Interaction(s): NonePreviously: Don't Threaten Me With A Good Time
Exhaustion plagued Lorcán as he made his way across campus. A hood hiding his face as he travelled to the beach and put his board out into the water. He needed to think, everything had felt so real, so intense but when his head had cleared Lorcán didn’t find any marks on his skin, no signs anyone else had been in his room.
The hoodie smelled of roses and peonies, the floral signature of Aurora. Lorcán had picked it up from his parents house while he had been there. Originally assuming it was his, it wasn't until he put the hoodie on did he realize that it was the one Aurora had borrowed during the Trials.
As far as Lorcán was concerned, it was her hoodie but he was happy to have a piece of her with him today. Much happier than he had been to run into Haven this morning. He genuinely was happy for the pair, perhaps even envious that he couldn’t seem to find the words or the timing to have a similar situation.
Now, he felt as though his mind was poisoned and the only thing he wanted to do was run away from it all.
Floating on the Pacific had always been his favourite way to think through his problems. His feet dangled into the cold water as Lorcán sat straddling his board, riding the waves as they bounced him up and down, lulling the exhausted man into a meditative state.
His head suddenly dropped forward.
A pair of tattooed arms suddenly emerged from the water, coming to rest on the edge of Lorcán’s board. He sleepily turned his head to the side, met by bright blue eyes outlined in a heavy cat eye makeup. To no surprise of Lorcán’s, the siren seemed to have forgotten her swimsuit.
“Amma?” Lorcán looked down at the woman with surprise, “Brah, why are you here?”
“Because you want me to be,” Amma replied, batting her long eyelashes towards Lorcán. “You should come in, I’m getting cold and I could use someone to warm me up.”
“You’re not real,”
“I know you want to,” She insisted, raising a hand to beckon him with a single finger.
“No, the only one I want is Aurora,” Lorcán protested, “We totally both know that, but you like did something to me. You’ve twisted my mind somehow,”
“You don’t mean that, that’s just what everybody else wants you to say. You tattooed your arm to impress me, don’t lie and say you don’t want me.” The raven-haired siren purred, batting her eyelashes again. “I want you, Lorcán, and I had a lot of fun last night.”
She began to climb onto the surfboard. Her wet hair perfectly spilled down her back as she tossed her head back, ensuring she gave Lorcán a view of everything before positioning herself on all fours. She slowly crawled towards him, the vixen ready to pounce.
“I bet there’s more than enough room for both of us up here.” Amma whined playfully, “I saved your life, Lorcán, the least you can do is give in to your succubus.”
She stretched towards him, her lips hovering above his, Lorcán tilted his head forward as Amma moved to meet him before Lorcán suddenly pulled away.
“No, this can't keep happening” He protested, “I don’t just like Aurora, love her. I can’t keep hurting her like this.” The lion found its voice before it roared in return, “I need you to get out of my head, like now.”
“Sorry, Lover,” Amma withdrew coyly, “I’m part of you now, and I’ll get what I want.” Those pouty lips curled into a cruel sneer.
“If not now, then inevitably.”
“Get away from me!” Lorcán thundered, moving to push Amma off the board.
Red and silver tendrils crackled from the corner of his eyes, flickering in colour as they pulsed orange and blue before snapping back to their previous hues.
Hands moved through the empty air and the cold water washed over Lorcán as his hoodie became soaked and threatened to drag him down into the depths of the drop just beyond the campus beach.
The shock hindered Lorcán’s usual abilities as he flailed about underwater trying to free himself from the baggy garment. His chest began to burn, his oxygen supply rapidly depleting from the panic.
Scrambling free of the hoodie, Lorcán swam for the surface, bursting through the waves while gasping for breath. Looking for his board, Lorcán froze, his eyes dating back to the depths below. Taking a deep breath, he dove back under the water, popping his eyes open before diving after the sinking sweater.
He couldn't lose it.
He couldn't lose Aurora.
His legs kicked harder as his hand reached forward, fingers wrapping around the heavy fabric before immediately pulling upwards and shooting from the surface again. Lorcán chased the bright light of the sun before bursting forth from the frigid deep and swimming hard towards his board.
It was time to stop running from his problems.
__________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________A knock of the frame of her door alerted Dr. Miranda Rivers to the presence of the long haired young man who was currently dripping on her welcome mat.
“To what do I owe the honour of the young Mr. Roth at my door?” Miranda asked as Lorcán entered the office, “Your parents speak very highly of you.” She stated, smiling softly at the young man.
“I heard you have had quite the week and a miraculous recovery to boot. How are you feeling with all of that?”
Lorcán hesitated for a moment, the shadows in his brain shrouding his mind as he thought back through the last couple of weeks. His trip to the woods, his fight with Rory. The sabotaged trials, facing off against Raze and the haunting visage staring back at him every day.
He winced as the scream of the horrific creature echoed in his ears, the pain searing through his arm. His soul fighting to leave his body, the slow death of his every cell. He felt Amma inside him, wincing as the familiar tendrils traversed his body, darkly lined eyes staring back at him promoting Lorcán to close his eyes.
He tried to picture Aurora, her smile, her eyes but every time he did, a cold, shrill laugh reverberated through his skull and Aurora was dragged away before a swarm of moths and beetles gave way to the form of Amma.
A scream of agony filled his mind and suddenly Lorcán was a helpless child again, watching an older boy writhe about in utter despair while his flesh and muscles were melted away by the flames attempting to consume him. He winced again before swallowing the hard lump in his throat. Pushing the images aside, Lorcán finally opened his mouth, pausing once more before answering Miranda.
“I think,” His throat croaked, “I think, I like, came back wrong, Dr. Rivers,” Lorcán replied, “I keep seeing people that aren’t there and feeling things that aren’t right.”
“Shut the door, Lorcán, take a seat and let's talk,” Miranda stated, standing from her desk to pull a chair out for the young man.
“Who are you seeing and what makes you say they aren’t right?” She asked, taking a seat directly adjacent to Lorcán.
“I don’t want to see her, the guilt that comes with seeing her makes me want to throw up. I can't eat, and I can't sleep without feeling her inside me, just waiting for my mind to give in to her.”
“Lorcán, I want you to look at me and take a deep breath.” Miranda requested, her calming tone bringing some ease to Lorcán who did as he was instructed.
“If talking is too difficult, there is another way,” She suggested, Lorcán understood immediately what the telepath meant. He briefly contemplated it, moving to shake his head before hesitating. Words wouldn’t form in his mouth, his throat felt rigid and unable to move. His heart began to beat rapidly instead of his chest before Lorcán started forcing himself to take a deep breath. His right thumb moved to his thigh as he tried to slap a beat against it to calm him.
Miranda immediately recognized the coping method; she had seen it in the boy in previous sessions, though they hadn’t had an official session since before his sixteenth birthday. Still, the familiar ‘air-bass’ playing was a sure sign that Lorcán was suffering from anxiety.
“Lorcán,” Miranda asked softly, “May I help you?”
He managed to nod his consent as Miranda reached forth, feeling the turmoil of his mind. Digging through the memories, she brought forth one that elicited calm and Lorcán immediately heard Aurora’s voice again.
“Lorcán,”
A hand touched his shoulder bringing an overwhelming sense of peace over Lorcán before she suddenly recoiled at the temperature of his skin. He quickly turned to Aurora, grabbing her hand, Lorcán gave it a gentle squeeze before turning it over and inspecting for burns.
“Dude, I’m sorry, I just wanted to tell you everything-”
“Hey, hey, breathe, talk to me.”
“I keep trying but the words won’t come out,” Lorcán stated aloud as Miranda gently nodded.
“There you are, welcome back, Lorcán.” Miranda smiled, but her eyes didn’t smile with the rest of her face. While inside Lorcán’s mind, she felt the touch of not one.
But two.