The song played over and over in his head like a mantra.
"
Head like a hole…
Drown out your soul…
I'd rather die…
Then give you control!!"
Dillon focused on the hazy dark behind his eyelids, willing himself to feel angrier. He had to eliminate his thoughts, his doubts. All weakness belonged to the fire, all weakness deserved to be destroyed!
His breath came heavy and fast, filling the void with noise. He focused on his breathing, letting the hollow sound fill the blank spaces between lyrics.
"
Head like a hole…" In the center of the darkness behind his eyes he saw a red dot. He imagined the dot as a fire, and in that fire he concentrated his rage, he felt the red dot grow.
"Drown out your soul…" Faces began to flash unbidden in his mind. His mom, the fucking bitch. She can go suck some guy off for more crack for all he cared, Dillon imagined his mom's face burning.
"
I'd rather die…" Next came Stacy's face, fucking Stacy. She was a cheerleader, funny, popular, had great tits and a smashing ass… so fucking basic! If she was the pinnacle of what humans pined for then everyone deserves to be fucking burned alive!
"
Then give you control…" Better then fucking Chad though. Chad reminded Dillon of his dad, a fucking joke. Yeah he looks good, yeah people like him, but did he keep any promises? Did he ever keep his fucking word! Why didn't he fucking come back! What a weak ass bitch! What a Basic! Fucking! Pathetic!!!...
Dillon was shaking now, so furious he felt invincible. He felt his nose running, he hoped it was blood. He reached into his backpack to get a rag he had in there, his hand brushed against something cold and metal. He wiped his nose and checked the result, only snot, damn. A bloody nose would be cool, it'd look really scary for what was coming.
"
Bow down before the one you serve…" He looked into the hole he felt, a cold place where he didn't feel weak, afraid, or helpless. The place where he could be angry and not care about the consequences.
"
You're going to get what you deserve…* None of them deserved to live, nobody did, human life is a waste of resources, nature will grow something better from the bodies, something worth more than anything they could make out of their stupid life...
by
@Maglar