Amara was
not having a good day today.
She sat in her car, seat leaned back with windows up while her radio blared a song on repeat, loud enough that she couldn’t hear other cars pulling out of the parking lot she had been sitting in for the last hour. She just stared up into empty space while her thoughts left the world. One moment, she was there in the car. The next, Amara felt more like a passenger in her own body, staring down at herself while her foot slipped further out the door.
Why’d it have to be today?”Amara heard the song cut off and start over, and blinked her way back a little. Her fingers curled up and she could feel the blood stir in them. She needed to distract herself, that would help.
She pulled her phone out and sent a message to all the different group chats that formed to keep the coven from tearing itself apart:
I’m bored as shit. What’s everybody doing?”A few minutes later, Amara received a direct text:
I’m at the boardwalk trying to clear my head. You wanna come with?Sure, why not. On my way,” she replied.
Amara drove off and stepped on the gas.
About five minutes later, Amara pulled up to a parking lot and then took a stroll down the side of the boardwalk.
Where r youTurn your head like ninety-degrees to your left, Adora texted.
She had her hand up from her bench.
Amara turned and saw her there, walking over and falling into a seat on the other end of the bench.
”That was a fuckin’ disaster today, huh.”Adora put both of her hands on her knees, staring at Amara for a second before saying,
”… Who you tellin’?” Adora laughed,
”It’s like people just want attention when we’re trying to get shit done.”Adora sighed,
”At some point, I was like ‘Looks like we ain’t getting shit done today’,””Yeah, well, we got something done,” She said, rolling her shoulders and leaning forward.
”We just could’ve got a lot more done if people didn’t fuck around. I like fucking around as much as the next person but- I mean, shit. Time and a place, you know?”Adora pulled a knee up and wrapped her hands around it,
”It’s people saying dumb shit that’s the problem,” Adora shrugged,
”Though, with Lila’s idea, we can quiet the dumbasses. Dunno how it’s going to work on us outcasts though.” Adora shrugged,
”Same way it worked back in the day. Drake had his group, we had ours, the scholarly fuckers had theirs,” she said.
”It worked because it had to. It’ll work now, and it’ll give people more room to take some damn initiative.””I hope so. We can’t work like this.” Adora shrugged,
”But, let’s talk about something else. There’s gotta be more to Amara King than the Coven. What are you up to?”Having my skull hollowed out by a hivemind, not much.”Nothing. Not these days, anyway. I’m not really doing much of anything that isn’t coven business right now since it’s our lives on the line.””Like you don't do anything to decompress?” Adora scoffed with a smile.
”Sounds like you need a hobby because dealing with them twenty-four-seven will make you want to eat a bullet.” Adora laughed.
”Wouldn’t be the first time I ate a bullet,” Amara half-joked.
”I’ll “decompress” when this is done.” Adora shrugged, before looking out to the ocean for a moment before saying,
”I get that. But it ain't healthy. We’re in deep shit right now but you gotta find something to keep your head above water.””See, I know that,” She admitted.
”And if we had some kind of tangible progress we could look at, I might be getting hammered with Sully right now. But we don’t, we’ve barely gotten anything done. I haven’t done shit around here in years, I don’t even remember what there is to do, that isn’t shooting ghosts.” ”To be real, nobody knows what’s going on. Nobody has any real leads. Nobody has any idea. I know Auri is desperately chasing anything tangible, I honestly can’t blame her at this point.” Adora shrugged.
”And until we get our shit together, it is going to stay that way.””…Well.” Amara stared out at the ocean.
”Shit.”She paused, and thought for a second.
”Wanna get unreasonably drunk or something?””Fuck it,” Adora grinned,
”Why not?””Fuckin’ good. Know any good places around here that aren’t Sully’s Chalice?””No clue,” Adora shrugged,
”I usually drink by myself.””Oh. Huh… Wanna grab something from a store that doesn’t suck, then? I don’t live around here.”“Sure, I’m down. There’s a liquor store a few blocks from here that’s good,” Adora replied, standing up and brushing sand off her jeans,
“Could grab some snacks too while we’re at it.”Adora gestured for Amara to come along before she shoved her hands into her hoodie pockets.
“You know, I wasn’t kidding earlier,” Adora said after a few minutes of silence.
“About finding something to keep your head on straight. This whole thing… it’s a grind. Can’t let it wear you down too much, or you’ll end up tearing your hair out. And trust me, you don’t want that.”Amara shrugged.
”I need ways of doing that more than a lot of people, I get it, trust me. It’s just that right now I think I’d rather have those ways be ones that actually do something for us. Something productive.”“I hear you sis,” Adora said.
“But sometimes, the most productive thing you can do is take a step back. Clear your head. Then maybe you’ll see something you missed.”She led the way down a few quiet streets until they reached a small, unassuming liquor store. Adora pushed open the door and headed straight for the liquor aisle, grabbing a bottle of Fireball without hesitation. Then some Grey Goose, and grabbed some chips. Before paying for it all and rolling out.
Stepping outside, Adora said,
“My place isn’t far from here,” she said, glancing at Amara.
“You wanna ride with me or you got your own car?”
Following Adora’s car, Amara pulled up to her place, stepping out and locking her car with a
beep. She took a look around for a second. This part of town
felt familiar, but she hadn’t ever been here.
The front door to Adora’s house opened, as Adora waved for Amara to come inside.
She walked inside.
”So… Back at the meeting you had those clones of yourself. Did Sloane do that?” Amara asked, clearly forgetting how to turn her brain off.
”Yeah, it's her little counterfeit,”Adora began,
”She let me have it after that whole thing at her apartment. She wants them back though.””’Course she does.” Amara closed the door behind her.
”It probably takes a while to make one for something that strong… Unless she cared enough to make multiple.””Maybe she did,” Adora shrugged.
”I don't care enough to ask her, to be real.” Adora had the drinks and snacks laid out on her coffee table… Along with several shot glasses and cups. She grabbed the Grey Goose and poured two shots…
… Then gestured to one.
Amara picked it up, and knocked it back without hesitation.
”...Yeah, that fucks.”] She nodded, appreciating the booze already. Good stuff.
Adora took her shot, and shuddered,
”Really put hair on your coochie, don’t it?””Yeah, no joke. I could drink half that bottle right now… Fuck,” she exclaimed, helping herself to another shot.
”Let’s get fuckin’ drunk.”Adora passed her the whole fucking bottle,
”Yes, let’s make it easy for Father Wolf,” Adora smiled, before it went flat,
”Okay that was bad taste.””Nah. If anyone did get in here and make a move on one of us…” She paused and inhaled a fifth of the bottle.
”Then I’ve got five dead people on standby 24/7. My phantoms’ll take them out.”Adora reached for the bottle, as she said,
”Does that ever freak you out- You don't have anything, right?” She said with an awkward smile..
”Any what? Magic? Yeah, they kind of are my magic, I’m Adjoined to all of ‘em. All infinity times infinity of the fuckers.””No, I mean diseases,” Adora facepalmed,
”You put your whole mouth on this.””...What? Noooo. God, no.” Amara cackled.
”Just making sure!” Adora says, taking a few gulps, nowhere near as much as Amara, and putting the bottle down.
”Where was I? Oh yeah, that ghost thing never creeps you out? I mean it's probably tame compared to what we been through.”Amara’s face twisted a bit.
”Ehh… You get used to it after the tenth time they drill a hole through the back of your skull to make more room. The Army’s a lot bigger than Shimmer, there’s no point in doing anything about it. They Adjoined to me when I was born so… I’ve had plenty of time to think about it.””Wow, that’s scuffed,” Adora flopped down on her sofa, and then slid the bottle of Grey Goose over to Amara,
”... You can have more if you like.”Amara grabbed a shot glass and sat down.
”Might be scuffed. But, I mean… Ain’t much you can do about it. Not like you can seal it into anything,” she admitted, knocking back the glass.
”I mean have you tried?” Adora asked.
”A lot of me tried. There’s one of me in every universe, and they’re all Adjoined to the Army too. If one of them could seal it, I’d know.””... Maybe it's not about sealing, maybe it's about breaking the bond. Like with Luca,” Adora shrugged,
”But don't ask me, I’m talking out my ass.”Amara shook her head.
”Nah. Thing is, the Army exists in different universes at the same time. Like… A lot of ‘em. Unadjoin me to it, it’s like cutting off a hydra’s head. They just come back and get their claws in me again. I literally wasn’t even walking before they got me.” She fixed herself another shot.
”Wasn’t even tying my fucking shoes before I knew I was gonna be like them one day.””Yikes, let’s talk about something else?” Adora asked.
”Yeah, sure. Like, uhhh… What? How’s that new Trinity Ring actually work?””Technically the Triplicate Ring,” Adora raised her hand with the extra ring.
”One of Sloane’s creations, basically lets me create two clones I can do whatever with.””Huh. Are they any stronger than you? Like the real rings?””Ain’t tried it, but they are identical,” Adora said.
”Cool. Cool…” Amara wasn’t really good at this like she used to be.
”Okay, better question. After everyone packed up and went their ways, what happened back here? What’d I miss?” That would, hopefully, be a better conversation than small talk.
”... You’re asking the wrong person,” Adora shrugged.
”I left pretty much immediately after Stiggy was defeated. The only person I had contact with in the Old Coven was Kari… But I blew her off.””Yeah, I don’t remember Kari at all. Never met her. I think. I mean St. Portwell. First we save the world, then Nazis come back? Then Emily fucking Reed? What the hell went wrong?””I don't even know the answer to that, sis,” Adora shrugged yet again.
”What has the world come to?””Hell. Fuck if I know,” Amara said.
”Think I’d rather be back in the PRA shooting ghosts than here, feels like that was a hell of a lot easier. At least then, you knew what the fuck you were fighting.”Adora was silent.
”... But did you know what you were fighting for?””Depends on when you asked,” she admitted.
”Eight years ago? Maybe. Five years ago? Yeah, sure. Year and a half ago? Nah, fuck if I knew anymore. Three my badge right in the director’s face. He can go fuck himself. You climb up enough, you’ll see shit you couldn’t before.””Well, if you don't mind me asking…” Adora leaned forward then asked,
”... Like?”Amara paused for a second, looking off into nothing for a second.
”There was this one time, a whole group of cursed people wanted to make their own little society. Kinda like Leon’s cult, only not a cult. All of ‘em Afflicted, and their lives just sucked because of it.”Amara took another shot.
”Weren’t even hurting anyone, they just wanted a way to live a life that wasn’t shit, but the curses they had gave them magic, and as a whole they were pretty damn dangerous if you pushed them far enough,” She sighed. Then leaned back against the couch.
”We had to kill ‘em all, because one agent of ours got on their bad side and paid for it. It was just self-defense, but before I knew that, we were told they were “highly dangerous paranormals.” They didn’t even stand a fucking chance against us, most of them didn’t even fight back.” They just ran.””Sounds like what they did to us, Adora began,
”But with less death.””Something like it. When you’re a big enough deal in the paranormal world that people talk about you, you either learn how to protect yourself or someone snuffs you out. They got away with setting that church on fire because they had guns and we didn’t. That’s it.“”What you’re saying we should get strapped?” Adora laughed, pulling the bottle to her mouth and siping it.
”That’s exactly what I’m saying. I don’t care how long takes or how hard it is to get all these fucks in a row, most people with magic coming out of their asses aren’t bulletproof. Emily Reed isn’t, and I know Liao isn’t. Seen that myself.”Adora started laughing,
”... I don’t know! You seen how the meetings went! I don’t think giving the Coven a bunch of guns would end well.”Adora did a finger gun and ‘looked down the sights’ and said,
”Someone says something outta pocket and then pow!””Someone says something outta pocket, and they’re dealing with it like adults,” Amara corrected.
”Because if I put a gun in their hands and they start acting like kids, they’re gonna get the fear of god put in ‘em. Doesn’t even have to be everyone, just the ones who actually get in fights. Drake knows how to shoot already, Linqian’s just close enough to being questionably bulletproof that she could do with a gun…” Amara knocked back a shot.
”We ain’t kids anymore, there’s barely twenty of us left. These fucking dumbasses forgot that quicker than me, and I’m the one with fucking magic dementia.” The alcohol was starting to kick in.
”... Wait, what?” Adora raised an eyebrow.
”You heard me. Magic. Fucking. Dementia. Or magic alzheimers, I don’t fucking know. It’s not like it’s ever been a secret.””Talk to me, baby,” Adora said,
”The whole shtick with magic is that there’s a lot of weird shit that comes with it. Are you like losing your mind…?””Nah, nah- The Army of One’s fucking- It’s fucked up, right? Billions of years ago, I died alone, you know? Not some other version of me, but me.” Amara got another shot of the Gray Goose.
”What they don’t tell you in Surprise-Magic-Exists-And-You-Never-Knew School is that everything’s a pattern. Constants and shit, there’s other versions of everyone that are all different, but then there’s always that one thing or two that doesn’t change no matter where you go. There’s damn near zero fucking differences between all the mes that are still alive, and every time some bitch named Amara King is born? She’s a fighter, get’s adjoined to a hive mind of dead ghosts of her own damn self, and dies for something she thinks is worth dying for.”She stared up at the ceiling, all the words just started coming and wouldn’t
stop. ”And then- Then they take the mes that die and turn them into more ghosts. They hollow every single one of me out, day after day, every time I lean on ‘em, Adora. They- Fuck…” Amara stopped herself and cracked open the other bottle they hadn’t touched yet, and inhaled a fifth of it. When she sat the bottle back down, her face was a scowl.
”They just… It takes and it takes and takes and takes and takes. That’s what the Army does- It keeps going because war and fighting are all it understands, because when one of me died alone, she got so fucking pissed off at the universe that she was too angry to stay dead. So she found another me and Adjoined to her. Then it just kept going.” And every time I have to use their power, a little tiny piece of me gets taken away and replaced with it.”Adora leaned forward, as the room went silent.
”... Maybe I should have turned on some music,” Adora broke the silence, before adding,
”That’s heavy. Like. Real deep shit there - actually, have some more to drink.” Adora pointed at the Grey Goose.
”... But, i get it. Thousands of versions of you all dying the same damn way, feeding into this... ghost army? Have you ever thought about not using it? Like, I know you have to sometimes, but maybe... I don’t know; take a step back. Let some of us handle things instead.””Look around us, it’s just a bunch of headless chickens so far. And yeah, sure, they’re getting better about it and their heads are coming out their asses,” Amara acknowledged.
”But… Fuck, Adora. Most of ‘em stopped knowing how to protect themselves years ago. I don’t exactly have a choice.””... And not a single one of them would give a fuck if you lost yourself protecting them!” Adora shouted, baring her teeth, before sighing and lowing her hands with her eyes closed.
”... What I mean to say is, it’s like with Luca; what good would surviving Father Wolf do if you or he gets killed by your Casper?””If I get killed, it gets shut out of Shimmer. The ghosts don’t waste what they’ve got on places where they’ve got nothing. If I just sit on my ass and do nothing, what’s the point of coming back at all?”Adora facepalmed,
”... Okay, I know you said the other Amaras tried stuff and couldn’t find anything - but there has to be something that can help you. You can’t just cross it off because some MF that’s you - but ain’t you - said so.”Amara leaned forward.
”You’re not- Look. Look. You can’t just seal the Army, it’s in every world where I’m alive, all at the same time. You unadjoin me to it? It just reaches back in and grabs me again. It’s not just one me that’s tried, y’know? It’s thousands, and thousands, and thousands of me that tried. And I know that because I remember everything they remember. The thing about me having magic dementia is that when they take something, it makes room for more ghosts to fill my head up. I’ve seen shit from other worlds, and I’m dead in them. One of me even tried sealing a god inside her, while trying to push the Army out. Didn’t work.””Oooookay, I got that,” Adora said, with a wide and very forced smile on her face as she put her hands together.
”... What I’m saying is that there has to be something that can help with your memory problems. Or SOMETHING that can off-set the side effects. Do you get what I’m saying? Maybe you don’t need to seal The Army; maybe there’s a piece that you’re missing.””Like what?” She asked, just a little exasperated.
”I’ve been dealing with this since I was old enough to walk. The PRA knew more about this sort of thing than me, and they had nothing. What are you suggesting?”Adora shrugged,
”Now, let me just say I’m no magical expert, but there are tons of different weird ass artifacts, right? Maybe there’s something that can help you keep your memory? Maybe someone can make something?””I- Shit, I guess? I’ve tried it before. This one smug prick in the PRA gave me this fuckass crown and told me it healed memories. All it did was set my head on fire…” Amara sighed.
”Hell, you know anyone good enough for that?””I don’t know but maybe Jack or Britney does,” Adora shrugged.
She leaned back.
”Yeah. Maybe…” She knocked back another shot.
”…Fuck, I normally gotta be a lot more drunk to get into this shit. Sorry.””There’s nothing to be sorry over, you have a problem, it’s that simple,” Adora said with a nod of her head.
”Yeah… But we’re supposed to get stupid drunk and we’re just bitching and moaning… You think Greenwood would kick our asses if they saw us like this?””They seem cool… they’re probably more inclined to whoop up on Layla if I had to be honest with you,” Adora shrugged.
”Heh… Yeah.” She laughed.
”I bet they got the craziest fucking weed. Lord, I should’ve been Adjoined to a weed apparition instead.””You know, they fuck with me; I can hit them up,” Adora leaned back and laughed.
”Fuuuck. That’s what we need. You’re fucking great, thanks.”Adora smiled.
”... I’m lovely, yeah,” Adora laughed, before she pulled out her phone and called Ruby.
”Good thing I got her number at the flower shop...” Adora mused out loud.
A few moments later, Ruby picked up.
“...
WAAAAAAAASSUP!” Ruby loudly shouted through the phone, and Adora rolled her eyes.
”Hey, Rubes, wassup,” Adora began.
“Nah, sis, you gotta say it with style like
WASSUP!” Ruby said laughing.
”What are you up to right now?” Adora asked.
“Nothing… me and the crew are about to head to the camp,” Ruby said. “Party off that meeting with the leftover pizza… We gotta get Sully’s ass first.”
”I got you,” Adora said, before putting the phone on speaker.
”You remember Amara, though? Ya’ll met at the Flower Shop Pow-Wow?” Adora gestured towards Amara.
“Yeah?”
”Well, she has a request for you all,” Adora laughed.
”Hey! Greenwood! Which one of you motherfuckers has the good grass?” She asked.
”I’m one step away from being drunk as fuck, who’s in a mood to get drunk as fuck with me?”“Sis,
siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiis….” Ruby said, “We got all that good shit… Come party with us.”
Ruby laughed, “I’ll drop the location to Appie here… Be there or be square.”
”You know I’ll be there!” Adora laughed.
”I owe you bitches my fucking life. Thanks.”“See ya there, babe,” Ruby said with a laugh. “We’ll be expecting you.”
She paused for a moment.
“... Don’t disappoint us.”
Then hung up.
”Well that was unnecessarily dramatic,” Adora said with a shrug.
Amara pointed a finger at the front door, and a phantom appeared out of thin air.
”She’s driving.”A few moments later, Adora’s phone pinged, and it was the location of the Greenwood party.
”... Whatever you say, champ,” Adora said with a smile.