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I can't believe I binge watched this show. But damn Dark is so good.
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Or maybe melons>>> lemons?
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God now I have Daddy Cop stuck in my head. My fault xD
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And gave a big 'ol grin at the camera too. "Hey Drake." LMAO
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Hi, Qia here <3. I'm a gamer and RP fan just looking to have a good time.

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It would be different, but I'll quickly summarize my process for writing books so there's at least a glimpse into what the process could look like.

My general steps are:
- Drafting
- Scene editing
- Rewrite
- Quality editing

Drafting
Just putting pen to paper and letting ideas flow. Basically exactly what the RP is in it's current form.

Scene cataloguing/editing
Taking every chapter/scene, summarizing what plots the scene adds or continues and figuring out where they'd best fit in what order, adding and/or removing scenes as necessary. In this case every post is a scene, I'd try to summarize each post in an excel sheet and we could review the timeline and organize things from there.

Rewrite
Editing/Adding/Removing parts as necessary to ensure flow and consistency.

Quality editing
Reducing word and syllable count for reading quality. (I only do this for professional/paid work, generally not worth the effort for hobby projects).

Important note regarding potential book project


Only people who explicitly state they want their work to be included in a book would have their pieces added. Otherwise it's your work, that will be respected and your parts left alone. I'm not even going to entertain the idea of it becoming a commercial/profitable project, Nocturnia is @Estylwen's intellectual property and only she has the right to determine if she'd want such a project to take that route. I say these two points now to make my intention and direction for a potential book absolutely clear.

In summary, the main part would be scene editing, especially if there are people who do not want their work included and scenes might need to be created to bridge those gaps. Estylwen seemed interested in the idea (I discussed it briefly a couple days prior), her main concern being that of players interest/consent. So if enough players are interested, I'll start that excel sheet so we can start reviewing things quickly as they are and exploring how we'd like to write a book.

The last key note would be that this RP would remain established cannon. A book would just be a 'what if'.


I'm interested. Sounds like fun :)
Actually I do have another idea, one that could keep us working on Nocturnia while keeping the game in a 'frozen' state until Esty is ready to return.

Would anyone be interested in turning what we have so far into an actual book? The process would comprise of us rewriting scenes to better flow into each other but maintain their overall content. Such could then be put onto book sites like say word press and royal road.

We could construct everything up to The War. If we agreed upon it necessary scenes could be added/removed as well (nothing that would dramatically alter the overall plot or main characters so far).

Reason I suggest this is that if the majority of people don't want to continue without Esty, this'll be a good way to keep the spirit alive while waiting for when she's able to return. Also would provide those involved a good piece of work for personal portfolios and/or get more exposure for creatives amongst us.

My only caution would be that it'd be a considerable amount of work (mostly cleaning up and making the existing writing 'efficient' for reading quality).

If most people are keen I can draft up a pipeline for development.


This sounds interesting. I'm guessing this something that can be worked on together in like...a Google doc I guess? So we can talk out what to cut and what to keep and how to make things flow a little better since rp is way different than writing a book.
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Every anime has those random filler episodes that don't make sense or they take way too long like Naruto. 😂 It could be a nice touch and it would help keep everyone interested hopefully along with making it easier for est to return too.

I'm excited to see what ideas Flux has up their sleeve as well. Their post got me interested.


Samee. I'm sure it will be great :) No pressure of course.
Currently, my character and NPCs are in an interesting situation, because I was writing up a storm with Est in a google document.

People were asking for those "nice break scenes" we could possibly put everything on hold and have an imaginary reality sequence or something. So it's not overly serious and can be fun while Est is away.


I like this idea, that way Est will have an easier time once they return ^^. Nothing to catch up to. It would be like a nice...filler episode haha.
This is going to come out of the blue, and I do this with a heavy heart, but a family emergency has come up which will remove me from the site for an unknown period of time. I won't be able to GM for you lovely people anymore. I nominate flux as my co-GM, and hope you can all still thrive without me.

Take care, everyone.


Sending the best wishes to you and your family!


And now we have a good looking female character because equality
Early post on my part as well. No pressure to hurry for the next, was just a little more inspired this time around. :)
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Interactions/Mentions: VV-@Estylwen

A stood rooted to the spot, her breath a staccato against the sound and suffering around her. The battlefield was no longer a place of mere conflict—it had become a grotesque theater of war where bodies convulsed like marionettes with their strings severed, their final, gurgling gasps swallowed by the fog of burning flesh. The metallic sting of blood clung to the air, thick enough to taste. Distant screams punctuated the din, a cacophony of despair from men who had, until this moment, believed themselves invincible. And yet, none of it held A’s focus. Her gaze was fixed, unblinking, on VV.

The darkness around Vin writhed, its tendrils slithering and constricting with a slow cruelty as if savouring the agony they inflicted. His cries tore through the battlefield, each snap of breaking bone reverberating through A like the strike of a hammer against brittle glass. Violence had sculpted this landscape into something unrecognizable, a hellish tableau painted in fire and ruin.

And in the midst of it stood VV, grinning as if this slaughter was nothing more than a game.

Her words—“Your powers are damn scary, A”—were meant as praise, yet they struck A like a cold hand wrapping around her throat. Was this what they had become? Was this the price of strength? The blood she had commanded, the pain she had exacted—it had all felt necessary, a grim toll demanded by survival. But now, watching Vin’s body fracture under VV’s merciless grip, she felt something insidious creep into her bones. A sickness, a slow-sinking horror at the reflection of what they had done.

They were winning. They were unstoppable.

And that realization, more than the carnage, more than the screams, sent a chill through her that no fire could burn away.

These feelings,
this pain,
Opens the doors to my domain.

Opens the doors to me.


Her gaze flickered back to Vin, his features a grim mask of anguish, twisted and taut with pain—but not surrender. No, his damned eyes still burned in defiance despite the wrecking of his body. He felt no remorse. No regret. Not for D, not for anything. A could see it in the slight upturn of his mouth. He would carry his sins like a banner, revel in them, never once flinching at the weight of what he had done to them.

And yet.

“VV,” A’s voice cut through the chaos, “Stop.”

The word startled even her. It had been reflexive, surfacing before she could crush it down, before she could weigh the consequences of saying it. The battlefield churned around them, but in this moment, all she could hear was the pounding of her own pulse. Because she knew why she’d spoken up. She saw it—the precipice VV stood on now, the void yawning beneath her feet. A had stood there once herself. And she knew what it felt like to fall.

Blood had always been the conduit of A’s power, but it had never come without cost. The first time she had truly felt its insidious strength had been the night of the accident. Her best friend’s body, limp and broken in the wreckage, the scent of copper thick in the air, the helplessness clawing at her ribs as she pressed trembling hands to cooling skin. That moment had been an awakening, the lock broken, the floodgates thrown open. The power had surged in answer to her desperation, an ancient thing roused from slumber, and with it had come the realization that it had always been there, waiting for her to break enough to let it in.

And every time she called upon it now—every time she reached into the red and bent it to her will—she felt that same presence, lurking at the edges of her mind. Watching. Waiting. Wanting. A quiet, insatiable hunger, whispering of how much easier it would be to give in, to take more, to stop fighting the tide and simply let it drag her under. But she’d resisted, despite the hunger she’d felt.

She wasn’t going to let VV drown in that insatiableness, too.

A swallowed hard and forced herself to meet VV’s gaze head-on.

“I want him to suffer just as much as you do,” she admitted, voice with a slight tremor. “But this isn’t justice. This is just more of what he wants.” Her eyes flickered toward Vin’s trembling form, toward the dark tendrils coiling tighter, eager to snap him apart like brittle bone. “We’ll… find another way.”

They had to.

Because the more pain they inflicted, the more power they fed.

And they both knew what that could do to someone.
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Location: Turning Winds Home for Youth - Joliet, Illinois
Human #5.087: Not Meant to Stay
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Interaction(s): Anabel (@Skai)
Previously: In the Dark, I Name You


The night wove itself into the fabric of the world, not with an icy grip but with a humming insistence, burrowing beneath the skin, threading cold into the sinew and settling deep in the marrow. The rooftop of the group home was a reliquary of forgotten things—of rusted vents devoured by oxidation, of emaciated satellite dishes that had long since given up on receiving messages from a world that never sent them. Time had worn this place down like a prayer whispered too many times to ears that never listened, its relics left to decay in silence, waiting for a reverence that would never return. The railing, once resolute, now slumped in its slow collapse, its corroded skin peeling away like old scripture on a forsaken altar. A single, dying bulb by the entrance flickered with frantic determination, its feeble light spilling jaundiced halos over the gravel-strewn floor, summoning shadows that jittered like restless spirits chained to the bones of the past. Beyond the jagged skyline of rooftops, the city sprawled in cold detachment, an expanse of artificial constellations stretching toward the horizon—an illusion of the infinity of possibilities that had long since lost meaning.

Alexander perched on the ledge, one leg idly swinging over the void, the other bent beneath him, his fingers toying with a cigarette he had no intention of smoking. He liked the way it fit between his fingers, the familiar press of something tangible, something solid, something to fidget with while his mind wandered down corridors it probably shouldn’t. He rolled it absently, thumb and forefinger coaxing the ember at its tip to flare, a smouldering firefly flickering in defiance before the wind stole its light, leaving only the taste of burned paper in the air. The sky stretched overhead, vast and starless, a yawning chasm where the cosmos should have been. But the city had swallowed them, devoured the heavens in the slow, creeping glow of light pollution until nothing remained but absence. Or maybe that was the truth of it. Maybe there had never been stars at all. Maybe the universe was just a great, empty mouth, swallowing children’s prayers before they could rise.

He liked it up here.

The silence was a rare thing, a gift hoarded by the heights. Down below, the walls pressed in like a ribcage too tight for the lungs inside it, suffocating, brimming with voices that tangled together in an unbroken symphony of grievances, whispered betrayals, and dreams too starved to survive. Even when he didn’t seek them, thoughts crawled toward him like ivy through fractured stone, creeping, winding, seeping into the hollow spaces of his mind. He knew which burdens weren’t his, but knowledge did little to keep them out. Some thoughts had roots too deep, finding the cracks and making a home inside him, whether he wanted them or not.

The wind prowled across the rooftop, a restless thing with cold, clawed fingers, yanking at the edges of his hoodie like it meant to shake him loose from his perch. The fabric, thinned from wear, billowed uselessly against the chill, offering no real defence. Not that he needed it. The cold was a distant thing, an old ghost rattling at his bones but never quite sinking in. Beneath the hoodie, his t-shirt sagged at the collar, its edges worried raw by restless hands that sought solace in frayed seams when his mind refused to silence itself. His jeans bore the evidence of aimless wandering—scuffed knees, threadbare patches, a constellation of stains that told stories no one had bothered to ask about. His sneakers, worn down to near surrender, braced carelessly against the ledge, as if daring gravity to prove its inevitability.

His hair was an untamed sprawl of dark curls, not carefully dishevelled for effect but genuinely careless, a product of inattention rather than intent. It fell just long enough to cast a shadow across his face when he wanted to be unreadable, a curtain drawn between himself and the world. But his eyes—those were sharper than they had any right to be at this hour, restless in their quiet scrutiny. Always searching. Always sifting through the spaces between moments, cataloging the unsaid. Here, in the hush of the rooftop, he could almost pretend he wasn’t listening. That he wasn’t attuned to the murmurs threading through the walls below. That he didn’t already know who lay awake, staring at ceilings too familiar to inspire dreams, who was muffling their grief into a pillow, who was caught in a fevered dream of a life they’d never touch.

He exhaled, watching for the second time as the ember at his fingertips faded into the dark.

The rooftop was an escape. But even up here, he was never truly alone.

A creak.

Soft, almost shy, but distinct enough.

Alex didn’t stir, not immediately. He kept his posture loose, the picture of nonchalance. His fingers absentmindedly caressed the cigarette, a mere prop in his reverie, while his mind soared beyond the rooftop, seeking the presence that had punctured his solitude. Just there. Rooted. Watching.

A sigh escaped his lips, a wisp of resignation, and only then did he turn his head, slow, like a boy unbothered by ghosts. The figure beneath that wavering light, half-obscured, more silhouette than substance, was haloed in sickly gold.

But he knew her.

Anabel.

As if waiting for that subtle acknowledgement, the silhouette stepped forwards and into the darkness of night. The last traces of the light that illuminated her curved frame withered into traces of an outline as the door snicked shut behind her. The bulb above hardly compared to the starlight that glossed the hair as black and as slick as spilled ink that fell down to her waist. Her arms slowly rose to tuck themselves beneath a generous chest. The embrace to keep out the chill of night as well as to protect the heart that beat behind it.

“I wasn’t sure if you were out here or not.” Anabel’s low voice travelled across the space between them. Her tone was neither warm nor cold, but indifferent to their meeting. She began to drift forward, and as she neared the edge of the roof where Alex sat, she turned her eyes towards the city beyond.“Are you going to finish that?”

Alex rolled the cigarette between his fingers, not looking at her right away. Instead, he tilted his head, gaze still cast toward the city below.

“Didn’t take you for the type to want one,” he murmured, his voice light, almost amused. A beat passed, the wind carrying the words away before he let the cigarette dangle between his fingers, an idle offering. “Then again, you never did let people decide who you were gonna be.”

It was an absent remark, too casual to be anything but a throwaway observation. But, for Alexander, it was a memory unearthed from years ago, when cruel taunts had tried to shape Anabel into something smaller than the girl in front of him now. He covered the moment by rolling his shoulders, finally turning to glance at her. “Go ahead. I don’t smoke, anyway.” He twirled it once between his fingers, then tossed it toward her with an easy motion. The ember trailed briefly in the dark before she caught it.

Anabel positioned the half-burnt cigarette between two fingers. A thoughtful look flickered across her features but vanished as quickly as it came before she raised it to her lips. She inhaled, and as the tip burned brightly her eyes slid over to observe the quiet boy beside her with a wary gaze. Her eyes turned back to the city by the time she pulled her hand away. She exhaled, smoke trailing from between her lips, and spoke again.

“Picked it up recently.”

Alex tipped his chin, his gaze idling on the waning ember perched against her fingertips. A third dying firefly, trembling on the precipice of its last breath. Much like the first, it flickered once—twice—then surrendered to the abyss, swallowed whole by the waiting dark.

“Guess we all got our vices.”

The wind continued to prowl below them, a restless thing, threading through rusted fire escapes and discarded litter, dragging with it the acrid ghost of burnt tobacco and the sodden scent of rain-soaked asphalt. A lull stretched between them, and then softly—more idle musing than true inquiry—he murmured,

“Could be worse.” The corners of his mouth twitched, his eyes fixed on the sprawl of the city where lights bled into puddles and distant sirens keened like wounded things. A requiem for those who had tried and failed. “Could be like that poor bastard who thought he had a shot last month.” A low chuckle, barely there. “Didn’t get far.”

At last, he turned his head, studying her sidelong. “Ever think about it?”

Anabel pressed her lips together in a frown as she leaned forwards. Her elbows rested on the space beside Alex, hands dangling over the edge of what stood between them and the outside world. What remained of the cigarette slipped from her fingers and drifted away with the wind as she took a moment. Her brows furrowed before she turned her head to truly face him.

“Far as I know, only one of us has ever gotten out,” she murmured. “She was smart enough not to look back.”

“Yeah.” Alex’s voice was softer now, not quite agreement or dissent. Just something in between. He tipped his head back, exhaling slowly. “Guess that makes her the lucky one.”

Lucky. It was a word that didn't sit right in his mouth. Was it luck that had gotten her out? Or knowing when to run? Or why?

Why did she get the chance when so many others didn’t?

“If I had a shot,” Alex mused, “maybe I'd go somewhere different. Somewhere that makes running mean something.” He shrugged his shoulders.. "Dunno where, exactly. Just... not here.” His thumb skimmed over the edge of his sleeve, tugging at a loose thread.

“Maybe someplace that actually teaches you how to fight back. Y'know, instead of just teaching you to take the hit and keep your head down.” He said the words as if he was testing the idea aloud for the first time, though he had considered it much more than he’d like to admit.

Anabel’s brows twitched as she looked down at her hands. Alex didn’t need to see her face to know where her mind had drifted. He could feel it—the tremor of memory like a ripple spreading across still water. It wasn’t mind-reading, not in the strictest sense. More like standing at the precipice of another’s recollection, the door cracked just wide enough to catch the imprint of something half-buried but never quite forgotten. It lingered in her curled fingers and the breath she forgot to take.

Flashes. A girl, small and wary, bracing against the inevitability of impact. A younger Anabel beside her, a steady presence in a world that had only ever taught them to endure. Then another shift—the same scene, but different. Anabel in the girl’s place now, her frame rigid, her stance unwavering. Fists connecting, the sharp sting of knuckles meeting flesh, and yet—she did not flinch. Not once. As if standing tall in the face of cruelty could turn bone into steel.

It wasn’t a memory he had pried from her mind. Just something she carried so openly that it brushed against his awareness like the afterglow of a dying flame—brief, bright, but impossible to ignore.

“Sometimes you just have to do it yourself.”

“Yeah.” Alex’s fingers stilled against his sleeve before finding the loose thread again, worrying at it. “Maybe that’s what gets people out. Not luck. Just… deciding, one day, you’re done waiting for someone else to do it for you.” He exhaled, the breath slipping from his lungs in a way that felt much older than him, weary and worn thin. “But I dunno. Feels like I’ve been waiting a long time for a day that never comes.” And then, after another moment, his voice dimming to something almost lost between them:

“Maybe I really was just waiting on myself.”

This time, he looked at her, studying her for a beat longer than before. Not with his ability but just as himself.

As Alexander…something.

“You ever pick up on something you weren’t supposed to? Not ‘cause someone told you. Just... because it was there. In the way they looked at you. In what they didn’t say.”

He didn’t need an actual answer to know that she had. Still, he continued,

“Most people don’t realize how much they give away or how much they leave behind…whether they mean to or not.”

And sometimes, he wasn’t sure what was worse—stumbling onto truths he was never meant to know or realizing, too late, that he had left pieces of himself scattered in places he could never return to. Maybe more than he could ever reclaim. Like his full name.

Anabel’s head turned just so to glance his way as he spoke. Her dark green eyes met his, black pupils flaring when they realized that he was truly looking at her. Her body turned, then, until she was leaning her side against the ledge. By the time he finished speaking her features had softened, reservations forgotten because of the words he had uttered. His words resonated with something she’d buried within her heart, expressing it in the longing and loneliness in her eyes and in the way her chin dipped to acknowledge it.

She proved his point without uttering a single word.

For a moment, Alex said nothing as well. Just watched—the way her guard wavered, how she let it slip for the span of a single breath, a fleeting fracture in the walls she carried so well. And then, like a candle snuffed before it could catch, it was gone. She turned away, shoulders drawing taut, bracing against the world as if the mere act of looking forward could outrun what lingered behind. A soldier’s retreat, seamless and practiced.

Alex didn’t call her on it.

Instead, he let out a slow breath and dragged a hand through his already unruly hair, his gaze meandering back to the sprawl of the city.

“You said sometimes you have to do it yourself. But that doesn’t mean you gotta do it alone.” A smirk ghosted at the corner of his mouth, brief and lopsided. “Whatever it is you’re planning, whatever comes next… if you need backup, I’m in. Just… don’t expect me to play the hero. I’m more like a… Legion.”

Anabel snorted softly in response. Her usual snideness was replaced by something different now. As if she was acknowledging their brief moment of understanding but choosing to remain apart. A singularity among his multitudes.

“I don’t believe in heroes.” She began, her tone bordering nihilistic. “But I’ll consider your legion.”

Her next breath came quickly.

“Say you find this place that teaches you to fight back. What are you going to do then? Do you think it will make any difference?” The inquiry walked a fine line between curiosity and examination.

“I don’t know,” he admitted, the words slipping out quieter than he intended, rough-edged and unsanded. “Maybe nothing changes. Maybe I learn to fight, and it still doesn’t mean shit in the end. Maybe the world’s too big, too fucked to fix, and we’re just cogs in the machine, thinking we can jam it up when all we’re really doing is making noise before we get crushed.”

He inhaled deeply, watching his breath materialize in the frigid air. His ability had taken more from him than he could ever quantify—memories, names, fragments of himself. And the worst part? He hadn’t even noticed half of them slipping away.

Some wounds bled openly; his were thieves, stealing without a trace left behind.

But it had given him something, too. A way to pull others back before they fell too far. He didn’t know if it was enough. But it was something. And perhaps, in a world as broken as this one, something had to count for more than nothing.

“But maybe,” he ventured cautiously, like testing thin ice, “maybe that’s not the point. Maybe it’s not about fixing everything. Maybe it’s about proving we still get to choose. That we don’t have to be what the world decided for us.”

His eyes shifted to hers. He weighed the gravity of his next words but hoped for some semblance of understanding from the person who was probably the closest thing he had to a friend in this place.

“What I can do…my ability…it’s not the kind of thing people trust,” he admitted, the words close to something that wasn’t quite bitter but lived near it. “It messes with things it shouldn’t. People don’t like the idea of someone knowing them better than they do. Hell, sometimes I don’t like it. Because if I push too far, I could take something I don’t really know how to give back.”

A breath. A pause. Another sigh.

“But if I can use it to help… if I can pull someone back before they disappear into their own mind, before they start believing the lie that they’re alone in whatever hell they’re drowning in—”

He worked his jaw, considering, feeling the shape of the next words before letting them go into the cold.

“Then maybe that’s enough. Maybe that’s what fighting back looks like for me.”

Location: Eye of the Beholder
Interactions/Mentions: Sya (@PrinceAlexus)



Thalia studied Sya carefully, considering her words before finally speaking. “Calm is easier for people who trust that they’re safe.” She gestured vaguely toward the shuttered windows. “But people aren’t blind. The doors are barred, the guards aren’t giving answers, and you’re switching between feeding us and making sure we don’t bolt. You can wrap it in as many jokes as you like, but you’re worried, too.”

There was no accusation in her voice but merely a simple, immutable truth. Never had she envisioned herself in such dire straits, adrift in uncertainty, stripped of the quiet assurances that had once cradled her existence. She had been reared in a world where peril was a distant specter—spoken of in hushed tones, glimpsed in the margins of war chronicles, but never tangible, never hers to bear. Even when Aurelia waged war, others had done the bleeding, and she had been left only to witness, to hear of it secondhand, insulated by gilded halls that had surrounded her and the whispered reassurances from many in her ear.

This, however, was different.

Dawnhaven lacked the towering walls of Aurelia’s citadels, the steadfast armies that had once stood sentinel at its borders, the weight of a sovereign’s crown to decree that all would be handled before ruin ever reached the people’s doorsteps. Here, there were no grand proclamations, only the suffocating press of fear and the quiet, creeping knowledge that the town was folding in on itself like a wounded beast. All she could do—all any of them could do—was place faith in the competence of strangers, truthfully.

She loathed that. She loathed how foreign it felt, how out of place she was in both past and present.

And yet, rather than pressing further, Thalia did the opposite. “You’re right about one thing,” she conceded, her voice quieter now, though no less resolute. “Panic won’t help. It never does.” Her mother had always said the same. A noble woman does not panic—she prepares.

But what exactly was she supposed to do now?

Her gaze returned to Sya, unreadable for a fraction longer before, with a quiet exhale, she allowed the tension in her shoulders to uncoil. “That said, since I’m apparently at your mercy, I might as well eat something.” Her words were smoother now, lighter, though the frustration hadn’t entirely left her. “Let’s see if this legendary ‘ingot’ of yours is worth the hype.”

She wasn’t convinced that waiting was the right answer. But for now, it was the only one she had.
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