“Carry me? I’m not your daughter, Kim.”
No. No she definitely was not his daughter. Had she been, Kimberly’s doting parent skill would have activated and he would have carried Olivia the entire way. Even before that, Kimberly would not have allowed his daughter to join a military force of any kind. He’d have a full-scale tantrum at the mere mention of it. He would cry, whine, flail his arms around, and stomp his feet to the ground. It would not be pretty, but he wouldn’t care. He would do the most pathetic things if it meant he could keep Samuela out of harm’s way. He wouldn’t ---couldn’t--- risk loosing her too.
Olivia continued, “save your strength for whatever horrible things we’re going to encounter… over there, if there’s anything left at all.”
He nodded silently. Olivia was a full-grown woman and a soldier: she knew her body more than anyone else. It might have been rude to even make the offer.
“I got to hand it to you, Kim.” Kimberly heard his roommate say, “you sly dog.” He was sure whatever his hallucination was going to say next wouldn’t be good. “Why don’t you just grab Vi’s ass instead of doing it the round about way, huh? I’m sure she’d love a direct man.”
Kimberly sighed deeply and for the first time since that morning, actually turned to look directly as his imaginary acquaintance’s face. Kimberly glared at the tall black haired, dark eyed, man ---Ghost--- in casual wear. The man looked surprised that Kimberly had stopped ignoring him, for a moment, then smiled in a mischievous, Roy-ish kind of way. Really?
“What? As in, Vi loves it when men grabs her ass?... Uh… Sure! Yeah! Totally. Go for it! Let’s make Ron jealous!”
You know that’s not what I mean.
“Really? With the s**t that goes on in your head, I wouldn’t be surprised.”
That s**t is you.
“Okay fine. Yeah, I’m the one who wants to grab Vi’s ass. Have you seen it? Oh, what am I saying, of course you have! You see everyone’s ass when you’re pretending to guard them from behind.”
I---…
“Shhh!” Ghost placed his fingers over Kimberly’s lips, “let me dream.” He stood next to Kimberly. He grabbed the farthest shoulder he could reach and extended his free hand out in front of them. He wiped the invisible window, bringing forth a miniature-sized image of the group, excluding Kimberly. “Imagine… recall… look back on it, Kim. Just… observe their asses…. Catch every detail. The shape, the size, how they move…” When Ghost caught Kimberly giving him a dirty look, he quickly forced Kimberly to look at the image again, “look at them damn it! This is a very serious matter! What do you see?”
Considering how you zoomed in the image onto their hindquarters, I will have to say I see their butts.
“Yes! Their glorious… beautiful buttocks. When you look at them… what do you feel? Preferably something that involves the nether regions.”
They make me feel like we are well trained? Everyone looks in shape. No one is walking weird… well, I was worried about Thael and Royce though. I think they might have overdone it last night. Oh… and then there was Fred at one point, but I think it passed. Man, now I feel like a jerk for singling out Olive. She’s a soldier and our leader and I go out and ask if she wants to be carried? Yeah, way to go Kimberly. That should show everyone how competent she is! Damn it! I hope I didn’t embarrass her… Holy s**t! Did I almost sexually harass Olive in front of Aaron!? Wow, I’m officially a jerk… And why are you crying about this?
Ghost sniffed as he made every attempt to hold his tears back, “I… just realized… I’m going to be sexually frustrated as long as you’re around…” He grabbed both of Kimberly’s shoulders, “why Kim!? What the f**k is wrong with you!?”
What’s wrong with me? What’s wrong with you!?
“What’s wrong with me? Are you really asking that question!?”
Uh… yes?
“Fine! I’ll tell you what’s wrong!” Ghost gestured Kimberly’s attention to the spirits hovering around them, “you see these guys? They’re called spirits. Most of them are animal spirits. You know. Animals? At one point in time they were alive. There might be some animals astral projecting, but I can’t tell the difference. It doesn’t matter. What matters is what they do. And what do living things do? They f**k each other. The males’ peni---…”
OKAY! Okay, I get it. I don’t need that lesson from you.
“The point is, these spirits know what sex is. Unlike humans, however, animals tend to do it in specific seasons. All the same species get into heat around the same time. Now that they’re dead, there’s no body to distinguish them. To them, their host’s allies are their own kind. So…” Ghost suddenly teleported in front of Aaron, “every time Ron drools over Vi.” He appeared next to Thael, then Royce, “every time these two love birds F**K OR EVEN TEASE EACH OTHER!” Finally he pointed accusingly at Fredrick, “AND EVERY TIME RICK GETS A HARD ON JUST THINKING ABOUT JARED.” By the time Ghost returned to his original position, he was yelling at Kimberly, “THESE SPIRITS START TO GET F**KING ROWDY, BECAUSE THEY THINK IT’S MATING SEASON. AND FOR SOME WEIRD ASS REASON, THEIR PSEUDO-HORNINESS COMPLETELY BYPASSES WHATEVER PART OF THE BRAIN IT IS THAT SENDS THE MESSAGE TO YOUR DICK. AND SINCE YOU WON’T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT, IT JUST GOES TO ME! I’M LEFT WITH A CROWD OF ANIMAL SPIRITS IN PSEUDO-HEAT WHILE YOU’RE COMPLETELY OBLIVIOUS TO IT ALL!” Ghost burst into tears and dropped down to his knees, “why Kim? WHY!?” He grabbed Kimberly’s hips and looked directly at his crotch, whispering to it, “why won’t you work?”
Kimberly shoved his roommate away. Please don’t talk to my crotch. The ghost simply collapsed to the ground, crying.
The sound of Fredrick’s voice brought Kimberly back to the real world. “F**k that noise, Kim. She’s just being a f**king bum. Come on, climb this tree with me. We can talk and bond as men or some bullshit like that. Make friendship bracelets out of flowers like a couple gay little hippies.”
Ghost’s head shot up, “yes! That’s cool! You know what hippies believe in? Free love. Hey, I’m not picky! You can totally do Rick!”
Kimberly frowned at Ghost as Fredrick dragged him to the tree.
While Kimberly struggled to climb the tree, he could hear Ghost complaining in the background. When Kimberly had the chance to glance over, he saw Ghost yelling at Aaron’s face, “kiss her, you fool! I can’t take any more of this! Just get it over with!” With how he yelled, Kimberly wondered if the hallucination owed part of its personality to Fredrick.
Right when the two situated themselves to a branch of their own, Fredrick’s snapped in half. Kimberly reached his hand towards his friend, but failed to grab him in time. He winced as he saw Fredrick land to the ground. Luckily the little man did not seriously injure himself and quickly returned to the tree: this time taking a seat in Kimberly’s lap.
“Hope this doesn’t make you uncomfortable. If it does, f**king deal with it. You’re shockingly comfortable despite all the armor and I need to talk to you.”
Kimberly shook his head, ignoring Ghost’s wolf whistle.
“Alright. So, I guess, hey, hi, how’s it going, Kim? Everything’s going good up there? You’ve been taking your meds and seeing your therapist?”
Kimberly smiled inwardly. Almost everyone in this group worried about everyone else. “Yes. Mom.”
“This isn't a fucking joke, okay man!… I get enough bullshit from the others, please tell me you’re not getting lazy about taking care of yourself! I swear by all that is holy, unholy and everything in between that if you aren’t taking care of yourself I will uproot this tree and use it to REALLY fucking bond you with nature!”
Ghost hovered passed the two and grinned at the thought, “Kinky.”
Kimberly was ready to roll his eyes, when Fredrick’s expression told him he had done something wrong. “What?"
“Huh…? What?”
“Holy hyperchrist Kim, you aren’t taking your meds aren’t you?”
“Yes… I… have been.”
“I call bullshit.”
“I have… They just… don’t work some times… The meds.”
“What?”
“I take them… but I can still see ‘him’… He won’t go away…”
Ghost crossed his arms together, “oh? So now it’s my fault that the meds don’t work?”
That’s not what I said.
“I can read between the lines.”
Well, if you are willing to take the blame, I won’t stop you.
“I’m...sorry. Shit man, I shouldn’t yell at you. You have enough on your mind, you don’t need me being the giant dicknarbler I am and spewing vocal shit from my throat at you.”
Kim smiled reassuring, at least tried to, but he was sure it looked horrific. He appreciated Fredrick’s concern and knew that he yelled at his friends, because he cared. “Worrywart…”
“Hell fucking yeah I'm a worry wart. You're my friend. Fucking forgive me if I occasionally show concern! Look, it's just, you've...been through a lot. I mean, for one…look, we...we really never talked about...about fucking Nancy, have we?”
Nancy.
A woman with latte colored braided hair works intently on a metallic contraption. She is so focused that she doesn’t notice anything else. She smudges oil on to her face. Only a firm tap on her shoulder pulls her away from her work. Her turquoise widen in surprise, then softens. Her smile disappears when she notices her reflection on the mirror presented to her. She blushes. She laughs as she tries to put some oil on him for laughing.
His wife.
“Do you have to go?”
“This is my chance to prove myself… If I do this… no one will remember me as the deserter’s daughter. They won’t think I’m a spy or a coward who will run at the slightest hint of danger.”
She smiles, “the fact that they even want me… is a huge improvement. I want to take it to the next step.”
“If this works out… maybe…” Samuela coos in her arms, “we can finally be together…”
“It’ll only be for a year.”
Was dead.
According to the reports, Nancy died during a xenomorph attack. One of them had managed to sneak into one of the most secured military facilities and only killed Nancy before disappearing into thin air. Nathaniel, Kimberly’s first cousin once removed, was the first to find her body. Despite what anyone said, Kimberly did not believe them: she couldn’t have died. When the body was finally presented to him, he did not cry. He did not even feel particularly sad. Instead, a void the size of a pinhole punched its way through his heart. Though he did not cry at the sight of his wife’s body, or with Nathaniel when he begged for forgiveness, or at Nancy’s funeral, it was the small and subtle things that made the pinhole void grow larger. Such as the extra toothbrush, her favorite mug, not having to buy the disgusting snack that only she loved, Nancy’s voice mail, her unfinished gadgets, and her empty room. All of it.
It took months for him to finally crack. When Kimberly went back home, Samuela started to cry for no particular reason. His daughter would not stop crying no matter what he did. She stopped crying the second Kimberly gave her something with her mother’s scent on it. Then it hit him: “They” took someone away from him again. His parents. Samuel. Now Nancy. The world always had to take someone away from Kimberly. And he could never prevent it from happening. Everyone he cared for was going to leave him behind. It was a miracle that he hadn’t lost his grandparents and friends yet.
“Sorry, I...I fucking know I’m being tactless right now. Look, it’s just...fuck, how do I say this? Sorry, sorry, you know me. I’m always shoving my foot through my own ass out my throat and into my mouth, and trust me when I say it tastes like shit. It’s just…Kim, I...we all remember losing Sam. The one that I’m five thousand percent sure you named your daughter after. Look...back then, I...I wasn’t so close to anyone. You remember. I was just that fucking angry asshole with the scars that made a few people cry by yelling at them too much. The one that was always shrieking to get his way and generally being terrible. So when Sam died, I...I felt alone. I felt like I had nothing left in the world and I made a mistake. A mistake that left just one more scar and that didn’t fix anything.””
A mistake.
Kimberly’s head began to hurt. Disjointed images flashed through his mind.
Red all over the place. It seeps through the dress. The blond hair. It keeps flowing out of the body. Can’t stop it. The screams, the destruction, the pain, the light: they all start to fade away into the distance. Someone calls someone’s name. That person comes closer---…
“Just...promise me you won’t do anything stupid, okay? If you’re hurting inside, talk to me. You’re my friend, my good friend. It’s my fucking job to be there for you, and nothing, I swear fucking nothing, is going to stop me from doing my god damned job.”
“What… what kind of…mistake…?” Kimberly didn’t realize he has asked the question out loud until Fredrick responded with, “a fucking bad one.”
The smaller man stared straight at the giant, “promise me.”
Kim hesitated before nodding slightly, “I promise.”
Satisfied with the answer, Fredrick changed the subject, “you know I wasn’t fucking lying when I said you were comfortable. I could seriously fucking nap right now. How in the name of shrieking Satan is all your armor comfortable?”
“I don’t know.”
“Of fucking course you freaking don’t.”
Kimberly’s ears caught something in the wind. Something that sounded like a pack of giant creatures running in the distance. A stampede? A stampede of what? There were barely any wild life left in world to form a stampede. If a group of animals traveled together out here, it was more likely that it was either humans or---…
Fredrick was saying something, but before he could finish whatever it was, Kimberly quickly grabbed him and jumped as fast as he could to the top of the tree. When he reached the top, he looked for the source of the sounds, but saw nothing. At least, not with his human eyes. A few attempts of scouting later, the spirits of eagles took over Kimberly’s eyes to let him see farther into the distance. It was these eagle’s eyes that got visual confirmation of their enemies. Without a moment to loose, Kimberly jumped down from the tree, hardly acknowledging Fredrick’s cries. Once he let his little friend down. He only said one word, “xenomorphs."
-----Before Battle 1-----
In the short time that Olivia verified his claims and gave out her orders, Kimberly prepared for battle by doing some quick stretches and last minute check up on his armor. He opened a specific compartment in his armor to check if his “offerings” where there. He simply closed it once he was sure he didn’t accidently leave it at the Academy. An embarrassing and possibly fatal mistake if it had been true.
The noise got louder. The enemies were close.
Kimberly quickly pulled all his hair back into a ponytail, revealing his not often seen face, only for it to be hidden under a helmet.
The spirits, completely forgotten what they had done to Ghost not too long ago, were in a different state of mind. The promise of battle excited the carnivores; the hunters; the predators inside of him. The other spirits, namely the hunter’s prey got nervous. Kimberly could feel them wanting to run, but he had little choice in the matter. He went into stance. Ready to sprint into action. As he could feel his senses being heightened with the assistance of the spirits, his ears became especially sensitive. He could hear virtually everything. His ears told him what his eyes could not see: his friends' hearts beat rapidly, each muscle stretch, and every joint in the body bend. These were sounds Kimberly needed to continue hearing. As for the ruckus the xenomorph raptor pack made.
Well… they needed to be silenced.
-----After Battle 1-----
When the battle ended, Kimberly found himself staring straight down at one of the xenomorphs at his feet. Their enemies were either dead or almost dead and the creature underneath his gaze had little time left in this world. Kimberly could see and hear the life slowly draining away from it. They had won. Their enemies were defeated. Yet the giant was suddenly overwhelmed with dread. A fear he was much too familiar with.
The color red decorates the scenery. Blood seeps through the dress, the blond hair, and pavement.
A feline bites into the neck of its victim.
It’s hard to breath. It’s hard to sense anything… all of it just fades.
The bones crush under the pressure of a giant snake.
They all struggle till the end. They all wail. They want to live. They didn’t want to die.
The blond hair is not bloody anymore: it spreads out on the bed in a dark room lit only by the moonlight.
She stares at him. The light leaves her eyes. The sound of her heart beating much too slowly. She continues to smile at him, as if to reassure him that there was nothing to be afraid of. This transition was only temporary. The pain, the sadness, everything bad, would end once they crossed that point of no return.
“We’re going to a happier place.”
Without much thought, Kimberly suddenly began beating on the dying xenomorph. He knew it was completely unnecessary. The thing was good as dead, but if it was going to die regardless, it felt cruel to prolong its suffering. He checked every xenomorph and any creature that still made a “sound” were promptly pommeled into complete silence.
Kimberly heard Ghost laugh and compliment Kimberly’s kindness, mockingly.
---- I’m ----.
No ----- not.
“--- you’re ---.”
“You only do this to make yourself feel better. Not for these things’ sake.”
I know.
-----The Boat-----
Kimberly was wasting his time staring aimlessly at what the window had to offer, when Olivia asked whether or not someone was going to make dinner. Suddenly remembering something, Kimberly walked over to his backpack. The search did not take long. Soon he fished out the lunch his grandparents packed and distributed (or at least attempted to hand out) to everyone at the main gate before the party’s departure. Kimberly had completely forgotten its existence during the exciting hiking trip. He carefully opened the box and stared at it contents: a jumbled mess. My favorite. Serves him right for carelessly stuffing it in a backpack that was just as carelessly manhandled in the short time span it traveled with him. Kimberly picked at Unknown Content A and threw it in his mouth. At least it was eatable.