The woman’s mouth opened slightly, as if she were going to interrupt Luke’s words, but lips promptly pressed together and let him speak. Truthfully, Charlie didn’t know the man in front of her anymore. God only knew what he had seen, and what he’d been exposed to. She’d tried desperately to forget the moments between them that had sowed so much doubt into Sam’s mind. She’d tried to make herself scarce when her husband had finally reached the overseas soldier, and she’d damn sure tried to keep questions or conversations with Sam about Luke to a minimum.
She wanted to ask about the details of whatever event had caused him to need help, but she managed to just listen. Luke had never struck her as the type to want or ask for assistance; she could only imagine the injury he would have needed to sustain to accept a stint in rehab. Charlie shifted in her chair, finishing the lukewarm coffee she’d had in her mug. “Luke, I—“
I can’t sit. Her eyes watched balefully as he pulled open every door in the kitchen he could find. While they’d had an ample amount of cabinet space, the shelves were the barest they had ever been. With no family or friends here, there was no one to bother her about eating. Many of the dishes her neighbors had made spoiled in the refrigerator or immediately were placed in compost for the pigs. How could she be hungry when Sam had been robbed of that sensation forever?
Charlie looked down at her fingers, studying the reddened cuticles and bitten nails while Luke continued to rummage. At least he’d taken the hint and moved the conversation away from selling the farm. In truth, she’d had some interest but people remained mindful that she’d just suffered a loss. She wasn’t sure how long she would be afforded that luxury and tended to agree with Luke: once people realized he was there, they would apply pressure as they always had.
Perhaps more.
“Dinner sounds good,” Charlie replied, ignoring the bile that rose at the mere thought of an actual meal. “Not that I have much here anyway.” Again she bit her tongue, wanting to immediately inquire as to the errands Luke had already managed to stack up during his short stay here.
I said I wanted to be here, and you’re not going to change my mind.
“I just have to clean up. I was trying to get the barn…” Her words trailed into silence, one hand drifting to lay on Jake’s head. There weren’t many integral parts of farming that Charlie was capable of doing, therefore she’d tried to make herself useful in any way she could. They were menial tasks, even though Sam would take offense when she called them such, but tidying the barn had been her job. Now, she couldn’t even do that.
She placed the mug in the sink before throwing a look over her shoulder. While Sam and Luke had never looked that much alike, it was more difficult to tell them apart if they didn't face her. Her eyes softened, taking in the moment and imagining that it was Sam standing there. At one point, she had envisioned Luke in Sam’s place, but now it seemed the opposite. Times had certainly changed. “We never got around to doing too much more to the house, so don’t think you need a tour.”
As she passed him, Charlie allowed herself to touch Luke’s arm. “Thank you.”
It wasn’t much later that Charlie made her way back downstairs. She’d managed to put on some concealer to hide the dark circles under her eyes, for the last thing she needed was people talking about how shitty she looked, particularly while she walked around with her dead husband's brother. Otherwise she still looked a mess, opting for jeans and a gray sweatshirt with ‘Glacier National’ across it.
Jake moved back and worth at the top of the stairs and whined, as if he couldn’t decide whether to join Charlie or if he could deign to leave Luke. Charlie tutted, shaking her head slightly as she moved back into the kitchen. She couldn’t stand looking at that recliner.
She wanted to ask about the details of whatever event had caused him to need help, but she managed to just listen. Luke had never struck her as the type to want or ask for assistance; she could only imagine the injury he would have needed to sustain to accept a stint in rehab. Charlie shifted in her chair, finishing the lukewarm coffee she’d had in her mug. “Luke, I—“
I can’t sit. Her eyes watched balefully as he pulled open every door in the kitchen he could find. While they’d had an ample amount of cabinet space, the shelves were the barest they had ever been. With no family or friends here, there was no one to bother her about eating. Many of the dishes her neighbors had made spoiled in the refrigerator or immediately were placed in compost for the pigs. How could she be hungry when Sam had been robbed of that sensation forever?
Charlie looked down at her fingers, studying the reddened cuticles and bitten nails while Luke continued to rummage. At least he’d taken the hint and moved the conversation away from selling the farm. In truth, she’d had some interest but people remained mindful that she’d just suffered a loss. She wasn’t sure how long she would be afforded that luxury and tended to agree with Luke: once people realized he was there, they would apply pressure as they always had.
Perhaps more.
“Dinner sounds good,” Charlie replied, ignoring the bile that rose at the mere thought of an actual meal. “Not that I have much here anyway.” Again she bit her tongue, wanting to immediately inquire as to the errands Luke had already managed to stack up during his short stay here.
I said I wanted to be here, and you’re not going to change my mind.
“I just have to clean up. I was trying to get the barn…” Her words trailed into silence, one hand drifting to lay on Jake’s head. There weren’t many integral parts of farming that Charlie was capable of doing, therefore she’d tried to make herself useful in any way she could. They were menial tasks, even though Sam would take offense when she called them such, but tidying the barn had been her job. Now, she couldn’t even do that.
She placed the mug in the sink before throwing a look over her shoulder. While Sam and Luke had never looked that much alike, it was more difficult to tell them apart if they didn't face her. Her eyes softened, taking in the moment and imagining that it was Sam standing there. At one point, she had envisioned Luke in Sam’s place, but now it seemed the opposite. Times had certainly changed. “We never got around to doing too much more to the house, so don’t think you need a tour.”
As she passed him, Charlie allowed herself to touch Luke’s arm. “Thank you.”
It wasn’t much later that Charlie made her way back downstairs. She’d managed to put on some concealer to hide the dark circles under her eyes, for the last thing she needed was people talking about how shitty she looked, particularly while she walked around with her dead husband's brother. Otherwise she still looked a mess, opting for jeans and a gray sweatshirt with ‘Glacier National’ across it.
Jake moved back and worth at the top of the stairs and whined, as if he couldn’t decide whether to join Charlie or if he could deign to leave Luke. Charlie tutted, shaking her head slightly as she moved back into the kitchen. She couldn’t stand looking at that recliner.