What to do, what to do, what to do?

First of all, the reason I'm talking in this medium (and the reason for the strange part above) is that I've set myself a challenge. This challenge is to try my utmost best to be the character "Blurryface" depicted in Twenty One Pilots' latest album of the same name. This may last for a week, maybe two, but the whole point of it is to push my boundaries, and see what I can do in terms of playing a character who is, essentially, the personification of peoples' insecurities.

Anyway, enough about that. The biggest question for me is this - do I devote myself to this rolelay? I had previously intended to join before, I believe, but ended up dropping it due to illness and, quite frankly, a lack of faith in myself. There is a problem I had back then that I am facing now, and it's this - my brain is struggling to take in all of the information. I absolutely love the vast world you've managed to create, Prisk, but my tiny little brain just cannot absorb this, at all. I'm really disappointed by this, as I cannot express enough how glad I would be if I were apart of this roleplay.

If there's any way I can get some help on getting to grips with the world and/or creating a character, then please, let me know. It's honestly surprised me that this roleplay is still holding strong, and I think it's about time to get off my ass and start doing things that scare me.

I can't put much, since my brain is failing yet again, but to sum it up, it's basically everything but the setting. My brain likes settings, and that's about it. I honestly wish I could help you by explaining it in more detail, but I feel like I've gone braindead. I'm not even kidding; I just deleted a paragraph on why bacon is the best food, and not broccoli. I hope this at least helps a little bit, and sorry if I'm being a giant pain right now.