I have just been lying in bed all day crying and my mom just keeps saying it is gonna be alright and such but when I tell her about my other problems again she just keeps saying thats puberty which drives me mad. My steph dad just said with a straight face that it was my own fault for not doing anything all day. I can say I do that but the last week I have been stressing all over thr place to learn for 4 test of the hardest subject available in my school and he just can keep saying that to get over it. I have been fucked for my other subject which isnt retakable. Even though i only need 0.5 points more out of the 10. I have screwed up my retake out of all the stress and I had been sitting on school trying to find a solution with the teachers after having worked so hard for the low subject these 4 last weeks. Im done. I will see if they have a solution for me that isnt redo the whole year. If that doesnt work out ill try to convince my mom for a far away school on the other side of the country and if that cant be done either ill just maybe try to end it. It is a wuss way but bare with it. I all appreciate your concern but I dont see a reason to excist if my dreams can be crushed so easily like that.
Life rarely hands us want we want or need when we want or need it. It has a habit of baiting us, only to push us down into the mud. The question is, what do you do after that? You could end it all true, but that's not a solution. That is just a means of making others suffer. So do not give up on life and let your legacy be a tragic one. Keep pushing on, for the best rewards are the ones that are hardest to get. And there are no greater rewards then the ones that life itself makes difficult and/or painful to get.
