Sjan-dehk & Kalliope
...And feat. Iyen
Time: 6pm
Location: Castle Dining Hall
Interactions: @PapaOso Cassius
As Sjan-dehk approached the grand entrance, the warmth of the banquet hall spilling through the doors, Kalliopeâs mind was still clouded by the quiet comfort of being held so securely in his arms. There was a fleeting moment of peace, where she could almost forget the weight of her past, the eyes watching her, and the ever-present specter of Hafiz.
But then, just as they neared the threshold, her gaze flickered to inside the hall where the crowd mingled. Her breath caught and her body stiffened.
Hala Sami.
For a moment, the world around her seemed to freeze, a chill creeping into her veins as the stark contrast of white-blonde hair against sun-kissed skin burned into her memory. The sharp, calculating gaze of her rival, the one who had made Kalliope's life hell on more than one occasion and vice versa, was now within her line of sight. Hala was speaking with Milo St. Clair, their presence enough to send a shiver of dread down her spine.
It took all Kalliope had to keep her composure, but the weight of it hit her in that instant. The last thing she wanted was to make Sjan-dehk a target, to paint a bigger bullseye on him by being carried in so publicly, so visibly. She couldnât afford to give Hafiz or Hala any more leverage over them.
âSjan-dehk," she whispered hoarsely, eyes still locked on Hala. "Put me down."
The words were tight, as if speaking them made the reality of their situation more immediate, more real. She hated the feeling of vulnerability it would bring, but she couldn't allow this. Not with Hala so close, ready to potentially exploit any weakness they could find.
Sjan-dehk felt Kalliope tense up and instinctively tucked her in, pressing her closer and tighter to his body. Truth be told, were he not carrying her, he likely would have gotten jittery, himself, from nerves and the tautness of growing apprehension. True, he had guessed that the banquet would be a lavish affair, and true, he had an inkling as to what Caesonian lavishness meant, but still, to see his suspicions confirmed in person was overwhelming, to say the least. Intimidating, even.
It seemed like everyone in the hall had visited a tailor just for this particular event â every article of clothing looked expensive to Sjan-dehkâs eyes. Shimmering fabrics that reflected just enough light to catch the eye, but not so much that they appeared gaudy; cuts and styles that traced the contours of their wearersâ bodies just enough to show off their shapes, but not so much that they seemed provocative; jewels glistening on fingers, around necks, from ears, shining in a veritable riot of colours; everything Sjan-dehk saw spoke of a great deal of pomp and circumstance.
He paused right on the threshold of the grand, impressive doors. A deep sense of un-belonging dug a pit through his guts, as if he were an ungainly, grey whale about to careen into a school of colourful, elegant rainbowfish.
âWhat was that?â Kalliopeâs words were just enough to pull him out of his thoughts, but even so, he failed to catch them. Before she could answer, however, Iyen decided to speak her mind.
âI think weâre underdressed, Sjan-dehk,â she said before letting out a low whistle. âWell, you are, at least.â She glanced sideways at him with a cheeky grin on her lips. âIâm just your âguardâ, after all. Good luck in there, Captain.â
âSjan-dehkâŚâ Still too quiet, even Kali barely heard herself that time as she all but squeaked.
âYouâre coming in with me,â Sjan-dehk reminded her. âIf Iâm going to look stupid, Iâll be damned if we donât look stupid together.â
âPleaseâŚâ So damn quiet, she thought as she felt panic and irritation rising in her.
Iyen chuckled. âWouldnât have it any other way, Sjan-dehk. You can lead the way, though.â
Sjan-dehk rolled his eyes, the brief exchange melting away his earlier nervousness. He drew in a deep breath to calm a few remaining nerves, and took a step forward, passing under the large doors. Then, he took another, and another, until he found his stride. Unfortunately, he wasnât too clear as to where those strides should take him. âSo, where are we going?â He asked Kalliope in a quiet voice, slowing his pace before he ended up in the middle of the hall.
As Sjan-dehk took another step, Kalliope felt her frustration rise, the panic building in her chest. She could hear his and Iyenâs words, but they seemed distant, unimportant. The presence of Iyen, the casualness in her voice, it was all too much for Kali to handle in that moment. That damn woman was distracting him, pulling his attention away from her need. From what Kalliope needed him to focus on.
She couldnât deal with being the center of attention like this, not with the potential eyes of everyone on her, and not when Hala could see them at any moment. Every movement, every second felt like it was edging them closer to danger. Sjan-dehk didnât understand the risks, didnât see the target he was painting on himself. But she knew Hala. Knew how quickly Hafizâ minion could turn everything to their advantage.
The irritation and panic welled up inside her, like a pressure that threatened to explode.
âDammit, Sjan-dehk,â she snapped, her voice rising, harsh and tight as her hands clutched at the fabric at his chest desperately. âPut me down.â The words were laced with annoyance, dread, and something she couldnât quite put a name to. Maybe it was fear, maybe it was the growing anger at being so vulnerable, so exposed.
Finally, Sjan-dehk heard her. âOh, sorry!â A flush came over his cheeks, and his words caught in his throat as he blurted them out, a little louder than he had intended. For how long had he been carrying her against her wishes?
Her legs shifted as she began to squirm in his grasp, restless, trying to free themselves from the weight of being carried, to take back control. Her pulse thudded loudly in her ears, her breath shallow as her gaze flickered again to where Halaâs unmistakable figure still lingered. She could almost feel their gaze on her, even from this distance.
Kalliopeâs stomach churned. She couldnât afford to look weak. Not now.
âPut. Me. Down!â She growled, voice rising with each word, as she smacked his chest. Her whole body stiffened before she tried to squirm out of his arms once more, unintentionally drawing the attention of those nearby.
âIâm trying,â Sjan-dehk managed to say through clenched teeth, his brows furrowed as he fought to keep his balance, to gently bring Kalliope to the ground, and to both things without tightening his hold on her and accidentally ripping something he shouldnât, or worse, hurting her.
It wasnât easy. Kalliopeâs struggling and squirming constantly shifted their weight â each time he thought he had found his footing, she would move, and he would have to quickly catch the both of them before they went sprawling to the floor. It was reminiscent of wrestling with a particularly large and belligerent fish, one that he would rather release, but couldnât for fear of falling into the water with it. âIf youâd just stop moving,â he said through grunts, his patience getting shorter with each word. Why was she making things so difficult for the both of them? âKali! Can youââ
Then, the inevitable happened.
One moment, Sjan-dehk was on his feet. The next, he felt his boot slide just that little bit too far along the varnished floorboards, and his world turned upside-down. Kalliopeâs dress ruffled, his weapons clattered. Acting purely on instinct, he immediately pulled her close to him, a hand on the back of her head, cradling it protectively whilst pressing her face into his shoulder, while the other looped securely around her waist. He twisted himself, using his legs to control their fall so that he would be the one to bear the brunt of the impact on his back.
They, or rather, he struck the floor with a loud thud, loud enough to mask the pained groan that rumbled up his throat and slipped past his lips. For a moment, his vision was blank, and when it finally cleared, he found himself staring up at the ceiling, and in front of it, Iyenâs grinning face.
âSoâŚWhat was that about looking stupid?â A giggle followed her words.
Sjan-dehk ignored her. His first concern was the woman in his arms. Grunting, he pulled himself up to a sitting position and made enough space between the two of them for him to have a good look at her. âYou okay, Kali?â He asked, one hand on her arm, but the other still wrapped around her waist and keeping her close. That didnât concern him â he was far too busy running his eyes over her, checking for any bruises or scratches. Neither did it seem to concern him that they had landed in a rather awkward position, with her almost straddling his lap, her dress pooling around them, and he sitting under her.
Kalliopeâs breath hitched as she lay against him, heart racing. The fall had jolted her, but it was the way heâd twisted to shield her, how his arm still held her close, that truly stunned her.
When Sjan-dehk pulled them upright, she looked at himâŚand instantly wished she hadnât. His face was so close. His voice, gentle and low, stirred something inside her she wasnât prepared to feel.
And then she noticed their position.
Her thigh was pressed flush against his hip, bare up to her hip from the leg slit in her dress design. The contact made her hyper-aware of everythingâhow warm he was, how firm his hold was, how her skirts had pooled in a way that left little to the imagination. Her chest brushed his with every shallow breath, and the concern in his eyes only made her pulse thrum louder in her ears.
The sound of her name nearly undid her. She froze, caught in his gaze, something raw flickering behind her eyes. Desire?
Then she shut it down.
"Iâm fine,â she snapped automatically, though her voice cracked at the end. Her cheeks flushed deeper, not from pain, but from embarrassment, and maybe something else, too. âYou shouldâve just put me down when I asked the first time,â she added, her tone sharp but the edge slightly dulled by the way she still hadn't moved.
âRight,â Sjan-dehk replied in a sheepish murmur. He swallowed his embarrassment, but couldnât look away from her. It was just like so many times before â his world seemed to focus wholly on her, and her alone. His heart thumped a little faster, a little louder in his chest. Was that a flicker ofâŚSomething, of some raw emotion, he saw in her eye?
Then, he heard the mutterings around them, and the spell was broken. With a slight shake of his head, Sjan-dehk started to pull himself away from her.
With a low growl of frustration, she shoved at his chestânot with real force, more like a jolt to break the momentâand pushed herself off his lap with all the grace of a drunken cat scrambling off a windowsill. She wobbled a little as she stood, brushing her hands down the front of her dress like it was the fabricâs fault sheâd just made a scene.
âNow everyoneâs staring,â she muttered bitterly under her breath, refusing to meet his eyes.
Well, let them stare. Those words stayed in Sjan-dehkâs head. He had a feeling that saying them aloud right now wouldnât do anyone any favours, least of all for Kalliope and himself.
But even with her back to him, she couldnât stop the whisper of guilt creeping in around her edges. âCome on, we need to greet the King and Queen.â
âRight, we ah, we should.â His words came out awkwardly, and a strange sting stabbed him right in the heart. A very strange sting, and it stayed with him, lingering in his chest and in the back of his mind as he followed Kalliope. Bullets, swords, splinters, spears; he had faced more weapons than he could name, and had likely suffered injuries from just as many. They had all hurt like the abyss, to be sure, but somehow Kalliopeâs words, her tone had managed to cut him deeper than anything else.
Iyen placed a hand on his shoulder, leaning around his arm to look at him. âThat was one way to introduce yourselves,â she quipped.
âShut up, Iyen,â Sjan-dehk grumbled, shrugging her hand away. The Sudhrayarn tittered, twirling her way around to his other side and keeping pace with him.
âOh, donât worry, Sjan-dehk,â she said in her melodic, sing-song voice. With a casual, somewhat dismissive wave, she gestured to everyone else in the hall. âLook at the likes of these people. Iâll bet my left arm that theyâll have something new to gossip by the time the feastâs over. Nothing to worry about at all, Sjan-dehk.â
Sjan-dehk let out a long, quiet sigh, and nodded. âI wonât argue with that,â he said, then gave his head a slight shake. He couldnât forget that he had a reason to be here; he had things to do, and things that needed his focus. Picking up his pace, he caught up with Kalliope and walked at her side, his eyes looking the other way. âWeâll follow your lead,â he said, trying his best to sound as normal as he could.
His mind, however, was anything but normal. A confused mess of emotions flooded up from his heart to his head, then back down into his stomach. He glanced sideways at Kalliope. How was it that she could undo him so? He knew he wanted to help her, to protect her. That part wasnât in question. But still he wondered just what exactly it was that spurred such feelings in him.
Kalliope kept her eyes forward, posture taut, though her thoughts were anything but composed. She could still feel the warmth of his body against hers, the strength in the arms that had cradled her through the fall. The memory of her thigh pressed to his hip, his chest beneath her palmsâŚit wouldnât leave her. Every time she tried to shove the image away, it clawed back up, vivid and heated.
It irritated her more than she cared to admit.
She noticed the name cards as they approached the high table. Their seats, right smack in the middle of everyone, were side by side. Of course they were. Without looking at him, she murmured under her breath, âWeâre seated together.â
And then, with only a brief pause to gather herself, she stepped forward and sank into a graceful, practiced curtsy before the King and Queen.
âYour Majesties,â she said smoothly, voice carrying just the right note of reverence, âyour hospitality is as grand as your reign. May tonight be as harmonious as the empire you govern.â The words tasted acrid on her tongue, but she ignored it. She could scrub her mouth out later.
Only after rising did she allow herself a fleeting glance toward Sjan-dehk, but she said nothing more as she waited for him and Iyen to make their greetings, face unreadable, save for the faintest flush still clinging to her cheeks.
Sjan-dehk waited until Kalliope finished her greeting before stepping forward. Collecting himself, he adjusted his bearings, pulled his shoulders back, held his head up, and tried his best to push aside thoughts of the red-haired woman beside him still teasing at his mind. That last one was a task easier said than done â memories of her warmth, of her closeness, was still as fresh on his skin as it was in his head. He could still feel her softness on his palms, feel her slender frame on his body, her legsâ
Stop it. He gave his head a little shake, pushed his leg back, and dropped to a knee.
âWasun Sjan-dehk of Jafi, of Viserjanta greets you, your ahâŚYour majesties,â he greeted, voice as solemn as he could manage. He held his hands up in front of his face, his palms layered over each other and facing him, thumbs interlocked. His gaze was averted from the King and Queen, and was instead aimed towards the floor by their feet, as was polite.
For a moment, he considered using this opportunity to ask the King for an audience, or to simply tell him about the dire situation along his Kingdomâs coastlines. But Sjan-dehk soon decided that it was a terrible idea. No King, or any person, for that matter, would appreciate having a serious matter brought to them so early into a celebratory event. Better to let the King enjoy some of his banquet first. Sjan-dehk could always find another chance to approach him.
âRasehnyas Iyen Jodhesi, of Sudhrayar, of Viserjanta greets you, your mejâ Your majesties.â He heard Iyen offer her greetings beside him. She knelt in a fashion identical to his, her head turned just enough to sneak him a glance that urged him to keep going.
âWe wish long peace and great harmony to your lands,â Sjan-dehk finished.
He waited until he received a response from either the King or Queen before slowly, deliberately standing back up. âSo where do we go now?â He asked.
Kalliope gave a curt nod and stepped toward the table, her voice barely above a whisper. âCome on. This way.â
She led the way, eyes scanning the room, and then she saw him.
Hafiz.
Sitting not far off, and she could swear he was watching. Her stomach dropped. The sounds of the banquet dulled, drowned beneath the echo of his voice, the feel of his hands and body against her, the way heâd broken her in the hallway not long ago.
Her vision narrowed. Breath caught.
She faltered.
Without thinking, her hand reached out and gripped Sjan-dehkâs arm. Grasping onto her anchor. The contact steadied her, kept her upright when her knees wanted to buckle.
She held it for a beat too long before realizing what she'd done. Her hand dropped.
âSorry,â she muttered tightly as she felt her cheeks heat slightly. âIâm fine.â
She wasnât. But she moved anyway as her gaze shifted, locking onto Cassius. He stood abruptly, his stance rigid, something off about the way he carried himself. Concern lanced through her. Something was wrong, and she couldnât ignore it. She had a brief flash to her altercation with Hafiz crossed her mind and this felt similar. She had a feeling he needed someone just like she had.
When they reached their seats, Kalliope hesitated. She turned to Sjan-dehk and Iyen, her voice firm. âGive me a moment. Iâm going to check on Cassius.â
Cassius. That was a familiar name. Sjan-dehk still remembered meeting him at the beach only a few days ago. He also remembered seeing him with Kalliope. For a moment, a sour pang tickled his heart, before it was quickly replaced by a strange, wistful, almost regretful feeling. Sjan-dehk didnât quite know what it was, only that it seemed to hollow him out entirely.
He shook his head slightly. He was being foolish, again. Cassius was Kalliopeâs lover; that much had been clear to him since the day at the beach. It was perfectly reasonable for her to go to his aid. What wasnât reasonable was for Sjan-dehk to be feeling what he did.
âAlright,â he said, remaining standing. Something about the looks of that altercation told him that it was maybe one wrong word, one wrong move away from getting out of hand. âThe two of usâll keep standing a little while longer. Give us a shout or a look if you need help.â
She moved swiftly, her steps quickening as she neared him. That was when she saw Hala approaching, and for a split second, Kalliope paused, considering the person she wanted to avoid. But Hala wasnât her concern right now, Cassius was.
As she neared, Milo St. Claireâs voice cut through the air, and she saw the tension between him and Cassius. Without sparing Milo a second glance, Kalliope pushed forward. Cassius needed an anchor, a friend. He wouldn't let him face whatever this was alone.
âCassius,â she called out, voice calm and sweet. âIs everything alright?â A simple question, but her look said it all. I'm here, I've got you. You're not alone. She gently touched his arm, knowing it could be dangerous to do so as if touching a cornered animal, but she was ready to take whatever repercussions it came with.