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28 days ago
Current roleplayerguild.com/posts/5… If you like zombies, and want to live out your zombie apocalypse dreams feel free to join!
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1 yr ago
Is it just me or does RPG have like an excessive amount of ads on it now?
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2 yrs ago
@Headintheclouds I’m getting the same issue via computer but works on my phone just fine, glad I’m not the only one with the issue.
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3 yrs ago
Thanks. :) And I know i've been to lazy to update it and whatnot lol.
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3 yrs ago
Today is my 31st birthday so yay!
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Hi there, a little bit about me I am 28 year old female from Pennsylvania I have been RPing for the past seven years or so originally starting in WoW and then moved onto forum RPs and found this site back before the great crash of the old site. I am a casual writer and will usually write up to three or four paragraphs though I always match what my partners will usually write to me, though you will never see me write any kind of one liners, though most days I am usually doing group RPs.











Skyrose RP Universe Created & GMed & Co-GMed by: @Morose,@BlueSky44




Knight RP Universe Created & GMed by: @Kirah




Nexus RP Universe Created & GMed by: Me @Nallore!



Tales of Asgard, Beyond the Storm 1x1 with @AngelBites15

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Kristin Reynolds


Location: Arena
Skills: N/A

Kiera Donovan


Location: Camp Half-Blood
Skills: N/A





Thanatos turned to look at Andy the first one to ask a question, on how long the doors were there for. "I can keep them in Central Park until you arrive there before I have to move them again." Thanatos answered Andy's question, as Kristen nodded slightly they had time to at least gather supplies and time to get into the city itself. Thanatos turned his eyes towards Zeke asking his question, he knew that Giants lurked down there. "You will need a god to travel with you." He said as he looked over at Alexios and shook his head slightly, the son of Aphrodite did annoy him sometimes.

"It seems like you have one with you already." He said as Alexios turned to Demi and frowned slightly, he was still willing to help. "I'll keep my distance don't worry, but i'm coming with you down there can't let my future husband get killed down there." Alexios said, while giving Zeke a slightly smug look it was going to take a lot more to keep him away. Then Thanatos spoke again to answer the rest of Zeke's question. "Tartarus' realm blocks me from seeing what else lurks down there and I cannot find your friends, you'll need something to speed your travels and search down there." Alexios told him.

"We can use that flying ship we flew to New Rome in awhile back." Kiera pointed out, that would make traveling and searching for her girlfriend Leda and Madalyne down there quicker. Kristen spoke up as well to, agreeing with Kiera that could help speed the search along a lot quicker. "I'll ask Alannah and Lauryn if we could borrow the Argo III since it's their baby." Kristin said, as Thanatos looked at the others. "I'll leave you all to prepare and will meet you all in the city." Thanatos said as he disappeared in a puff of smoke.




Madalyne Crane


Location: Tartarus
Skills: mistyiokinesis





"Just don't touch them their skin is poisonous." Madalyne said to Leda as she backed up slightly, as she summoned up a fireball in her hand and hurled it towards the basilisk setting it on fire which started to cause a small fire to grow slowly under the grass, which revealed a few more of the little snakes. Leda would be able to behead the one that attacked her easily as it tried to lunge at her, while Damasen was stomping on several of them causing the ground to shake as well to.

Damasen turned to look at Leda as she explained why she ended up here, he never heard of that happening to a demigod whenever they did die which was odd to him. "Maybe ask Hades or Thanatos the next time you see them." Damasen suggested as he swung his weapon killing another one, while one got close and tried to bite Mads she managed to get out of the way from it, while another one would lunge trying to bite Leda.
@Morose NPCs for your review. :)


















@Trainerblue192@Kirah A few minutes later Mandy's mother and father came down with a set of bags, both containing food as well as clothes, he looked at the two of them. "Are you two ready to leave?" He signed to the both of them the little kitten at Hermes feet meowed louder clearly wasn't happy that it wasn't getting any attention from Hermes and started to claw at his pant legs and started to climb up his pants and up his shirt. Mandy's father shook his head slightly as he looked at her. "Lets get going now." He signed as he left the house and made his way outside. There was a bright flash of light just down the block and noticed a big ball of fire as an explosion happened and a plume of smoke could be seen as well to. "Hurry up." He signed as he made his way towards Mandy's car and got in.

@Carlyle "Thank you, and be safe child and thank you." She said as Isaac looked at the gun once more. "Won't you need this?" He asked her as she shook her head slightly. "I'll be fine, now go." Gladys insisted as Isaac nodded slightly, he looked at Kali and motioned for her to follow as he shouldered the rifle over his shoulder and started to get out and leave the older woman's apartment. "Do you need anything from your apartment?" He asked her as he could hear some shouting down the hallway, from a few of the other residents, a few were getting ready to leave and he would see Hannah the girl from earlier leaving with her parents as well to.




Flynn Price


Location: Car Shop.
Skills: N/A





Gus left two of the jerrycans full and went towards the back of the massive truck and opened the back which was spacious, he stored the two cans in a place and made sure that they were secured using the straps. "Hurry up!" Gus yelled as Flynn nodded slightly hearing the zombies as he looked around seeing a shelf of tools and equipment. Once the zombies were in position he quickly used all of his strength to cause the entire thing to come tumbling down. The zombies were caught under and trapped under it effectively keeping them from moving, as he started to make his way towards the mrap.

Flynn quickly got into the back where Gus had stored the two gas cannisters and pulled the door shut, Gus got in shortly after climbing into the drivers seat quickly snatching the keys from Verity and started up the massive truck. "Alright lets get out of here." Gus said as he drove the truck out of the yard, crashing through the front chain-link fence gate. He started to notice that there was a plume of smoke in the distance. Verity would get a text from her personal assistant Trudy with a route out of the city with a text saying. "If you are getting out of the city, i'm taking this route, it's a bit slower but it'll have less traffic be safe boss.". Flynn would be in the bench seat closest to the two front seats where Verity and Gus were.




Kaitlyn Carver


Location: NYC, Apartment Garage
Skills: N/A





Kaitlyn looked around for a moment wondering what was going on exactly as she looked over at Waverly for a moment, she would get a text reply from one of her friends and coworkers Stacy. "Why are you still doing here Waves?" Was what the text said, before a second reply came through. "It's just Ameer and I here, go through the back door we boarded up the front." Was what the text would say, Kaitlyn would approach Waverly looking at her phone seeing that the back door was open. "I guess they are prepared." Kaityn said as she started to lead the way towards the back door there wasn't much going on in the back alleyway as Kaitlyn found the back door open revealing Ameer.

"Waverly thought you would have left by now." He said as he looked at the two strangers before waving the two of them inside, as Kaitlyn looked around for a moment, Stacy was busy doing inventory on a few things, counting the food that was there as she turned to Waverly and the two strangers. "Welcome lock the door behind you." Stacy said, Waverly would be able to see a very old looking ham radio.



Diana Novikova


Location: New Orleans - The Sorcerer's Inn
Current Outfit: Current Clothes
Skills: N/A





Diana listened to Vision as he admonished Leah for her outburst, though she didn't do anything she didn't want to make the public scene worse, however she ended up going over to the restroom where April had gone off to comfort her. She crossed her arms over her chest as she looked at the others, Sabine had gone off to their room. Gideon looked like she had been on her phone the whole entire time and just realized that there was a conversation going on. "Ser Nemo just died." Diana informed Gideon, she didn't know him all that well really herself but it was still bad news to find out.

When Vision offered some kind of therapy with Dr. Whitehall she shook her head at the offer, it was sad news to know that he died so suddenly but she didn't really want to talk about it. "What do you think what happened?" Diana asked softly looking over to her roommate Zelda to see what she thought about the whole situation.




Madalyne Crane


Location: The Kingston-Gray estate
Current Outfit: Current Clothes
Skills: N/A
Grimoire: N/A





Madalyne turned her attention towards Max, it sounded like he had known her or something, aside from the brief meeting when he came to pick up Danni and Dorian before break she didn't know him. "It's our first official meeting really, but it's nice to meet you." Madalyne said to Max giving him a friendly smile. She jumped slightly when the little cat carrier that Andy brought with her and a voice came out of it along with some hissing. "Who's Selene?" Madalyne asked sounding confused when Casper suddenly yelled it out before he had gone over to hug Andy and Zari they definitely knew each other by the looks of it.

Her attention however turned to Vicky seeing that she was clearly malfunctioning badly due to the magic all around them, Max produced some kind of magic necklace putting it over Vicky. She seemed to be going back to normal which was a good thing then, and she seemed to be a little bit pissed off at Danni and Dorian. "If you want I can come with you to visit Agatha later." Madalyne offered to Vicky, she did want to visit her mentor again while she was in town.





@Trainerblue192@Kirah Hermes would get a reply back from Hermes mother. "Is everything okay? And please be safe i'll see you when you get here. <3" Was what the text said, Mandy's father would nod as he started to head upstairs to get Mandy's mother, she was in the bedroom folding up some laundry. "Pack up what you can we are leaving." He signed to her, she looked at him with a confused look but nodded slightly as she grabbed a duffle bag packing up some clothes. He would head back down stairs and grabbed a few bags filling them with whatever canned food there was in the house. As well as what bottled water that they had as well to. The kitten was happily purring and rubbing up against Hermes' legs clearly wanting attention and pets.

@Carlyle Isaac looked over at Kali and nodded towards her. "Yeah lets get going, i'd rather not be in the city when things start to get worse." He said as he looked over towards Gladys who looked at them both and shook her head slightly. "You two go ahead, I want to stay here where it's safe. And my husband is still there I don't want to leave him." Gladys said to Kali, as Isaac looked at her to see what she wanted to do. He didn't want to force anyone to leave if they didn't want to really either, Gladys made her way over towards her closet and pulled out a hunting rifle and a box of ammo for it handing it over to Isaac. "My husband hasn't used it in a long time it'll be in better hands." She said to Isaac. "Thank you." He said to her before turning to Kali. "The sooner we get out of the city the better, people will be wanting to get out as soon as possible to." He told her.




Flynn Price


Location: Car Shop.
Skills: N/A





Flynn thought for a moment as he looked around the area. "We should go somewhere more rural where there are less people." Flynn suggested as Gus found a crowbar nearby that was in a metal barrel and grabbed it. "That works for me." Gus said, they did need protection, and more supplies as well to but that would probably be something that they would do later. The keyfob that Verity found the lights would light up and a beeping sound would come from a modified MRAP. It looked like it had seen better days however it was modified to have electronic locks like most cars do.

"She'll need to fueled up, but she'll be good to get us out of the city." Gus said as he made his way over towards a nearby shed as he looked at Verity. "Mind helping me getting a few gas cannisters?" He asked her, then there was a sound of something crashing Flynn turned around to look at and see three infected were shambling through the yard probably lured to it when they heard the MRAP's beep. "I'll keep them distracted." Flynn said as he banged his tire iron on a hood of a nearby wreck which got their attention.








@kittyluna45 Eva smiled and nodded. "Lunch sounds pretty good right about now actually, lets go then and the climbing wall will be fun. I haven't climbed it in awhile myself actually." Eva said, she didn't do the climbing wall very much she did enjoy the Capture the Flag games or the Chariot races the most. Eva loaded the last of the crates into the van and watched as the driver started to drive off with what they had picked for the day to the city. "Lets get going." Eva said as she started to make her way over towards the dining pavilion there were a few other campers there already now and getting lunch. Eva heard from a few other campers that Thanatos was in the arena right now as she listened in on a few conversations.

@Kirah The same legionnaire peaked his head into the tent shortly after Demi and Nancy had left doing what he was told to do and came back with a box of Leandra's things. Mostly it was just her clothes and a few other personal belongings an imperial gold bow and arrows, and several books as well to he looked over at Niah. "Here is her things." He said however he did remove the imperial gold bow and arrow. "I'll set her bow into the armory tent, and i'll dispose of the rest." He said as he turned and left the tent.




Kristin Reynolds


Location: Arena
Skills: N/A

Kiera Donovan


Location: Camp Half-Blood
Skills: N/A





Kristin looked over at Thanatos as he crossed her arms over her chest setting the training spear into the ground as she looked over at the god, she hadn't met him before as Kristin listened to the god they had found the Doors apparently which was good then. Kiera looked over at Zeke and gave him a slight smile. "Thats good to hear." She said as Demi and Nancy joined shortly after Demi had gone to grab her then Thanatos spoke up.

"I managed to take them to Central Park and will be there waiting for you to enter and blocked it from any monsters from getting out." Thanatos said as he looked at Demi as he approached him. "You'll have to ask his other son when you see him he'll be awaiting in Central Park." Thanatos whispered back, just then a very loud voice came over. "Demi!" Alexios said as he approached Demi and gently ruffled his hair. "Thanatos is here." He said as he looked over at the god who was already there. "Oh guess he beat me to it." Alexios said shrugging slightly.




Madalyne Crane


Location: Tartarus
Skills:





"So how did you two demigods end up down here?" Damasen asked as he led the two demigods through the swamp, the water was really thick and the mud was making it a little bit hard for the both of them to move through it. However they eventually made it to dry land, Madalyne looked at Leda for a moment. "I was turned into a werewolf by Lycaon and his pack of werewolves.." Madalyne said softly as she looked down at her arm for a moment where the scar she had gotten when she got bit and rubbed it slightly. "Me and a few of our other quest mates were in the Labyrinth and we were attacked and I chose to stay behind to let the others escape." Madalyne answered.

Damasen stopped for a moment as he could hear what sounded like hissing and looked down at the thick dead looking grass on the ground. "There are basilisks be very careful." Damasen said as he walked one of them jumped and tried to attack him, he grabbed it in midair and easily crushed it with his hand. Madalyne quickly picked up their scent as well to and swung her new weapon at one that managed to jump at her and killed it. Leda however would see one and it would spit fire at her, however the armor Damasen had made her protected her from it.



Diana Novikova


Location: New Orleans - The Sorcerer's Inn
Current Outfit: Current Clothes
Skills: N/A





Diana had decided to opt out on going to the Kingston-Gray sleepover with some of the others, mainly because she still wasn't on talking terms with Percy, or Dorian for that matter. It would have just been really awkward and she would probably end up feeling unwelcomed there in the first place anyway. Diana shifted her backpack over her shoulder slightly and took it off, letting it rest on the handles of her luggage. Diana had spent most of the flight over listening to some of her music as well as playing a few games during the cross country flight.

Diana took out the earbuds in her ears when Vision spoke, she did find it odd that Nemo and Nimue weren't here really as he went on about representing the school and whatnot. However the news that Vision had suddenly brought up was really shocking for Diana to hear, that Ser Nemo had died from a heart attack. April seemed to take the news really hard as she watched her go to the nearby bathroom, her eyes turned to Vision as Leah spoke up about it.

She seemed to be really angry about it. "Do you know what actually caused it to happen in the first place exactly?" Diana asked she didn't know Ser Nemo all that well. But he seemed to be a really nice old guy from what she knew about him with the small interactions that she had with him in the past.




Madalyne Crane


Location: Margaret Carter Institute --> The Kingston-Gray estate
Current Outfit: Current Clothes
Skills: N/A
Grimoire: N/A





Madalyne waited outside of Stark Hall with everyone else who had chosen to stay with Dorian and Danni's parents place, she remembered meeting them once briefly when they had left for Thanksgiving Break after the whole entire thing with Arcade happened. She looked over at Percy and Dorian who were pretty cute. She had her things with her for the few days that they will be there for the Contest a change of clothes as well as a few books and the like. She was excited to go to the contest as well as seeing her mentor Agatha again, she really did miss her and wanted to meet up with her while she was in town to.

Then the portal opened Madalyne looked out to see a nice looking estate on the other side of the portal, she followed the others shortly behind them. When she got through the portal, Madalyne could see all of the magic flowing around the building, even the plant life around the estate seemed to be affected by it. Seeing all of the varying colors from all across the spectrum was pretty beautiful her attention turned to Vicky. Madalyne looked at James, Casper, Max and Ben giving them all a smile, Dorian and Danni's parents seemed to be really nice. "Thank you for having us overe." Madalyne said giving them a friendly smile.

She remembered they had talked awhile back and she helped Vicky a little bit Madalyne could see the magic flowing all around them here she wasn't sure how well Vicky would be able to handle it. "Are you okay there Vicky?" Madalyne asked Vicky, she looked over at Max who wanted to talk to Vicky when she had a moment which got her curious about.





@Trainerblue192@Kirah Mandy's father watched as his daughter signed everything that has happened since they had left their apartment, everything seemed to be going to hell rather quickly. He looked to his nephew as he signed back picking up what he was saying as well to, they were in the middle of the largest city in the world and he thought that saying in the city was a bad idea. "I think we should pack up and leave as soon as we can, if things get to bad they'll most likely isolate Manhattan and we don't want to be here when they do that." He suggested.

@Carlyle Liana shifted slightly as she listened to Kali on the other end of the phone as she looked over at the tv on her end and turned it up, seeing that it was true. "Okay i'll hunker down here, everyone else seems to be leaving here just come here as soon as you can and call every few minutes if you have to. And i'll grab whatever food and supplies here on my end." Liana said to Kali. Issac got up from where he had been sitting and looked over at Kali still on the phone. "Is everything okay?" He ended up asking her.




Flynn Price


Location: Car Shop.
Skills: N/A





Gus looked at the door for a moment, he flinched slightly every time the zombie banged on the door harder than the last, it wasnt going to hold, but it was secured enough for now. "Yeah there are a few cars in the backyard that we were working on. The customers might be pissed if we take anyone of them." Gus warned Flynn rolled his eyes slightly, the city was going to hell very quickly and the customers aren't even here. "Well they aren't here right now. And if they wanted their ride back they would have been here by now." Flynn said shaking his head slightly.

Gus nodded slightly as he grabbed a few keys from a nearby locked cabinet where he held all of they keys and key fobs that the cars were being worked on. He tossed the large ring of car keys and fobs to Verity as he made his way towards the back door of the building that led into the backyard of the car shop, some were still being worked on, while others looked fine. "Pick one and we can get the hell out of here." Flynn said as he made it out onto the yard itself and started to look around, there wasn't a sign of any zombies yet.




Kaitlyn Carver


Location: NYC, Apartment Garage
Skills: N/A





Kaitlyn continued to switch through the radio stations, some were dead, while others were still playing music, while a few of them were playing the national emergency message. They weren't getting anything which made her annoyed as she continued to follow the directions that were given to her by her phone. She was more focused on getting to their location, eventually they were finally at the location that Waverly had given them.

"Is this the place?" Kaitlyn asked looking over at Waverly as she drove the car over towards the parking lot, she noticed a large number of military vehicles were driving through the streets now. "Can you like text your friends or whatever and see if they are inside?" Kaitlyn asked Waverly she didn't want to go inside in case there were more infected.








@kittyluna45 "Usually the Apollo kids do all of the archery lessons if you ever do want to learn that Bryan is the head counselor for the Apollo kids he's usually around the archery range." Eva suggested to Stella as she started to finish packing up the last of the strawberries that they were going to ship off to the city. "The climbing wall is always really fun as well to, i'll come with you with whatever you decide to go with." Eva said giving her a smile.

@Kirah Joanie Nancy's pet dragon would fly through Niah's and Nancy's tent the little dragon would fly over and landing onto Niah's desk looking up at her demanding attention as well as food. It would let a little sound and nip at Niah's hand not hard enough to draw blood but enough to hurt a puff of smoke left her nose as she huffed. Then a member of the legion entered the tent looking for Nancy wondering where she was as he turned to Niah. "Do you know where Nancy is?" He asked her hoping that Niah would know where she was.




Kristin Reynolds


Location: Arena
Skills: N/A

Kiera Donovan


Location: Camp Half-Blood
Skills: N/A





"Yeah training at first was pretty tough for me, especially when during my first Capture the Flag game I barely had any experience way back then." Kiera said to Sera as they started to make it over towards the arena. Her attention turned towards Demi and Zeke seeing that the two of them were heading the same way to. "Hey you two, is everything okay now?" Kiera asked looking between Demi and Zeke. They came into the area just in time to see what looked like a major fight breaking out Alexios had gone off to do something else for the time being and left Zeke and Demi alone for now.

"Nice form." Kristin said to Andy after both of their weapons hit she started to circle around Andy once more studying her form looking for an opening. When she did Kirstin charged forward managing to hit Andy on the side lightly, not enough to hurt her or anything like the last hit that she did. "So what would you like to talk about?" Kristin asked Andy wanting to strike up a little more conversation with her.

Isaac groaned slightly as he was knocked down onto the ground and hit again while he was down on the ground, he didn't really expect her to knock him down onto the ground. "Oh I know it does, but it makes sparing more fun if you have a conversation though." Isaac said as he took Janelle's hand and pulled himself up and started to dust himself off again, when he was done Isaac would move forward hitting Janelle on the shoulder rather hard.

Thanatos would suddenly appear in the center of the arena looking over at the group. "Hello there I have found what you have been looking for." Thanatos said looking at the group of demigods before him.




Madalyne Crane


Location: Tartarus
Skills:





Madalyne had spent the last few minutes grabbing food and packing things up that Damasen had been so kindly to lend him, she was slowly putting on the armor that he had crafted for them. It fit her surprisingly well, it didn't feel to heavy or light either which was good though Mads didn't really need it due to her condition she turned towards Leda and the Giant. "Well i'm ready whenever you all are ready to move out." Madalyne said to them both.

Damasen nodded as he slowly made his way over to his bed grabbing his own pack of supplies, the giant was slow unlike Leda however and they would have to go at a certain pace. "Lets go i'll lead you two there." Damasen said as he started to head out of his little hut he looked around for a moment before heading what looked like south.



Madalyne Crane


April Flynn

Location: California Asylum for the Genetically Enhanced





Madalyne was really happy that she was able to get to visit her best friend April, she was surprised to hear that she was there though. Madalyne was allowed to enter CAGE and approached the front desk she signed herself in and was eventually led into the visitors lounge. Madalyne looked around seeing a few board games a tv and a bookshelf full of books. It kind of reminded her of a little family room as she went and sat down on the couch waiting for April to be let in.

It wasn’t too long until April entered the visitor’s lounge, dressed in a white t-shirt and sweatpants, a patient identification bracelet on her left wrist with her name and other important information on it. She had her glasses on today, not feeling in the mood for contacts, and she smiled brightly as she saw Mads. It had been a few days since she’d seen her, and it already felt like it had been weeks. “Hey!” April greeted, coming up and offering Mads a hug.

Madalyne instantly smiled seeing April coming in it felt like forever since she had seen her last, and it did feel a little bit lonely having a whole entire dorm to herself for the last few days. "Hey April!" Madalyne said happily as she got up and walked over to April pulling her into a hug. "How have you been?" Madalyne asked her.

April sat down on the couch, brushing her hair back behind her ears from where it had fallen forward. “A lot better, I think,” she said, pausing for a moment. Conversations like these had been so incredibly difficult a few days ago - just admitting that she wasn’t okay had been a struggle. But the doctors and the medication and the group sessions, all of those things were really helping - enough that April felt the slightest hints of a sense of peace she hadn’t felt in years. “Um. I am sorry that I - that I hid all of this from you. From everyone, really. But I - I am doing a lot better now, I think. I think I’ll get to go back to school in a few days, they’re still evaluating the treatment plan and stuff while I’m here… But how are you? What have I missed?”

Madalyne reached out gently resting a hand on her friend's shoulder as she listened to her, she was glad that April was doing better than she had been. "I'm glad that you are doing a lot better." Madalyne said giving her a smile, she then shook her head slightly trying to reassure April. "And you don't have to be sorry, you know i'm always there for you whenever you need me to just talk." Madalyne said to April she couldn't imagine how hard it was to admit something was wrong with her. "I'm doing alright, and honestly not much has happened since you've been gone." She answered. "What have you been up to? Aside from all of the therapy and whatnot here?"

"Um, I mean it's - it is a lot of, like, therapy - with doctors and in group, and stuff - and then people come to visit, and I've been reading books, and playing games with people it's - it's kinda like summer camp in a way? Y'know, no phones, you're with the same group of people and are sharing weirdly intense experiences with these strangers, and you kinda figure out who your meal buddy is going to be super quick. Except for they, like, check on your room in the night to make sure that you haven't killed yourself, that sorta thing," April explained, feeling mildly awkward. She really did appreciate that Mads wanted to be there for her, but at the same time... It was hard for her to imagine being that open about everything that was going on with Mads. It was hard for her to imagine really talking about this sort of thing with most people, including family. "Have you - have you been training for the contest, then? How's that going?"

Madalyne nodded as she listened to April as she mentioned what she had been doing here and what it has been like as well to she would have felt uncomfortable with sharing personal information like this to her friends and family as well to. "Yep i've been training with the others as well as by myself for the contest since we have had a lot of free time to do that."

”Oh, that’s - that’s good!” April said, feeling a little strange. She couldn’t tell if Mads was treating her differently - or if this was how things always had been. She felt like there was some sort of disconnect between them. ”Um, so, is there anything you wanted to talk about? I don’t have to go to group therapy for a little while…”

Madalyne thought for a moment she still wanted to make sure that April was okay, she was happy that she was still getting the help that she needed. "We can talk about prom coming up, and what you, Leah and Sabine would be wearing?" Madalyne said. "We could go and do some dress shopping to if you want when you get out of here."

The thought of dress shopping made April feel queasy, her skin itching. She rubbed the back of her hand absentmindedly, trying to scrub the feeling away. “Uh, yeah, s-sure! We can - we can go dress shopping. Or um actually I… I should tell you that…” she glanced down at her hands. ”We kinda… we kinda broke up. So, I, um - I don’t know if I would be going to prom with anyone. Well, anyone in a romantic sense - I’ll probably - I’ll probably see if Danni would go with me.”

Madalyne looked at April with a surprised look as she gently reached out gently resting a hand on April's shoulder and pulling her friend into a hug. "I'm so sorry that happened." She said, she didn't know that they ended up breaking up at all, she always thought that all three of them got along really well together. "What happened if I may ask?" She asked.

April hesitated for a moment, not certain what she wanted to say - what she wanted to tell people. She didn’t want people to feel pressured to take sides, or look for a victim in the situation. But even then, her reasoning behind the breakup was more complicated than what she had told Sabine and Leah - something she didn’t know if she was ready to admit to anyone, even Mads. ”I… I ended things. I wasn’t - I can’t - I… I’m not able to be good enough for myself, so how… how can I be good enough to be a girlfriend for someone else?”

Madalyne listened to April while still hugging her before letting go, she had a feeling that there was something more to it but she didn't want to push her to much. "You are good enough April, take whatever time you need to. Also you can talk to me about it whenever you are ready if you want to." Madalyne said giving April a smile.

She bit her lip, struggling to communicate this correctly. "It's... It's more like I am not good to me? Like... Like I don't know how to handle my emotions when they happen, so I... so I just don't and... If I can't treat myself okay, then... Like they deserve to be treated better than the way I've been treating them. Does that make sense? Sorry, it's... It's been a lot of time to just, like, think about myself and I might be a bit in my own head about it."

Madalyne nodded slightly. "I think I understand." She said softly while gently rubbing April's shoulder. "Just focus on working on yourself and getting the help that you need. And i'm always there if you need me to as well." Madalyne offered.

April nodded. "I know - I - thanks," she glanced down at her hands. "It's weird, because I know that you're there for me - and Danni and Dori and Sabine and Leah - but... I dunno, there's some... Some part of my brain that says that isn't true - or that I'm j-just a burden - that I'm - that I'm a horrible person and no one actually wants to have me around. A-and I know that isn't right, but it... But it doesn't stop things from feeling that way. And I don't know how to - how to handle that disconnect. Like when my head says one thing, but my feelings - they're saying something else. Like if I'm not - if I'm not the person everyone expects me to be, then... then what am I, y'know, if not just a waste of space?"

"You are welcome. You are not a waste of space, or a horrible person at all April." Madalyne tried to reassure April giving her a smile. "Did Dr. Whitehall suggest anything to help?" She asked her.

"Yeah, she, um - we're working on things together, different strategies. Just - there's so much stuff that I'm... that I'm having to realize I've been, like, doing to myself and even now I feel like... I feel like there's still something there that I don't know about yet - something beyond being... beyond being bipolar. I don't - I don't know what it is but... There's something else wrong with me," April bit her lip again, her skin starting to feel clammy. So much of her time with Dr. Whitehall was April just unpacking her own psyche, she hadn't even really begun yet to even really learn how to use the tools, how to deconstruct her own thoughts to find their causes. She was still just finding repressed emotion after emotion, a dam finally broken.

Madalyne felt bad for April she wasn't sure what she could do to try and help her she looked at April she never knew that April was diagnosed as bipolar. "We can change the subject if you don't want to talk about this if you are uncomfortable about it." She said offering April her hand.

"It's... It's fine," April said, leaving Mads' hand where it was. She felt this weight gradually beginning to increase on her shoulders, a subtle downward push. Her fingers felt as cold as ice, so she tucked them beneath her legs, using her thighs to try to return some warmth to them, some sensation. "It - it was really great seeing you, Mads!" she forced herself to smile. Forced herself to keep up some semblance of cheer. "I, um, I know that you're busy and all, so I don't - I don't wanna keep you here, so... I'll see you when we get back - when I get back, I mean, to school?" Her chest felt like it was rapidly emptying itself out, hollowing.

Madalyne gave April a smile and pulled her into another hug. "It was great to see you as well, and of course i'll see you back at school." Madalyne said as she started to stand up. "And i'm always there for you if you ever need to talk or anything, and if you want me to come and visit you between now and when you get back to school let me know."

April returned the hug, the smile fading from her face. "Y-yeah! I'll - I'll let you know. Th-thanks Mads - I really - I really appreciate it."
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