Zell had kept MacKensie talking, so she had no suspicions until the realization of what was happening hit her all at once. In the darkness of evening, she did not notice the amazing structure of a building that was The Nightingale. She did not see the manicured hedge-rows or polished rails of the elevated garden and outside area. She simply went up the steps with Zell and, at the top, the fancy restaurant, bar and function hall was upon her. She was awestruck by the beauty of it all. Through the massive windows, she saw the immaculate hall inside. The beautiful furniture, the fancy gowns and suits of the patrons, the well-dressed staff, the small chamber orchestra of 10-15 strings and wind. Her heart fluttered as, for a moment, she felt like she was back home in Lyon - home for the holidays, a brief break from Uni - and attending the Winter Ball.
And in an instant, she was back in reality and realised her situation. "Zell, I cannot," she said.
Zell turned around, a mischievious smirk on his face. "What's up?"
"I cannot date you, Zell. I am in no position to think about such things as this. It is all I can do to focus on getting through this fantastical nightmare we are in," she explained. Now that she said the words out loud, to one of the two men in her heart, she knew she'd made a decision. She would firmly reject them both and be rid of this cloud hanging over her. It was the right thing to do. "I would be irresponsible to complicate matters, when our situation - the duty thrust upon us - is already so difficult. I must not fall... She shook her head, unable to finish that last sentence. So she settled for; "I cannot accept this."
Zell nodded his understanding, but the smirk didn't leave his face. "Sure. No problem. It's just; I owe you a drink, is all. Maybe two. Probably just one. And you definitely owe me at least two. I figured, we may aswell settle debts," was his counter. "It doesn't have to be a date. Just two friends having a couple of drinks."
MacKensie eyed Zell suspiciously. "Zell, I am serious," she said with urgency.
He raised his hands in surrender. "I know. I hear you, loud and clear. What? We can't have a bit of food and drink as friends?"
"As friends," she echoed. "It is not a date." It was almost a question.
"As friends," Zell repeated easily. "Not a date."
There was a bit of a silence between them. In the background, they could hear the fine music and gentle chatter. Behind Zell, she could see the host at the entrance, looking at them both expectantly. Zell was also waiting for her to respond, and so she did. "You owe me three drinks."
Zell let out an amused breath, then screwed up his face in thought. "I do not remember three."
And so their usual banter reconvened as they quietly argued about each time one had saved the other's life, between asking for a table and waiting to be seated.
"I grabbed the branch."
"So you say, but I very-much remember James speaking on the matter, afterwards - James, ever the voice of reason, thanking me for saving your silly behind."
As they took seats, Zell thanked the host and then got right back to arguing. "This is a conspiracy. Fake news. Corruption in the court. And anyway, if that nonsense counts, then I'm sorry but the one on the Temple roof certainly doesn't."
MacKensie smiled confidently. "Ah, so you do remember that one. I'm glad I did not even have to bring it up."
"I remember you shooting my opponent right before I was about to deliver a killing blow. That's just cheating. If you can't even admit that I single-handedly saved you and everyone else from the ass-kicking Zigmund was giving you, then I can't allow you No.3."
They finally settled at an impasse with a shared chuckle, ordered some wine and, after they got their drinks, the waiter took their order for the meal. In spite of being incredibly underdressed for the venue, MacKensie was in her element. The music was very classical and perfect for the ambience, not too intrusive. The fashion and opulence was just her kind of vibe. She was very-much enjoying herself.
Their conversation was nothing Second Chance-related. It ranged from London to Paris. From Psycology to Sociology. From Football to Archery. From older sisters to little brothers. Talking was always something Zell was good at. He could talk for England and for ever. But getting along with MacKensie was another level of ease and free-flowing conversation. She was so admirable. Her background so interesting. Her laugh like music and her accent like silk for the ears. The ever-cocky and unwavering Zell Brooks was like a love-sick puppy hiding behind the increasingly crumbling visage of bravado and strength.
MacKensie had forgotten there was even an army outside the city walls, or that there was a Source Crystal in her hand. One would see it in her face as she enjoyed her glass of wine, Zell's company and the wait for their food.
"Those are some lovely earrings." MacKensie smiled and thanked Zell for his compliment, touching her ear briefly. "You didn't arrive in this world with them."
"No," MacKensie replied. "I bought them while out with Fenna and Lillianna after our first night here."
Zell chuckled as he realised that MacKensie wasn't lying when she commented that she'd been frivolously spending just like himself. "Rich girl loves shopping?"
MacKensie raised her eyebrows and showed her palms. "Guilty." That made Zell laugh out loud. A nearby table looked over, noticed with bemusment how Zell and MacKensie were dressed, then shook their heads and looked away. "It was a small comfort to be able to walk about the market and indulge. This world is so reminiscent of our own."
"Tell me about it," Zell said. "I would never expect a world where you fight with swords and crossbows to have electricity and plumbing, let alone computers and modern products."
MacKensie agreed. She looked dreamily at the dance floor where half a dozen men and women, some of them not human, were doing something resembling the Waltz. "Even the music and dancing is so similar. It is like a distorted mirror of home." There was a lull of thoughtful silence as Zell followed her gaze to the dancers and arched an eyebrow. This was not his idea of dancing. But MacKensie was enthralled. "This is a beautiful ballad."
"You like this kinda stuff?" the Englishman asked in an accusatory tone. "You are such a princess," he chided playfully. "Not my scene, tee-bee-haeche. Looks a bit daft to me."
MacKensie was almost offended. "Really? But it is so refined." Zell was not convinced. "To learn ballroom dance is to learn a tapestry of one's culture and heritage, in France," she told him. "There is so many century's progression of art and fashion, within each dance, to be felt and experienced." Again, love-sick puppy Zell was captured by her passion and interesting perspective. "To dance this way is to walk through history in the footsteps of those that came before you."
Wow. Zell had never thought about dancing in such a way. This was probably because his kind of dancing involved a lot of jumping around with guys or grinding with girls, to music much louder than this, much different too. It was like MacKensie was from another world - no pun intended.
"Show me," he finally said, drawing her attention from the floor and back to him with surprise. "The tune is still going. We won't be the only ones on the floor. But there's enough space that it'll only be your toes I'm stepping on. Give me a lesson."
Nine times out of ten, MacKensie would have refused, but this moment fell into that elusive other ten percent. She was well into her second glass of wine and so had enough courage that she simply couldn't resist a chance to enjoy a piece of home. She smiled and tentatively got out of her seat, Zell mirroring her.
"Something super basic, I'm not a fast learner."
MacKensie stopped in space on the floor. "Okay, this is as simple as it gets. Even a gorilla like you should be fine. Place your hand here and here." One hand high on her waist, with her hand on his shoulder. And the spare hand they placed lightly against eachother's, in the air. "Now we step to the music, in the shape of a triangle. Methodically. In rhythm." Back and to the right, she stepped. Then left. And back to their orginal position to complete the triangle. "And turn. Now again. Step, two, three, step, two, three... and turn..."
There were a number of mistakes before something actually resembling a Waltz began to take shape. "You are getting it," were her words of encouragement.
"Shush, woman. I'm concentrating, over here," he rasped with pretend-annoyance.
They shared a giggle. Their food arrived but they did not stop dancing until the music came to it's conclusion. Neither were happy that this time would come to an end, as the gliding motions became easier and they could focus on eachother and the music. But come to an end, it did. Graciously, they parted and clapped like everyone else on the floor, then went to sit down to eat. They complimented the food and enjoyed dinner with some more light conversation.
"So, is your family proper upperclass then?" Zell asked curiously as he ate. "Like... proper?"
"Mm," MacKensie answered, covering her mouth briefly with her fingers to finish her bite before answering properly. "My father is an entrepeneur and self-made man. But my mother is from money. She, in fact, can trace her family line all the way back to the aristocracy - survivors of the French Revolution. You have heard of this?"
"Err, yeah, it rings a bell, but I don't know anything about it," Zell admitted. "An important historical event, I'm guessing?"
"Yes." Conflicting feelings of left wing ideals and right wing parents hit her. It wasn't nice so she was quick to summarize and change topic. "Most people celebrate it, in France, but some do not. With great change comes... a lot of violence."
"Makes sense," Zell replied, sensing MacKensie's discomfort. "Well, it is my honour, m'lady, to have the privilege of this non-date."
Her eyes flared. "This is not a date."
"That's what I said," Zell teased. "Just two young and beautiful people enjoying the finer things in life."
"You are so big-headed," MacKensie shot back with a smirk.
"Wouldn't you be, if you were me? Look at me."
"I cannot believe you can say that, unironically. You are something else, Zell Brooks." She shook her head. "I suppose humility would not suit you."
Zell suddenly got serious, taking the last bite of the micro-portioned meal and putting his cutlery down. He sat forward and leaned an arm on the table. "Humility? Try this on for size." What came next was a complete change in tone. "Looking at you makes me realise that I'm not even close to the man I want to be. Just knowing you are near... I wake up everyday and tell myself that I'm gonna strive to be better. And I could do this until my hair turns grey. And I still won't measure up to be someone worthy of you." His voice was sorrowful by the end. "But I'd still try."
MacKensie was left in shock, eyes blinking, cheeks burning, lost for words. Zell held her gaze, sincerity in his eyes. By the time she found her voice... "Zell, I..."
"Are you gonna eat that?"
MacKensie looked down at her plate, then back at him, mood completely shifted once more. And she burst out laughing. "You are a pig, Zell," she reprimanded, wiping her watery eye.
"Jeez, I'm only askin."
"It is bad enough manners that you scoff down your food, but now you are rushing me too. I will not allow it." Zell grinned. "Get dessert, if you are still hungry."
"I don't do dessert. I'm sweet enough."
"Kill me now."
After dinner, they took their final glasses of wine to the second floor garden balcony and leaned against the rail to look at the blackness of night. The air had become crisp, as opposed to the warm breeze of the evening. "It is so late. I hope you know the way home."
"I'm not gonna lie," Zell sighed. "I have no idea."
"Sacre bleu."
"I think this place has rooms for rent. I should have enough money left for two rooms. We can head back to The Drum in the morning." Zell sipped his wine and shrugged. "Might aswell spend the money. All of this could be gone, next week."
MacKensie tilted her head in an exaggerated motion. "Maybe. But I am not so ready to die again. I still remember the last time. It is not my happiest memory." She smiled sorrowfully.
"I'm just saying..." Zell started apologetically. He didn't mean to kill the mood. "...What I mean is: It should be over for us. And he here we are, in another world. And it could be over yet again. We should be grateful to whatever gods are out there, for 'the now.' Regardless of past or future. Our shoulders are weightless. We are free. Free to not hold back." Zell swirled the wine around in the glass absently. "Every moment, every breath... it's a gift. A bonus. Why not live for the present?"
"Aha," MacKensie giggled. "Gift. Present. I see what you did there."
They both burst out laughing and Zell almost dropped his glass off the balcony which resulted in even more hysterics. When they finally calmed down, Zell looked at her and raised his glass to toast. "Here's to; living in the moment."
MacKensie joined him. "To; living in the moment."
Clink.