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"It's comfortable being around him. I feel peaceful when he's just there. I don't want him poking around in my head though. That would be just... I wonder if he can help me remember things from my life before coming here. Who my parents were... what I was like before well, I'm like this. Maybe he already knows? Has he been through my mind before? I did fall asleep in the Library that one time and he was there. That was a good nap. Maybe I should sleep there more often. Hmmm... I'm hungry."πΌπππ βπππ¨πππ
"I think Em thinks I'm cuckoo. Normally I would have chewed her head off for thinking that way but she's nice and I like her. She's nice to me so maybe she likes me too? She cheers me up and hangs out with me. Not that her cheering up makes any difference. I wonder if she'd like to have a sleep over or something. We can talk about stuff and---" Lily stopped. A frown crosses her face, her mood obviously shifted.
"She's pretty and popular. I'm obviously not any of those. Why would she like me? And why do I need to tell you what I think of her anyway? It's not like my opinion matters in this place." πΎπ£πππ₯ βπ π₯ππ
"He looks so tired all the time. Maybe a little pick me up would do him good. Coffee maybe? Tea? Black tea tastes so nice. Chocolate? Catnip? Uh... does that even work on humans? Oh, oh! A crackle chute! I remember this cat back home. She was so happy with the crackling material she played with it for hours..." Lily's voice trailed off and her brows furrowed as she tried to hold onto the momentary burst of memory. When it slipped out of her mind, she stared for a few minutes at Grant from a distance, frowned and then walked away.
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"I told him I liked his spiky hair this one time and he glared at me. Does he not like his own hair?" Lily reached up and scratched her head, successfully messing up her already messy golden hair.
"Or does mine bother him? I wash it all the time. Maybe I should ask him. Hmmm...But when I think about it, he glares at me all the time," she looked at herself as if she was trying to figure out what it is about her appearance that seems to aggravate Chris. When she looked up, she saw him passing by.
"Oh, there he is. I should just ask him and... w-what is that smell? That smells like freshly baked croissant," completely forgetting that she wanted to talk to Chris, she turned around and walked off in the opposite direction.
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"Wow! He's so tall. I bet if I stand directly behind him, no one will be able to see me. He must come from a family of tall people," Lily looked up at the clear blue sky.
"If it rains and he's holding an umbrella over me, I'd probably still get wet. Well, it's always nice to soak a bit under the rain. But I don't like the cold too much. I'd probably get sick. And getting sick would really suck..."βπππππ ππππ
"She's so strong. I bet she can toss me all the way to the other side of the world if she wanted. Huh. I wonder where I would land? Will it be okay to maybe ask someone to be thrown there with me? Em maybe? But then how will we get back? Will it be better to go alone?" she paused, a dark look replacing the laid back expression on her face just seconds ago.
"Maybe she could just throw me all the way up there," she pointed straight up the sky.
"Then I can face Dreamcatcher and ask him why my dreams are always so confusing. I want my memories back. I don't even know how I lost them in the first place."ππ¦π€ππ£π πΉππ π ππ¨π π£π₯π
Lily was in a particularly depressed mood when asked about Kusari. It also didn't help that she just woke up from an unpleasant sleep. Her dreams had been filled disjointed memories and disembodied voices. She didn't say anything, shrugged and then walked away.
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Lily was still in a bad mood when asked to comment about Padma.
"Why do I need to comment about each and everyone? Does it really matter? If I said I liked her, would you leave me alone? She's athletic and active. And I probably won't want to hang out with her cause I haven't had a good night's sleep yet. She probably won't like me and maybe even hates me already. I don't really care." πππ£ππ¦π€ βπ π¨πππ
Bringing up Marcus immediately shifted Lily into a better mood.
"Oh, Marcus. He's fun. I like him best. He's always smiling and is always always cheerful. I don't think anything can bring him down. Sometimes he reminds me of little Lisa. She has always been that little ray of sunshine for me. But of course, Lisa's a girl. Marcus is a guy. I don't think he can ever look like a girl even if I give him long hair... or a dress. That'd be really funny," she laughed. But when asked about who Lisa is, her stare was blank and it didn't seem like she realized that she had remembered something from her past for a few seconds.
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Lily was in one of her rare serene moments when asked about Lincoln. (She probably just came from spending time in the Library with Lawrence)
"He hates me, I'm sure. I don't mind. He stays away from me most of the time anyway. I'd like to be friends with everyone. Even him. But he's big. He's even taller than Sandy and I think he'll just step on me like I'm some sort of bug if I tried talking to him," and then she shifted back to her manic mood.
"I wonder if I'll be a pretty golden bug. Or maybe a colorful one. Would I have wings? I'll ask Em and Marcus what they think about that," she wandered off with a loopy grin on her face, missing walking into a tree by just a few inches.
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"Why the heck is everyone so tall in this place? I'm gonna get stuck looking up at everyone and everyone looking down at me. I swear, one day I'll just find myself trampled down and pancake flat on the floor," Lily shook her head at the thought.
"Oh, right. Back to Zoe. Uhm... sometimes I'm scared to look at her cause it looks like she wants to just gobble me up or something. I'm small, I know but I don't think I look appetizing at all," she looked at the donut she was holding in her hand.
Yep, the very same donut in the profile pic in her CS. "But maybe if I dip myself in chocolate then I'd look like this donut too?" she placed the donut in her mouth and wandered off.
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Lily frowned when asked about Hazel.
"No." When asked about what she meant by no, she shook her head, her frown deepening further.
"She's all drugged up, isn't she? She's like some sort of empty doll. She's nice. And quiet. And have perfect manners. But SHE'S. NOT. THERE. Those doctors... they did this to her. The same thing they want to do to me too," she gestured angrily with her hands and then stomped away. It was, after all, assessment day for her.
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"She tells really good stories. Although sometimes they change when she retells them. They're all so dramatic and tense and exciting. But I usually find myself confused about which version is the real one. Maybe she confuses herself too? Maybe all the books she has read and is still reading muddled her mind up somehow? But reading books should make people wiser, right?" Lily looked thoughtful for a few seconds.
"Eh... I read books too. But I don't feel wise at all. I like eating cookies while reading though. Chocolate chip is the best!"ππππππ₯ππ ππ¦ππππ£π€
"I'm tired talking about other people. You've been hounding me for several days now. What is this for anyway? It can't be for a graduation album, right? Cause we just got here," Lily looked irritated as she complained.
"Samantha... Well, she looks like she'd scold me every time I look at her. And so I usually don't." She eyed the vanilla cinnamon donut extended out to her.
"Bribing me with food, huh?" she took the donut.
"This better be good. Who's next?"πΈππΓ©πππ’π¦π ππππππππ
"Angel? Loud music. I can't hear myself think when she has her music to full blast." Lily popped the last of the donut into her mouth, shrugged and walked away.
"Bring me a chocolate peanut butter coated one next time you want me to talk," she called over her shoulder.