Two days after the Senior Dance... Infirmary, PRCUHarper's heart stopped for a moment, the delicate sound of Haven’s voice slipping into the silence like a quiet confession. She didn’t move, didn’t breathe, as if any sudden shift might break the fragile thread of the moment. Her arms tensed ever so slightly around Haven, though she kept her face still. Her eyes stayed fixed on the far wall she knew to be in front of her, as if the full load of Haven's revelation hadn’t just landed in the room like a physical thing that she wouldn’t be able to see clearly even if she tried.
But she felt it just the same, and along with it came one burning question: How? How had Haven figured it out? Harper had barely allowed herself to process the truth since discovering it, let alone expected Haven to come to the same conclusion through some unknown means.
So…how had she done it?
For a fleeting, disorienting second, Harper considered the impossible—wondered if Haven had sensed it, as if some invisible bond had suddenly snapped into place between them. Harper had always felt an odd pull toward the girl wrapped in her arms, an instinctive protectiveness that ran deeper than she had ever wanted to admit. It was easier to chalk it up to their time together at PRCU that first year, to the sense of familiarity that had grown over months of being on the same team, in the same house—mere coincidences. But now, in the wake of Haven’s whispered admission, the truth clawed its way to the surface, refusing to be ignored any longer.
Haven had his eyes, without the secrets Harper’s father had hidden behind their hazel depths. She had the wings too, but without the fears surrounding them that Harper had carried alone for so long (Or so she’d thought, at least).
Harper swallowed against the dryness in her throat, the ache from her bruises flaring up again as if to remind her of all the ways she’d failed to speak when it mattered and in the right way. The admission sat there between them, uninhibited and real, yet she felt a strange, almost guilty sense of relief at not being the one to tear Haven’s world apart. A selfish part of her—one she despised—was almost glad it hadn’t been her voice to deliver the truth. Because what would she have said? How could she have looked into Haven’s eyes and told her that the one family she could have had was hers?
It would have been worse coming from me.
She tightened her hold around Haven, her hand smoothing over her sister’s back in a slow, tentative rhythm. “I didn’t want… I didn’t want to hurt you.” Her fingers curled against the fabric of Haven’s shirt, and she took another breath, forcing herself to loosen her grip. “I just wanted to protect you.”
“I know… I’m not mad.”
Maybe she’d been angry with Harper before for keeping it a secret. Angry with her for how Haven had to find out from Sierra, with her sharp tongue and cruel games, instead of gently being given the news. Angry because she wondered how long Harper knew it, and if she was ever going to tell her if Sierra hadn’t interfered.
“Sierra told me at the dance… before-” She choked on the lump in her throat, taking a shaky and pitiful breath to keep herself from going into another fit of sobs.
The motions of Harper’s hand against her back was the reason why she wasn’t mad. The loving touch was both comforting and a painful reminder that her wings were gone. So did that anger really matter, now? Did anything really matter anymore?
“I-I’m mad at him. For all of it. How could he turn his back on my mom like that? Did he even know? I just don’t understand.” Because it did matter. All of it. And it hurt. It hurt as much as losing her wings.
Harper wasn’t surprised—not really. The moment Haven said Sierra’s name, something inside her clicked into place, like the final piece of a puzzle she hadn’t wanted to solve. Of course, it had been Sierra. Her sister had always known how to take control, how to weave herself into situations in ways that left others off-balance. It was Sierra’s nature to stir the pot, especially when it meant getting under Harper’s skin, whether she deserved whatever came to her or not.
But maybe, deep down, Harper had known that this would happen, that the truth would come out, not from her lips but through Sierra's twisted delivery. She hadn’t tried very hard to hide it, had she? Leaving the journal where anyone could find it if they looked... had that been intentional on her part? She wasn’t sure anymore. And it wasn’t what mattered right now, anyway.
“I think… Dad did want to take you,” Harper murmured, her voice fragile, as if she was trying to assemble pieces of a story that had never quite fit together. “But… you weren’t there anymore.”
Back then, she’d thought the only thing that had been left behind was a stuffed rabbit, worn and loved. But that hadn’t been all. She’d been wrong—so wrong.
“As for your mother…I don’t know. I really don’t know.” If there was anything more to learn about Haven’s mother, Sierra might know, Harper figured. The brunette, however, had stopped herself from reading further, too afraid of what she'd find, unwilling to face more truths once her worst suspicions had been confirmed.
“He’d drawn you a few times, you know?” Harper’s lips curled into a small, sad smile as she rested her chin against Haven’s hair. She shook her head, the faintest trace of disbelief tugging at her. “I thought, for the longest time, it was me in those sketches…but it was you.”
A subtle line etched itself between Haven’s brows as she listened. Somehow the admission comforted her, easing some of the weight she felt on her chest. He’d looked for her even if she was a child lost to the system. He’d drawn her, either by visiting one of the orphanages she’d been in or by searching for photos of her. She’d been on his mind. Somehow watching over her even if he’d been too late or too scared to take her into his arms.
“What was he like?”
Harper felt a lump form in her throat at Haven’s inquiry. What was he like? How could she begin to answer that, when even her own understanding of their father was messy, wrapped in layers of conflicting emotions? She hesitated, her hand pausing mid-motion on Haven’s back. Memories stirred, uninvited and tangled—his voice, always so stern; his hands, strong yet surprisingly warm when he ruffled her hair and called her that pet name she hadn’t heard in years. He had been so many things to her—strict, focused, determined—but more than anything, he'd been hers. And perhaps, with the right words, he could be Haven’s as well now, despite no longer being here.
So, Harper began with what she knew for certain. That their father had been complicated, a quiet person, much like herself, but not in a gentle way. It was more like he was always thinking, always somewhere else. Yet, despite that, there were moments-glimpses-where he was more than just the soldier. That he wasn’t perfect as she’d once naively believed as a child. That he’d made…mistakes. Sometimes big ones. But he always tried, in his own way, to show how much he loved them, his family, including Haven. She wanted to believe that the man who had drawn Haven in his quiet moments had loved her, even if he'd never been able to show it in the way she deserved.
"He used to sketch a lot when we were younger,” Harper said after a pause. "It was how he... disconnected, I think. From everything. From us, from his work." She shook her head again, her fingers tracing idle patterns on Haven’s back. “It was one of those drawings that made me realize who you were, actually. Along with…something he may have left behind as an apology…maybe."
Harper’s heart thudded in her chest as she stopped her movements, her fingers stilling again. The next words slipped out even softer, almost tentative.
“Would you…. like to have it? That drawing?”
There was a moment of silence as Haven took a breath. She considered the person Harper had described to her. How Harper believed that he’d done things out of love for Haven despite the distance. She wasn’t sure if she would call it love, herself, but it was nice to imagine a world in which their father had truly felt that way.
She nodded against Harper’s shoulder as an answer. She’d felt Harper’s hesitation as the featherlight strokes along her back halted. Strange, how she wished that the gentle ministrations hadn’t stopped. She heard the way her sister’s heart thumped behind her, and it was obvious that Harper was reluctant to let even a small piece of her father go. It meant a lot to Haven that she even offered it. As if Harper was allowing Haven to have a piece of her own heart with it. Her hand squeezed Harper’s arm where she still held onto it as a silent thank you.
Harper felt the small squeeze on her arm, and it almost broke her. The simple gesture held so much weight, a silent thank you that dug at the edges of her composure. She wanted to give more, offer Haven the comfort she needed, but that wasn’t something Harper was always good at. She’d been trained to be tough, to hold things back, to fix things from a distance. Yet, now, the next words she had to say stuck in her throat, frightening but necessary.
“Haven…” Harper’s voice came out lighter than she intended, cautious. She hesitated, chewing over the right words, wondering how to say this without making everything worse. “I need you to promise me something.” The rhythmic motion of her hand against Haven’s back resumed, but this time slower, more deliberate. She felt Haven stir a little, a signal of attention, but also of apprehension.
“Don’t freak out, okay?” Harper’s voice trembled ever so slightly, despite her best effort to stay composed. Leaning back a little, she felt her body stiffen, preparing for whatever was about to happen.
“My eyes… they’re a bit different now,” she explained, her voice low but calm. She didn’t go into details, didn’t have to. The truth was right there, staring back at Haven—her eyes, once vibrant, now completely white. They looked as though they had been washed clean, like a fog had rolled in and stolen all the colour from her irises, leaving nothing but an empty canvas behind. No pupils, no irises—just an uncanny, ghostlike void.
Shame crept in, uninvited and all-consuming. She hated this part, the way people looked at her like she was broken. Like a part of her was missing. And though Haven, of all people, could probably understand where she was coming from, it didn’t make it any easier.
It had never been easy. Not during the long, lonely years when she’d been stuck with this... this blindness that came and went without warning, making her feel powerless and out of control.
Her chest tightened, a familiar knot forming there. She could feel the moment pulling her down, threatening to overwhelm her. Gripping the walking cane she had set beside Haven’s bed earlier, Harper averted her gaze. “I’ll get you the sketch later,” she muttered, the excuse weak, even to her own ears. Still, she couldn’t stay, not now.
Before Haven could respond, Harper pressed the cane against the floor, the soft thud giving her something solid to focus on as she moved. Each step widened the distance between them, as if she were physically severing the fragile connection they had only just begun to rebuild.
_________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ Location: The Beach - Dundas Islands, Pacific OceanHuman #5.006: Where the Fire Burns
_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________Interaction(s): *Insert Everyone gif here*Previously: Alone & Mourning Dove
Harper sat cross-legged in the sand, her fingers brushing against the gritty grains, feeling their coolness slip through her hands. She couldn’t see the fire, but its warmth kissed her skin, offering a faint comfort amid the cold that clung to her insides and outsides, despite the gray turtleneck tunic she’d donned herself to hide the last remnants of bruises on her neck. The fire crackled softly, its sound constant against the backdrop of shifting feet and stifled sobs from the others. Her eyes, now ghostly white, blank and unseeing, faced downward. She’d tied a piece of torn cloth from her old hoodie around them earlier, not so much to hide her blindness but to avoid the pity in anyone’s eyes—the looks she couldn’t stand. At least she was alive, wasn’t she? Pity was best reserved for the ones that hadn’t made it. Or perhaps jealousy?
It had been a week since Haven’s wings had been torn out, a week since their lives had changed in ways none of them could comprehend. The Chernobog was gone, swallowed by the abyss it had come from, but so were Amma, Calliope, and everything that had made the team- her family- feel whole. Every attempt to wrap her mind around what had happened felt like pushing through dense gloom; nothing became clearer. The absence of sight, both literal and emotional, left her feeling empty in the worst possible way. The void inside her was vast, dark, and indifferent, just like her eyes—devoid of hope, devoid of peace.She dug her palms into her thighs, willing herself to stay in the moment, but her thoughts rebelled, dragging her back to the past as they so often did. The crack of bone and Haven’s scream pierced through her again, the scent of her blood, Gil’s blood, Luce’s blood-so much blood- thick in the space around her. She’d stood frozen, powerless, like a spectator in her own life, her hands useless at her sides. Useless. Blind now in every sense of the word, as though the universe had stripped away every ounce of control she thought she had, leaving her with nothing but guilt and the haunting weight of her failures.Her fingers twitched involuntarily, her body aching to reach out, to feel something real, something solid. But she didn’t. The words she might’ve said were trapped somewhere deep inside her, buried beneath the fear and anxiety. How could she admit that she was terrified? That she had no idea what came next, or that without her vision, without the clarity it had always provided, she felt like a ghost herself, just drifting? She couldn’t let them see how lost she was.Go home or go to the Institute. That was the choice they all had to make. Simple, on the surface, but for Harper, it felt like being asked to pick between two traps. She didn’t have a home anymore, not really. She’d turned her back on them both, one to avoid being a burden, the other because it had become something unrecognizable—changed without her even noticing.▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅▅“A mission…”
“But what did Amma’s mission have to do with you?”
As for the Institute? That was a blind leap into the unknown, full of uncertainties and doubt. What if her sight never came back? What if she couldn’t protect anyone, not even herself? How was she supposed to trust a power that failed her when it mattered most, that flickered on and off like a broken lightbulb?She bit down hard on her lower lip, tasting a hint of copper as she inhaled the salty sea breeze, letting it cool her heated nerves. There wasn’t a good option, she knew that. But she couldn’t sit here forever, paralyzed by indecision, by fear.Decision. The word echoed like a drumbeat in her mind. Harper needed to decide. Slowly, she lifted her head, her blank, shrouded eyes staring into the empty space before her. She didn’t need her sight to know they were all waiting—waiting for someone to speak, waiting for someone to lead. And maybe, just maybe, that person was supposed to be her. She was still Rory’s deputy, after all? Harper scoffed under her breath, the sound barely audible, as she caught the tail end of Immanuel’s words: “I think… I think I miss my home.”Home. The word sounded so distant, so unreachable. It wasn’t just a place they were mourning—it was the life they once knew, the sense of belonging they thought they had. Harper’s chest tightened. She had no home to go back to, no certainty waiting for her beyond the horizon of this decision. And yet, Immanuel had a point. What they needed right now wasn’t just a destination—it was an anchor. Something—someone—to remind them who they were and who they could still be, despite everything. Maybe that was the only thing holding them together now: scattered pieces of their past selves, searching for a reason to keep fighting, bound by one simple truth. None of them wanted to face it alone.Harper’s lips parted, her voice barely cutting through the crackling of the fire, raspy and unsure.“This was…is my home…” she began, the words feeling strange in her mouth. She hesitated, feeling the shift as some eyes turned to her. “It’s the only one I’ve known since my parents died. And I... I don’t think I’m ready to let that go.”A long pause followed, the tension ever present in the air as the fire popped and hissed in the background. Her heartbeat thudded in her ears, but she pushed through, letting whatever vulnerability she had left bleed into her voice. “Maybe I don’t know where I’m going next, but whatever that looks like…I don’t want to do it alone. I don’t want to lose my home.”She lowered her head after this was said, her voice trailing off, leaving the space open for someone else to step in, whether they agreed with her or not.