[OOC] Phoenix Wing (A Fairy Tail RP-Always Open, Open)

[MarshiestMallow]

*hugs* There, there. I'm just not around enough that I'm forgettable, I guess. x:

Your Co-GMs should be covering your ass a little more.

Eh-HEM.

@CirusArvennicus

huggles

No, no. I remember trinity all the time, see, see, see, in my sasha post! I HAD HER MENTION HER

[CitrusArms]

Yes, you did. I did see that. :3

But we're not talking about Trinity, we're talking about me, no? It's ok, Caits. Do you have a link for me, or is it already almost done?

[MarshiestMallow]

Yes, you did. I did see that. :3

But we're not talking about Trinity, we're talking about me, no? It's ok, Caits. Do you have a link for me, or is it already almost done?

@CirusArvennicus

that depends.

On what link you mean

[DELETED7282737]

I dont know anymore... all the stress that has build up from my problems like panic attacks and such plus hearing that i failed this year at school just broke me today. I have been crying for about 4 hours now and Im just giving up on this point. I dont know if this week will be going any better but if it doesn't i might just cut my wrists or take whatever is in the bathroom drawer at once. Sorry for letting out my thoughts like this.

[Joshua Tamashii]

I dont know anymore... all the stress that has build up from my problems like panic attacks and such plus hearing that i failed this year at school just broke me today. I have been crying for about 4 hours now and Im just giving up on this point. I dont know if this week will be going any better but if it doesn't i might just cut my wrists or take whatever is in the bathroom drawer at once. Sorry for letting out my thoughts like this.

@liferusher

First: Sorry to hear that things are not going well for you

Second: Please do not do that. Doing so will solve nothing. Though it might seem hard right now, things can get better so long as you do not give up. Persistence can pay off, given time and effort.

[Silver Fox]

I dont know anymore... all the stress that has build up from my problems like panic attacks and such plus hearing that i failed this year at school just broke me today. I have been crying for about 4 hours now and Im just giving up on this point. I dont know if this week will be going any better but if it doesn't i might just cut my wrists or take whatever is in the bathroom drawer at once. Sorry for letting out my thoughts like this.

@liferusher

So you scold me for drinking one glass alcohol then say you may cut your wrists? Kay.

Sorry to hear you haven't been feeling well. I agree with Joshua. Cutting the wrists will only hurt and potentially kill you. It doesn't solve a problem.

But also I can't stop you either. I'm not sure what sort of thoughts go through your mind and I make a poor counselor in these situations cause I only can compare to what I think when your thoughts could be the opposite.

[CitrusArms]

<Snipped quote by CirusArvennicus>

that depends.

On what link you mean

@Caits

The one to the Phoenix Wing B Collab I should maybe be in?

[Zarkun]

<Snipped quote by Caits>

The one to the Phoenix Wing B Collab I should maybe be in?

@CirusArvennicus

Not using Titan Pad.

[CitrusArms]

And what does that matter?

[Zarkun]

I don't know that you can just add another person...

[CitrusArms]

What are you using, Google Docs? Evernote? Yes, you can add people.

Or are you doing it in PMs? In which case, yes, I'm just stuck out of it unless you decide to make a new PM, which you could do easily by compiling everyone's post into one post and carrying it over.

[Zarkun]

We're doing it via PM. I'll get it done here in a few, once I've some time.

[twave]

I dont know anymore... all the stress that has build up from my problems like panic attacks and such plus hearing that i failed this year at school just broke me today. I have been crying for about 4 hours now and Im just giving up on this point. I dont know if this week will be going any better but if it doesn't i might just cut my wrists or take whatever is in the bathroom drawer at once. Sorry for letting out my thoughts like this.

@liferusher

I haven't done this in the past and regretted it. If you are considering suicide then SEEK HELP!

http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/ (or find an equivalent for your area http://www.suicide.org/hotlines/international/netherlands-suicide-hotlines.html?).

Seriously. I've known two people from my previous job that took their own lives and have had family members attempt the same. You don't know the impact it has on the people around you. Even if you think no one will notice or care I can assure you from experience that that isn't true. I've lost enough people I know already. Not just going to sit around and let it happen again, no matter how distant we may be online.

[Burthstone]

I now wish I had thought of the take over for Jacob that I just thought of.

Dammit.

Oh well.

[MarshiestMallow]

I dont know anymore... all the stress that has build up from my problems like panic attacks and such plus hearing that i failed this year at school just broke me today. I have been crying for about 4 hours now and Im just giving up on this point. I dont know if this week will be going any better but if it doesn't i might just cut my wrists or take whatever is in the bathroom drawer at once. Sorry for letting out my thoughts like this.

@liferusher

LIIIIIIFFFFFEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYY

NOOOOOOOOOOO

huggles and holds onto

I could give a lecture on how sometimes life sucks. But seriously, you just had four people literally say no, don't do that.

We care.

Rant and rave all you want. We will take it and then virtually hug you. Because we can't hug you in person. Although if I had any money at all, if hunt you down and hug you till you got creeped out.

So please...don't do anything drastic.

[Zarkun]

While I don't feel that this hasn't been said enough, in fact, some would say that five times is overkill, I'll say it again.

We may not physically be there, we may not be able to look you in the face, but we do care. We will listen when you need us to, hug you through the internet and console you. We are your friends, and real friends don't turn their backs on each other. So if you're feeling low, hit us up.

[DELETED7282737]

I have just been lying in bed all day crying and my mom just keeps saying it is gonna be alright and such but when I tell her about my other problems again she just keeps saying thats puberty which drives me mad. My steph dad just said with a straight face that it was my own fault for not doing anything all day. I can say I do that but the last week I have been stressing all over thr place to learn for 4 test of the hardest subject available in my school and he just can keep saying that to get over it. I have been fucked for my other subject which isnt retakable. Even though i only need 0.5 points more out of the 10. I have screwed up my retake out of all the stress and I had been sitting on school trying to find a solution with the teachers after having worked so hard for the low subject these 4 last weeks. Im done. I will see if they have a solution for me that isnt redo the whole year. If that doesnt work out ill try to convince my mom for a far away school on the other side of the country and if that cant be done either ill just maybe try to end it. It is a wuss way but bare with it. I all appreciate your concern but I dont see a reason to excist if my dreams can be crushed so easily like that.

[MarshiestMallow]

I have just been lying in bed all day crying and my mom just keeps saying it is gonna be alright and such but when I tell her about my other problems again she just keeps saying thats puberty which drives me mad. My steph dad just said with a straight face that it was my own fault for not doing anything all day. I can say I do that but the last week I have been stressing all over thr place to learn for 4 test of the hardest subject available in my school and he just can keep saying that to get over it. I have been fucked for my other subject which isnt retakable. Even though i only need 0.5 points more out of the 10. I have screwed up my retake out of all the stress and I had been sitting on school trying to find a solution with the teachers after having worked so hard for the low subject these 4 last weeks. Im done. I will see if they have a solution for me that isnt redo the whole year. If that doesnt work out ill try to convince my mom for a far away school on the other side of the country and if that cant be done either ill just maybe try to end it. It is a wuss way but bare with it. I all appreciate your concern but I dont see a reason to excist if my dreams can be crushed so easily like that.

@liferusher

If dreams were easier to achieve, we'd all be dancin around happy as can be. Dreams are meant to be hard to achieve-that's what makes them great.

I know how it feels. I do, look at me, my first option for a career flopped and failed. My second option I love. Sometimes, things happen to make you realise, oh. So that's how it's going to be.

Do you think at five I saw myself going for my second degree, looking after my disabled parents and searching for any job? No, I saw myself as a high profile nurse.

But perhaps for the first time in my life, im happy.

Don't give up.

It will all work out. I know it doesn't seem like it now, but it will. Discuss it with your teachers. See if you can do a assignment inside for extra credit, or ask what you can do for extra credit.

But first, life, just take a day for yourself. Push all the worries away and do something that makes you happy. Reading, playing games, watching anime. It doesn't matter. You can't function well in high stress, so take the day. Please

[Silver Fox]

I have just been lying in bed all day crying and my mom just keeps saying it is gonna be alright and such but when I tell her about my other problems again she just keeps saying thats puberty which drives me mad. My steph dad just said with a straight face that it was my own fault for not doing anything all day. I can say I do that but the last week I have been stressing all over thr place to learn for 4 test of the hardest subject available in my school and he just can keep saying that to get over it. I have been fucked for my other subject which isnt retakable. Even though i only need 0.5 points more out of the 10. I have screwed up my retake out of all the stress and I had been sitting on school trying to find a solution with the teachers after having worked so hard for the low subject these 4 last weeks. Im done. I will see if they have a solution for me that isnt redo the whole year. If that doesnt work out ill try to convince my mom for a far away school on the other side of the country and if that cant be done either ill just maybe try to end it. It is a wuss way but bare with it. I all appreciate your concern but I dont see a reason to excist if my dreams can be crushed so easily like that.

@liferusher

At least you have dreams to strive for. That is something to go for, even if the world decides to throw things in your face you keep walking and if it doesn't work, you find another. When you're dead. You're dead. There isn't coming back from it. Even if there is such a thing as reincarnation, doesn't mean things will change. Or if there really is nothing. Then there's nothing. But, that doesn't mean you won't excist. You did exist, and there will be people who remember you and will be sad.

I don't have a dream, nor any drive. No passion in anything. Even I thought about it, but found there is little point. What if I find that something that gives me passion? What if I fall in love? What if I miss my chance of finding my cat?

When you are dead, you are dead. And you are remembered for it. So, I'd rather keep living, until I'm forced into death. Be it being hit by a car, murdered, or doing something I like, like maybe skydiving and my chute snaps.

You always exist because you were born and alive.

[Zarkun]

Caits' first line put simply? Nothing worth doing is ever easy.