Rudolf Sagramore and Eve “Grayscale”
Early during their return trip to Kugane, before the dawn of the second day even, still with the reigning night sky and chill evening desert air fanning the dunes, a certain swordsman would find his sleep disturbed, that certain unease you'd get from being watched... and that was quite saying something considering he always had his plus one with him.
Upon opening his eyelids, the young lad would find a pair of reptilian, slitted red eyes staring down at him directly from above. From this angle and due to the dim ambience of the campfire, said eyes looked almost vividly,
violently crimson. Yet, there was something familiar about them, they didn't belong to a blight beast, a monster yes, but one of his allies regardless, though from how
fiercely they were staring at him, no one could blame him if he reacted with hostility.
“!!”And just as well they didn’t, for when his blearily opening eyes first took in the twin disks of crimson and the enshadowed frame looming over him, eyes catching the vivid starlight overhead and
burning with it, Rudolf had fairly leapt right out of his damned skin. For five years, he’d been a chronically light sleeper, plagued by unease in his resting hours—
A point of silver gleamed in the moonlight, a scant few inches away from the Pseudolon’s nose.
—And his adopted home had a tradition of keeping at least one blade on their person, always, even asleep. Of them all, this he’d taken most readily to that. And it wasn’t until that surge of panic faded, consequently, that his shoulders slackened, and he drew the knife back with a sigh as he recognized the placid expression upon which that burning gaze belonged. His own had been a tight snarl with desperate, wide eyes before the waking mind had taken back over— wary, spooked, and cornered all in less than a blink.
Even while supposedly unconscious, some individuals seemed to have this... sense, this figurative watchdog that'd shake them awake if they feel they're being watched, the more guarded a person was, the more keen they became. That was good to know, sleep is such a vulnerable phase in one's day after all, this was one of the things she wouldn't want to have even if she was a normal Sollan.
The shorter-yet-significantly-older of the white-haired duo was unfazed by Rudolf's reflexive response, common as it was for warriors to always have a weapon within arms reach, especially when sleeping in the wilderness.
“...Eve, hey.” he spoke breathlessly, slumping back onto his hindquarters. This was a bolt of a shame— for all he’d been looking over his shoulder at the Kirins after the tangle with Izayoi’s resurrected Master, his sleep had been… deeper, or maybe sounder, while the passenger within his spirit was in its own right seemingly dormant.
“Mothercrystal, you scared me half to death.” For once, he’d had a few less tumultuous nights, less tired mornings.
"I apologize." She responded with all the stoicism that only a few could muster.
“You need something? Hear a weird noise out there? Diiid, uh,”At that, Eve subtly yet visibly shook her head,
"No Blight Beasts incursion yet."“Yet”.It seemed that streak ended here.
He made a show of rubbing his brow, as though to scrub away syncope. He didn’t like that the Kirins’ out-and-out Mage, most inherently connected to the arcane, was the one to wake him in the dead of knight by looming overhead and thinking Etro-Knew-What behind that unreadable
look she’d painted upon him. She’d
also been the one that had spoken the most with Cid, done the work in getting information out of the venerable holy man, while they were all licking their wounds.
His words were gonna be fresh in her mind, more than anyone else’s besides Rudi’s own.
He yawned, blinking slowly as he looked her way again. You just woke up, so playing dumb is the move anyway.
“Did I forget the watch rotation, am I up?”"There's no need for mandatory watch rotations with me around." Again, she replied with an inarguable and pragmatically sound fact.
”What, so you watch us sleep?” he shot back, trying to regain momentum from the misstep. She knew. They both did. It’d take more than schoolyard shit to throw her off.
An awkward and tense silence began to brew between them...
"What haven't you been telling us, Rudolf?" Until she broke it with an inquiry that couldn't be mistaken as anything but interrogating.
”My life story. What my taste in women is. My favorite food. Lots of things. None of them are harmful to the mission.”He held her gaze. The list was true. The structure was flippant. His tone, though, couldn’t help but begin to tighten. This showed too in his posture, growing more and more guarded with each second.
With each of those - she knew that he knew - irrelevant things he listed out, the more affirmed Eve became that
something was up. Really, that display of Blight-esque power he wielded against the Revenant was proof enough, everything else was simply more evidence to support the conviction.
...now all she needed was a confession.
He wasn’t ready. Not here, not now, not yet. He could feel it locking his heart up, twisting his thoughts.
"False." Eve cut him off, whether he was done speaking or not,
"At least one of them are potentially harmful to the mission... to the world." Her cold, emotionless tone harkened back to the Eve the party once knew, before Kugane, before Atsu, back when they were still practically strangers.
The swordsman was on the back foot, but wasn’t willing to give any ground she wasn’t working for. Nothing for free. His gaze warned her of that much.
In his mind, he desperately fought to find a way out of this immediate hole, while his mouth tried to buy time.
"I've been nothing but truthful about how I came to be and where my allegiance lies, can you say the same, 'Rudolf'?" If it was indeed his real name.
"What are you?"Blight. She’d
made the damned connection. He was sure of it.
”Sollan,” he fired back immediately.
”Sollan to the bone. And Rudolf is my name, ‘Eve’. Only worthwhile thing my Dad ever gave me.”Dad.
Exile from the Shilage lands seemed a pittance, now. What the hell had he been moping about, when the next person to get an inkling of what he’d done took him for a potential Blight Bomb, about to go off in their midst?
Rudolf spitting back Eve’s mistrust about his name right back at her seemed to strike a nerve,
"Eve was my mother's name, I took it as my own because I refuse to refer to myself using the moniker they gave me." Grayscale... implying she was nothing but a weapon to be wielded whenever convenient.
He winced.
His grip on the knife tightened. He wasn’t gonna point it at her again, not unless she forced him.
But the tremble in his hands told more of the story, that which he couldn’t bear to consider.
”I came to save my country from the evil that besets us. I have a duty to the people of Edren. I’ve never lied about that.”What if she was right?
What if he was just a matter of time?
"... ... ..."”Just put it away, Eve—” ZAP!!A point of light, a screaming danger sense, and a sudden leap to the side.
Without warning, a small bolt of lightning grazed far too close against the side of Rudolf's scalp, singing a few locks of gray-white hair. In front of him, he could see the Pseudolon thrusting her pointer and middle fingers at his head, her hand poised like a pistol, arcane sparks whipping the air around said extremities.
That was her answer to all the pointless beating around the bush.
"The next one won't miss." She forwarded her ultimatum,
"Tell me about the evil within you... or don't, I'm sure it'll protect you just as it did against the Revenant's blade, no?" The sparks at her fingertips intensified,
"Either way, I'll get the truth out of you."Scary! What the hell, this was so scary! She’d kill him! She’d kill him now or kill him as soon as she found out! To think he was worried about Robin! Now he knew why so many people didn’t follow in Galahad’s footsteps!
”Are you insane?!” he hissed, knife now aloft in a guarded position as he gauged distances— between himself and her, between himself and past her, between her crackling fingertip and the metal in his grip.
”Throwing around magic like that in camp, what if you’d hit someone like Izayoi?! You’d get everyone killed!”"I am a monster." She confirmed,
"As you've witnessed yourself, I hold the power to destroy battleships, do you really think this little magic is beyond my control?" If his aim was to throw her off, he'd have to do better than questioning her spellcasting, it'd be as effective as doubting Izayoi's swordsmanship. This meant he was desperate... good, the truth was close.
“Power and control are very different.” She was just gonna flat out ignore how many people they were right on top of, then. That level of confidence he had no choice but to believe… but still, if he dodged her and somebody else was in his wake, this would be dangerous for more people than just the two of them, very quickly.
His swords weren’t far. Just a few strides away…
And then what?
Cutting her down was out of the question for all sorts of reasons, but…
No, if he had to protect herself, with them he felt safest. That was it.
”Look, I don’t want anyone getting hurt, Eve… Last Valheimr to point a gun at my head didn’t have great luck with that.” he warned, in the tone of a man faced with a snarling hound. He had to set her off-balance for just a moment, throw the ball back in her court, and pull this back somewhere safe. He needed to get initiative back, if he wanted to make it outta here alive.
"This isn't a gun." She deflected the warning with all the ambiguity of someone who was either dense or confident,
"If you don't want to hurt anyone, then tell us the truth, Rudolf." He was a wounded close combatant, she was a fresh ranged spellcaster; it wasn't even a contest, she had the high ground.
"Despise me all you want, but they deserve the truth."He circled, one gingerly made step at a time. He’d caught the glance down at his right leg. Brief, but there— She didn’t seem to know the full extent to which he’d healed. Moreover, she didn’t seem to be thinking about just how quickly he might be able to close the gap.
Please, Eve. He didn’t want to have to take advantage of that. But these were the only thoughts he could even keep straight anymore. It was like standing on the edge of a cliff.
He held the knife aloft, letting it catch the moon, letting it catch her eyes. Even she couldn’t escape the tendency to want to track a bared edge of steel, right? He swung it wide, in a slow arc, away from him.
Her eyes might instinctively follow the knife for a brief moment, but the Pseudolon's "finger gun" kept its aim trained on the monster hunter even as he began taking steps around her. Being a creature of primal ether - artificial she might be - she lived and breathed off magic, thus unlike most mages, incantations were more of a ritual to help her muster focus rather than a mandatory part of the spellcasting process.
She had her Thundaga bolt primed and ready, she'd just need to pull the trigger...
“It’s not about me despising you, Eve.” he intoned ruefully.
”You scare me, but I don’t hate you. Please.”Please.
"Tell me something I'm not yet familiar with." Being feared? The half-dragon mage was more than well used to it,
"But I assure you, the feeling is mutual." Most certainly since Svalinn's reveal.
He flinched, but struggled forward.
”I’ve already lost one life to this thing. I’m not gonna get thrown outta another. Can’t saving Izayoi be proof enough I don’t mean harm?”One step away. Any false moves, and he was diving for them.
He’d figure it out afterward.
"... ... ..." So it wasn't new, Rudolf had been hosting that 'thing' for gods know how long, long enough to get him exiled.
“I promise, there’s no upside to digging this up unless… you already want me gone. What do you know? Maybe I’m way behind.”He should have done this part much, much earlier, admittedly— but he needed to see what cards she held. He’d spent this whole exchange playing catch-up.
Her brows frowned deeply at the Sollan's sheer stubbornness, not even Esben was
this secretive about his past, and the man's a spy,
"I'll be the judge of that." She sighed harshly,
"Whatever power you conjured back then, it felt... wrong. I'm no true Eidolon, but that part of me felt revulsion as if I was bearing witness to a spreading disease, the planet's disease, ...the Blight." She let her words hang in the air, then continued before he could respond.
His eyes tightened.
"...I'm not mistaken, am I? You're hosting some kind of Blightborne entity, that's the only possible conclusion behind your unflinching refusal to tell the truth, even in the face of certain death, your silence serves as confession enough." She wasn't finished,
"However... the High Caretaker didn't smite you on sight, he even let you bring that thing into Etro's sacred grounds, so... there may still be hope for you yet. Please tell me it's true." So she wouldn't have to euthanize him right here and now.
“…There has to be.”He seemed to slack before her, all but ready to crumple with relief. It was hard to tell who between the two of them he was making this reaffirmation to.
Safe, only by a hair’s thread.
But she was right. There had been something in that
look Cid had given him back there, something he couldn’t interpret.
Pity?
Regret?
Sorrow, maybe?
But whatever it was, it hadn’t been hostile. And Rudolf was now sure that it had meant he’d known, the whole time. And as she’d said, he hadn’t had Ifrit dropped on
his dome.
He had to hold onto that.
If he didn’t, then…
”So long as my mind’s still my own, there has to be.”Leather creaked, deafening in the silence of the dunes where it would be inaudible anywhere else. His eyes had left the tiny pseudolon now. Instead, the holes they stared bore down upon the knife in his hands, in the white, shaking knuckles of his grip.
From here, while Eve seemed to want a way out of having to commit to roasting him like an autumn goose, he could at least bargain the value of sile—
”I… I don’t know if it’s Blight specifically.”Each breath shook, but the words came.
What the hell was he doing?
”And I can’t exactly ask right now, either way.”What happened to giving nothing away?
”This has been with me for five years. It’s never tried to spread. If nothing else, I’m pretty sure it’s at least disconnected from Valheim’s incursions. They’ve never recognized him as… like them.”Incredible. He was chickening out of chickening out.
Pathetic…
"... ... ..." Though her thunderarm was still cocked and ready, there seemed to be little indication that she'd actually pull the trigger, and the possibility only grew less and less as Rudolf finally saw sense and stopped beating around the bush.
He was on his haunches now, and felt like five measures of his own weight were dragging him into the sand. Exhausted. With the fading adrenaline, he became aware again of every last bit of him that had been through the wringer.
Five years of checking his own shadow for a trap. Five years of carefully minding everything he let slip into the world. Five years of pretending to be little more than a common-born swordsman, building lies upon lies to live through.
And now, he couldn’t even choose between giving away the game or committing to it. Right to the end, he second-guessed every move.
How could he save the world? He felt sick.
”Is that enough for you?”The coward, finally, met the wyrmspawn’s eyes again. With them, his soul pleaded that she relent, even knowing she had every right not to. They
all had a right to.
His brothers would have laid it all out for everyone right from the gate. They would have done everything right. They stood tall. Honorable by every measure.
Honor’s the refuge of the strong.He was not of their cloth.
This was all he could handle.
Eve listened to his story, everything, pauses and all, from beginning to end...
"Haaa...."...then let her primed spell fizzle out, sighing heavily as if she had just gone through a life-and-death situation.
"There... may be more about the Blight than what even Cid knew." The white-haired mage murmured, she
wanted to have something vouching for Rudolf's innocence.
"Maybe it has always been there, like shadow to light, only the Mothercrystal's shine kept it at bay, but now, with the glow snuffed..."She paused, closed her eyes, then subtly gritted her teeth, enough crafting theories for now. She had gotten what she came for,
"We'll find a way to purify the world of this taint, including the one within you." With that, she turned away, then sat back down on the dunes, this time decidedly not staring down at another sleeping party member.
”I hope you’re right. I really, really do.”
Imir, Ithar, if you can hear either of us…The dull
fwmph from behind heralded the young man finally fully collapsing onto his back, utterly spent. The knife in his hand rolled free, thankfully still on the sands, and his eyes were drawn up.
Above him, there was no black void, as the night he’d been thrown out like trash, his first when truly alone, had been. Clouds couldn’t survive here.
The truth of what lie above them, where so many seers of before had seen fate writ large, was bared to all.
Out in this sea of sand, in a land so far away from any home he’d known… the stars were painted with dizzying brilliance. More than he dared count, enough to drown out even the Constellations he’d learned to name. A thousand-thousand diamonds, tiny points of light that massed to color the night from black to blue, yellow, even pink— the great band that stretched across the heavens, said in some lands to be the arm of Danube herself, packed them together so tightly they almost outshone the moon. At it he stared.
Within that enormous current, that coalescence, was said to be the flow of everyone’s fate. That fate which
they now were supposed to be fighting for. Ten tiny souls, be they dimmed or polished to the brightest luster. Faced with that, he was barely more significant than… any one of these grains of sand. Such enormity could crush him. What was his life? What could he really do? What could any of them?
He stared.
…Every point of light singing in this chorus would be drowned by the dark on its own, a lone voice awash in silence. Gathered together, they created a vast, beautiful symphony, pushing back against the night. They sang of life, of truth, of destiny.
Collecting those motes of light together… could make something like this. Beyond the grasp of any man or woman, yet all the same threatened by their foes.
He reached high, with his hand now free, and saw it too be lost against the immense, vivid backdrop.
Was his fate still in there?
What about hers, somebody born under those circumstances, rather than choosing the darker path?
…
Would this feel quite so
insurmountably massive, if he could be sure it was?
…
He stared. For a while, they shared the silence, neither looking at the other, neither comfortable nor hostile. Until…
“... I’m sorry, Eve. You’re right that they deserve to know, but… I’m not ready to say it yet. I wasn’t even ready to tell you this much.””...” She was silent at first, each trickle of the hourglass’ sand felt like an eternity in its own, yet through the silence, Rudolf could sense that her earless ears were listening.
The pause hung in the air. Hadn’t they put each other through enough for one night?
“Could I ask you to keep it quiet, unless you’ve got no choice?”His only reply would be a minute shift of draconic red eyes, followed by a barely perceptible nod, but twas’ a gesture that conveyed more than a thousand words could.