it's not writer's block so much as the fact that i feel really freaking depressed. it's been... i don't know how long. but nothing seems to matter anymore.

@Mistress Dizzy
Well, I certainly feel like an idiot for not reading deeper into what you said in your previous comment. Sorry for my late reply, the holidays got...hectic, to say the least. Trust me on this though Diz, what you're feeling now is temporary. All pain is temporary, be it physical, spiritual, or mental. The sense of nihilism you're currently feeling at the moment can be brushed aside by finding something that can fill that void you're currently experiencing, be it work, a hobby, anything really. Remember that you're also not going this alone; you've got your significant other and you've got friends and family. They may be a bit overbearing or blunt in how they choose to help you, but those that are trying to help you ARE trying to help you. As always, i'm here if you need to talk, even if I may not be able to respond as quickly as i'd like to.

its ok. I've spent years hiding it from people, I don't expect anyone to get it outright. It's my nature.

I'm sorry. I do like this RP, I do. I'm sorry I keep dragging it into the dust..

Don't you worry about the RP, you're not dragging a single thing into the dust I assure you. I've waited before, and I can do it again, for now I'm much more concerned with making sure you're alright rather than how far the story we're weaving IC progresses.

got to my therapist earlier this week because of a stroke of luck. Told her what was going on. She says that my meds are definitely off. Unfortunately, the psychiatrist I was seeing up and left the facility, and it may be weeks before I get an appointment with another. That and I'm out of meds. If you don't know anything about antidepressants and such, you can't just stop taking them suddenly. They have withdrawal effects and they are nasty as hell. So! Because this woman just decided to leave, I'm in a real tricky place.

Luckily they're working with me and everyone else to try to pick up this bitch's slack. *Sigh*

Hey.

Sorry to leave you foor so long. I think (I hope) I'll be on the upswing soon.

im not dead. but march was really fucking bad.

@Mistress Dizzy Don't stress it Diz, March was a bit of a sore situation for me as well. Who'd of thought that March madness could take on an entirely new meaning, eh? Anyway, don't worry, i've waited this long, I can wait longer so long as you can continue to sort out IRL issues.

Stuff has happened!

-Got a new job at a bookstore! I am happy~

-Got a new car! Traded in the one I had, which was 'better' in a luxury sense, but far too expensive and pissed me off for personal reasons. This one is ALLMINE! I kinda want to name it.

-FINALLY got my own place with my fiance! We don't wear pants, life is good.

I finally feel like... like my life is starting to pull together a bit. I feel calmer than I have in a very long time. Thank you for sticking with me through it. I really do appreciate it.

That's great to hear Diz! I'm really glad everything's coming together for you! Little bit of advice with the car naming: Always give it a female name, or at least a feminine one.

Aww, I wanted a boy car...

It's a white Camry... what should I name it?

Pfft. That was unexpected. Even Kassy will probably be like "...what the heck is that"

There were a few ways I thought about doing it, but the rhino calf just seemed to be the right amount of distracting and amusing. Can't have the lifeguard's adventures to a nonstop festival of gritty danger and (mostly Pulse induced) explosions, can we?

Nope. Baby rhino seems to fit the bill. So, just so I'm clear (I will probably finish posting tomorrow) The big guy is on his way to "Reese" currently, while the other two are chasing the rhino?

The big guy is helping Viola, Kassy's stuck with Manny who's arguably the worst of the bunch.

This is going to be a short post. I apologize.

S'all good.

Hey! I've kinda been working on how Kassy's illusions function. If you want to know the details, let me know. I try to keep her power something that can't be easily abused or overpowered. I also try to leave the player as much control over their character as possible.

For example, someone who's studied mind control and how to resist it, or has similar mental powers themselves is going to be MUCH harder to fool. On the contrary, someone who doesn't have any experience, or is just kinda... shallow, probably will be easy pickings.

There's also things like someone being able to notice something wrong with the illusion itself. Kassy's pretending to be Reece, but a couple details probably aren't going to fit if the others know him well enough. Like... Kassy didn't know his eye color at all, so she just went with brown because she knows that's common for humans. She's got the goggles down to attempt to cover it.

Now, if someone else knows that Reece's eyes are actually a lovely blue, and they see that this "Reece" is not, then things get weird. The illusion will start to look more and more unreal to them specifically, and once they break it, it's hard for Kassy to fool the same person the same way.

*shrug* I'm trying to make mind control something that isn't an immediate godmodding trip. I think it can have plenty of leeway to be just another ability, but even I have to temper it. I mean, Kassy could break Manny's brain and make him think he's a little girl, but it will NOT be easy - or even permanent.

Hey!

Do you happen to have any pictures of Dimitri?