, my fucking asshole brother is so god damn selfish. My parents want me to go to bed earlier...ok that's fine I've been wanting that for the past half a year. Problem being my brother seems to only think about himself because I agreed to go to sleep at 1 in the morning, despite being far ready to go to bed earlier, in order to get SOME sort of semblance of 'rest'. The fuck graduated high school about a year ago now and has been doing jack all for a year so he can get up almost whenever he wants. Me? I've been going to college, not too much compared to some but still college, for five, six years now doing two, or three classes per semester. Yet when he brings it up he plays the 'victim' which is utter bullshit. It gets to the point where I want to grab the nearest blunt object and smack him with it at times. 'oh he just yells at me' fuck that! It's literal one in the fucking morning! Sometimes three! And I'm a extremely light sleeper you could poke me and I'd wake up. Let alone someone clicking a fucking mouse literally right across the room. You think I, by choice, am getting myself out of my fucking bed at 2 in the morning because I like being a fucking douche bag? Like I WANT something to complain about? He can't sleep either apparently because he's whining about his medicine not working despite staring at a computer screen literally 24/7.

It's one thing if you're a fucking pc gamer. It's another if you legit can just go downstairs put on a fucking headset, and watch youtube, or play whatever on the ps4 until you're satisfied enough for the night and then go back to bed. Oh you're friends aren't on the ps4? Well fuck its not like you spend LITERALLY 16 SOME HOURS ON THE COMPUTER BEFORE HAND with the occasional bathroom break. He didn't even fucking do his own homework in high school. Our mother fucking did most of it. He has no sense of fucking professional pride in my honest opinion. At least my asinine youngest brother actually has the sense to do the latter when I ask him a few times. And it's not like I'm rude all the time. I actually think I'm a really honest, and respectful person. Most others think I am too. Do I have my faults? Yeah I got plenty but when people want to fucking SLEEP I go out of my way to fucking let them. I put my lights out, I put my mouse underneath something, I GO INTO ANOTHER ROOM, and otherwise do my damnest to not be a fucking prick.

Jesus christ I believe I could go on forever if you read all of this for some reason thanks. I appreciate you doing so. It feels nice to at least get it off my chest. How I wish I didn't have a medical condition that hampers me so badly that I can't live alone otherwise I'd have gotten a real job, and moved out as soon as possible. I'd rather live in a shitty apartment with barely anything in it than my house sometimes.