Location: Stark hall
Skills/Powers/Equipment: N/A
Skills/Powers/Equipment: N/A
As she walked, Vicky was worried a little what she would do if some of the lowlifes tried to make a move on her. She was switching between emotions like a pendulum and didn't trust herself to hold back until she managed to clear her head. Fortunately, her state of mind seemed to permeate throughout her whole being as the couple of people she has met on her way seemed to cross the street in a hurry when they noticed her.
Unfortunately, the bouncer at the club was not impressed and told her off. Briefly she entertained the idea of y climbing the building and making her way in through a different point of entry, but after some rational thought managed to take root in her chaos ridden processes, she abandoned her quest and went to a nearby park to be alone with her maddening thoughts. Checking whether the spot she picked wasn't claimed by a bum for this night, she lied down in the grass and stared up at the sky, barely a star being visible through all of the light pollution emitted by the town.
For just a brief moment, she managed to just look up at the great dark beyond, nary a thought in her head. Finally, a brief moment of peace in the torrent of thought. What am I doing here? she asked herself finally. I've been here for two years before now, and I don't think I was ever so miserable. To think that having little to no friends and no social life would be less of a pain than getting out there and making 'friends'. And where did it get me? Being shoved into a role I don't care for on a team of people who I mostly don't get along with. Or people who would stab me in the back!
A new spike of anger washed over her, and her clenching fists torn the blades of grass from it's roots where they rested. That bastard. Not only did he play her like a fiddle, but he- The anger flew away and was replaced with something else entirely. GET OUT OF MY HEAD! she remembered herself screaming as she was in the background, watching her body being used to wipe out her classmates. Vicky pulled her arms around herself. Violated, that was the word to describe how she felt.
It shouldn't matter. It should not mean anything. Everyone made it out alive, and Edward was handled. She should take it as a learning lesson and move on, there was no logical reason for her to feel like this! This... dirty! Her face scrounged up into a grimace. Brushing a finger under her eye, she looked it, completely dry. "I hate you, Hope." Victoria whispered into the night. Mother, she called her. Some mother that woman was! Likely galivanting through the quantum realm again when she needed her. "I hate you for making me like this. For giving me emotions, but not the shell to process them. I can't cry, I can't dream, and I'll never forget any of it. Thanks for making me so that this will haunt me forever." she sat up, propping herself on her arms. "Machines were not meant to feel." she aired her thoughts at noone.
Feeling a tickle on her palm, she raised her hand to her eyes to look at the culprit. An ant was scurrying about on it. Vicky envied it. A small, simple creature, perfectly fitting into it's own nest's hierarchy. Unburdened by the feelings of not belonging, and having a perfectly defined role to fulfil. What a life. "You go ahead and tell them that." she spoke to the ant. "Tell them that I tried doing what they want me to do, but it is turning me into a wreck. I don't care for it anymore. I'll be their soldier machine, because I do want to protect others. But I don't need to put up a façade of being human to do that. I'm going to do it my way. And if my overlords aren't happy with me, they know where they can find me. Come and try to shut me down." Vicky set the ant back on the ground, got up, dusted herself and headed back to the dorm. She had a ton of stuff to do if she wanted to make sure she was never blindsided like this again.