me say that what is said in here, stays in here. Yes, Coulson might have suggested going and have stated itâs mandatory, but I am under no obligation to tell him anything you tell me. There are some stipulations though that, if they come up, I may have to break confidentiality. Such as if you want to seriously hurt yourself or someone else, if there is any child or vulnerable adult abuse, or if you give me permission. But outside of those parameters itâs just me and you in here.â
âSo to answer your question on âwhy should youâ, because very few people get a space to be themselves in whatever capacity they choose. You can sit there and lie to me and I would have no way of verifying because I canât ask. I have a file on you with basic information but thereâs a blank slate. You can also not stick around and leave at any point and I wonât stop you. All I ask is that you meet me in the middle. And really, not even in the middle, I can meet you closer to where your at.â
âSo what is it going to be right now Leah? In here, out there? What would make you more comfortable, even just a little bit?â
It wasnât hard to clock the fact that Leah didnât trust this woman. And at the mention of hurting someone else, and a kid being abused, a metaphorical fire was started in her. That feeling of anxiousness and lack of trust bumped up a few notches.
Why hasnât she walked out already? She was telling herself that it was that people would push their luck if she walked out and played hardball about this. Coulson would keep pretending he was part of any of this, She-Hulk would never let Leah live it down.
Fuck.
She stared the woman down, her face unreadable like stone
âFine. Itâs no oneâs business, Iâm staying here.â
âIâm happy you are staying. I noticed when I brought up the rules for confidentiality that there was some tension, particularly surrounding child abuse or wanting to hurt someone else. Do you mind if I ask why that impacted you?â Maeve could read emotions very well and it didnât take her powers to know Leah was feeling a lot. Maeve could appreciate a client who had their emotions on point. It made her job easier, even if they didnât want to talk.
Leah might have leaned backwards, but then the couch she was sitting on would be shredded and that would take forever to wash out. So she didnât.
What could she say to this woman that wouldnât open up absolute chaos?
âBack before I found this school, I tried to kill my dad. Wasnât until a month or two ago that I found out he survived,â Leah said. âAnd thatâs not a good thing.â
âYour dad is not the most upstanding of people, I take it? Would it be as bad as you hinted if he found you here?â Maeve clocked in to the emotions again. Happy Leah had opened up, even a crack.
âOh and donât worry about the furniture. Break it if you want, if it helps.â This was not, necessarily, a challenge, though it would be interesting to see how it was responded with.
âHeâs known Iâm here for a while now. Probably a month, probably three years,â Leah explained. âSo no, heâs not. Once heâs done with whatever Avengers are in the way, then heâs coming after me. And when that happens, Iâm making sure he doesnât walk away twice.â
âWhat was your upbringing like? I can hazard a guess if your next interaction with him ends with his death. I canât imagine he made it easy for you growing up. Also you said you found the school. Were you searching for something like it or did you stumble into it?â
Leah sighed and launched into an explanation.
âMy dadâs a supervillain, the kind who only hurts people for money. You could pay him to go and kill every last superhero in America and heâd just send you a bill after he buries them all two days later. He wouldnât think twice. He wanted me to be his legacy, someone whoâd do what he did long after he was gone. After I thought I killed him for good, I jumped on a rock and flew far, far away and the school just happened to be the first place where I could be sure I wouldnât starve.â
âItâs lucky the school was there then and willing to let you in. It sounds like a lot was put on you from an early age. That canât have been an easy thing to shoulder. As tough as it is to do in this moment, letâs forget dad for a second. If there was no threat of him coming and finding you, what would you want to do? What do you want for yourself?
âTo just go back to the way it was before I found out I didnât kill him. I was completely fine before then.â
âWhat was that like. Paint me a picture. What is the world like for Leah without her father in the picture?â
âNo one walking into things they have no right to disturb, people hunting me down for reasons that arenât unusual, if at all,â she said. âWorking up to some contest that has no real meaning for anything, just the way things were a year ago, or a year and a half ago, or two years. That was the world, because I thought I actually pulled it off.â And of course, she hadnât. Heâd crawled out of the not-so-shallow grave like a ghoul under the moon, and let her believe that sheâd succeeded in killing a man whoâs name was feared by more people than sheâd ever been able to count.
âI know your father is dangerous Leah. I donât need your words to tell me when I can sense the raw emotion emanating within you. A fear like that can consume a person. However, I also do not get a sense it is fully consuming you. If your father does come looking for you, do you have protections in place? People to help? A support system to manage things in the meantime? You do attend a school training the next generation of heroes and there are connections to those who are currently out there doing just that.â
Leah shook her head. âWhen he shows up, getting in the way is just going to get someone killed. I wouldnât count on any of those heroes to last a minute in a fight with him. When I see him at the front door, one of two things is gonna happen: Everyone gets out of the way of us, or people start to die because they tried to stand between us. Itâs not their responsibility, itâs mine.â
âDo you think it is the responsibility of the person whoâs home is burning to put it out themselves? Do you think it is the responsibility of the victim of a robbery to search for their robber and get their belongings back? I know those are poor comparisons compared to facing a man who could seriously harm people, but there are fire fighters, police officers, heroes that take up that call to help others. Do we fault them for wanting to put themselves in danger to ensure another is unharmed? And do we fault them if they do not live up to that promise? Something to consider. Because despite the fear I sense, I also get love. Thereâs people in your life you care for and who care for you. Lean on them when you need it. Even the toughest hero needs to be able to take a breath now and then.â]
âItâs not about them. Itâs about him. Weâre talking about a guy who could be confronted by all the Avengers at once and not break a sweat. I- I can remember being ten years old and him showing me entire books worth of strategies for how to win a fight against just one of them,â she said. âHeâs not a fire or a robbery, heâs a fucking invasion, an atomic bomb falling right on your head. You donât send cops or firefighters after him, you get out of the way and let someone who knows how he does things sort it out.â
âThen what is keeping you here Leah? If he knows where you are and no amount of help from others will stop him and if you know itâs on your shoulders, what is the point of staying? Your friends will surely not let you face it alone. The school, for what its worth, will not let it slide that you are a target. The Avengers and anyone else will try to stop him too. If the best thing to stop an atomic bomb is to get as many people away as you can, what are you doing to get that started?â
âI know how he fights, and he doesnât just run up and jump you. Heâs a predator, he trips you up and lets you make mistakes before he shows his face at all. If you see him, itâs too late. But I know the warnings, I used to sneak into his lab a lot back when I lived with him, Iâve watched him fight other people. When it gets worse, Iâll know. And then Iâm gonna leave.â
She hadnât told anyone that part. Not April, not Sabine, not Vicky. They didnât need to worry about it, they would just be in more danger if they did.
âDealing with him, no matter what it is, itâs like youâre playing chess. You donât just go from A to B, you get in each otherâs heads and make sure you constantly update your plan. Every little thing changes how it goes.â
âDoes anyone know about your plan? Your emotional state shifted when you mentioned leaving. And how many times do you think youâll need to run before he stops, if he stops at all? Isnât that exhausting?â
âNo. They donât have to, Iâll be back. Iâm running off one more time, and when I come back, itâs done. Iâm going to make sure heâs dead for good this time.â
âLeah, I encourage you to tell someone about all of this. I acknowledge your father is powerful, dangerous, deadly, but by that logic you are in danger too. And you do not need to face it alone. At least think about it.â
âI think thatâs a good place to stop unless you have other questions or concerns. I am happy to answer anything else you might have. And I would very much like to continue working with you, if you want. Otherwise my door is always open. I would also like to send you home with some resources. Read them, shred them, doesnât matter. Would that be okay?â
Leah sighed. âWhat are they?â
âOne is a workbook about using mindfulness to help mitigate intense emotions. Itâs fairly easy. And then I have a weekly support group that I think you may like that involves opening up and advocating for oneself. Boundaries, relationship dynamics. Itâs also anonymous so you can go and not share your name or anything else. It has some other teens. You donât even have to go weekly, itâs more of a âcome when you wantâ type deal.â
âSo, is this a âsee you next timeâ or âhave a nice dayâ end to things?
âNo, itâs not. Iâm not coming back. The only reason I told you what I did is because I donât want someone to get on my ass about leaving too soon. I donât need this. But, sure, give me the things.â
She stood up.
Maeve stood up as well and walked over to the desk, picking up a folder with the papers she had said. She returned and handed them off to Leah. âThen I hope you have a nice rest of your day Leah. I included my card in here if you need anything in the future. As I said, my door is open.â Once the folder was taken, Maeve would return to her desk, waiting for Leah to leave before she wrote up a note about the session.
âYeah.â
Leah unceremoniously opened the door and walked out. And she was already regretting telling anybody anything about this. It sucked more than having to actually face him.
Tough. Headstrong. Refused authority, though it was hardly surprising why. She-Hulk had made a note for her given their recent involvement. âHandle with careâ. Maeve chuckled inwardly. She trusted that womanâs opinion.
Maeve closed the file and stood up. Preparation was key before sessions but a good therapist was one who was quick to roll with the punches and adjust as needed. She had a feeling Leah would not be pulling punches.
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As Leah walked into the office she would see a serene waterfall falling into a fountain with koi fish swimming in it and flowers sparingly floating along the top, moving slightly with the ripples. There was a long couch that could comfortably seat 5 people in a light orange color. On the light wooden table in front of the couch there was a stone statuette of what appeared to be a man holding a child in his arms. There was a book on the table with the title âTherapy Is Awkwardâ. The walls were a light cream color and the carpet was white. There were multiple windows showing a hot, sunny day outside with a sandy beach and waves gently rolling in.
Maeve sat in an orange armchair close to the table but directly across from the couch. âHello Leah. My name is Dr. Maeve Whitehall but you can call me Maeve or Dr. Whitehall, whichever you prefer. Please, take a seat where you feel most comfortable. I can adjust the seating arrangements as needed.â
There were no words to describe the sheer level of cosmic intervention required to somehow convince Leah to walk in here. So no words would be said.
When she stepped through the door, there was something awfully unsettling about how mellow this space looked. It wasnât the sort of environment she had any place in, too serene and sterile. Even in an environment that wasnât dangerous, there was usually sand or rocks or something natural keeping her company; Something that wasnât this.
With a resting bitch face, she sat down on the couch staring at the woman.
âYou have sixty seconds to stop me from leaving. Start talking.â
Maeve smiled. Just as she imagined. âWell normally I would begin by outlining what we would be doing here and talking about confidentiality and my role in that, but if I have only sixty seconds I better get right into it. First, let me know if this environment is too much or not enough for you. I admit I only had your file to go off of and adjusted what I could but I can always change it up if you feel more relaxed elsewhere. Hell, we donât even have to be in this room if you want. We can go outside if thatâs preferable. Second, I recognize I am an unknown figure and you feel some obligation to fight me and I do not blame you. You are not here under force or duress, even if you feel otherwise. I only want to talk and help, if youâll let me.â
Maeve pulled out her phone. âJust under sixty seconds. Howâd I do?â
âFunny, thatâs not what Coulson said,â Leah wasnât smiling. âSo yeah, Iâm not here willingly. And I donât plan on doing this regularly. So why should I?â
âWell Coulson isnât here and over here I am in charge. Or rather, you are. But since we are on that topic let me say that what is said in here, stays in here. Yes, Coulson might have suggested going and have stated itâs mandatory, but I am under no obligation to tell him anything you tell me. There are some stipulations though that, if they come up, I may have to break confidentiality. Such as if you want to seriously hurt yourself or someone else, if there is any child or vulnerable adult abuse, or if you give me permission. But outside of those parameters itâs just me and you in here.â
âSo to answer your question on âwhy should youâ, because very few people get a space to be themselves in whatever capacity they choose. You can sit there and lie to me and I would have no way of verifying because I canât ask. I have a file on you with basic information but thereâs a blank slate. You can also not stick around and leave at any point and I wonât stop you. All I ask is that you meet me in the middle. And really, not even in the middle, I can meet you closer to where your at.â
âSo what is it going to be right now Leah? In here, out there? What would make you more comfortable, even just a little bit?â
It wasnât hard to clock the fact that Leah didnât trust this woman. And at the mention of hurting someone else, and a kid being abused, a metaphorical fire was started in her. That feeling of anxiousness and lack of trust bumped up a few notches.
Why hasnât she walked out already? She was telling herself that it was that people would push their luck if she walked out and played hardball about this. Coulson would keep pretending he was part of any of this, She-Hulk would never let Leah live it down.
Fuck.
She stared the woman down, her face unreadable like stone
âFine. Itâs no oneâs business, Iâm staying here.â
âIâm happy you are staying. I noticed when I brought up the rules for confidentiality that there was some tension, particularly surrounding child abuse or wanting to hurt someone else. Do you mind if I ask why that impacted you?â Maeve could read emotions very well and it didnât take her powers to know Leah was feeling a lot. Maeve could appreciate a client who had their emotions on point. It made her job easier, even if they didnât want to talk.
Leah might have leaned backwards, but then the couch she was sitting on would be shredded and that would take forever to wash out. So she didnât.
What could she say to this woman that wouldnât open up absolute chaos?
âBack before I found this school, I tried to kill my dad. Wasnât until a month or two ago that I found out he survived,â Leah said. âAnd thatâs not a good thing.â
âYour dad is not the most upstanding of people, I take it? Would it be as bad as you hinted if he found you here?â Maeve clocked in to the emotions again. Happy Leah had opened up, even a crack.
âOh and donât worry about the furniture. Break it if you want, if it helps.â This was not, necessarily, a challenge, though it would be interesting to see how it was responded with.
âHeâs known Iâm here for a while now. Probably a month, probably three years,â Leah explained. âSo no, heâs not. Once heâs done with whatever Avengers are in the way, then heâs coming after me. And when that happens, Iâm making sure he doesnât walk away twice.â
âWhat was your upbringing like? I can hazard a guess if your next interaction with him ends with his death. I canât imagine he made it easy for you growing up. Also you said you found the school. Were you searching for something like it or did you stumble into it?â
Leah sighed and launched into an explanation.
âMy dadâs a supervillain, the kind who only hurts people for money. You could pay him to go and kill every last superhero in America and heâd just send you a bill after he buries them all two days later. He wouldnât think twice. He wanted me to be his legacy, someone whoâd do what he did long after he was gone. After I thought I killed him for good, I jumped on a rock and flew far, far away and the school just happened to be the first place where I could be sure I wouldnât starve.â
âItâs lucky the school was there then and willing to let you in. It sounds like a lot was put on you from an early age. That canât have been an easy thing to shoulder. As tough as it is to do in this moment, letâs forget dad for a second. If there was no threat of him coming and finding you, what would you want to do? What do you want for yourself?
âTo just go back to the way it was before I found out I didnât kill him. I was completely fine before then.â
âWhat was that like. Paint me a picture. What is the world like for Leah without her father in the picture?â
âNo one walking into things they have no right to disturb, people hunting me down for reasons that arenât unusual, if at all,â she said. âWorking up to some contest that has no real meaning for anything, just the way things were a year ago, or a year and a half ago, or two years. That was the world, because I thought I actually pulled it off.â And of course, she hadnât. Heâd crawled out of the not-so-shallow grave like a ghoul under the moon, and let her believe that sheâd succeeded in killing a man whoâs name was feared by more people than sheâd ever been able to count.
âI know your father is dangerous Leah. I donât need your words to tell me when I can sense the raw emotion emanating within you. A fear like that can consume a person. However, I also do not get a sense it is fully consuming you. If your father does come looking for you, do you have protections in place? People to help? A support system to manage things in the meantime? You do attend a school training the next generation of heroes and there are connections to those who are currently out there doing just that.â
Leah shook her head. âWhen he shows up, getting in the way is just going to get someone killed. I wouldnât count on any of those heroes to last a minute in a fight with him. When I see him at the front door, one of two things is gonna happen: Everyone gets out of the way of us, or people start to die because they tried to stand between us. Itâs not their responsibility, itâs mine.â
âDo you think it is the responsibility of the person whoâs home is burning to put it out themselves? Do you think it is the responsibility of the victim of a robbery to search for their robber and get their belongings back? I know those are poor comparisons compared to facing a man who could seriously harm people, but there are fire fighters, police officers, heroes that take up that call to help others. Do we fault them for wanting to put themselves in danger to ensure another is unharmed? And do we fault them if they do not live up to that promise? Something to consider. Because despite the fear I sense, I also get love. Thereâs people in your life you care for and who care for you. Lean on them when you need it. Even the toughest hero needs to be able to take a breath now and then.â]
âItâs not about them. Itâs about him. Weâre talking about a guy who could be confronted by all the Avengers at once and not break a sweat. I- I can remember being ten years old and him showing me entire books worth of strategies for how to win a fight against just one of them,â she said. âHeâs not a fire or a robbery, heâs a fucking invasion, an atomic bomb falling right on your head. You donât send cops or firefighters after him, you get out of the way and let someone who knows how he does things sort it out.â
âThen what is keeping you here Leah? If he knows where you are and no amount of help from others will stop him and if you know itâs on your shoulders, what is the point of staying? Your friends will surely not let you face it alone. The school, for what its worth, will not let it slide that you are a target. The Avengers and anyone else will try to stop him too. If the best thing to stop an atomic bomb is to get as many people away as you can, what are you doing to get that started?â
âI know how he fights, and he doesnât just run up and jump you. Heâs a predator, he trips you up and lets you make mistakes before he shows his face at all. If you see him, itâs too late. But I know the warnings, I used to sneak into his lab a lot back when I lived with him, Iâve watched him fight other people. When it gets worse, Iâll know. And then Iâm gonna leave.â
She hadnât told anyone that part. Not April, not Sabine, not Vicky. They didnât need to worry about it, they would just be in more danger if they did.
âDealing with him, no matter what it is, itâs like youâre playing chess. You donât just go from A to B, you get in each otherâs heads and make sure you constantly update your plan. Every little thing changes how it goes.â
âDoes anyone know about your plan? Your emotional state shifted when you mentioned leaving. And how many times do you think youâll need to run before he stops, if he stops at all? Isnât that exhausting?â
âNo. They donât have to, Iâll be back. Iâm running off one more time, and when I come back, itâs done. Iâm going to make sure heâs dead for good this time.â
âLeah, I encourage you to tell someone about all of this. I acknowledge your father is powerful, dangerous, deadly, but by that logic you are in danger too. And you do not need to face it alone. At least think about it.â
âI think thatâs a good place to stop unless you have other questions or concerns. I am happy to answer anything else you might have. And I would very much like to continue working with you, if you want. Otherwise my door is always open. I would also like to send you home with some resources. Read them, shred them, doesnât matter. Would that be okay?â
Leah sighed. âWhat are they?â
âOne is a workbook about using mindfulness to help mitigate intense emotions. Itâs fairly easy. And then I have a weekly support group that I think you may like that involves opening up and advocating for oneself. Boundaries, relationship dynamics. Itâs also anonymous so you can go and not share your name or anything else. It has some other teens. You donât even have to go weekly, itâs more of a âcome when you wantâ type deal.â
âSo, is this a âsee you next timeâ or âhave a nice dayâ end to things?
âNo, itâs not. Iâm not coming back. The only reason I told you what I did is because I donât want someone to get on my ass about leaving too soon. I donât need this. But, sure, give me the things.â
She stood up.
Maeve stood up as well and walked over to the desk, picking up a folder with the papers she had said. She returned and handed them off to Leah. âThen I hope you have a nice rest of your day Leah. I included my card in here if you need anything in the future. As I said, my door is open.â Once the folder was taken, Maeve would return to her desk, waiting for Leah to leave before she wrote up a note about the session.
âYeah.â
Leah unceremoniously opened the door and walked out. And she was already regretting telling anybody anything about this. It sucked more than having to actually face him.