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10 mos ago
Current Every once in awhile I come back after having a failed rp and seeing so many familiar usernames reminds me of how many of us have been here for years. It's like coming back to your hometown lol
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1 yr ago
Being back to roleplaying after three years honestly feels so cathartic. Writing really is so therapeutic, I'm having so much fun lol
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2 yrs ago
Considering coming back to RPG and I come back to ads all over the site, AHH
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2 yrs ago
Life really said I'm kidnapping you for nearly 2 years huh, I'm so sorry to all my rp partners for suddenly just disappearing for 2 years.
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4 yrs ago
All partners and groups I`m in, sorry for being so absent, in the new year I`ll be getting out more posts for everyone ^^ I`ll be MIA for the next few days however, Happy New Year <3
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☕About Me☕
Hello to whoever is reading this, I hope you are well and if you aren't hang in there, it'll get better ^^
You can call me Star or Fox if you'd like, I have gone by many names throughout the last forever of the internet. My username no longer really fits me but I have an identity crisis every time I try to think of a new one so it stays for now.
I`m a college student studying accounting, I also have a degree in media and design (animation, photo editing, graphics, marketing, exc). This year has kinda thrown me every which way so much of my time is all over but I try to write as much as I can. I do have a full time job on top of school.
☕I`m a bit of a coffee addict.
♀I`m female and I prefer she/her pronouns. I also prefer to write female characters in a FxM setting.
🌟I`ve been roleplaying for over a decade now.
⏳ I try to get posts out as fast as I can but my life is a bit chaotic, and I don't think it`ll slow down anytime soon. It makes it hard to respond straight away. Usually you may see a while between my posts, I do the best I can just as I expect from the people I write with. So please be patient with me, I really enjoy writing with people.
❤Romance in roleplays is nice but instant romance is unrealistic and most of the time really boring. I like it when characters gradually fall in love, it makes their relationship interesting.
👌I'm a very happy-go-lucky kind of person and very uncensored, I will cut through the bullshit, especially if it's late. I'm also a kluts, I trip over flat ground quite literally. My roleplaying style is much the same way, I write how I perceive situations. Making great literary choices is a top priority, but we're all human, it's not always going to be perfect. My responses will be as interesting and as thought out as I can make them though.

P.s. I exclusively fade to black.

I hope to write with you soon, don`t be afraid to send me a message ^^

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I haven't written routinely in 3ish years now but I would still consider myself a casual to advanced writer. I have more time on my hands after graduating college and this looks interesting. I've had only a few modern rps in the part 13 years of roleplaying but the plot has my mind spinning with ideas! I'm intrigued by where it could go. I fade-to-black but am open to darker plotlines as long as we do. I'm also interested what your ideas were for this too.
Let me know if you're still looking for a partner for this one ^^
The hole they managed to find for themselves for the night was probably the best they could ask for in a place such as this. Sage dismounted her horse and took a few treats from her bag to give to him. This was the start of a long ride, She wanted him to feel as comfortable as possible. Positive reinforcement would be a great thing. Gast was then let to the hay Revna had put down to enjoy a well-deserved dinner. Immediately she started to look for ways to make herself useful. For instance using a little fire magic to light the fire for Andrew. Helping to clear space for bedding by pulling and moving any wilted plants on the ground.

There was thing for sure about her, Sage wasn't comfortable being useless.

It wasn't long before her own bedding and makeshift covering was set up against the wall. An abode she was sure she'd get used to calling home.

As she went to grab a bowl of food, famished, she couldn't help but feel sorry for both Osric and Revna. Osric was a very selfless person. He always had been the first to rush to someone's aid. Revna wasn't one to like having magic heal her wounds. Sage had patched enough of them to know that no matter how bad, Revna preferred the scars. Therefore, the interaction between the two was awkward. One wanted to help and the other wanted to be left alone. It did make her happy to see the tough woman pacify the poor man as to not cause conflict.

"Thank you for the food, no doubt you're tired as well. It's appreciated," Sage said to Andrew with a tired smile before taking her bowl over to the wall to eat at the end of her cot. The warmth from the food made her aching body feel such relief. Warm food at the end of a long day was one of life's greatest pleasures. Once done with her food she set the bowl down and simply leaned against the wall watching everyone in front of her before looking at her hands.

A wilted plant on the ground next to her made her curious so she decided to experiment and let magic course through her body. Envisioning what she wanted she touched the tip of the plant. A vibrant green started to return to it as what she assumed was a fern came back to life. Sage materialized some water from the air and drenched the poor thing. She smiled with the realization that not even this desolate place was incapable of life at all. It was reassuring.

It felt different to her to be able to finally use her magic so freely.

She took the necklace around her neck out from under her shirt and studied it. A blood red crystal attached to a solid cord by strings of gold. It had been around her neck as long as she could remember. If she could recall correctly one of the sisters had said it had been found with her as an infant. Her whole life she wondered if it was a parting gift from her mother. It supposedly was a magic relic, yet no matter how much she had studied it remained a mystery. Maybe on this journey she could finally make sense of it.
Katrina's own display of mystic arts was quite impressive. The flames felt different to her, but she wasn't able to place why. Sage had not taken the woman as one skilled in such arts. She appeared in all honesty as more of a rouge or thief type. Someone skilled in close combat. Maybe that was a far miscalculation on her part. None-the-less it enticed a smirk on her pink lips. If only Katrina knew just how small of an example of her power that was.

"That they are," was Sage's only response to the woman's jest.

The reaction that the magic show got out of Revna amused her greatly. During their sparing matches she had always wondered what her friend would have said should she have shown her talent. Not that she would have ever dreamt of displaying it within the seven villages. "You could always spar me with them if you'd like." She teased the taller woman. "As for lighting him on fire, I'm afraid it would have felt like hurting a frightened puppy. His words were hurtful, but he's always been only a handsome face. No real strength in his body."

It wasn't that she had never wondered about if she had decided to settle. Hendrick wasn't a bad person, while his views had come to light as misplaced; he had never tried to hurt her. In the years since leaving the Order he had been a loyal friend. He came from a well-off merchant family. Marrying him would have lent to a comfortable life. One that would have been devoid of children but with many friends and companionship. Unfortunately, she had yet to settle her restless soul. Their friendship had been fleeting from the start. Eventually she would have always reached this point.

Sage walked to her steed; a grey dappled stallion named Ghast. He was a temperamental horse, so unruly to anyone but the people he chose to like that he had once pinned Hendrick between his body and the side of her shop. She enjoyed that he had a grand personality however. In a quick motion she mounted to ready for their long awaited departure.



These lands were nothing that she had experienced before. Many talked of the lands outside the barrier. They talked of the staleness and lack of life. The once vibrant world had fallen to utter ruin by the demons. Great cities had been reduced to ash. Nobility and the class system hadn't mattered in the decay of the world. No one was safe, be it an orphan child or a prestigious king. They all died one after another by either slaughter, enslavement, starvation, or plague. Those that were lucky enough to adjust either made it to the Seven Villages or now live in hiding.

No one had talked about the energy though.

The aura of such a place felt suffocating. It was nothing like that villages she was accustomed to. The longer than rode the quieter it seemed to get. It was eerie and uncomfortable. Not even a mother's embrace could warm the coldness of the void. It became apparent to Sage quickly that the villages had sheltered her. She would never admit it to a living soul.

She didn't regret coming on this journey. Just being past the barrier parts of her felt more alive than she may have ever been. The air felt open and unrestricted. It was stale due to the lack of living vegetation but still crisp from the coming fall air. Soon she would be of age. The coming of fall meant she would be fully grown. Mentally she had been an adult for a long long time. It felt strange to recognize that she would come of age in a place she had not grown up.

The song Osric sang, she knew it well. Many people sang it around the villages. His voice had been honed over the years. It calmed her to hear his singing again. It reminded her that part of home was with her. It brought much solace to her. She was glad so many familiar faces were going to be on this journey. She hoped that her and Katrina would come to see eye to eye at some point. They were laying their lives in front of each other after all.

The group started to talk of stopping for rest. Her body unaccustomed to such long riding made her feel like that wasn't a bad idea. Everything felt so stiff. Sage hoped they would be nearing a resting point.
It seemed this group of people was already bringing out a bit of a different side of her. Maybe it was the energy and bluntness of it all. It was possible that she was feeling a little more confident now that they were gonna leave this god forsaken place. There was a hope in her that she could finally be herself once she stepped past that barrier. Honestly, it probably is what she would've done all along had the fear not stopped her. The world outside had often allured her. No one could hold her on trial or contain her out there.

Sage looked at Revna and then to Katrina, she had nothing to lose now. They were finally leaving. "I can do you one better Katrina," raising her right hand so her palm faced the sky she concentrated. A sudden burst of blue flames materialized in her palm. It made her eyes and skin glow brightly. As if her skin had become the stars in the night sky. "I'll burn arrows into their skulls." Just as quickly the flame went out and she put her arm down looking like nothing had happened at all.

No one outside from Osric knew she was a magic user. Revna only knew of her physical limits. Her magic abilities outmatched them. Sage was never as great a healer as Osric. It was a magic she often couldn't get a good grip on. High Sister Elzora told her at some point that maybe all Sage's abilities were centered on the elements. Nothing else would ever come close enough nor would she ever be as good as other in them. Elemental magic was her gift, it was better to excel in one thing than be mediocre in all of them.

She was excited to show just how much practice she'd been putting into mastering elemental weaponry. Have actual applications for her new honed craft. To her knowledge she was one of few that could use so effectively.

"I will admit I lack experience for the world outside the barrier, but I won't be useless. Even if I'm a child."

Revna has to bring up Hendrick. A pained look crossed her face as she turned to her friend. "Yes, he conducted communications between me and Osric for this journey. I think he thought I'd stay if he gave me a reason too." She pointed to her empty left ring finger. "Apparently desperately proposing to me was his master plan." With a sigh she wiped her face with her hands as if to wipe away the memory. "Instead, it gave me more than enough reason to leave. Especially when apparently respecting my boundaries meant that I owed him something."

They really couldn't leave fast enough at this point.

As if upon summon another ghost of her past appeared next to Osric with the wagon. Maybe she had placed too much faith on this journey being a way to escape her past in the Order of Wisdom.
A sense of relief rushed over her at his words. She sighed letting tension leave her. Sage smiled at her old friend warmly. "There's nothing to forgive, you had every right to feel the way you did." A laugh escaped her, probably for the first time in ages, "I mean you know I couldn't let you go on a dangerous, possibly deadly journey without me. I do have a hard time with mundanity."

Just as she could feel herself relax a voice insulted her. Her olive eyes shot up to meet a very contrasting crimson pair. Did this random middle-aged woman, whom looked like she crawled out of the gates of hell, just insult her ability to protect herself at all? Sage stood up utterly dumbfounded at the sheer disrespect. Osric seemed to just swipe it under the rug completely confirming to her that, yes, this was one of their companions.

The dagger Osric pulled out was stunning. Not any normal weapon you'd get in the seven villages. There was no surprise that the Order had such lavish items. She herself at one point wore elegant robes for important events. One must look the part they hold. However, to think such a powerful item was here, and not just one, but many. Was an invaluable resource for them.

Sage none the less was hoping this travel companion would prove to be easy to get along with despite the initial, introduction? Who was this woman? She was about to ask before Revna of all people came up and shouted the woman's name. It didn't surprise her at all that Revna, a literal giant warrior was enticed into this. A small smile graced her face at seeing her friend. Which soon turned into a smirk and a funny scoff. It made sense Revna wouldn't have thought in a million years that she'd be here. Sage was after all a very loner type of person.

She went to say something about it before Revna connected the dots and suddenly her feet weren't on the ground. Confusion mixed with amusement graced her features. "Glad to see you're joining us Revna, truly. You know I can't keep away for a chance at greatness." She joked.

Once back on the ground, Revna quickly informed this woman on Sage's abilities of swordsmanship. She remembered the scar from that night. While sparing it was a hurdle Sage commonly had to overcome with Revna's height. In comparison she was extremely small despite being an average height. Revna always insisted that they didn't avoid drawing blood during their matches. Something that took Sage a while to get accustomed to. During the spar she had been blocking the attacks and an opening became open to her like nothing she'd seen before. Her arms and legs seemed to have moved on their own when she ducked sideways and cut down on the taller woman.

After she did it, she had apologized profusely not meaning to make sure a deep cut in a spar. Revna, being Renva, just had laughed at her. Congratulated her for finally getting one up on her. They had gone to the tavern and celebrated that night after Sage had patched her wound up. The fondness for the memory was very close to her heart. Revna's positivity and energy was such a blessing.

Walking forward she grabbed one of the daggers and sheathed it in a spare loop. It would be of better use on their person's than on this cart. The level of supplies should at least get them through a month or so. Between the four of them it would be more than enough for a while. It didn't escape her that there were personal hygiene supplies. Osric had always been borderline obsessive about being clean and well kept.

"To be fair Revna most of my scars are from you as well."

Turning to Osric she was intent on hearing his response to the question. Was this all of them?
Welcome back ^^

I was trying to write in a way for your character to be able to come into the little awkward vibes currently happening lol

I hope HiippoAF is okay. They said they'd post a CS 4 days ago and just fell off the map.
The sudden staring for a bit made her feel rather awkward. Sage knew he wasn't going to react in a great way, but the analysis was quite uncomfortable. She was glad at least he didn't react with immediate anger. That was at least something she could be thankful for. Standing up she looked down at him from her full height. No doubt it was throwing him off to see her as a grown woman. He had gotten older but 18 to 22 wasn't as much change as 13 to 17. She wasn't the same. Her pale green eyes looked towards the brown dirt of the road.

"Things haven't been horrible but they certainly haven't been ideal. I'm glad to see you're well and still hold such dedication. Your dedication was always something I admired about you." Her voice was rough with little emotion. She wasn't trying to be cold but being detached even a little kept her from feeling like absolute trash.

With a sigh she looked back to him and moved to sit next to him on the ground. She was unsure how long they'd be waiting here for whoever else was coming. It was statistically inaccurate that she was the only one to join him. Hendrick has said at least one other person should be here. May as well get comfortable while they wait. Sage took to hugging her knees to her chest. A habit she had taken from childhood as a sort of security in these situations. Gramps had found her in a similar manner on his porch that rainy night.

A few moments passed in a weird tension before she turned her head to look at him. "It will never be enough to say, but I'm sorry." A sadness reached her voice and face. "That night before I left I had wanted to tell you." A short laugh escaped her. "In fact I had wanted to ask you to go with me...but I knew you never would have." Dread filled her chest just thinking about that night. It had been hard to chat with him like she wasn't about to give up the only companion that she'd ever had at that point in her life. Osric had truly saved her in more ways than one. Without his friendship in the Order of Wisdom she wouldn't have survived. The last parts of her would have died as a life of repetition consumed her.

Their teachers had liked her. The dedication she had to perfection made her a great pupil. The way she never outwardly complained or caused issues. The worst she ever did was come to lessons late. That and be simply a carefree kid when she was with her friend. It was probably a shock to many the ways she secretly suffered. Lying in bed at night gazing at her raw hands from channeling elements for hours. Burns from accidentally loosing concentration during a spell. Even in the order there were other students that held anything except love for her. Often calling her a teacher's pet or a show off. Osric often had told them off, even if it had earned him some names too.

There's no doubt in her mind that if she had just been able to learn to enjoy being there that maybe, just maybe, her life would have been better overall. Being complacent was unfortunately not in her nature.

"You were the only person that had ever shown me compassion and care. I guess there was a part of me that wouldn't have been able to handle your rejection. The order was your calling, your world. You separated yourself from your own family to go into service. I knew it would be hard to understand why I couldn't. I'm sorry I wasn't better to you even so Osric. I should have told you I was alive at least. The risk of getting caught kept me silent."
"You don't have to go you know."

An exasperated sigh left her lips. "I've told you this is what I wish to do. You don't have to understand it, but at least try to be supportive."

"I delivered your letter Sage! I don't even know why I had too!"

Sage looked at her best friend with an incredibly serious look. Her hands stopped packing her knapsack for a moment. "You know I hate the Order. I didn't want to walk right up to their doorstep." There was no doubt in her mind that Hendrick always wondered why she hated the Order. She never told him much about her past before being here in the village. All he knew was that she was an orphan and Gramps adopted her when she was becoming an adolescent. If he knew the full truth, there was a chance he would've outed her.

"Sage I've never asked questions about your past, what happened to your parents, why you hate the order. I've stayed loyally by your side and avoided those topics because I knew they caused you pain. I don't want you to leave and throw away your life. You could stay here..with me." The tan skin young man seemed frantic and a dread set in her chest. His brown eyes were scared and intense.

Please don't say it. Please don't say it.

"You could marry me?"

Fuck. Queen Mother help her.

Sage's mouth opened and a loss for words and contemplation of what to say next graced her face. Unintentionally she wrinkled her face up in disbelief. Never had she thought of marrying him. Deep down she knew there was a chance he wanted something different between them but right now she truly believed he was just scared of her leaving and possibly dying outside the barrier. "Hendrick, I'm leaving, I wish you the best truly. It isn't with me though. Your life will never align with mine in that way. You know that and I know that. So please don't say things like that out of desperation." She walked over to her horse and adjusted the rest of her equipment to its saddle before turning to look at him. "Please take care of yourself, I hope our paths cross again."

With that she mounted her chestnut horse and left the defeated man standing in front of her home alone. The home that had been the only place she had ever felt comfortable in her own skin. The memories she shared with the old man that had taken her in as his own before passing of a sickness last spring. It was her hope that he knew on his death the difference he had made in her life by just showing compassion for a lost, scared child. Sage hoped she'd do him proud.




It wasn't too long before she had made her way to the meeting spot. The heavily guarded area made her uncomfortable, but she knew as long as she remained calm and nonchalant it wouldn't raise questions. Sage felt a wave of nausea as she could see her old friend sleeping against a tree in front of the Forlorn Hope. Would he get enraged? Would he hug her? Was it too late to pretend she was a completely different person? The questions made Hendrick's crazy proposal sound better than she'd like to admit. The shame and guilt was eating her alive.

Stopping her horse nearby she dismounted and guided it towards the tree. Firmly tying the lead to the tree. Her sword hung on her leather clad hip. A quiver filled with arrows resting on her back with her bow. Her attire was comprised of leather dyed in hues of blue, gold, and browns. A few pieces of chainmail protecting her shoulders. In the week leading up to leaving she had worked hard to craft a elaborate table for the leather smith. He traded her the clothing and gave her the chainmail as a bonus wishing her luck on her journey. Everyone in the village wanted to believe this was all true and that they would succeed, but they were skeptical as they should be.

Kneeling down in front of the sleeping cleric she really didn't know what to do. Sage didn't want to wake him up, the road ahead would be long. May as well get a little rest now. So, she took to studying his face up close. He really had matured in the last few years without her. She'd changed a lot too. Her stature was taller, standing at roughly 5'5. The entirety of her silhouette was that of a woman now, not a child. The softness of her face had angled a little more. Would he even recognize her at first?

A sigh left her lips to relieve tension as she waited for him to awaken from his slumber.
Is there still room for one more?
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