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I would die for this man.



Just your typical goth gal who likes darker settings heavy themes and steamy romances.

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Eh another one
Simple and to the point​


I am tired of making long-ass intros every time I open up a topic! So here ya go, everything that needs to be said is right here. Only 18+ people are allowed who are not scared to delve into a much darker territory stuff.

So here are some simplistic needs of mine that I am looking from my potential partner. If you don't fill these out, we will not mesh well. In these notes you'll learn a bit about me, as well.​

1. Don't ask me specifically about just the "adult content".​

Honestly, I love intimate scenes. I never avoid it, I never fade to black, I go through all nitty-gritty, juicy and dirty details that could make anyone hot and bothered. I'm into all sorts of stuff (I prefer to send my F list to the people I agree to write with), my limits go further than with most people. HOWEVER, if you come to seek out specifically about this content from me, I'll have to refuse. I want a story with intimate scenes, because smut is just a one big meh for me without a proper buildup and a story. I want more than that.​

2. Let's write a story.​

I consider myself a writer, because when I don't roleplay, I write stories of my own. And when I say stories, I mean content with elements such as these: NPCs and side characters, friends, rivals and enemies, hardships, heartbreak, loss, battles, bittersweet victories and unlimited drama. I don't like it when our characters have it easy and very easy-going life. I'll get bored very VERY easily and will probably drop it. When I don't roleplay, I write my own stuff. I am obsessed with details, character development and struggles. While I don't expect from people to be into this as much as I am, I want someone to try it out with me. Also, I hate working on my own. People tend to drop me because I left space in plots for them to help me out to build a story. Roleplaying is two people telling a story together.​

3. Buildup is everything.​

Rushing into romance is anticlimactic. Early intimacy is anticlimactic. Quick solution to problems are anticlimactic. Revealing everything too soon is anticlimactic. Build with me, brick by brick, and with well-thought out building such as this, you'll get an amazing creation. Chemistry between characters needs to be organic, whether its built up slowly or its immediate.​

4. Detailed posts.​

Detailed posts do not necessarily fall into long posts. While you'd think that it would, from my experience, it certainly is not the case. Posts can be long and filled with unnecessary stuff and can even be too tiring to read. Sometimes the wall of text does not apply to the situation, and a post of two paragraphs that has depth in it will be more than enough. I do love long posts, but I dislike posts that are not consistent and unnecessarily long. Two paragraphs minimum is all I ask.​

5. Complex characters.

I am not entirely a fan of easy-going characters who, not only seem like an empty canvas, but they kind of are. I don't mind the first image of having about someone else's character as someone very simple, everything laid up in front of you, but getting a massive curveball as the story progresses, but I'm a type of writer that would want to raise some questions about my own character as soon as possible and not give all the answers so soon. Characters that are complicated on their own and complicated to be with, those with issues, unhappy characters, you name it, those are the stuff that grip me. An issue that needs to be solved and even when we think its solved, something happens that brings us back to square one. Give me complicated characters and situation, and I'm hooked. And if you don't like extremely tangled background stories, characters that either conflict with themselves or others, characters that don't necessarily have one defining description of them and if you don't like when you can't get through characters easily, I'm not a partner for you.

For now, this is all I ask. I am currently looking for what I mentioned below. I usually took on roleplays that others suggested, but it did not work for me. So I stick to my own ideas, which is how it went well for me. I seek an active to semi-active partners. One post a week is the least I'm looking for.​

If you're interested, send me a PM, let me know which plot interests you and tell me about yourself, what works for you, what I should know about you and etc.​

Plots​


Status: Currently NOT taking any suggestions for plots that are different from what I've stated below. I do happily accept suggestions for plot arcs and character ideas, anything that is different from what I'm currently looking for will be rejected, since I have space for one or two roleplays max and this is what I've been desiring to do. Can't help it, girl knows what she wants!​

Theme: Fantasy, Dragon Age (Inquisition timeline specifically), adult theme
CRAVE

Female human assassin x male Qunari

This is going to be fairly flexible, I do have a couple of ideas on which we can build on, dependinghow we decide to take this roleplay. your ideas are much appreciated!

- One of the major ideas I had is that both of our characters are moving on from the events of the second game into the Inquisition timeline. YC has perhaps been someone who worked under Arishok during the events that happened in Kirkwall. MC, Frances, has been actively "clearing the streets" of Kirkwall, mostly dealing with the thugs and bandits, as a request from some of her organization's member requests, while not having any direct contact to the Kirkwalll Champion. And instead of Isabela being the one that stole the sacred tome from the Qunari, was actually a member of another assassin organization in which Frances has a major role - legendary Orlesian pirate assassins. Qunari's search for this tome continues on long after the events of the Kirkwall and leads into a separation of their groups to investigate, then the Veil was split and everything goes to shit as it does.

This may lead into our characters meeting in various scenarios, one of which includes meeting with Frances under a fake and famous identity of a masked Orlesian assassin. Or a very chaotic introduction to both of our characters which may not be the happiest start, given that when the Breach opens and without the Herald to stop the demons, there will be destruction and those desperate moments will force the two to unite.

- The Iron Bull direction, that being that YC abandons or is banished from his people and becomes a Tal-Vashoth as he seeks a bigger purpose in life (given that the Qunari are obsessed with having a purpose) and whatever his reason is from being banished, it could be one of bigger directions of his story, which leads to him becoming a part of the Inquisition. In order for him to be in the Inquisition, he needs to have forces to offer or anything that can be of use. Maybe a part of the other Tal-Vashoth's forces, maybe he made a guild of his own in time (mercenaries) or maybe he's even the Inquisitor, we'll see.

- Whatever arc we choose, both of our characters will have a position within the Inquisition. Frances will have two major forces and resources to offer, but not necessarily trusted by others, given her inability to open up. Should we use the existing characters from the game or replace them with original NPCs, I will leave that to you, since both work for me either way.

This is just a few things I came up with right now by myself, but it isn't entirely easy without someone giving feedback and feeding into this with their own ideas, so I encourage you to come to me with your own ideas! But what I can guarantee that our roleplay will include are these elements: events from the game, plot twists, pirate goodness, Orlesian intrigue, character conflict and development and blood spill!

The character sheet


I've made my demands, but here's a link to the character profile I've made on this site. There's a lot of text on here, Frances is one of the characters I've been working on for a long time. roleplayerguild.com/topics/177746-bou…
Since some people don't really like to read much, I'll give you some TL;DR, even though I'd prefer the interested to read it:

- Frances has been a member of two specific assassin organizations - one is the Orlesian pirate organization that has been active for years, but recently in the story became the leader of the underground assassin organization Serpents of the Rocks. Nightlaws rule the seas, they are well-known and feared by everyone (they don't even hold their ends of the deal, instead kill their clients and take everything), Serpents hide underneath the Hinterlands with a web of tunnels that leads them to every part of Hinterlands, including Redcliffe. They're not exactly hired, but they are information brokers, they take in orphans to work undercover for them and also hunt down the rich and take their shit. They were never caught and barely anyone knows of them.

- While she's a friendly and a drunkard with a tongue of a sailor, she's short-tempered, leads the Serpents with an iron fist, she's in reality very lost and deals with past traumas that haunt her every day.

- Frances' story is a mystery even to her own men. She's a woman of many secrets, but how long til she explodes?

- When speaking to clients who managed to reach the Serpents through some tight connections, they don't know of Frances and even if they have heard of the name, her man refer to their leader as he, so they can leave as little of information to them as possible.

- Frances has an alter ego tat she uses when she's working with the Nightlaws - a masked seductress and cold-blooded killer Julienne Bechard, daughter of the terrifying Florian Bechard. Florian, also known as Demon's Grin is a living legend of a merciless pirate who survived sea wars, escaped all attempts to be captured, only to return with an exploding revenge. Frances is not his daughter, but when she masks herself as an Orlesian assassin with an accent, she's immediately a different person. You'll hear songs that bards play about the seductress that intrigues and at the same time instills fear into the hearts of men and women alike. Orlesians love their songs of fights and intrigue!

- In the link, there's two other side characters mentioned (next to said captain of Nightlaws): Tavros and William. Tavros has been both on the previous Serpent's leader's side since the very beginning and on Frances'. He's a strange hybrid of a assassin reaver who believes in the Maker and Andraste wholeheartedly and sings the Chant. He's everyone's best friend until he's pissed and has been Frances' right arm and big brother. William has just recently turned 18, but looks far older. He's been captured and enslaved back in Antiva, but Florian's men have killed everyone on the ship that was supposed to transport the human traffic to another continent, but not to save them. William lied to Florian and that lie saved his life, only to have his place among the Nightlaws, not as an assassin or a pirate, but as a bard and storyteller. He's one of Frances' messengers she trusts without question.

And here's her faceclaim!

One of my favorite plots reopened.
High in the halls of the kings who are gone
Jenny would dance with her ghosts
The ones she had lost and the ones she had found
And the ones who had loved her the most
The ones who’d been gone for so very long
She couldn’t remember their names

They spun her around on the damp old stones
Spun away all her sorrow and pain
And she never wanted to leave
Never wanted to leave


This plot has been highly inspired by Game of Thrones and G. Martin's and J. Tolkien's writing in general. I did not want to make this anything fandom related. Also, this pairing has been inspired by Rhaegar and Cersei story from the books, but you'll see that this obviously is not a complete rip-off of the situation. The character I created is like a good version of Cersei. Still stubborn, demanding and ambitious, she loves her family and knows what she wants. No, she'd never do anything vile like killing people and blowing up the sept and no, she would never do anything with her brother, so you don't have to worry about that :P


Pairing: MxF
Themes: Forbidden romance (optional), interracial and intercultural romance (optional), complicated relationships, MC can already be in a relationship/engaged/married for dramatic purposes
Genre: Medieval drama and romance, medium fantasy
Original plot idea and character interest: Original idea is that YC is older a few years than Evangelia (MC) and that a little before she was of age, she met your character who was at the time a guard in the Kindom or Argos (the largest Kingdom in the world).. She instantly fell in love when she met him, once her older brother greeted YC, since they know one another, and couldn't stop thinking about him. She was very shy and reserved at the time, but worked on her confidence throughout the months before she had to travel with her family and she truly never wanted to leave. She has turned of age, returned to Argos and searched for YC, but she never saw him again.

YC can go as you like from here. He can be of an entirely different culture and race, which includes fantasy races if you prefer. During his time away from Argos he went his own way, perhaps he got a promotion, perhaps he's a King's guard, maybe family matters made him leave everything behind, or maybe discovering something about his secret lineage. That is entirely up to you. But one day, he returns to Argos and the two meet by chance. It'll be a hard thing for Eva to grasp now to see him again, after years of his absence and now that she's a changed woman. All those pure emotions overwhelming her, but knowing that she's not that child anymore, she found it so hard to accept it. It would even make things better if he's involved with the military and there's some political tension which can turn into war at any time and make this even more dramatic. Other than that, if you're interested, let's talk about it!

About me:

- Responsive, AT LEAST three posts a week if I'm very busy
- OOC talkative, love planning, I have been told I'm really fun with ideas and plotting, I'm aware of my mischief. I seek someone out who would throw their opinion and ideas out. If you don't help out I'M DROPPING THE RP
- Multi-para and enthusiastic writer who's in love with the details. I work HARD on my roleplays and characters
- Adult content and tasteful romance with drama is ALWAYS welcome and desired. I have an F-list. Warning, I'm pretty much into taboo stuff, even though it's nothing too crazy, but then again, not everyone's cup of tea.
- With that said, I LOVE erotic content. To me, that is a pretty bow on the package that is the relationship between two characters. If you're not comfortable with doing erotic content, I won't be interested. And if you do, the more detailed and experimental you are, the more fun we'll have!
- I am helpful, patient and understanding. All I ask for is for at least one post a week.

What I need from you:

- If you're interested, I ask you not to reply here, but to send me a private message. I want you to tell me about yourself. (ie. About you as a roleplayer, the ideas I mentioned that you liked and did not like, your own ideas and suggestions, your preferences, your limits etc.) I will be judging you from how you introduce yourself. You certainly don't have to send me a formal letter, all that I ask is that you put a little effort in telling me about yourself and your ideas/character. I would do the same to entice my potential partner, but also so we can have a better understanding of one another!
- Have existing characters that may fit this theme? Please let me know about it!
- I need two paragraphs once a week at the very least, more will always be desired.
- Please be relaxed and kind, most importantly, have fun! <3


I do have a character sheet for MC that is made for the plot, which I would love if you could read it since I put a lot of time and effort to it, plus made it aesthetically pleasing as much as I could ( roleplayerguild.com/topics/177746-bou… ), though I know some people may not like to read so much, here's a short version about her:
- Eva is very posh, demanding, ambitious and hard-working woman who hold the interest of her family as her priority. She comes of as very friendly, well-spoken and warm woman to whom you can turn to anytime, but she is manipulative and does not entirely care about other people. She cares about her position, her growth and the growth of her family name.
- She has an older brother and a younger sister, and a father. The Ridoran family are known for the best cotton that come specifically from the southern regions of the world (Khalad - the tropical and desert island where this generation grew up in, despite the Ridorans originally coming from Argos) it's their trading business that brought them a spot among the Noble Families in Argos (the biggest success they have ever achieved) so Evangelia's ruthless business view at the things is there for a reason. One must fight to keep this position, because there is competition and you can easily be replaced. Eva has worked with plants when she was younger, but she is currently working with trades, whether she's selling it for coin or trading for other things that may be of worth. Despite being incredibly demanding and picky, Eva knows quality where she sees one and she only wants the very best.
- Evangelia is a maneater, plain and simple. She has been with man that she hand-picked for her own interest, mostly because of their positions or possibilities they can offer to their business, but she never got over her very first love. She never was with YC, but he made such an impression that she compares everyone to him to this day. But, there's always this possibility that her father may end up marrying her off to a nobleman and it frightens her to her core.
- She loves her two wild cat pets more than anyone in the world. She also loves to read and drink wine. Lots of wine. She loves wine to the point where she actually considers making her own in the future.

And here is her faceclaim!

Evangelia Ridoran




Warm sunrise in her hair and her hands cold as gold.



Name: Evangelia (Eva) Ridoran
Gender: Female
Age: 22
Orientation: Heterosexual
Race: Human
Class: High



About the Ridorans: Ridoran is a family that comes from the tropical city Khalad. Their business was thriving, because not only are they people from an entirely different continent, but despite cruel sandstorms in the island, they managed to grow quality cotton and expand their trades. Their business brought them a fortune and the previous generation of the Ridorans got them a spot among the Noble Families in the largest Kingdom of Argos.

Currently the Ridoran family consists of four people: Hemmet Ridoran, the Head and the father of three children. He has grown up in the field of cotton and other plantlife and still proceeds to spend his free time there. He is very humble at home, but once you'd come to meet the man, he comes off as very strict and cold.

Nicholas Ridoran is the oldest child of the three and he's known to be the muscle of the family. Not the sharpest tool in the box, he has no skill with the plants or making any sort of business, but his friendly and open-minded nature offered him a chance to meet plenty of people, therefore allowed the more responsible members of his family to work with trades while he gets on everyone's good side.

Eva is the second oldest child, works in the field in her free time, but it was as if she was made to be a noblewoman who is ruthlessly making coin through trades.

Coraline is the youngest child and is three years younger than Evangelia. Perhaps the smartest of her siblings, she works well behind the scenes, but she shows no interest in dealing with the society of Argos or it's people. She buries herself in her books and is generally very shy.


Reputation: Eva has met many people in both Khalad and Argos, even more in the second location, given that it is where most of her family business bloomed. While favored mostly by men, Eva is known as very charming, communicative, well-spoken and very confident woman. She makes sure that it's she who ends the conversation, be it by words or something she does, it's also known as a bad trait. Her confidence is is also seen as her being very demanding and self-centered, sometimes even mean. She doesn't really care about concealing her stubborn nature, especially when it comes to the business that is now up to the children of the Ridoran to keep it thriving and she is worried less about those who cannot handle her ambition and focuses on those who think similarly.

Relationship status: Very single, but rarely alone
Likes: Well-spoken and hard-working people, her two large wild cats, her family, good wine, the smell and feel of fertile soil and the smell of the yard after a heavy rain during spring
Dislikes: "Good" and kind women, lazy men (lazy people in general, but despises men who don't do anything of use), winter and snow, and she sees cheating as the worst of deeds a person can do

Hair: Blonde (golden), wavy and waist-length
Eyes: Emerald green
Height: 5'8''
Body type: Hourglass, average weight



Style: Wears dresses of light fabrics of any color she feels like that day specifically, but mostly it would be jewelry she'd pay most of her mind to. Evangelia loves jewelry mostly that have the color of gold and gems on it. She loves things that are not easily accessible and high quality. If she can tell that something is worth having, she will never ask for a price.
Her hair is styled almost every morning with complex braids, usually decorated with various hair pieces. But there are times when she would leave her loose braid rest over her shoulder and wear less jewelry. She's found that men find her much more appealing in such "loosened" state. She seems less "frightening".
Eva strongly believes in the phrase "Your body is your temple", so she takes care of herself, worships herself during long baths with oils beneficial to her skin and self-care is a high priority to the golden haired woman. This also means that she rarely leaves her house without putting make up on. Hardly a surprise, hm?


Hobbies: Spends time with her two precious wild cats (trains or just leisurely drinks wine and reads with them close to her), visits markets often and rarely is she alone without a company of a man and drinks wine (a lot)
Mannerisms: When she speaks, she doesn't speak with her voice, but her body. She's elegant and gracious with her gestures. Even the tone of her voice will fit whatever impression she wants to make, her every move is calculated. But it definitely is not a good sign is she falls silent and stares at someone with a raised left eyebrow. The more she's still in the crowd, that means that she's less relaxed.





Who is the bright maiden?


Evangelia Ridoran is the second child of the family and her reputation has changed in the course of years. Once, she was known as a shy and very reserved girl, much like her younger sister Coraline nowadays, who loved to spend time in the fields and work with the crops and flowers, now she is a social natural disaster. By that, it's actually meant that Eva has an appearance that demands attention (and perhaps some sort of respect, depending how she affects some people), and her charisma does not take that aura away from her. In the eyes of the many, she is well-spoken, enticing and can actually seem as a pleasant person, someone you can trust. However, while that doesn't have to be always the case, Eva is manipulative and seeks her own interest, and even more importantly, she seeks the interest of her family. She is selfish, yes, but she cares about her family greatly. As the matter of fact, the members of her family are the only people she cares about.

Evangelia is aware that there is competition all around her, especially in Argos, given the other Noble Families with successful businesses and reputation, she takes this as a challenge. When it comes to her relationships with these people, it is a very complicated puzzle. She holds respect for some of the, and she will show it, but there are some members of these families she absolutely cannot stand. Truth be told, Eva has a strong distaste towards women and girls who come out as gentle, kind and pure. To her personally, those women lack character and strength, and in her mind, those women cannot be trusted, because in a world like this, such traits are not genuine. But when it comes to men, she hates those who think with the wrong head. She thinks of them as weak-minded and easily manipulated, replaceable/expendable and that they're good for only one thing (though that is arguable, as well). Men who go from woman to woman to kill time is something that rubs Eva the wrong way and spitefully drags them into a situation where they would worship her, only so she would leave without a word after tiring them to the point of passing out. Even better if she gets to act as if she doesn't know them the next time they meet, only to make a fool out of themselves in the public. Of course, she would only do this to the select few where there is no evidence that they actually met and cannot prove to anyone else that it is true, since she is well-aware that this can affect her reputation.


Long story short - Eva does not like people. She hates them generally, but respects individually.

You may catch Evangelia staring at someone in what only can be said a very frightening way. What is usually dismissed as a "bad day", it's usually when she cannot stand anyone. Should she be picked on or someone presses the wrong buttons, there's no guarantee that she will not try to verbally devour the person. There's so much hidden rage inside this woman, some sort of unknown hatred towards people, that is an absolute opposite to what she shows Even if she cares about the people from her family, no one in the world knows what is happening inside this woman's head. Ask anyone either in Khalad or Argos about her and you will hear the same things over and over. There are rumors circulating, some whispers and false tales that are not possible to be confirmed, all are contradicting one another, but no one knows this ironically well-known woman.

She will come home after dealing with people for the entirety of the day, close herself in the room, all by herself and get drunk on wine while she broods. She loves her family, but she feels completely and utterly alone. Nobody is good enough for her. And that is what kills her. And unfortunately, she doesn't give a chance to anyone to prove themselves to her, so she would finally understand that she was wrong. All her thoughts never left that cage that is her skull. All that void filled with finery and endless ambition, yet she is once again alone in her room, drink in her hand, quietly staring outside.



First comes a blessing of all that you've dreamed
But then comes the curses of diamonds and rings
Only at first did it have its appeal
But now you can't tell the false from the real




Business = status


It is no secret how seriously Eva takes her role as the member of one of the Noble Families and she wants to make sure that everyone is aware that they saw nothing yet. The golden haired woman is certain that one day she will be the Head of the Ridoran family. In her mind, it's in their best interest - she puts them first, she cares about the quality of what they have to offer, strictly follows the rules of reputation in Argos and is ready to do whatever is necessary to keep their family at the very peak. Eva after all is responsible for doing the trading and contacting the customers and clients, all the while her brother Nicholas knows many people and can be of great help in that field of her work. She always offers the best to the interested clients and customers, but she will not take any deals she doesn't see any benefit for her business. That is already a strong point: well-spoken, warm and friendly, and only has the success of her family in mind. But, she does have her own selfish reasons to be the head of the family, after all. While those reasons never left that pretty head and seem endless miles away from the possibility, Evangelia swore to make it happen.

Business with growing cotton has been going well, Eva who has expensive taste and know what good quality is, wants to spread her influence a bit more. While certainly she wouldn't be the only one with this idea and obviously this business is already running in the world, but Evangelia wants to make her own wine. She wants to make the best and most expensive wine in the world. She is already in her free time collecting some fruits if she runs into a merchants that are selling them and is running her own research about wine brewing and growing of the richly flavored grapes. If Eva wants to succeed and make special and quality wine, she needs to find a way to make it more special. Of course, that's just a goal, but whatever plan she made in her head, she's going to make it happen, no matter the struggle or cost.




From porcelain to ivory


When she reached 11th year, Eva has been introduced to the business that their family was running and she was a quick learner. While Coraline at that age was more excitable to jump to conclusions and suggestions, Eva before her would quietly sit, listen, watch and observe. She was like a sponge that absorbed everything that was thrown her way, it was only as she was growing older that Evangelia began to understand some things by herself about the agriculture and done some growing of her own. She loved flowers and would try to grow some for herself before learning how to grow cotton properly. At that age, nature fascinated her, especially when she learned all the benefits that it gives to the people and how life would be impossible and unbalanced without it. While she secretly hates the people, she does love the flora and fauna and holds massive respect for the nature. However, to her unluck, Eva's strength lies in communication. She has, what one may call, a "green thumb", but it's overshadowed by her natural social skills that drains her energy. Evangelia became aware of this talent once she was finally considered mature by the society and grew much bolder. And bolder she grew for one reason only - to get something her innocent and naive heart desired... And that one thing she so genuinely wanted was never meant to be hers.


While the fair lady of the Ridoran family is rumored to be quite ruthless when it comes to romantic relationships, that she has men wrapped around every finger on both of her hands, nobody knows that this untouchable woman was once a romantic soul that innocently fell in love, less than a year before her legal maturity. It was love at first sight, something she knew was not supposed to happen. It was before her first trading lessons, so she was still coming out as a shy person who wouldn't speak much to anyone, even less to the strangers.

She was walking through the streets of the Argos with her older brother, who was at the time familiar with the place and people. He greeted one of the citizens he knew who was a Argos guard. A man who also just recently came to the city, which is how Nicholas met him in the docks. To anyone, he was just another freshly mature and capable man who came to the city of Argos to make a living, but to Eva, he was something else. He might not look noble at all, perhaps exotic to a naive girl like her, but he was a beautiful man. When he politely introduced himself to her and smiled, Evangelia got lost in that moment and she was quiet before saying her name, completely lost in a natural charm. He was not like the people from either Argos or Khalad who were taught how to act, but this man was naturally gracious. And gods, he was beautiful! It took the golden-haired girl a few seconds before she introduced herself. The worst part was, she cannot remember his name. She got lost in that situation so much that she couldn't hear anything around her or see anything but him and lost in the depth of his melodic voice. Nights would pass after that very first meeting and the poor girl could not sleep. She would read through the romance books, imagining herself and the guard in those fantastical and touching situations. Just the mere thought would have the gentle maiden innocently blush!

She would see him in the city occasionally and he would politely approach to greet her and share a moment for a small talk out of courtesy, since he knows her brother and because of her family name. She knew he was a bit older than her, she knew the differences between their positions, but everything in Eva made her want him. She would secretly draw them together on paper, just waiting to be mature and grow bolder. She would spend some time in front of the mirror, talking to her reflection, imagining that it was him, reading dialogues from the books and making gestures as she would recite heart-felt confessions. It was so innocent and naive, so wishful. But at one point they did return to Khalad around the time when it was her birthday and once they returned to Argos, she would purposefully walk outside more during her free time in hopes to run into him. To her unluck, she never saw him again. To say that Eva was devastated was an understatement. All that yearning for the time when she could be old enough to have more than just small talk about the weather, state of the trades and the city and such with him and get to know him was crushed. She never asked her brother who that guard was. She still to this day doesn't know his name. And no one knows about this heartbreak that Eva experienced. To her, it felt like weakness, a foolishness, something that part of her hates. She blames herself for being so idealistic and childish. She blamed herself for the purest emotion she has felt so far in her entire life.

To this day, she has never felt for a person the way she has for him. Despite that being naivety, what she felt was real and someone who got to have everything and be rewarded after the struggles her family went through, to Eva this was a hit she never recovered from. Every man she has met was compared to him, even though she never knew him. No one was good enough, no one was him. Perhaps this was a good thing for Eva, since it made her work so stubbornly for everything so she would get what she wants as soon as possible. She follows her intuition and grows her roots in her own direction and uses her talents to achieve potential great things. Yet she still would dream about him. She would look out the window and hope to see him in the crowd. She hopes, even though it's very unlikely that she's going to get the only thing that her heart desires and not her gnawing greed.





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