Rudolf Sagramore
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Grovemaster Isolde
That night…
It had been a couple days’ travel now, and Rudolf had spent the grand portion of them in a tense, taciturn cast. Events of the prior days had doubtless weighed upon him, as they had every Kirin— gaining one member and then losing her and a second in so little time surely doing their outlook few favors. Worse still, they were bearing down upon the first major test of their quest proper in the Trial of Tides.
Without proving their valor, worthiness, earnest intent to save the world, or whatever else that Leviathan and the Gods at large meant to take their measure in, they would not be allowed access to the Crystal of Water. They wouldn’t be able to verify its integrity… or potentially safeguard it against Valheim. With the Fire Crystal already lost, their success in this endeavor was
paramount. Things were already this bad with one crystal in enemy hands. Two, and the invaders’ toehold would surely be nigh-uncontainable, and the remaining nations overrun with a spike of Blightbeasts.
For these reasons, Isolde’s escort to Redwood was a resource Rudolf had no intention of ignoring. No matter how fresh the Grovemasters’ reclamation of Neve was in his mind, no matter how certain he was that the mousey robe-clad woman before him could sense
everything Neve had and then some, no matter how much he wanted to let sleeping dogs lie…
“Master Isolde,” he said simply as he approached her spot off to the side, while the main party busied themselves with setting camp.
“Do you have a minute?”He would be a fool to waste whatever insight she may have been able to offer, regarding the biggest piece of dead weight he was lugging around and never using. Bereft of any chance at finding who might have originally laid a curse onto the blade, his next best option was entreating the most adept mages he could find.
No better person to start with than someone that had ascended to her position so quickly.
Isolde glanced up from her meditations, staff laid across her lap. She adjusted her hood, peering at the young man before her.
”Yes? You have a question for me, I take it?” Her gaze focused as she beheld Rudolf, head tilting slightly.
”How curious. Some presence…shrouds you. Not inherently harmful to the body, and yet…”Uh oh, boss. I think she likes me.He nodded in response to her first question, though it could just as well have been read as an affirmation of her train of thought that had come just after. Either way…
“...Not without cost.” he completed, drawing the greatsword from his back and setting it upon his lap as she had her staff after seating himself. No point in beating around the bush when he had already twice known what he could and couldn’t hide from mages of less-realized ability than her.
“Though my asking pertains to less transactional matters than bargaining fortune for power.”Progress. At least you admit it’s a deal these days. Still, haven’t you gotten pretty bold with what you’re giving out for free lately?With his fingertips, he tapped against the flat of the blade before him, no sound ringing out in response and no impact against his bones the way one would reasonably expect from steel of such construction and quality. He met her eyes after a moment’s contemplation.
”There is a curse inlaid upon this sword, and I’ve no means of tracking down the original caster— should they even still exist on our side of the world. With what research I’ve been able to pull together, my best chance at potentially breaking it might be entreating the most skilled mages I can find for their insight and ability. I can hardly imagine many who might outstrip you, seeing as you sniffed out the passenger I’ve got with me faster than even Neve had.”He tilted his head slightly, as though mirroring her.
”If you’re curious, maybe we could trade questions. But please. The threats we face leave little room for dead weight in our number. Is there anything you might be able to do?””With your permission.” Isolde set her staff aside as she took the sword into her lap.
”By all means.”The Grovemaster laid a hand upon the flat of the blade, a soft white glow emanating from her palm as she began to assense it. A minute passed. Two. After three, she finally opened her eyes.
”Where did you acquire this weapon?” An ironic echo of Kurogane’s same question to Rudolf, if there ever was one.
The corners of his mouth turned up humorlessly.
”As I understand it, a colorful warrior from a far-flung land was more or less dropped headfirst onto my father and his Raiders during the Osprey Campaign. That at the sacrifice of four dozen men, this was his only war trophy to show by the end of things— the same enemy that had torched his march towards Ranbu no Izayoi disappearing shortly after being routed.”He glanced up, towards the bits of rosy dusktime sky that peeked through the ever-present curtain of green. It felt strange repeating things like this… but at the same time, it was the easier part of the conversation. He had less of the harder stuff to hide. And there was a strange sliver of relief tucked away in that.
”Pretty much chucked it at my feet after he discovered my new ‘occult influences’— given what it had cost for so little use, I doubt he could stand to look at it much.”So you’re still leaving that part where you put them on full display out.He returned his gaze to the blade.
”To keep the departure brief, I had no room to get much more detail, beyond us ‘deserving one another’. Why do you ask?””Because whatever magic this is, it is not of this land.” Isolde replied softly, the bluntness of her statement undercut by the quiet tone it was delivered with.
”I am familiar with many magics. This spell-weaving is not one I have seen before.” She moved to offer the sword back with both hands.
“Ah. Naturally.””If I had both the time and sufficient spell reagents, undoing the enchantment through sheer brute force would be feasible. Unfortunately for you, I suspect it would take months and no small amount of gil in the amount of cursebreaking materials required. However, what I can determine is that the binding is life-linked. It will disappear with either the consent or death of the caster. You said this was obtained during the war with Osprey? Doubtless, its original owner is still among the living.””Months, huh?”He held the bridge of his nose, nodding along slowly as her explanation drove this idea deeper and deeper into the hole.
”Well, with my luck, he may yet drop out of the sky once again looking for it. We could circumvent all that by pummeling the interloper until he croaks.”Much as he wanted to throw his hands up in defeat and be done with the whole affair, as his drier and drier tone indicated, she hadn’t told him such was the
only way he could break this curse. Just the most direct. And banking on the direct route in this life, after five years of this squirrely piece of steel offering anything but…
“Feh. Were it so easy. One moment.”He rose after accepting the greatsword from her, dashing off to cart it back to his supplies and belongings where he’d set them down in the midst of camp a short distance away. She would see him rifle through the leather satchels and bags with a furrowed brow for a moment, before returning to her side with, of all things, charcoal and parchment in hand, the latter tucked in the midst of the pages of a thick tome.
Doubtless, he’d need to keep these two together, as it was to simply be additions to his growing pile of that aforementioned “research”. Taking a moment to open it up, he had evidently been neck-deep into a section on more domestic Edreni hexes— such as they existed.
”We’ve a long road ahead of us, and one winding through the whole continent at the very least. Gil being one thing, and your duties here being another, of course… I ought to at least be on the lookout for those reagents you mentioned, while we’re on the move. If I can at least solve the supply equation, that’s a step forward. What should I be hunting?”His eyes burned with a stubborn flame, carrying a smidge of light beneath their duller luster. He couldn’t let this go if his effort wasn’t exhaustive. For the fate of the world
(And for your power in it), there were no half-measures. No stones that could be left unturned.
What came next from Isolde’s mouth were a string of rare and valuable materials, with diamond dust, Skaelan black pearls, and the beating heart of a dragon being among the most prominent and important of the bunch.
”The rest of the reagents can be substituted or worked around, but those three are crucial to spellbreaking. But I have a question for you, Rudolf.” Isolde’s hood shifted, showing only the glint of her glasses for a moment.
”What would you do if this sword held no power in the end? Past being very finely crafted, do you not believe it to be something of an irresponsible gamble in going through all this effort on your mystery weapon?”A pregnant pause hung in the air, as he laid down his charcoal over the now heavily marked parchment and turned her question over on itself in his head— of all the ones he thought he might have been expecting, this was far from topping the list.
And yet… he saw why it came. It was a natural concern with any long-spanning undertaking, towards an indefinite goal at that. A venture into the unknown and unstructured, one that would take perhaps the whole breadth of his journey and then some extra— the still-beating heart of a dragon, for instance, might end up claiming his very life. Could it be worth that stake on the table? If the chance existed that Kurogane was somehow mistaken in his read of the steel, could he go throwing himself off course while the Kirins still had their main missions to complete?
It
was a gamble. That, he would not deny. And really, how many gambles had he already made that had bitten him in the ass?
Forgoing his respect for Etro and allowing a black flame to burn in his soul for the sake of harnessing its power.
Sprinting ahead of Izayoi’s master to the point of tearing his tendons from the bone, and revealing that same sacrilege to the party, putting him beneath their suspicion even now.
Diving for that Valheimr in a mad dash to get away from Valon’s spear, sending himself into the brackish seas below, where Eve’s sister lurked and held a mirror to all the weakest parts of him, nearly dragging him to a watery grave.
Hell… even in accepting that call to arms, he was making a gamble. He, and Earl Demet, and mighty Wulfric, knew it could not have been meant for a failure like him. That any warrior of fighting age in that same village, bearing their dagger and a blazing heart, was more deserving by merit. And yet here he was.
Cursing every subsequent bet he’d made. Living a life mixed upon fear and stern adherence to some ideal of duty he had taken onto himself. Sacrificing luck, sacrificing his sanity, sacrificing all the effort he could pour out from his slight, weak frame. A man possessed in all senses, desperate to give himself to a fragile dream.
All the less responsible choice. All gambles. All with fallouts that caused him pain. And yet…
He looked over to the camp proper. There was Izayoi, still breathing, griping about meddlesome fae. There too was Ciradyl, Esben, Galahad, Eliane, Arton… Even Miina and Robin, who barely cared for any of his prior bets beyond still having him around. All of them, still living and breathing.
He had gambled and lost. He was an exile from his ancestral home. He had stranded himself among those he needed to guard a shameful past from, a furtive pygmy among giant legends-still-written. He had lost trust.
He had cut a tense deal with Eve, who smelled the inherent
wrongness about him, for a held tongue— only to have so many secrets pried open by the careless threads of fate, and for her and her pact to leave their number only weeks after.
He had taken a hopeful shot in the dark with Neve, beginning to tell her more honestly of the truth about his contract, his sacrifices, and the curse he had wrought onto himself in a fit of childish rage, against the fate that neither she nor Isolde could have fought. He had barely begun to convey what a shortsighted, cowardly fool he had been, the depths of his selfish motive, but accepted her faith as soon as she gave it— and in what seemed only a breath later, she had been torn from the party, to be held among the Grovemasters in Brightlam under a doubled watch. Aiding them no longer. Holding faith that he was more than what he told her only in word, with no way to prove it to him.
It was like his bets were poison. He couldn’t even blame the passenger residing in the back of his mind, pointedly holding its tongue in this moment for reasons he couldn’t know. Even before he had known of a “Lunaris”, he had been a gamble, demanding incredible effort for questionable reward.
The knightly arts of war as a meek weakling. A squireship across the country, despite so much polishing left on the table.
Living as little more than a babe, while a trusted captain fled in the winter night.
And yet…
Those gambles that had resulted in such turmoil and torment had kept the rest all here. All breathing. He had interfered and shown himself to save Izayoi’s life, no matter what had been made of him in the aftermath. He had carved through the serpentine waves, buying them the opportunity to save everyone the storm had thrown or beckoned overboard. He had, at the same time as each gamble brought
him ruin… kept a crucial person in the game.
And even that accursed deal he struck… without it, he wouldn’t have been here, at each key point. He would not have thrown his weighty black blaze upon the scales, and tipped them towards the people that were trying to save the world.
His efforts were as exhausting as they were exhaustive. Even so.
“No. Whatever chance this blade may represent, I believe it worth taking.”So long as they could push the mission forward, against these impossibly massive odds that Danube had spelled out to him herself, seemingly so many nights ago in the desert now… it didn’t matter what he burned to keep that flame alive. Even if it was stained by pitch, even if it flickered, wavered, weakened at points… it would keep burning.
”I believe this worth the effort, even if there is no special destruction it may wreak once the curse is lifted. Stubborn as it may be, at the very least, it is one more line of sharp steel I would be able to lend to our cause— even a marginal boon is worth pursuing, given how steep our odds are already.” he replied at length, gazing into the twin glinting disks as though to pierce through them, so he might search through the emerald depths that were beneath even as they searched rosy gold in his answer.
”If nothing else, I will have determined the true nature of an old and frustrating curiosity. Put structure and reason upon the formless unknown. A chapter I will close, and no longer need to carry upon my back as we move forward.”Flimsy, rhetorically.
But all the more reason to put his weight behind it— for it was sincere.
”I find the greater irresponsibility to be in abandoning the things I commit myself to. I have little left to my name beyond them. If it can be done, I have to try.”For the briefest fraction of a moment, there was a sag in his shoulders, the way that willow trees did when they sighed too heavy at the branches before falling.
”I can’t spare any less.”Then it was gone, cased anew in iron.
A moment passed. Two. Isolde seem to withdraw into herself for a moment, before letting out a slight giggle.
”Ufu. I see. You’ve genuinely thought this through, and still decided to continue on with it. Quite foolhardy, in my opinion, but admirable.”The young man shifted a little at that, far from sure of what he’d been expecting. He spent a moment to study the trees, scratching at the back of his head.
I guess I’m happy to entertain...The Grovemaster placed her staff back into her lap, seemingly satisfied with whatever insight that she had gleaned out of Rudolf.
”Then if nothing else, I wish you good fortune and the blessing of the Mothercrystal. It is not the path I would advise, but if you are set on the hard road, then I can do little more to dissuade you from it.””Suppose it’s my way of things.”A slight, somehow-saddened smile.
”For what it’s worth, I do hope the Trial turns out well for you and yours.”“...So do I. For all our sakes.” he replied after a time, voice faint as the hint of smoke the wind carried over from the beginnings of the campfire. He couldn’t help but feel troubled by that expression, gentle yet melancholy. Familiar to him, in so many ways, for so many reasons. Not the least of which…
“You know, I saw that same look on Cid’s face, down in the temple beneath the desert.” he mentioned beneath a raised brow, a little out the side of his mouth.
”At first I was worried it was about me smelling like a desecrated ruin, like he had felt a severance from Etro’s light in the same breath as he’d explained how Blight manifests, but as time keeps rolling on, and I keep meeting holy folk like you, him, Neve… the more I wonder if it wasn’t something different they saw. And if this Trial is gonna see things the same way.”He regarded her again, a wry, helpless smirk flashing across his features as the last edge of the sun sunk behind the emerald canopy high above.
”But that’s the whole point of the thing, isn’t it?”Isolde’s face turned unreadably neutral at the mention of Cid, but she nodded nonetheless.
”We all lose our way at times, Rudolf. What matters is how we choose to proceed from there. Try to pull ourselves out of the holes we’ve dug, or double down and continue to bury ourselves. For what my opinion is worth, I believe you’ve done an admirable amount of pulling, if only for the sake of those around you.”She rose from her seat, pulling herself up with her staff as a crutch.
”The Lady of the Whorls will judge you and yours, Rudolf. I pray that she does so favorably. Gird yourselves, and keep the greater good of those you are responsible for in mind.”Rudolf let that sink in, then inclined his head.
”…Thank you. I’ll not keep you any longer.”He remained seated, watching her rise, before eventually shifting the sword to rest against his shoulder and looking back over the parchment, and his many new side goals etched upon it. He had no heed of the blade, of course— it was the words he was left with, rather, that had truly cut him to the quick.
Once again, he saw his gaze shift from parchment to the hand that held it, pockmarked, worn, and dying of its want to tremor. He flexed his fingers closed, one by one, and found response, crinkling the stiff page as he imagined a grip for pulling. For the sake of others. Out of a deep, deep pit.
“The greater good, huh….”The words passed into the night air as little more than a murmur, but the rang, and hung in his head, sound bouncing within a bell.
Responsibility.
The trial was a mere day away.
We reach this crossroads again, the dancing shadows of the campside firelight said, plainly speaking in their withering tongue.
Is that look in your eye a mind made up?He swallowed a thick lump of fear, clenching his jaw as if it would break the ice that had begun to grip him at the heart. His knuckles, wrapped tight as a stone coffin around the leaflet parchment, had gone white.
Yes. Now was the time.
Then tread with care, little squire-errant. And try not to destroy your list.A deep breath, full of smoke, full of mist, full of clean jungle air. The boy rose, staring into the thicket, where any man could melt away and be lost forever in only three bounds.
”Alright.”