Kalliope & Sjan-dehk
Part 4
Date: Sola 27th
Time: Early Morning
Location: Small Inn
Kalliope stirred as the first light of morning filtered into the room, the warmth of the bed and the weight of exhaustion keeping her in a hazy, dreamlike state. Her body felt heavy, her muscles achingly relaxed in a way that seemed unfamiliar. Slowly, her senses began to return. First, the scent of salt and something earthy, comforting and faintly familiar. Then, the steady rhythm of a heartbeat beneath her ear. The rise and fall of a chest.
She froze.
Her mind, still sluggish from sleep, struggled to piece together what was happening. She blinked up at the ceiling, her thoughts sluggishly fumbling over why it felt closer than it should have. And then it hit her. Her cheek was resting against someoneâs bare chest â firm, warm, and undeniably alive.
Her breath caught, and her heart seemed to stop altogether as the weight of realization began to creep in. Slowly, tentatively, she shifted her head ever so slightly, her eyes trailing upward to find a face. Sjan-dehk. He was there, his features softened in sleep. His lips parted slightly as he exhaled a slow, steady breath, utterly peaceful in a way that struck her like a lightning bolt.
Panic seized her.
A rush of heat flooded her cheeks as her body stiffened. Thatâs when she realizedâŚher skin. Her bare skin. The blanket was draped over her, but beneath it, there was nothing. Absolutely nothing. Her hands clutched at the fabric instinctively, pulling it tighter around herself as a flood of half-formed memories and blurred sensations assaulted her. She couldnât make sense of them. There was too much, and yet not enough.
She sat there for a long moment, her chest tight and her pulse racing as she tried to catch her breath. Her mind scrambled for answers, replaying the events of the previous night in her head, but they felt slippery, disjointed. There were gaps, and the more she searched for them, the harder they were to grasp. She couldn't really remember anything beyond sitting down to look over the letter.
âSjan-dehk,â she murmured, her voice barely above a whisper as she gave his chest the smallest of nudges. When he didnât stir, she tried again, this time with a bit more urgency.
âSjan-dehk!â She was sitting up now, staring down at him as she held the blanket to her chest.
The peaceful, dreamless sleep should have been his first clue that something was wrong.
For sleep didnât come easily to Sjan-dehk. Not in recent days, in any case, and certainly not this kind of serene, untroubled sleep. Most of his nights since coming to Sorian had been plagued by dreams, or nightmares, or something else entirely. He didnât quite know what to call them. Only when he was well-and-properly fatigued did his mind spare him of that mysterious lady, of those terrible scenes, of painful memories he would rather forget.
And as far as he could recall, last night hadnât tired him to that point. It had been exciting, surely, but it didnât exactly take much out of him.
Kalliopeâs urgent call pulled him from his rest. Sjan-dehkâs eyes shot open, and he quickly sat up, the sudden move almost throwing the covers off of his body. The first thing he noticed â even before his vision cleared â was the cooling draft washing over his skin. That was strange; he didnât recall taking off his clothes.
âWhat happened?â he asked, his voice hoarse and groggy.
âDid we fall asleep?â With a few rapid blinks, he cleared the sleep from his eyes.
Then, he felt his heart stop.
Sitting right beside him, and with only the covers protecting her modesty, was Kalliope.
âS-Sorry!â He blurted out, immediately turning his head away. From what he felt upon his body, he knew that he too was utterly naked, but that fact only floated on the surface of his strangely lethargic mind. He tried to think, but his thoughts crawled like torpid snails into his head. And when they arrived, they were in a tangled mess, each with no clear start, no clear end, and splitting into their own threads and melding with each other.
He drew in a deep breath.
The last thing he could remember of last night was reading the letter with Kalliope. Everything after that, however, wasnât just a blur. It was completely missing. There was a gaping hole in his memory, and the more he tried to piece things together, the more confused and worried he became. But one thing was for certain. Kalliope and he had done something, and based on what he had awoken to, it wasnât difficult for him to figure out just what that something was.
âFuck,â he said in a quiet voice. Turning back to face Kalliope, he looked at her with a face that made his worry, his unease, and his haunted realisation all too clear.
âFuck. What did I fucking do to you?âKalliope stared at him, her chest rising and falling rapidly as her mind spiraled further and further out of control. His reaction â the panic in his voice, the guilt etched across his face â wasnât helping her own. If anything, it made the situation even more real.
âFuck,â she repeated, her voice quiet but laced with disbelief and growing terror. The word sat heavy in the air, the irony of it hitting her like a slap. Her gaze dropped to the rumpled blanket that clung to her chest, and her lips parted as the weight of what they must have done settled over her. She didnât know whether to laugh, cry, or screamâŚso she let out a small, bitter laugh.
âThatâs exactly what it looks like we did, isnât it?â she said, her tone biting with a mix of sarcasm and disbelief as she pressed a trembling hand to her temple.
âFuck.â It came out much more harsh than she intended and she realized she needed to calm herself down some as she took a deep breath.
âOkay,â she began, trying to work through things.
âHere's what I remember. We entered the room, I began trying to work out the letter, but it made no sense. I remember feeling frustrated and also drinkingââ she froze as her eyes went wide.
âThe teaâŚâ She whispered in horror, but then she turned to Sjan-dehk.
âDo you remember any more than that? You drank the tea too, yes?â There was a frantic quality to her voice as she slowly began to realize that they may have been drugged, but she needed to confirm what Sjan-dehk remembered.
The tea!
That got Sjan-dehkâs mind back on track. He thought back to the previous night, to the strange taste of the tea, and how Kalliope couldnât seem to identify it. Now that he placed every event, every word said back then under scrutiny, he began to make out a picture. All had been normal up until the point when she drank from her cup. Sjan-dehk had thought that she had been merely teasing him, but the way her words came out had sounded a little different from her usual, playful tone.
âYes, I did,â he said in a murmur, then shook his head and, in a louder voice, continued,
âI remember that you drank it first, and you said something aboutâŚâ He trailed off, familiar awkwardness returning to him. He wasnât quite sure if he missed it.
âAbout the kiss in the estate. Then I drank, and after that I canât remember a damn thing. I just remember feelingâŚI donât know, carefree? Or drunk.âHe looked past Kalliope and at the cups. They were still where they had been left.
âYou think maybe someone laced it?â He asked, even though he felt quite certain he already knew the answer. A quick glance at the table all but confirmed it for him.
âThe letter,â he breathed.
âItâs gone!ââShit!â Kalliopeâs voice cracked like a whip as Sjan-dehkâs words reached her. All sense of modesty vanished as she flung the covers off herself and spun to the edge of the bed. The cool air hit her bare skin, but she didnât care. Her mind was too preoccupied, too focused on the implications of the missing letter to care about her state of undress.
âCover yourself!â Sjan-dehk shouted out, and immediately looked away again, this time holding up a hand in front of his eyes to make sure he didnât see anything he shouldnât. Moving blindly, he swung his legs over the side of the bed, taking the sheets with him. By sheer luck, he found his trousers on the floor and hurriedly tugged them on before following behind Kalliope, his eyes averted and aimed at the ceiling, the walls, and at anything other than her.
She spotted her undergarments crumpled on the floor nearby and scrambled to retrieve them, her back to Sjan-dehk as she quickly began to pull them on. Her movements were frantic, almost desperate, her fingers fumbling over the fabric. If Sjan-dehk looked at her back â and it would have been hard not to, given her sudden urgency â he would have seen the scars that marred her skin. They were pale, jagged streaks, unmistakable remnants of violent lashings. Anyone with experience in the horrors of such punishments would recognize them for what they were: the brutal, lasting marks of a whip. And there were so many of them. It was as if her entire back had once been a canvas for someoneâs cruelty.
But Kalliope didnât give him time to process what he saw. She hurried to the table, her bare feet padding softly against the wooden floor as her eyes darted across the room, searching for the letter.
âIt has to be here somewhere,â she muttered, half to herself, half to him. She dropped to her knees, peering under the table, her heart racing with dread.
âIt couldâve fallen, orââHer words stopped abruptly as her gaze fell upon the chair near the table. There, sitting almost mockingly, was something so horrifying it turned her blood to ice. The innkeeper, Elynaâs head, sat perched on the chair, her expression frozen in a grotesque mask of fear. Her lifeless eyes stared blankly ahead, and clutched between her lips was what appeared to be a rolled-up piece of paper.
Kalliopeâs breath caught in her throat, and for a moment, she couldnât make a sound. Her stomach churned violently, threatening to empty its contents as the sight fully registered. Then, finally, a scream tore from her throat, raw and filled with utter terror. She stumbled back, tripping over her own feet as she fell to the ground. Her palms scraped against the floor as she scrambled away from the chair, her body trembling violently.
âElyna!â she cried, her voice breaking as she pressed herself against the far wall, as far from the chair as she could manage. Her emerald eyes darted wildly to Sjan-dehk, wide with fear and horror.
âSheâsâsheâsâher headâSjan-dehk!â Her words tumbled out in a frantic rush, her hands pressing against her mouth to stifle another scream as she shut her eyes tightly, trying to get ahold of herself. Trying to convince herself that her friend's head wasn't sitting on that chair.
Sjan-dehkâs jaw set when he saw the innkeeperâs head. All of his earlier confusion and awkwardness disappeared in an instant. Whoever it was that had drugged them had not only caused both him and Kalliope great trouble, but they had also seen fit to murder an innocent innkeeper who had made the mistake of providing a room to the two of them. And all for what? A letter? Some foul business? That very thought made him sick.
He placed a hand on Kalliopeâs shoulder and gave it a gentle squeeze. Then, he carefully draped the sheets around her.
âIâll handle this,â he said quietly before walking over to the severed head.
In all honesty, he didnât know how he was going to handle this. Dai-sehk was the better man for such a situation; that man would have identified the type of weapon used, which hand the killer used, and also what time the innkeeper had met her untimely demise, all within the time it took for Sjan-dehk to simply get his bearings. But the surgeon wasnât here.
Sjan-dehk sighed and knelt before the head. The look of fright told him that the innkeeper likely had to see her killer, and their intent. Was it someone she had known? It seemed unlikely â someone like that could have simply taken her by surprise. No, this was a stranger. Next, Sjan-dehk looked at the neck. The cut was mostly clean, with very few jagged edges and hanging flesh. Whatever blade had been used, it had been a remarkably sharp one, and wielded by an experienced knifeman. And they had to have taken their time. That meant that the innkeeper had to have been killed before she was decapitated. And that, in turn, told Sjan-dehk that the killer wasnât just a simple madman. All this had been done with a purpose in mind. But what?
He paused and blinked. It hadnât occurred to him until now, but he could still remember a time when a sight as grisly as this would turn his stomach. When did that stop happening? He knew the reason why, though; he had seen many, many atrocities of every type during the war. After a while, his eyes simply stopped seeing them as anything out-of-the-ordinary. After a while, his mind didnât even think of them as anything outrageous, but rather, something that had to be investigated.
âFair seas; black sands; tall mountains; shadowed trees; long rivers, may you find where you will be at peace,â he muttered beneath his breath, then closed his eyes for a moment. Maybe he could â no, maybe he should remember what it was like to be affected by such crimes.
Carefully, he took the rolled-up paper between his thumb and index finger, and slowly pulled it free of the dead womanâs teeth. It was mostly dry, and unfolded easily enough. He read it quickly once, then again, and only after that did he start reading.
âTo the Captain and theâŚThe pretender. YouâŚYouâre not as clever as you think. She trusted you. She gave you a place to rest. And now her bl- her blood is on your hands.âHe glanced at the head.
âWhat a load of fucking gullshit,â he remarked. Then, he continued.
âThis is only the begi- the beginning. You can try to run. But there is noâŚescape. You both have your secrets. Your sins. Your scars. Things you th- thought were buried. IâŚI know them all. I see you for what you truly are.â Despite the gravity and grimness of the situation, it took all of Sjan-dehkâs control to not burst out in a derisive laugh. He had only been in Sorian for roughly a week. What secrets did this person know of him?
His face hardened at the next line, however.
âSailor, your crew will be next if youâre not careful.ââItâs Captain,â he muttered.
âAnd what a fucking idiot. If they wanted to go after my crew, they should just do it. Now that weâve got warning, weâll know what to do. Bloody fucking amateurs.ââAs for the girl, do you really think the world has forgotten your crimes?â Sjan-dehk glanced over the paperâs edge at Kalliope.
âMaybe I- Iâll finish what the whip started.â He drew in a deep breath, but he found it difficult to calm himself. He had seen the scars on Kalliopeâs back, and he had guessed that they were whipping scars. But to see it confirmed like this just made his blood boil. He crumpled the paper and tossed it aside as if it were poison.
âThey signed off with âB.R.â, and said something about last night,â he summarised.
âSo whoever did this-â he gestured to the head and shook his own
â-stuck around for whatever fucking reason.â He squatted in front of Kalliope, placing both hands on her shoulders.
âIâm sorry for all this,â he said quietly.
âMaybe we shouldâve gone to Sada Kurau after all. But I promise you, whoever it was that did this shiteâs going to get whatâs coming. They can threaten all they want and try to sound mysterious all they want, but Sada Kurauâs fought tougher foes before. Itâs them who should be scared.âShe stayed slumped against the wall, her breaths coming shallow and uneven as Sjan-dehk read the note aloud. Every word sank deeper into her chest, coiling like a viper around her ribs and sinking it's venomous bite in deeper with each sentence. She didnât flinch when he crouched in front of her, his hands firm and steady on her shoulders. The steadiness was a mockery to her chaos, and for a brief moment, she hated him for it. Hated that he could be calm while her insides were tearing themselves apart.
âThisâŚâ Her voice came out a cracked whisper, but the anger surged too hot to stay contained.
âThis is my fault. All of it. Elynaâs death. The tea. The letter. Whatever happened between us last night.â Her teeth clenched as her emerald gaze darted away from him, shame flickering in their depths.
âIf I hadnâtâŚif I hadnât teased you, pushed you, thrown myself at you like some desperate, stupid girlââHer nails dug into her arms, tearing into the already tender flesh sheâd been clawing at moments before. Blood beaded and ran down in slow rivulets, but she didnât care. The pain was grounding, but not enough to stop the torrent of self-loathing spilling from her lips.
Sjan-dehk listened to her, and though he shook his head, he said nothing for now. He had an inkling as to what was coming. It was something he had gone through several times before. Both as the one listening, and the one spiralling into despair. As much as he wanted to comfort her now, he knew that now was the time to allow her to speak. To allow her to release as much of the pressure building up in her heart and mind as possible.
âIâm an idiot,â she spat, her voice sharp and filled with venom, directed entirely at herself.
âI thought flirting and games were harmless. But no. No, because here we are. Drugged. In a bed we never shouldâve been in together. And youââ Her voice cracked, and her fingers curled tighter against her bloodied arms.
âYou looked like you hated that you found yourself here, rightfully so. And now youâre stuck in this mess because of me.âHer head fell back against the wall, her eyes squeezed shut, and her jaw tightened as if she were physically holding herself together. The weight of his steady presence was unbearable. She felt like she didnât deserve it, didnât deserve his patience or his understanding. He shouldnât be here. He should be with his crew, his ship, his life â not cleaning up the wreckage of hers.
âMaybe if Iâd just stayed out of your life entirely, none of this wouldâve happened,â she muttered bitterly, her voice soft but trembling with the sharp edges of her emotions.
âMaybe if I hadnât teased, or flirted, orâfuckâbeen alive, you wouldnât be in danger now. Your crew wouldnât be in danger. Elyna would still be alive. And last night wouldnât be someâŚsome nightmare we have to drag around with us.âHer chest rose and fell rapidly, the storm of guilt and anger building and crashing inside her, but she forced her eyes open, fixing Sjan-dehk with a look that was both desperate and resolute. Her lips pressed into a thin line, her nails unclenching from her arms. The blood-streaked trails on her skin stung, but they were nothing compared to the ache of the weight crushing her chest.
âYou shouldnât be here, Sjan-dehk,â she said, her voice steadying as a cold, bitter resolve set in.
âThis isnât your fight. You shouldn't have to deal with this. And if they want me, then they can fucking come for me.âHer lips curled into a bitter, humorless smile.
âMaybe theyâll succeed where others failed. Maybe theyâll finally finish what I couldnât do myself, no matter how hard I tried.âThe words hung in the air, heavy with the weight of a dark history she refused to explain. Her jaw tightened, her knuckles white as her fists curled at her sides. She wouldnât cry. She wouldnât break. She would not yield.
âI shouldnât be here,â Sjan-dehk repeated with a nod.
âYouâre right there. As far as how things should be, I should be home in Iwa-Jafi, sitting in harbour and waiting for my next assignment. I shouldnât be on the other side of the world, in a strange city and surrounded by strange things. If youâd asked me a week ago about how I think things should be, Iâd tell you that I should be doing what I swore to do, and be patrolling Viserjantan seas for pirates. That, or doing whatever nonsense the navy wants me to do. Maybe Iâd just be standing on Sada Kurau and staring into nothing all day. Who knows?âBefore she could say anything, he placed his hands on her shoulders once more. Determination was in his eyes when he looked at her.
âBut now that Iâm here, I canât say I regret a single thing. Aye, Iâve likely gotten into more trouble than I shouldâve, but thatâs nothing new for me. Troubleâs always close behind me, wherever I go.â He placed his hands on hers, and carefully brought them to the floor. His touch was gentle, and his expression soft, as he picked up his sash and used it to wipe the blood off of her arms.
âI donât hate that Iâm here,â he said as he dabbed the cloth against her wounds.
âIâmâŚWell, you likely know by now that Iâm not exactly used to this sort of thing. But I donâtâŚâ He trailed off, heat flooding his cheeks and the words suddenly refusing to leave his mouth. He forced them out, anyway.
âI donât hate it. If I look like I do, then I apologise. I just donât really know how to respond to them.â He glanced up at her with a grin, meant to comfort her.
âBut I guess Iâm learning, eh?âOnce the wounds were clean enough, he dropped the sash. Then, he pulled Kalliope into a hug. His movements were awkward, and his arms didnât seem to know where they were supposed to go, but he hoped that he made up for it with his sincerity. He placed a hand on the back of her head, fingers brushing through her hair.
âWhat happened to Elyna isnât your fault,â he whispered.
âThe only person who should be blamed is the one who killed her. For what reason did they have to kill an innkeeper, of all people? To send a message? Thatâs just a wicked cunt being a wicked cunt. Nobody couldâve expected that theyâd do something like that over a damn letter.ââAnd as for Sada Kurau and my crew,â he continued, pausing to let out a short chuckle.
âDonât worry about them. Worry more about the ones going after them. They might not look it, but every last one of themâs a veteran in their own right. They can take care of themselves. And nobody sails with Sada Kurau expecting to have an easy and trouble-free time. They knew what they were getting into when they decided to join her crew.âHe gently pressed her head into his shoulder, his other hand slowly patting her back.
âAnd Iâd hate to tell you this, but youâre stuck with me whether you like it or not, on this. Iâve already sunk at least two of thisâŚâB.R.âs ships, and Iâm not about to stop. I reckon theyâd come after me eventually, even if you werenât involved.â He leaned back and looked at her with a smile.
âSo youâre not alone in this, Kali. If they want you, then theyâll have to deal with me, with Sada Kurau, and with her crew.âKalliope froze in Sjan-dehkâs embrace, her breath hitching as his arms settled awkwardly yet firmly around her. She didnât move at first, her body stiff against his, but the steady rhythm of his heart and the warmth of his touch began to chip away at the walls sheâd frantically built around herself. Slowly, hesitantly, she wrapped her arms around him, clinging to him as if he were the only thing tethering her to reality.
Her grip tightened, and for a fleeting moment, she let herself rest against him. His scent filled her senses, grounding her more than she cared to admit. It was comforting, soothing even, until a memory flashed vividly before her eyes: waking up tangled in him, her head on his chest, his heartbeat lulling her into a moment of peace she hadnât known in years.
Her breath caught again, but this time for an entirely different reason. The shame sheâd tried to push away surged back, sharp and unrelenting. She squeezed her eyes shut, holding onto him for just a moment longer, before finally pulling back. She untangled herself from his arms carefully, her hands lingering for a second before she pushed herself up from the floor and stepped away entirely.
âThank you,â she said softly, her voice trembling but sincere.
âFor your kindness. For your reassurance. IâŚI donât deserve it, but thank you.ââDonât say that,â Sjan-dehk said, his voice just as soft.
âYou do deserve it. And for what itâs worth, Iâm giving it to you anyway.âShe turned away, her movements deliberate as she crossed the room to retrieve the rest of her clothing. She didnât meet his gaze as she dressed, her hands fumbling slightly as she pulled her dress on and fastened the ties.
âIâm sorry for freaking out like that,â she said, her tone quieter now, as if she were ashamed of her outburst.
âI⌠I donât know how to deal with all of this currently. Everything feels like itâs crashing down at once, and IâŚI just need some time to process.âShe glanced over her shoulder, her emerald eyes flickering with a mix of gratitude and unease.
âYou should go back to your crew. They need you more than I do right now. AndâŚâ She hesitated, chewing on her bottom lip before forcing the next words out, her voice laced with nervousness.
âIâll⌠Iâll make sure thereâs no, um, child that results fromâŚfrom last night. You donât have to worry about that. Iâll handle it. That way, we can justâŚpretend it didnât happen. Move on.ââMy crew will be fine,â Sjan-dehk said with a shake of his head.
âIf they canât live without me for a few hours, then Iâve taken on the wrong people. Donât think I can leave you on your own right now, even if I want to. Which I donât.âAt first, Sjan-dehk didnât understand what Kalliope meant by her next words. But when he did, a flush came over his cheeks, and he averted his eyes. Clearing his throat, he composed himself as best he could before speaking.
âThatâŚYou wonât need to do that,â he said awkwardly, scratching the back of his head and glancing at her.
âIfâŚWell, if somethingâŚI mean, someone results from what we did, Iâm not going to run away. Iâll ahâŚIâll take responsibility for it. Properly. Iâll be proper about it, donât worry about a thing.âHe swallowed hard before continuing.
âAnd, well, whatever happened, happened. We donâtâŚWell, to pretend that it didnât happen wonât make things any different.â The pink flush of his cheeks deepened to a burning scarlet.
âIt really doesnât bother me. Honest.âHer words were rushed, her face flushing slightly as she fiddled with the hem of her bodice, avoiding his eyes. After a moment, she straightened, forcing a small, tight smile.
âThank you again, Sjan-dehk. For everything. I wonât forget it.â She folded her arms across her chest, suddenly feeling very small as she stood there.
âAnd I suppose you're right, we're in this together now. So if any more threats or anything come to you or your crew, please let me know? I'll be sure to do the same.âSjan-dehk nodded and released a mental sigh of relief, grateful for the change of subject.
âAnd if you like, youâre welcome to stay about Sada Kurau for as long as you need. Doesnât sound like dry landâs going to be safe.âHer eyes then caught sight of the head on the chair and she felt like she's been stabbed once more, but pushed it aside as she sighed.
âFuck. I guess I need to figure out what to do with herâŚâA grimace formed on Sjan-dehkâs face as he followed her gaze.
âWe should treat her proper,â was all he could manage to say. He walked over to the head, picking up a sheet along the way. With respect and as much solemness as he could manage, he carefully draped the white cloth over the head.
âIâm pretty sure the rest of her should still be downstairs,â he mused aloud.
âWe canâŚCollect her, and do whatever it is you Caesonians do with your dead. OtherwiseâŚI donât think anyone would complain if I send her off the Jafin way.âHe paced around the room, picking up his clothes along the way and throwing them on.
âItâs the least we can do, I suppose. But donât rush yourself, Kali. Take all the time you need.âKalliopeâs jaw tightened as Sjan-dehk spoke, her vivid green eyes fixed on the sheet-covered head with a hollow stare. His kindness, his willingness to take responsibility, and the way he respected Elynaâeven in deathâonly made it harder for her to keep her emotions at bay. She folded her arms tightly across her chest, a futile attempt to shield herself from the storm of feelings threatening to consume her.
She inhaled sharply through her nose, turning her head away from him as she tried to gather her thoughts.
âIâŚâ Her voice cracked, and she swallowed hard.
âI canâtâŚpretend last night didnât happen. Youâre right about that.â Her gaze remained distant as she spoke, her words slow and deliberate.
âBut I also canât fully deal with it right now. Everythingâs tooâŚraw. And I donât trust myself to say or do the right thing. Not yet.âShe pressed her lips into a thin line, a flash of guilt passing across her face.
âI crossed a line I set for myself, Sjan-dehk. Something I swore I wouldnât let happen.â Her voice was softer now, almost as if confessing to herself.
âAnd it wasnât just about last night. Itâs about what led up to it, all my flirting and teasing. About how I let myselfâŚâ She faltered, shaking her head.
âLet myself start feeling things I shouldnât feel. For you.ââWhat are you-â Sjan-dehk began, his eyes widening and hands frozen in the middle of tightening his sword-and-pistol belt around his waist. For the moment, he could only focus on her. Was she saying what he thought she was saying? Had he heard her correctly? Questions sprouted in his head, and thankfully, he didnât have to wonder for long. Kalliope went on before he could finish his sentence.
Her arms dropped to her sides, and she finally turned to face him, her expression as guarded as ever.
âIâll explain, Sjan-dehk. I owe you that much and more honestly. But I need time to figure outâŚhow I feel. About all of this. About us.â Her voice softened as she added, almost as if to herself,
âIf there even is an âusâ to figure out.âSjan-dehk nodded slowly. There was little doubt in his head as to what Kalliope had meant, and what it was that she needed to figure out. A flutter rippled across his heart at the thought â how else could he react, knowing that a lady as pretty as her held fondness towards him? And yet, at the same time, a ball of nervousness settled in his stomach, mixed with relief. What if she had said what she wanted to say? How would he have responded? How did he really feel about her? Sjan-dehk found no quick answers to those questions. Never had he thought that he would have to even consider them.
He cleared his throat, using the action as an excuse to avert his gaze for a moment.
âYes, thereâs no rush forâŚThis sort of thing, yes?â He said awkwardly.
Might have to start thinking about this thing as well, he added in his head. The least he could do was to be ready with an answer when Kalliope told him how she felt. He just hoped that it wouldnât be a disappointing one.
She shifted uncomfortably, running a hand through her auburn waves before refocusing on the grim task at hand.
âAs for ElynaâŚâ Kalliope trailed off, her lips pressing into a thin line as she glanced back at the draped head. A pang of guilt twisted in her chestâElyna deserved more than to be treated as a problem to be solved, but circumstances didnât leave them much choice.
âI hate this,â she muttered bitterly, more to herself than him.
âBut we canât risk this being traced back to us. If someone ties her death to me, or to you, itâll be a death sentence for both of us. If weâre lucky.âHer eyes flicked to Sjan-dehkâs face, searching his expression for any sign of judgment or disagreement.
âA Jafin burial might be the best option. Itâs dignified, itâs final, and it keeps her far from prying eyes.â She hesitated, her brows furrowing in thought.
âIâm hoping the rest of her body is downstairs, like you said, and no one else has found it yet. Maybe we can make it look like she disappeared. If her people suspect foul play and decide to start asking questions, weâre both going to be in deep shit.ââWe Jafins leave no graves, as they say,â Sjan-dehk replied. The pain lacing Kalliopeâs words and on her face didnât go unnoticed by him. He stepped forward, adjusting his belts as he did so, and placed himself between her eyes and the head.
âWeâll have to get her to Sada Kurau. Sheâll take care of her properly until itâs time for her to meet the Eternal Horizon. Iâll have the crew see to it.âA heavy silence fell as she considered their options, the weight of the decision settling on her shoulders.
âIâll go with you,â she said finally, her voice quiet but resolute.
âToâŚcollect the rest of her. She deserves at least that much respect.â She exhaled, her hands trembling slightly before she clenched them into fists at her sides.
âAnd if we do this right, we can make sure no one ever ties this to us.âShe paused, then added in a near-whisper,
âIâm sorry you got dragged into this. You didnât deserve it.âTurning toward the door, she glanced over her shoulder, her expression a mixture of guilt, gratitude, and something far more complicated.
âLetâs get this over with. Then we can figure out the rest.âAs Sjan-dehk placed his back atop his head, so too did he wipe his mind of his earlier thoughts. Now wasnât the time for him to ponder over the events of last night; of how Kalliope and he had woken up this morning, or even about his feelings. He had a mission â to recover the innkeeperâs body if it was still around, and then somehow bring it to [/I]Sada Kurau[/I]. That was all he needed to know.
âIâll go first,â he said, approaching the door and drawing a pistol. With a hand on the knob, he drew in a deep breath before opening it suddenly. He burst through the doorway, firelock raised and aimed at the far end of the corridor. Then, he quickly spun around to check the other direction.
âHallway looks clear,â he called back to Kalliope. Even so, he maintained a vigilant watch. The innkeeperâs murderer had been watching them throughout the night. They could still be hidden away somewhere.
âYou know this place better than I do,â Sjan-dehk said.
âLead the way, and Iâll watch your back.âKalliope moved swiftly and silently down the hallway, blade in hand.
âElynaâs room is at the far end, left side,â she whispered over her shoulder to Sjan-dehk.
âShe always retired there alone before dawn. Well, unless she decided to enjoy the company of someone for the night. If her bodyâs anywhere, itâll be there.âThe faint scent of lavender clung to the air, a scent distinctly Elyna for Kalliope, a pang of hurt gripped her chest. Her jaw tightened, her grip on her weapon firm as they reached the door. She paused, her sharp green eyes darting to Sjan-dehk.
âBe ready. If the murderer is still here, well,â she murmured as a darkness crept over her features,
âyou might have to stop me from ripping their fucking throat out.âSjan-dehk nodded, holding his pistol in one hand, and the other resting on one of his swords.
Pushing the door open cautiously, she stepped inside. Sjan-dehk followed in after her, sweeping the muzzle of his pistol over the walls and ceiling. The curtains were drawn, casting the room in dim shadows. At first glance, everything appeared undisturbed, but the air felt heavy, oppressive and a slight metallic scent mingled with that of lavender. Kalliope scanned the space, her stomach knotting as her eyes fell to the dark, viscous stain near the bed. Blood.
Her gaze lingered on the crimson trail leading to the far side of the room, where Elynaâs crumpled body lay, twisted and lifeless. The jagged stump where her head had been was unmistakable, confirming the gruesome reality.
Kalliope swallowed hard, forcing down the wave of nausea clawing its way up her throat.
âGodsâŚâ she muttered under her breath, stepping closer with measured care. She once again pushes her feelings aside, knowing they needed to get to business. She scanned the room quickly, not seeing any remnants of a killer, before she moved to open the curtains slightly to let in some light so they could see better.
âElyna has family up in Javaria. I'll right a letter in Elyna's handwriting for the staff to find that explains that she had a family emergency and had to travel up there. That'll buy us time to find who did this.â She pulled out a piece of paper and, using a partially written letter that was already on the desk, started copying Elyna's handwriting for the letter.
She turned to Sjan-dehk, her voice steady despite the slight tremor in her hands.
âWe need to get her to your ship, but doing so in broad daylight might be difficult. We could always leave the window unlocked, hide the body for now, and retrieve it later tonight when there's less eyes around and more shadows to hide in.â Her gaze flicked back to Elynaâs mutilated form, and her jaw set with grim determination, before she glanced back at Sjan-dehk.
âUnless you have any ideas?âSjan-dehk shook his head.
âNo, canât say I do. Weâll do as you say.âHe glanced at the body and grimaced. Then, he looked at Kalliopeâs trembling hands, at the dimness in her eyes, and at the grimness colouring her visage. Wordlessly, he slowly and carefully picked his way to the bed sitting under the windowsill. He grabbed a corner of an unkempt sheet, pulled it free, and returned to the body.
âFair seas; black sands; tall mountains; long rivers; shadowed trees; clear skies, may you find peace wherever you may go,â he said again in a hushed voice as he covered the innkeeperâs body with the sheet.
Kalliopeâs breath hitched as she watched Sjan-dehk carefully shroud Elynaâs body, his whispered farewell carrying a reverence that struck her like a tidal wave. The tenderness in his actions warmed her, softening the edges of the chaos inside her, yet it also made her chest ache unbearably. Every small, thoughtful gesture of his reminded her of why her resolve to keep him at armâs length was crumbling. He wasnât just kind; he was steady, dependable, and far too good for someone like her. Her grip on the desk tightened as she fought the rising tide of her feelings, forcing herself to bury them for the momentâjust as she always had.
âThank you for that.â She all but whispered as she turned her focus back to the letter she was writing.
âWe can put her on the bed,â he said and circled the body to tuck the edges of the sheet under it. He tried to perform the task with as much respect as possible, but that was a tall order, considering that he was trying to secure the corpse in the sheet as tightly as possible.
âWhen youâre finished, Iâll bring the rest of her over. Prying eyesâll likely think sheâs sleeping.âHe looked out the window and chewed on his lip.
âThe murderous bastard couldâve people watching the entrance. Or at least, thatâs what that cunt and his friends should do, if theyâve got any brains to share between them. Sneaking out the window might be better for us. Then we can leave it unlocked for tonight.â The words came out clinically, as if he were planning an operation. But as he turned to face Kalliope, his gaze softened. When he spoke again, his tone was a world apart from before.
âYou should come to Sada Kurau with me.â It wasnât so much a statement, as it was a plea. Leaving her alone, after all this, felt like the wrong thing to do.
âAt least for the rest of the day. Itâll be safer. Weâll be heading out again tonight anyway. Having you aboard will make finding each other that much easier.âShe folded the letter with deliberate care, the weight of Sjan-dehk's plea pressing on her chest. She hesitated, her eyes flicking between him and the shrouded body. Slowly, she stepped toward him.
âI'll help move her.â She said while bending to help lift Elynaâs lifeless form onto the bed. Her movements were methodical, yet her mind swirled with conflicting emotions.
âIâll come to the ship,â she murmured, avoiding his gaze as they worked.
âLater today. I promise. But I need to handle a few things first.â The words came clipped, heavy with an unspoken need for spaceâto breathe, to think, and to seek Rionaâs advice before facing whatever unspoken connection lingered between them.
Sjan-dehk started to speak, but held his tongue. Both his heart and mind would be so much more at ease with her aboard. However, something told him that he shouldnât push the matter.
Once Elynaâs body was settled, Kalliope stepped back, brushing a strand of hair from her face as she made her way to the closet.
âThereâs just one problem with leaving her on the bed to look like she's sleeping,â she said, grabbing handfuls of clothes and tossing them onto the bed. She began arranging them haphazardly, covering the lump of Elynaâs form until it resembled nothing more than a disordered pile of belongings.
She then moved to the desk and held up the letter sheâd written, her sharp green eyes meeting Sjan-dehkâs.
âIf sheâs supposed to be gone, it would be suspicious if someone found her âsleepingâ here.â Her tone was calm, it being eerily clear how used she was to covering up a murder.
âIf someone checks in here, it should look like she packed in a hurry. Itâll explain the mess.â She then moved to the door and placed the letter on a small table that sat against the wall just outside of the room. She then quietly shut the door and moved back towards Sjan-dehk.
"This way, no one will question it until it's too late.â She stated as she glanced around one last time, nodding once she was satisfied.
âReady to go?ââIâm not the best at these things,â Sjan-dehk said and took one last look around the room. Everything looked as normal as it could be. He couldnât say that he found anything that he thought anyone else would find suspicious. At least, not with Kalliopeâs forged letter selling the scene. That said, she did seem a little
too well-versed in doing such things. It didnât really bother him â his third brother was in more-or-less the same kind of work â but it did make him a little curious.
Well, curiosity would have to wait.
âIf youâre happy, Iâm happy,â Sjan-dehk finished and tilted his head towards the window.
âShould we jump out the window or try our luck with the front door?âKalliope gave Sjan-dehk a faint smirk, the glimmer of determination cutting through her weariness.
âI think your call about going out the window is the right one.â She crossed the room, her movements precise and practiced. Unlocking the window, she pushed it open with a soft creak and glanced down to gauge the drop.
âNot too bad and no window below us,â she murmured, then took her heels off and tossed them out. She swung one leg over the sill, her balance steady.
With a deft movement, Kalliope slid out and gripped the ledge, her feet finding purchase on the uneven wall below. Her descent was fluid, almost feline, as she dropped the last few feet to the ground, landing silently in a crouch. Straightening, she dusted off her hands and tilted her head up to Sjan-dehk.
âCome on, Captain. Try to keep up.â Her voice held a wry edge, but her eyes betrayed a flicker of warmth.
Despite the situation, and the body on the bed practically under him, Sjan-dehk grinned. It was a tiny one, but still a grin nonetheless.
âDonât worry,â he said.
âNot the first window Iâve jumped out of.âHe placed a hand on the windowsill, taking a moment to make sure he had a firm grip. Then, with an ease that was almost practiced, he vaulted through the opening. His scabbards scraped against the window frame, but they made only a quiet sound. He didnât bother with the wall Kalliope had used to break her fall. Instead, he landed directly on the ground, rolling on his side to cushion the impact. He stood up beside her, brushing himself off with a self-assured smirk.
âSee?â He said.
For the first time this morning, the sun personally greeted him with its warmth and light. The sky was clear, and the clouds long and wispy.
âStill early in the day,â he remarked before turning his attention to Kalliope. Part of him still worried over her, but he knew better than to fuss over her.
âLetâs find our way to the street. Then we can go where we need to go.âShe shook her head, a faint smirk tugging at her lips despite herself.
âShow-off,â she teased, the words slipping out too easily. She immediately scolded herself for how natural it felt, for the familiarity she wasnât sure she was quite ready to embrace again. Clearing her throat, she turned and began leading the way toward the street, her steps purposeful but quiet.
Once they reached the alleywayâs mouth, she hesitated, glancing over her shoulder at him.
âIâll be at your ship this afternoon,â she said, her voice softer, tinged with an awkward edge.
âJustâŚgive me a few hours. Iâll keep my word.â She didnât linger on his expression, turning away quickly as if afraid she might falter.
âTake care of yourself, Captain,â she added, her voice barely above a murmur before she disappeared into the bustling streets.
âIâll see you then,â Sjan-dehk called after her. He didnât leave immediately, instead lingering just long enough to watch her safely disappear into the crowd. Only once he had fully lost sight of her did he start moving, turning away and in the direction of the docks. There would be plenty of work for him to take care of upon his return, he reckoned. That was, of course, on top of him explaining his absence the previous night to his crew. They had been expecting him to return, after all.
But even with all that on his mind, he still found it hard to avoid thinking about Kalliopeâs expression as she had left. Had she seemedâŚUpset? Sad? Sjan-dehk wasnât sure what to call it, but it couldnât be anything too positive, he guessed. Somehow, that brought a sour taste to his mouth.
He shook his head. He could think about that later. For now, he would have to see to
Sada Kurau, as well as prepare for tonightâs task.
âStay safe, Kali,â he murmured under his breath.