[OOC] Sundering Artifice

[Dark Cloud]

@Jade Kiyo Well I've been trying to decide something about this. My mental health is being asskicked because of this constant need to never fail people here on the Guild. I've got this way of thinking that if I start delaying posts that I'm a failure and a disappointment to everyone.

[Dark Cloud]

@Jade Kiyo Well I've been trying to decide something about this. My mental health is being asskicked because of this constant need to never fail people here on the Guild. I've got this way of thinking that if I start delaying posts that I'm a failure and a disappointment to everyone.

@Dark Cloud

I've got an anxiety disorder and all this trying is killing my enthusiasm and making me depressed. I have a few roleplays I'm trying to run as well as others I play in and I'm trying to cut down for the sake of my happiness.

[Lugubrious]

There's not a whole lot for Sinmara to do right now, so I've been sitting tight.

[Randomness]

I can reply if need be, but I feel I have a lot of posts and don’t want to overshadow the others.

[AlternateMan]

Hmmm
Psi could introduce Lorna
And stuff. If we have all chars introduced I shall initiate a time-skip soon.

[Dark Cloud]

@AlternateMan Sounds decent I'll see what I can do just need to sort out some personal stuff rn.

[Jade Kiyo]

Don't fret, Cloud, Eve's internal bitchiness aside I need you to know I like Yumi. I mean I like everyone, really. Try not to put too much pressure on yourself, I think you're doing just fine. That said I'll also accept whatever you feel you need to do, trust me I understand issues like you're talking about.

And yeah, Random, I kinda feel the same. Don't want anyone to feel like I'm stealing the show, I've just been having fun. I just wanted to make check in and see how y'all were doing

[Dark Cloud]

@Jade Kiyo Thanks.

[PPQ Purple]

We alive?

@Jade Kiyo

I certainly hope so. Although with the OOC being lively as it is I can't really get my hopes up. These things are in my experience a barometer for the health of the game.

This said, honestly it sounds like our friend simply joined too many games and can't keep up. I know the temptation to do so is heavy on a forum where people post every year instead of every day. (Am sadly guilty of the same...) But ultimately there is a reason why I have decided to keep it to a maximum of 3 or 1 if I am the GM.

[Jade Kiyo]

Well, no clue what the future holds but I'm here and interested now, don't care if it's large group or as little as 2 others

[PPQ Purple]

Well, no clue what the future holds but I'm here and interested now, don't care if it's large group or as little as 2 others

@Jade Kiyo

Same here.

Although I must admit that on this forum games have such a slow posting rate that my mind tends to race off far ahead of the game to the point where I get quite frustrated. I mean, maybe I am just crazy but when I think off a cool character and join a game that interests me I tend to get hyped. And when I am in that state I tend to think about the game a lot. Like it consumes my free time. I develop all these cool ideas and things I want to explore about the character and the world and stuff and than it hits me that at this rate it will be months before we ever get to the point where I might be able to post any of that. Months in which ideas will just keep piling up more and more.

So like when a game passes a few days without a single post, let alone a single opportunity for me specifically to post in it I just get frustrated to no end with it. And frankly after a week or so I am probably going to be done and move on.

Like, RPing is my primary source of entertainment. And being dry for days tends to really kill the mood.

EDIT: I did not intend this to become a rant but it happened. Sorry. I guess I had to blow off the steam.

[PPQ Purple]

It's basically been a week since I last got to post anything here. And that forces me to pose a difficult question.

Now I understand that people have different obligations and stuff and I ain't trying to push anyone or complain. I have a 40 hour work week my self to look forward to. So it's not like I am blaming any of you or anything. God knows I am busy my self.

But at the end of the day just sitting around waiting for days and days with nothing to do is simply not fun. 15 minutes a week to write a post and than wait another week to again get 15 minutes is simply not enjoyable for me. Quite the opposite in fact. It downright makes me burn out on a game.

And that is what is happening here. I can feel the burnout creeping in. I can feel my self getting frustrated, bored and frankly loosing all interest in my character. So I need to ask right now if this is going to be the expected speed this game is taking.

Again, there is nothing wrong if you guys want it that way. All the more fun to you. But if it is than I need to know now so that I can quit before I get to that burnout stage and before my character gets so entwined in plots with the rest of you that it becomes a problem that spoils the game for others. That way I can save both you and my self a lot of frustration.

[BCTheEntity]

@Jade Kiyo@Randomness@Psi Force@Lugubrious@FilthyWeeb So, just to keep the game going a bit, would you guys mind providing posts in the IC soon? Or, at least, may I ask whether there's a reason for such a delay on everybody's ends?

[Lugubrious]

On my end, I would say there's not a whole lot I can do. We've got one large, mostly empty room, without much knowledge of what lies beyond it. With the principal gone there's no mentioned staff remaining that Sinmara might interact with. The only thing that happened was the names appearing on the screen under the picture of the class's teacher, who I don't believe is present. Sinmara isn't interested in the architecture or statues. That leaves just the other students. There are ones from other classes present, but they weren't described and I don't think we have liberty to make/play them, so that just leaves other player characters. Almost all of them want nothing to do with Sinmara, which is understandable and encouraged given her characterization. Yumi might, and was indeed pointed in Sinmara's direction, but there's been no word from her. The only thing I can really do would be to either have Sinmara do an internal monologue or another daydream, or force interaction with someone who's averse to her, the latter of which isn't something Sinmara would do. In either case, although I hope this doesn't make me seem selfish, I would prefer not to force out a filler post just for the sake of it.

[PPQ Purple]

For my part all I am asking is if this is a temporary delay or if it's just the pacing of the game. Temporary delays happen. Life is like that. Happens to me too. But like if this is just the pacing that's another story entirely. Not that either is bad on its own. But like the pacing being that slow wouldn't be for me. And I don't want to get bogged down and than drag you down with me as I said.

[Dark Cloud]

I'm posting now.

[Bondye]

@BCTheEntity

I think I'm going to have to drop the RP. I haven't been feeling the greatest lately, and my family is having health issues. I hope this won't be an issue.

@FilthyWeeb

[Jade Kiyo]

I mean Purple's feelings are their own and totally valid, despite my hopes everyone can stick with it. For me, I've been waiting for others but also holding myself back since Random and I were kinda pulling ahead while others didn't have many options for interactions. Like I said, I enjoy everyone's characters but Eve's personality has led to actively avoiding her more energetic companions. I also do not want to force things in a direction it wouldn't naturally progress, so maybe moving on to the next scene wouldn't hurt?

[Dark Cloud]

@Jade Kiyo I literally posted in the IC. :\

[Randomness]

I guess to help keep things going, I'll keep posting until the next scene comes. I didn't want to pull ahead, but if its not a problem then okay.