St. Louis, Missouri - August 12th, 2019
As the years passed without a word, not an utterance in earshot, and his age ticked down his remaining years but a single thought was held in his mind: was the day told to be that of his birth truly the one in which he gained life or an arbitrary estimate constructed by whoever created birth certificate upon which was his identity. Such a thought had held a veil over the fringes of his mindscape since the day he had first celebrated the concept of a birthday and had first laid conscious eyes upon his birth certificate. Immanuelβs hands fiddled with the wallet held in the reaches of his jean pocket, one by which he was gifted on this day years in the past. A wallet which he pulled out with stresses upon the leather from daily and a lone fragment of paper poking its bent end out from the inner space. The paper his eyes had averted their gaze from since the last time he had bore witness to its contents, to words written upon its surface that heralded falsehood and untruthful confessions of apologies. One in which he hated, hated the words that were written, the ink in which it stood, the paper that was defiled yet in but the same vein a chain from depths of his heart anchored the note to his person, kept it within his hands and not hitching a ride in the back of a garbage truck.
Immanuelβs eyes gazed up from the wallet he held and out onto the open street before him, slipping the leather-lined object back into his pants. His sight was clear, clearer than most even, there was but little doubt upon that fact, but as he watched the car pass and trucks rattle down the road his ears took in but little of it. Small, the most minuscule fragments of sounds so loud it would make another cover their ears. As he crossed his eyes darted both down and up the street more times than he had before, only catching the alert that it was his time to cross due to the blinking white light it present. Life had been a change, but what was his if not one of no constants, not even a natural sense he believed he could rely upon in his trial of life stuck around to see him through the tribulation that stood in store for him. For as his ears abandoned him from the force of another his eyes picked up part of the mantel shattered and shaken up by the loss of hearing. Not a single sound that entered his ears was clear, his world was low, with a muffled filter tied to it that added another layer of unintelligibility to a curse already wicked in its means.
As his figure turned the corner his eyes were met with the all familiar sight of the Blaylock. The only few who deemed it fit to house someone such as himself. Few desired to home a teenager, less one who bore a disability. By no fault of his own the system under which the reigns of his life were held spurred upon him the tag of undesirability. They were the ones who sent him away to a home that heralded tales of misdeeds from those among his peers, they were the ones who hadnβt found the boy a forever home even when he was but an untainted baby, unmarred or scarred by the reality that helped few and benefited fewer. Lady luck had only stood at the side the day Blaylocks sought to take in another child to fill their home, and the kid by which they could teach and mold stood ripe for the picking before the. And now as he stood before their door, fiddling with the lock that never seemed to want to open on the first turn of the key, it stood along a line of moments within his life laced with normalcy. And although he held questions reserved about the date today, the Blaylocks were the first to make the day feel but mixed with an ounce of his own, hinted with a pinch of love sprinkled at the top.
The door he held the handle of creaked open as his eyes were greeted with the same sight of brown furnishings accompanied by cream-colored walls, a warmth permeated the halls of the home as his other sense was greeted by the aroma of a baked good heating in the kitchen only adjacent to where he stood. The Blaylocks themselves were a family consisting of only a single hearing member, his adoptive sister who stood as the only one to greet him at his entrance. Immanuel slung the back off his shoulders and onto the hook beside the door as he spoke out to his sister, βHow long have they been out for, Steph?β his voice had been loud, almost a yell as he spoke forth. Through his time with a worse leveling hearing his control of the sound of his voice waned. Stephany had been the only one within the family he spoke to using his voice, reading lips was a skill with a learning curve he stood at the bottom of the incline for, and practice with his sister was one he needed. βNot sure, about an hour or so? They stepped out for more decorations I think.β He watched her lips as she spoke, the verbalization of every word he registered within his mind. Although as she spoke he caught the tail end of her sentence.
βWhat? Can you say that again?β His own voice? He could hear his own voic-
His hands gripped his ears as he fell to the floor.
What was all this noise?
He didnβt know. He couldnβt know. All he could do was scream. Air hissed from his mouth as a shrilling shriek pieced his own ears and that of his sister as he continued. His throat lay hoarse and felt like rips were being drawn in its meat as he could no longer extend sound from out of vocal cords. His mind could not comprehend a single sliver of a fraction of the sounds that crossed the border of his ears as his mind burned like the flame of a dagger doused and gasoline and lit ablaze carved into the surface of his brain matter. Tears strolled down his face as his sister ran to his side, gripping her own phone to dial the number of their parents.
βWhat the fuck is wrong with me.β Immanuel choked as the noise, the static by which there was no differentiating, became louder and louder and louder.
As the years passed without a word, not an utterance in earshot, and his age ticked down his remaining years but a single thought was held in his mind: was the day told to be that of his birth truly the one in which he gained life or an arbitrary estimate constructed by whoever created birth certificate upon which was his identity. Such a thought had held a veil over the fringes of his mindscape since the day he had first celebrated the concept of a birthday and had first laid conscious eyes upon his birth certificate. Immanuelβs hands fiddled with the wallet held in the reaches of his jean pocket, one by which he was gifted on this day years in the past. A wallet which he pulled out with stresses upon the leather from daily and a lone fragment of paper poking its bent end out from the inner space. The paper his eyes had averted their gaze from since the last time he had bore witness to its contents, to words written upon its surface that heralded falsehood and untruthful confessions of apologies. One in which he hated, hated the words that were written, the ink in which it stood, the paper that was defiled yet in but the same vein a chain from depths of his heart anchored the note to his person, kept it within his hands and not hitching a ride in the back of a garbage truck.
Immanuelβs eyes gazed up from the wallet he held and out onto the open street before him, slipping the leather-lined object back into his pants. His sight was clear, clearer than most even, there was but little doubt upon that fact, but as he watched the car pass and trucks rattle down the road his ears took in but little of it. Small, the most minuscule fragments of sounds so loud it would make another cover their ears. As he crossed his eyes darted both down and up the street more times than he had before, only catching the alert that it was his time to cross due to the blinking white light it present. Life had been a change, but what was his if not one of no constants, not even a natural sense he believed he could rely upon in his trial of life stuck around to see him through the tribulation that stood in store for him. For as his ears abandoned him from the force of another his eyes picked up part of the mantel shattered and shaken up by the loss of hearing. Not a single sound that entered his ears was clear, his world was low, with a muffled filter tied to it that added another layer of unintelligibility to a curse already wicked in its means.
As his figure turned the corner his eyes were met with the all familiar sight of the Blaylock. The only few who deemed it fit to house someone such as himself. Few desired to home a teenager, less one who bore a disability. By no fault of his own the system under which the reigns of his life were held spurred upon him the tag of undesirability. They were the ones who sent him away to a home that heralded tales of misdeeds from those among his peers, they were the ones who hadnβt found the boy a forever home even when he was but an untainted baby, unmarred or scarred by the reality that helped few and benefited fewer. Lady luck had only stood at the side the day Blaylocks sought to take in another child to fill their home, and the kid by which they could teach and mold stood ripe for the picking before the. And now as he stood before their door, fiddling with the lock that never seemed to want to open on the first turn of the key, it stood along a line of moments within his life laced with normalcy. And although he held questions reserved about the date today, the Blaylocks were the first to make the day feel but mixed with an ounce of his own, hinted with a pinch of love sprinkled at the top.
The door he held the handle of creaked open as his eyes were greeted with the same sight of brown furnishings accompanied by cream-colored walls, a warmth permeated the halls of the home as his other sense was greeted by the aroma of a baked good heating in the kitchen only adjacent to where he stood. The Blaylocks themselves were a family consisting of only a single hearing member, his adoptive sister who stood as the only one to greet him at his entrance. Immanuel slung the back off his shoulders and onto the hook beside the door as he spoke out to his sister, βHow long have they been out for, Steph?β his voice had been loud, almost a yell as he spoke forth. Through his time with a worse leveling hearing his control of the sound of his voice waned. Stephany had been the only one within the family he spoke to using his voice, reading lips was a skill with a learning curve he stood at the bottom of the incline for, and practice with his sister was one he needed. βNot sure, about an hour or so? They stepped out for more decorations I think.β He watched her lips as she spoke, the verbalization of every word he registered within his mind. Although as she spoke he caught the tail end of her sentence.
βWhat? Can you say that again?β His own voice? He could hear his own voic-
His hands gripped his ears as he fell to the floor.
What was all this noise?
Why could he hear?
What was he even hearing?
He didnβt know. He couldnβt know. All he could do was scream. Air hissed from his mouth as a shrilling shriek pieced his own ears and that of his sister as he continued. His throat lay hoarse and felt like rips were being drawn in its meat as he could no longer extend sound from out of vocal cords. His mind could not comprehend a single sliver of a fraction of the sounds that crossed the border of his ears as his mind burned like the flame of a dagger doused and gasoline and lit ablaze carved into the surface of his brain matter. Tears strolled down his face as his sister ran to his side, gripping her own phone to dial the number of their parents.
βWhat the fuck is wrong with me.β Immanuel choked as the noise, the static by which there was no differentiating, became louder and louder and louder.
Interaction(s): Nil
Previously: Third Contact
Immanuelβs eyes have only been heavier a few times before as his head up from the cushioned section of the head rests. He had never had the easiest sleep in general, much less within a seat stationed in a flying tube of metal with engines that roared with its hissing cylinders moving throughout and the screaming blare of the flames that left the back stood under the sharp whistles of the wind moving against and scratching the metal it passed. It was hard keeping a filter around him with such sounds pushing against his holds and the ungodly sounds of his fellow passengers made little help in his cause for the loving embrace of in slumberβs arms. His eyes looked upon the sleeping bodies of both Cleo and Lucas, as he checked his watch which read well into the AMs. Immanuelβs mind held it unlikely he would see another possibility of sleep upon this flight, flicking up the window to his left to get a sight of the night sky. The tints of purple darkness spread across the expanse as a view he had grown accustomed to during times such as these. Ones spent within his dorm room staring out into the star mind absent of thought. Ones spent staring out his room window in the Blaylock home hoping for a they never would abandon him. Ones spent staring out the window of his social workerβs car after another family had deemed his time finished. If anything, when there was no one left in his corner, but a single soul upon his side, the stars had always embraced his company with arms open unlike any other.
In the stars he found a shelter.
In the stars he found a shelter.
In those accepting he found a home.