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Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Iris found herself watching Cas, noting how he had looked at her when she left the wardrobe and it made her feel a little better inside knowing he still seemed interested in her. That no matter what had happened, no matter what she was wearing he still looked at her with the same eyes, the same affection and it boosted her own confidence a little perking her up a bit. It made her feel that things would be okay, even though she had no clue what was going to happen to her now. Without realising she had smiled, brightening up just a little even as Miles took the gown from her hands. “Thank you!” Calling out after Miles not even noticing that he had looked at her because all she cared about was Caspain.

Feeling him wrap his arms around her closing the distance as soon as they were alone, she held him back trying to hold back the overwhelming amount of emotions she felt. Not wanting to waste any time she kissed him back with passion, showing him that she still loved him no matter what even as they pulled back for air. “Don’t.” Seeing his mournful gaze after the kiss made her feel bad, there was nothing he could do. It wasn’t his fault and she didn’t want him to feel like it was. “You can’t apologise, you don’t need to apologise. It’s not your fault. I…” Frowning as she shook her head before leaning against him with her arms still wrapped around him in a hug, “I can’t explain that… drug. I.” Shaking her head she didn’t even want to think about it and she couldn't talk to him about it now when she'd only get in a state over it.

Looking back up at Cas she tried to smile as she reached her hand up playing with his hair as she watched his features, “I try to act tough, strong… I never want you to worry about me, and I will be fine. I just… I keep too much of it in rather than talk about it and then it gets too much. I break.” Glancing away feeling a little ashamed as tears surfaced but she knew she could trust him; she knew she could open up to him like this because he would understand. Caspain had seen everything and he probably knew there was so much more hidden away, but this was a first for Iris. Opening up to him like this, letting him through her walls, he had seen a brief snippet of it in the hospital yesterday when she had just broken down on him but she was gaining the courage to admit to him that she wasn’t okay.

“Your friend must think I’m a state, I’m sorry I’m so nervous…” Leaning up she placed a kiss on his cheek gently, “And… being so selfish when you suffered so much too.” Sighing softly as she moved her hand to caress his cheek from where she had just kissed, wanting to just enjoy his touch and hold him. “There is something I want, something I think we both need… I don’t know how possible it would be, but we need a night alone together. Just to enjoy each other’s company… and talk… maybe with junk food.”

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

It is! I am so tired haha.

I just want to nap already T.T

Oh gosh I can imagine, it's going to be quite hectic until you move and after as you say! Everyone will want a tour of the new place I'm sure.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Hahaa I bet!! I've just opened up a new store and I'm staying away from home for two weeks!

I'm so tired haha.

Sounds like your still super busy though!! House clean day boooo, but it has to be done!!

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Travel agents, I guess there are jobs I’ve never heard of before. I wonder what that kind of work is like. Travelling, seeing the world. Iris couldn’t help but wonder what it was like, it sounded vastly different to the life she had growing up and then she felt it, a pang of jealousy. Jealous over their lifestyles that they had; how easy it had been growing up for them not wanting anything. Not struggling for anything or suffering with hunger pains. Stop it. It’s no one’s fault, I shouldn’t feel jealous. Trying to push down her feelings as she forced it to one side, they were being kind to her, they had rescued her so she had no business feeling jealous even if it was for a fleeting moment. The discomfort however did not pass, but she saw Cas give her a reassuring smile and it helped a little.

What a beautiful home. Walking through the halls as she followed the others, she couldn’t help but look at her surroundings taking in how stunning the place looked. It was different to the palace, but it screamed high born, oozed luxury and was very sleek and modern. It was beautiful and she wished she could own something so beautiful; she’d be proud to own something like this but that would never happen. To her it was just another unattainable dream and something she should stop thinking about.

When they stepped inside to the bedroom, she couldn’t help but look at the interior, the sleek black décor complimented by greys and light browns. It was amazing and could certainly take anyone’s breath away, well probably not other high borns just to commoners like me, I guess. The thought happened before she could stop it, but she couldn’t deny that it was a beautiful room.

Standing in the doorway she felt uncomfortable taking a step inside, she honestly felt like she was just a piece of dirt that would clutter up the bedroom that looked so clean and tidy. Iris didn’t want to ruin any of the items inside, she didn’t want to make anything dirty and the uncomfortable feeling didn’t cease. Anxiety began to rise as she rubbed her arms trying not to look so frightened or out of place, but it was hard. Watching as Cas strode over taking a seat, she edged inside slightly knowing she just couldn’t stand in the doorway, it would look odd for one.

Biting her lip, she wanted to sit down because her body ached, she still hurt and still wanted to rest but again she didn’t want too. Though just as she was about to make her mind up, she looked up as Miles offered her some clothes to wear, baggy comfortable looking clothes that would be so much better than the hospital gown. “A-Are you sure?” Without realising her voice had sounded unsure, a little frightened as she took the clothes from him glancing towards the glass doors that led to the bathroom and then to the closet as he mentioned how it was more private. “I’ll just eh… ah.. thank you.” Finding it hard to find the words as she pointed to the closet as she moved to get herself changed opting for the more private option.

Safely in the closet she glanced at the outfit before she pushed herself to get changed, still a little unsteady and most of her energy spent it had become a bigger task to change her outfit than she had thought but asking for help was out of the question. Grimacing as she lifted the top over herself, she then pulled the shorts up thankful they had an elasticated waist which sat loosely around her hips and the T-shirt was a little baggy, but she felt comfortable. Glancing at her bare arms and legs she could see the odd bruising and as she touched her legs, she could feel a slight scratchy sensation which only made her grimace feeling self-conscious around them all. Pushing her thoughts to the back of her mind she gathered up the hospital gown in her arms and went to head out catching sight of herself in a mirror and frowning. What a mess. Though the swelling on her neck had pretty much disappeared, the bruising was still there but faded looking like it was on the road to recovery at least. The bandaging in the hospital had really helped.

“Where should I put this?” Moving out of the closet she held the bundle of the gown in her arms using it to hide behind a little as she was starting to feel drained.

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Ohhh lovely!!

I hope you have a lovely weekend celebrating your anniversary!

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

I'm enjoying him!! But then I enjoy every character that has appeared so far!

Ohh I'm excited! Iris is gonna feel so awkward in his home lol

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Miles is adorable haha

Ohhh yes! I hope you have a wonderful time! I'm travelling most of tomorrow which will be draining haha

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

A rough few days? I guess you could say that. They probably don’t know about that drug… I doubt anyone who is administered it lives to tell the tale either. Thinking bitterly to herself as she realised that not everyone had to know about that potent truth serum, in fact the rebels hadn’t known of its existence and just thought that the interrogators managed to break some of their best. Did… Cas ever authorise the use of this on someone? She couldn’t help her thoughts wander to that, wondering if Caspain had allowed the use of this on some rebels before. But… in their eyes we were bad. Just like in our eyes the Capital was bad too. Already her head was swimming with different thoughts and feeling and she wished she could just talk to Cas openly, but she knew they wouldn’t be alone not for a while.

Watching Miles backpedal his questions she felt a little bad, she knew they were harmless and of course they would be curious after rescuing a rebel member. It was just hard for her as now all she wanted to do was bury the incident and act like it never happened. “You man you haven’t boasted about your daring adventures in the districts?” Trying to smile and keep the conversation light, right now wasn’t the time to be sharing, but she was sure that Caspain would tell them the story of how he escaped.

The silence wasn’t hard for her, she welcomed it as Jay drove the car through roads she hadn’t seen before. It was quiet which was nice, but she couldn’t help but wonder if they had a good enough alibi. Deep down she knew his father would think it was him, they believed all the rebels were dead except for her which could very well be true at this rate as she had no clue on if Ethan survived. I hope he didn’t, for everyone’s sake.

Feeling the car come to a stop she watched as they threw the hospital attire to the trash bin and she watched as Miles extended a hand to help her out the car. Taking his hand as she got out of the car, she felt the ache run through her body as she stood up, the bottom of her feet burned slightly against the floor. The flourish of his hand as he grinned showing off his home, she felt herself smile knowing that at least for a night she could hopefully sleep in a bed.

“Luxury travel advisors?” Iris had never heard of such a job before, that and his sister was a model they all just screamed rich to her with jobs that sounded more like pleasure than actual work. It was good to know the house was usually empty, though she doubted she’d even wander or explore because that was just rude when it wasn’t her home. Already she felt anxious at the idea of staying here, she knew it was for the best whilst security looked for her. It was a good plan, but she always felt odd staying in someone else’s home when she couldn’t do nothing in return.

Then when they stepped inside the house Iris couldn’t help but feel incredibly dirty, of course it was a lavish home and she expected no less from someone in the Capital and she was stood bare foot dressed in the loose hospital linen with what she could imagine was really bad bed hair. Trying not to cringe Iris looked at Cas wondering if this really was okay.

Plots plots plots!

Bump!~

Amnesia [Suki & Summer]

Omfg I literally felt like slapping my hand to my face reading that haha. Bless him omg, he is just curious haaha