
Kalliope & Hafiz
Part 1
!!!Trigger Warning!!! SA, Abuse, Torture, Mental Health
Date: Sola 28th
Time: Night
Location: Castle Hallways near Banquet Hall
Kalliope stood before the mirror, adjusting the plunging neckline of her gown. She wore a striking piece of deep emerald silk that clung to her curves in all the right places. The fabric shimmered under the candlelight, the high slit along her thigh revealing just enough skin to be enticing without compromising her ability to move. Thin gold chains adorned the open back, draping delicately across her shoulders like jewelry, a deceptive touch of elegance masking the steel-edged woman beneath.
Despite the softness of the silk, she had not sacrificed practicality. A small blade was strapped discreetly to her thigh, hidden by the flowing fabric. Beauty was a weapon in itself, one she wielded just as expertly as the steel she carried.
Edinâs request had been clear: attend the banquet, blend in, and keep a watchful eye. Banquets like these were more than just an excuse for nobility to flaunt their wealth and status; they were breeding grounds for secrets, whispered alliances, and veiled threats. Not to mention , this banquet was unique and it was required of Varians to attend thanks to some suspicion on them. If something were to happen tonight, she needed to be ready.
She smoothed her hands over the gown, adjusting the small blade strapped to her thigh one last time. Satisfied with her preparations, Kalliope exhaled and turned toward the door, her heels clicking softly against the floor as she stepped into the dimly lit corridor.
The halls were quieter than usual, the usual clatter of servants preparing for the evening muffled behind closed doors. She welcomed the solitude, using the moment to settle into the role she would play tonight.
Yet, as she continued down the hall, a familiar unease slithered up her spineâwhisper of instinct honed over years of survival. She wasnât alone.
A shadow shifted at the edge of her vision, stepping into the dim glow of the sconces lining the hall. Before she could quite turn and see who her company was,
he blocked her path like a wall she would never escape.
Grand Vizier Hafiz Kadir stood before Kalliope. His dark eyes bore into her with intensity she had seen once before. His chiseled features were accentuated by the flicker of the lights, shadows dancing across his angular jaw and high cheekbones.
Draped in an opulent robe of deep purple adorned with intricate gold embroidery, every detail of his attire spoke of wealth and power. In his hands, he held the end of his long braid, his fingers idly toying with it in a dismissive manner. He tilted his head slightly as he regarded Kalliope, his lips curling into a smirk.
âLook at you,â he drawled, his tone filled with faux amusement yet patronizing,
âAll dressed up like youâre someone worth the silk on your skin.â His gaze dragged over her figure, lingering and leering as he drank her in.
"I must say, Kalliope," he murmured, voice laced with contempt,
"I'm impressed. I never expected you to crawl out of that wretched pit I threw you into. You must have clung to life like a rat, gnawing and starving, filthy and brokenâŚ" He took a step forward, eyes glinting with cruel amusement.
"But here you are," He reached out, the back of his fingers brushing over the scar he had left on her face.
"Trying so hard to act as if none of that happened." For a moment, Kalliope couldn't breathe. The world around her shrank, the grand halls of the palace fading into nothing but the suffocating weight of his presence. Hafiz Kadir.
The name alone was enough to awaken ghosts she had long since buried beneath layers of steel and willpower. But seeing himâhearing himâwas something else entirely. The years had done nothing to soften the cruel edge of his voice, nor the way it slithered under her skin like a poison she couldnât expel.
Her body betrayed her first. Her pulse slammed against her ribs, her breath caught in her throat, and for a fraction of a second, she felt small again. Felt the weight of chains around her wrists, the taste of blood in her mouth, his body pressed against her.
Then, he touched her.
A flicker of movement, the back of his fingers grazing the scar he had left on her face. A scar she had worn like armor, proof of what she had endured and what she had survived. But now, under his touch, it threatened to become something else. A brand. A reminder that, in his eyes, she would always be his possession and her stomach churned.
Hafizâs fingers hovered over the scar, as if savoring the delicate discomfort it caused her. There was something undeniably cruel in the way he lingered, his smirk widening, though his eyes never lost the sharp gleam of satisfaction. He could feel her pulse quicken beneath his touch and it stirred something wicked inside him. He had always known how to make her bleed in ways of both body and mind.
Her reaction was instant.
Before she could stop herself, her hand snapped up, fingers wrapping around his wrist in a vice-like grip. Not trembling. Not weak. Steady. Controlled. But gods, it took everything in her not to break it.
His lips parted in a near-smile, though there was no warmth in it. He could practically taste the defiance rising from her like smoke, could feel the thrum of her rage and fear coiling together like a deadly serpent. It was all too easy to toy with her, to make her wrestle with the ghosts of her past, to remind her of what she had been and still was to him.
The heat of rage warred with the ice of fear in her veins, twisting into something sharp and volatile. She forced her lips into a smirk, despite the storm clawing at her insides.
He will not see me break."Broken?â Her voice was steady, too steady, like the calm before a storm. She tilted her head slightly, her gaze narrowing into something sharp and dangerous.
"Tell me, Hafiz, does it haunt you? Knowing that no matter what you did to break me, Iâm still standing?"Hafiz's eyes flickered, a brief flash of something unreadable. He tilted his head ever so slightly, studying her with arrogance.
"Still standing," he repeated under his breath with twisted amusement, the words tasting like irony in his mouth. His smirk only deepened, the expression one of near-mocking delight as he rolled his wrist within her grasp, testing her hold as if it were nothing more than a childâs attempt at restraint.
Her grip on his wrist loosened and she let go, knowing if she injured him it could spell trouble for her. No, she would have to resist that. The ghost of the pain he'd inflicted on her tried to claw its way through, but she shoved it back, forcing a smile that dripped with false sweetness.
"You may have made me bleed, but Iâm still alive. And you? Youâre just a rat playing king in his own little kingdom. Tell me, does it taste as sweet as you imagined, knowing youâll always be lesser than your brother?"The words were a dagger, cold and cruel, meant to wound just as deeply as the ones he'd left in her past.
Hafiz laughed. A low, rich chuckle that held no mirth, only amusement that slithered beneath the skin like a whisper of something dark. He stepped closer, leisurely, as if he were not a threat but something worseâsomething inevitable.
âLesser?â He echoed, as if tasting the word.
âOh, Kalliope⌠my sweet little phantom. Do you truly believe I have ever envied my brother?â His fingers toyed idly with the end of his braid, his gaze never wavering from hers.
âRaif was made to be a symbol. A golden, glimmering puppet dressed in virtue, a fool who only exists to be paraded before the people so they can pretend the world is kind.âHe leaned in slightly, just enough that his voice dipped into something softer, something almost intimateâŚlike a secret shared between old lovers.
âBut you and I? We are not fools, are we?â His head tilted, his eyes narrowing with a cruel sort of knowing.
âYou should thank me, really. You have only ever become something because of me. It was I who gave you purpose, I who carved out the woman standing before me. Every ounce of strength you think you possessâevery bitter sip of defianceâit is what I molded from the pathetic clay you were. Without me, you are nothing but a lost little girl playing pretend in silk she doesnât even deserve.âHe sighed, feigning disappointment as he took a step back, letting his gaze drag lazily over her once more.
âAnd yet, here you stand, gnashing your teeth, trying so desperately to convince me you are whole. But tell me, KalliopeâŚâHis voice dipped, honeyed and venomous all at once.
âWhen the night is quiet, when no one is watching, do you still hear it?â He paused deliberately before continuing even softer.
âThe sound of your own screams?âHe smiled, slow and satisfied, watching for the fracture in her carefully constructed armor.
âOr have you fooled even yourself into believing you donât wake up gasping?âKalliope had endured every manner of cruelty Hafiz could devise, but thisâŚthis was what he did best. Not the scars he had left on her skin, nor the pain he had inflicted on her body, but the way he wove words into weapons, wrapping them around her like a noose.
She could feel it tightening.
The air felt thinner, her limbs heavier, as if his voice alone could drag her back into the abyss he had once thrown her into. His words slithered into her mind, curling around memories she had spent years trying to drown.
The screams.
Not just hersâthough those were the ones that haunted her mostâbut the cries of those she had been forced to silence, the echoes of every night spent in the darkness, waiting for him to come, waiting for the next lesson in pain, waiting for the next piece of herself to be stripped away.
Her pulse roared in her ears. She could feel it happeningâthe fear clawing up her throat, the instinct to run, to fight, to
break just to make it stop.
No.
She swallowed down the bile, forced her breath steady, and lifted her chin. She would not let him see it. He would not have the satisfaction.
Her lips curled, slow and deliberate, the ghost of a smirk playing at the edges. Not forcedâno, she made sure it looked
genuine, like amusement rather than defiance. Because if there was one thing she knew Hafiz loathed, it was being laughed at.
"Oh, Hafiz," she purred, tilting her head, her gaze flicking over him like she were examining something particularly pathetic.
"You always did love the sound of your own voice. Tell me, is that what you get off to at night? Whispering to yourself, pretending youâre more than just a parasite clinging to the legacy of better men?"She let the insult sink in.
"You think you shaped me?" Her smirk deepened, though her fingers curled against her palms, nails biting into flesh to keep her steady.
âYou forged a weapon, I suppose. But you were never smart enough to realizeâŚ" she leaned in slightly, just enough to let her voice drop into something sharp, something cruel.
"Weapons donât stay loyal to the hands that wield them."Her heart hammered. She knew she was playing with fire, but if she let him see the cracks, if she let him see even a sliver of that terrified little girl he had once controlled, he would
win.
She took a slow, measured step back, though the walls behind her left no real escape as she felt her back press against it. Still, she let her expression settle into something unreadable, something unshaken.
"So no, Hafiz," she continued, her voice lighter now, mocking.
"I donât wake up gasping. I wake up breathing, free, knowing that every day I live is another day you failed."She let that sit between them, the weight of it thick in the air.
Then, with a quiet, taunting laugh, she added,
"But tell me, old man, when the night is quietâwhen youâre all aloneâdo you ever hear it?"She tilted her head, watching him carefully, her voice dipping into something almost conspiratorial.
"Not my screamsâno, those were never enough for you, were they? But the whispers? The ones that slither through the cracks, the ones that call you a failure.âShe let the word drag, slow and deliberate, her smirk sharpening like a blade.
"You clawed your way to power, shed blood for it, shaped me into a weapon for itâŚbut deep down, you know.â She lowered her voice, letting it slither between them like his own venomous words.
"You will never be anything more than a shadow in another manâs kingdom. Never feared the way you want to be, never respected the way you crave. Just a dog who bit too hard and got thrown the scraps of a throne."Her chin lifted, her amusement razor-thin but unbreakable.
"So, tell me, Hafiz⌠when you close your eyes, do you still hear that?"She watched, searching for itâthat flicker, that flash of something beneath the arrogance. Because if there was one thing she knew about Hafiz Kadir, it was that power was never enough for men like him. He wanted to be
more. And nothing would ever be more damning than knowing he never would be.
Hafizâs smirk twitched at the edges as something darker, something colder slithered beneath the surface of his expression. For a moment, he merely stared at her. Then, like a venomous beast stirred from its slumber, his face twisted.
It was not a snarl, nor an immediate explosion of rage, but something far more dangerous. His nostrils flared ever so slightly, his fingers flexing at his sides, before the corner of his lips curled. A moment of triumph flickered in her chest even at the smallest indication her words were close to hitting their mark.
Then he laughed.It was not a sound of amusement. It was more like the scrape of a dagger being unsheathed in the dark.
âOh, Kalliope,â he mused, shaking his head as if she were nothing more than a wayward child.
âThat was quite the performance. Really, I must give you credit. I almost believed it myself.â He took a slow step forward. She met his step forward with a step back of her own, trying to hold herself high still.
ââWeapons donât stay loyal to the hands that wield them,ââ he repeated, the mockery clear in his voice,
âIs that what you tell yourself at night? That you are something more than what I made you?â His voice was dripping with condescension.
âThat you are free?âAnother step toward her.
âDo you think thatâs why youâre here now? Why youâre standing in silk instead of chains?â He chuckled,
âHow convenient for you to believe that. To pretend that you have crawled out of my shadow by your own strength.âHe reached out slowly, dragging a single finger along the scar on her cheek.
Her back bumped into the wall and Kalliope felt it. It was subtle, like a crack in the stone beneath her feet, small enough to ignore but dangerous enough to cause a collapse if left unchecked. His words had always been poison, but now they felt like they were slipping into the cracks of her resolve, finding their way into her mind where they had no business. She wanted to snap back, to twist her tongue into a dagger of her own, to show him that she was still in control.
I am Kalliope Arden and I am not afraid. I do not yield.But his touch⌠it lingered. That damn scar, that reminder of what he had taken from her.
âAnd yet, every time you look in the mirrorâŚâ His voice softened, almost gentle.
âI am still there.âHer chest tightened, and for a moment, she felt a strange, uncomfortable heat rise to her faceâan anger, yes, but also something far more insidious: the creeping
fear of his truth. Of his hands still being there, even if they were never touching her anymore. His words dug deeper than any blade ever had.
His hand dropped, but he kept talking,
âDo you want to know the truth, Kalliope?â His tone darkened into something venomous.
âYou can drape yourself in pretty things, slather yourself in perfume, whore yourself out to whichever man is foolish enough to believe you are hisâŚâHis lips curled as he leaned in, his breath warm against her skin,
âBut you will always be mine.âKalliopeâs breath hitched.
It was slightâso slight no one else would have noticed, but Hafiz would. Of course, he would. Because he knew exactly where to press, exactly how to sink his claws in and twist.
Whore yourself out.Sjan-dehkâs face flickered in her mindâhis touch, the warmth of it, so different from this filth, so different from him. But the thought of Sjan-dehk, of their unspokenâŚ.whatever they were, tangled with the nausea rising in her throat. Hafiz didnât know, didnât deserve to speak of things he had no claim to, and yet the sheer gall of it made something in her snap.
Hafizâs breath was warm against her cheek, and when she felt her back press fully against the wall, the panic slammed into her, sharp and suffocating. But something else flared hotter.
Rage.
I am Kalliope Arden and I am NOT afraid.Her laugh was quiet, shaky, but not with fearâwith something far more dangerous. Her nails dug into her palms as she tilted her head, baring her teeth in something that wasnât quite a smirk, wasnât quite a snarl.
"You delusional, pathetic old man. Is that what this is about?" She mused, voice dripping with venom.
"Jealousy?â Her pulse pounded, her breath coming quicker now, but she clung to the anger, let it fuel her. If she let him see the fear, he won.
"You can talk all you like about ownership, Hafiz, but let's look at the facts, shall we?" She leaned in now, pressing into the fire in her veins.
"You came to me. You sought me out.â She gave a sharp, humorless laugh. Her lips curled, vicious and unhinged.
âSounds more like I own you.âHafizâs expression darkened, his amusement curdling into something more intenseâŚ
Something vicious. His hand shot out, gripping her jaw, his thumb pressing just beneath her earânot enough to bruise, but enough to command.
âYou own me?â he snarled, repeating her words as his voice dropped into a low, seething growl.
âThen tell me, Kalliopeâwhy is it that no matter who youâre with, no matter how much you pretend, you still feel the ghost of my hands on you?âThe moment his hand clamped around her jaw, Kalliopeâs breath stilled. She had braced for thisâthe weight of his touch, the sharp dominance of his gripâbut nothing could have prepared her for the way her body reacted. Her muscles went rigid and she couldn't move. She should have fought. She should have spat in his face, wrenched herself free,
something....but his words coiled around her like chains, tightening until she couldnât breathe.
Because he was right.
No matter how much she bathed, no matter how many times she tried to scrub him from her skin, she still felt the ghost of his hands. It sickened her,
ruined her, and as much as she wanted to deny it, the truth was already sinking its claws in. He hadnât needed to lay a finger on her to remind her who had left the deepest scars.
He leaned in, closer, his lips nearly brushing her ear. His breath was now hot against her skin, intimate in the most
sickening way.
âEven when youâre alone, when the room is silent⌠you feel me, donât you?â He laughed maliciously as he pressed on,
âDo they feel it? The way I shaped you? No matter who fucks you, no matter how much you spread those pretty thighs, they will never rid you of me.âThen, he snapped. In a single, vicious movement, he slammed her back against the wall, his other hand seizing her hip, his grip bruising, possessive, and cruel.
No. No, no, noâ Her breath hitched, panic clawing up her throat, and when he slammed her into the wall, her mind shattered. The room shrank around her, walls closing in, suffocating, swallowing her whole. His breath was fire against her skin, searing, burning through years of carefully constructed walls, ripping her open like he always did. The words slithered into her mind, wrapping around her ribs like a vice.
Memories surged, unbidden, unwantedâdark rooms, locked doors, the weight of him pressing her down until she thought she might drown. She could feel it,
still fucking feel it, as if no time had passed at all. She had fought, screamed, bledâŚand still, he had shaped her.
She wasnât here anymore. She was back there, trapped, helpless, no one coming to save her. A choked, ragged sound tore from her lips, and for the first time in years, she felt like that girl again.
âDo you remember, Kalliope?â He asked in a venomous tone. He waited, letting the silence stretch suffocatingly.
âDo you remember how youâd beg?ââI should remind you.â His voice was a hiss, his rage boiling over into something terrifying.
âShould prove that you are still mine.â He pressed closer,
âBut noââ he then jerked away, laughing.
His words ripped her from the depths of her memories, dragging her violently back to the present.
Remind you. The implication slammed into her like a dagger to the gut, and sheer, unfiltered terror took hold.
Her body moved before her mind could catch upâa feeble, desperate struggle. Her hands pushed against him, weak, trembling, useless. A choked whimper escaped her lips as she turned her face away, as if that alone could make him disappear.
No, no, not again. Please, not again.Then, suddenly, he was gone. The weight of him vanished, replaced by laughter, sharp and cruel. But the relief didnât come. Her body still trembled, still burned with the phantom of his touch.
âYouâre already ruined.âThe Grand Vizierâs smirk was victorious, cruel in its certainty as he stepped back, watching her.
âAnd besides, I haunt you wherever you go already.â He tilted his head, voice dipping into a whisper of mockery.
âNow tell me, Kalliope⌠Who really owns who?âThe words settled into her skin like a poison, each syllable sinking deeper until they twisted, consuming everything that was once Kalliope.
Ruined. His voice echoed in her head, relentless and unyielding. His laughter had stopped, but the cruel certainty of his words lingered, clinging to her like the stench of rot.
Her chest tightened as a hollow ache spread through her, swallowing her whole. She felt like a broken thing, a shattered glass whose pieces could never be put back together. There was no fighting it. No denying it. Every part of her that had ever fought, every piece of her that had hoped to escape, was now buried beneath the weight of his claim.
He didnât need to touch her. He didnât need to force her to bend beneath him again. He had already destroyed her, piece by piece, with words that were more suffocating than any physical strike he could land.
He haunts me. The thought sent a wave of nausea through her and it took every last bit of strength she had to keep from vomiting. It was true. He was always thereâlingering, lurking in the shadows of her mind. She didnât have to look over her shoulder to know he was watching her. His presence was an indelible mark on her soul, one that no amount of time or distance could ever erase.
Her throat burned, and she couldnât swallow the sob that was rising inside of her. His words had cracked her open, exposed every inch of the brokenness she had tried so desperately to hide. But there was nothing left to hide now. Not from him.
Who owns who?Her lips trembled, the weight of the question choking her. She couldnât answer him. She didnât even know if she was capable of answering. She had never been hers to begin with. Not truly. She had been hisâalways his. And in the end, maybe that was the cruelest truth of all. He had won.