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Recent Statuses

1 yr ago
Current Pondering an idea, kinda want to do a rp that someone gave up on and want to try it here..
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1 yr ago
This EVO was insane! Definitely over 100K watching and the building was stacked full! The energy was incredible!
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1 yr ago
Arslan Ash is the T7 GOAT! 4th EVO title that is insane!
1 yr ago
After a insane day 2 of EVO, with today being the last day and day 3, I hope there is just as much excitement today!
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1 yr ago
After a loss...I don't know like what else to do...Keep your guard/shell up and life finds a way to hurt you when you want to protect yourself from prior experiences...
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Bio

Pen Name: Alexander
Aliases: Kyoya, Terra.
Birthday: September 1
Ethnicity: African-American.
Ancestry: English, Irish, African.

Occupation(s): Part-Time Parking Event Staff, Student (school-year; part-time)
Major: Cinema and Screen Studies

Sources of Writing: Laptop, Desktop [maybe in the future]
Years of Experience: 10.
RP Level: High-Casual to Low Advanced. It varies on mental state, knowledge, and time.
Commitment/Dedication Level: Very High.

Personality: Nice, Shy [when not pushed], Introverted, Caring/Compassionate, Understanding, Friendly, Honest, Imaginative, Organized, Protective, Loyal, Stubborn, Determined, Opportunistic, Sarcastic, Obsessive (somewhat)
Habits, Tics, and Quirks: Daydreaming, Repeating things [at times or when pushed/provoked] Fixated on thoughts, Autistic (Learning and processing information is affected)

Biggest RP Pet Peeve:
Ghosting, Whereabouts, Dishonesty.
Please be present and keep me updated from time to time. I'll do the same for you.
It's annoying when people become invisible or ignoring, miraculously appear out of nowhere, and complain, once they find a story canceled.
And be truthful in RP's and out of them.

Close Peeps: @AngelBites15, @Vampiretwilight, @SilverRain, @Polymorpheus [RIP]

Basic Comforts:
~ Primarily 1x1, since groups one time died on me quick
~ Mainly male OCs, though I'll take on a female role [npc].
~ CanonxOC, OCxOC & (sometimes) CanonxCanon. I can play various canons for both of the two.
~ MxF, FxF. I mostly do/lean into the dominant-role, depending on character and plot.
~ PM's more than threads [doesn't mean I am open to them], but stories with strong adult content belong in the PM's only.
~ Open to dark themes (drugs, abuse, etc.)

Genres - Action, Adventure, Anime/Animation, Comedy, Drama[a bit], Family, Fantasy, Horror, Mystery, Romance, Sci-Fi, Superhero, Western, Fandom, Video Games
Themes - College/High School, Martial Arts, Medieval, Post-Apocalypse, Supernatural, Fantasy, Modern, Slice of Life, Futuristic [maybe]

Music: '80s-'00s Heavy Metal/Rock/Rock and Roll,/Electronic-Dance, Pop, R&B, '90s-'00s Hip-Hop/Rap & Blues, Jazz, Country, Video Game OST's, Anime OST's.

Most Recent Posts

@rebornfan320

Maybe you need to take a moment, reflect on a pivotal decision you made? Did you ever do or say something to make people throw shade? If so what? Are you the problem? Or is the problem much larger?


I'll answer these as best as I can. I don't think I need to reflect on a pivotal decision I made at all. I feel the only thing i made to have people literally take swords and pitchforks at me like how Shrek got early in the movie was express my frustration at how bad my RP luck is and anything I tried didn't work or stick at all. I'm not the problem as I feel the problem is much larger, I feel it is the ghosters and their fault for hyping up someone's interest only to vanish on them.
When it comes to using aesthetics or the topic of them, I'm not a fan of aesthetics at all really. I'm one never to have the need of things like that as I'm more about detail and fundamentals in terms of choice and orientation of things in an IC. I don't think adding color would make that big of a difference.
@Ambra I am vexed. Frustrated because I do the same things as everyone and yet they get results and not me. I put in the effort and work but I don't get the payoff, I don't get the interest and yet they do so of course it is going to be frustrating even to the point of jealousy because I feel shafted [getting the short end of the stick] over and over again as I want my success and fair shot too.
Ambra...How could I feel happy about other people and their successes if they flaunt it as often as they do like waving a flag around? I can't get happy when that is all I see and couple that with others always finding success.

And for Bongo, I don't talk about my luck in them. Whenever I put my best foot forward it doesn't get me anywhere at all at the goal of what I want either when I feel I know the results of doing that and it'll be a bust you know?
I have checked Casual more often than free or advanced and it seems like no one is doing anything that is even interesting to me, sure there was one that had bumped before I responded to it but nothing came out of it.

And how am I supposed to settle on one RP concept when there is multiple that I want to do/have under my belt and have that feeling of success and interest in the scope of things?
@yoshua171
Luck isn't on my side at all, even my max effort it never seems to be enough as “most people” are not only “succeeding” but some flaunter about it. I tried and I just know my luck sucks, my effort has no payoff at all despite trying ever since I have been here. Seems like everyone has good luck but me. Even if by joining group RP's they never had the unfortunate experience of having it die as soon as you join it.
@yoshua171
I do not know how it is funny when I see people in RP's and they are having a much easier time with it than I and not hitting the hurdles and then more hurdles. I am not looking for their successes and I don't see their failures at all, just success after success and it is frustrating to just see that knowing whatever I was doing was not working at all like them.

So the idea of “everyone else galloping” wasn't far-fetched to me at all, it just seemed like how I have seen it and everyone else not hitting those same problems such as myself and my case.
I know this is a side thing and all, but I wonder is it bad for me to feel what I feel and express given my experiences?
Considering every time I express the frustration I am feeling it seems like at first no one gets it. It's hard for me to feel like the accomplishment of a RP being started let alone of it being maintained when there is little to no interest for my IC and coupled with the feeling of being left behind at the “starting gates” while others are galloping it just adds more frustration you know?
@Odin
Well Odin we never did roleplay at any point together, at least from what I think back on right now so there is that as supposed neutral ground.

I feel I am owed the same chances as everyone as I feel everytime I have tried to garner interest for myself I get shafted with either little partner interest or ghosters as a whole. And the reason the interest checks were not found is because I had them deleted as no one was biting into them as I had been bumping them up still trying to find interest but none came and I stopped at some point fed up.

I feel people need to understand my side of things and have a open mind instead of being like everyone else before and mob on me and I push back all because I tire of having my side of things whenever I express I am unhappy about something to be mobbed on and then a desire to have it put back in like a chest or closet.

I just want my side to be seen with an open mind and I want the same chances as everyone else when it comes to RP threads and interest without feeling like being constantly passed up on and shafted time and time again, I wonder if no one gets that feeling and the emotions that spur from that.

And ghosters shouldn't be an indicate of me doing something wrong but also look at them too, they shouldn't get off scott-free at all either. They were the ones reaching out and expressed interest, I feel they are owed to hold up their end of the bargain when it comes to expressing and reaching out in a roleplay scope it seems.
@Chuuya You didn't have to cross that last part out. If they sounded mean, they sounded mean.
@BangoSkank You don't have to use mine, but i figure to at least answer it.

Success for me as an Rper is when I know I can have long-term ones to actively enjoy and also having the interest for what I like at least to know my desires and opinions on things can be met with equal opportunity as wanting my effort to making a thread to pay off and feel that sense of accomplishment that something has gone either my way or said person's way for a change.
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